THE WORLD WELL LOST.
Gladys returned to her own home that night, and when she again left it
it was in altered and happy circumstances. Those who loved her so dearly
watched over her the next days with a tender and solicitous concern, but
they did not see much, in her outward demeanour at least, to give them
cause for alarm. She was certainly graver, preoccupied, and rather sad;
but, again, her natural gaiety would over-flow more spontaneously than
it had done for long, thus showing that pride and womanly feeling had
been wounded; the heart was perfectly whole.
She lived out of doors during the splendid September weather, taking an
abounding interest in all the harvest-work, finding comfort and healing
in simple things and homely pleasures, and feeling that never while she
lived did she wish to set foot in Glasgow again. There was only one tie
to bind her to it--one spot beneath its heavy sky dear to her; how much
and how often her thoughts were concentrated upon that lowly place none
knew save herself.
Since that melancholy morning in the ward of the Royal Infirmary she had
not heard of or seen Walter, but she knew in her inmost heart that she
should see him, and waited for it with a strange restfulness of heart,
therefore it was no surprise to her when he came one sunny evening up
the avenue to the house. She saw him coming, and ran out to meet
him--something in the old childish fashion--with a look of eager welcome
on her face. His dark face flushed at her coming, and he gave his head a
swift turn away, and swallowed something in his throat. When they met he
was grave, courteous, but a trifle distant; she was quick to note the
change.
'I knew you would come to see me again, Walter,' she said, as they shook
hands with the undemonstrative cordiality of tried friends. 'I am very
glad to see you.'
'Are you? Yet it was a toss-up with me whether I should come or not,' he
said, looking at the graceful figure, and noticing with some wonder that
she was all in black, relieved only by the silver belt confining her
silk blouse at the waist; 'but I thought I had better come and say
good-bye.'
'Good-bye! Are you going away, then, somewhere?' she asked in a quiet,
still voice, which betrayed nothing.
'Yes; I have taken my passage to Australia for the fourteenth of
October, sailing from London. I leave on Monday, however, for I have
some things to see to in London.'
'On Monday? And does your mother accompany you?'
'No; she is too old for such an undertaking. I have arranged for her to
board with a family in the country. She has been there some weeks now,
ever since I sold off, and likes it very much. It is better for me to go
alone.'
'I suppose so. Are you tired with your walk, Walter, or can you go on a
little farther? It is a shame that you have never seen anything of
Bourhill. Surely you will at least sleep here to-night? or must you run
away again by the nine-fifteen?'
'I can stay, since you are good enough to wish it,' he said a trifle
formally; 'and you know I shall be only too happy to walk anywhere you
like with you.'
'How accommodating!' said Gladys, with a faint touch of ironical humour.
'Well, let us go up to the birch wood. We shall see the moon rising
shortly, if you care about anything so commonplace as the rising of a
moon. To Australia? And when will you come back, Walter?'
'I can't say--perhaps never.'
'And will it cost you no pang to turn your back on the land of brown
heath and shaggy wood, which her children are supposed to adore?' she
asked, still in her old bantering mood.
'She has not done much for me; I leave few but painful memories behind,'
he answered, with a touch of kindness in his voice. 'But I will not say
I go without a pang.'
They remained silent as Gladys led the way through the shrubbery walk,
and up the steep and somewhat rugged way to the birch wood crowning the
little hill which sheltered Bourhill from the northern blast. It was a
still and beautiful evening, with a lovely softness in the air,
suggestive of a universal resting after the stress of the harvest. From
the summit of the little hill they looked across many a fair breadth of
goodly land, where the reapers had been so busy that scarce one field of
growing corn was to be seen. All the woods were growing mellow, and the
fulness and plenty of the autumn were abroad in the land.
'It's dowie at the hint o' hairst, at the wa' gaun o' the swallow,'
quoted Walter in a low voice, and his eye grew moist as it ranged across
the beautiful landscape with something of that unutterable and painful
longing with which, the exile takes his farewell of the land he loves.
'Walter,' said Gladys quite softly, as she leaned against the straight
white trunk of a rowan tree, on which the berries hung rich and red, 'I
have often thought of you since that sad day. Often I wished to write,
but I knew that you would come when you felt like it. Did you
understand?'
'I heard that your marriage was broken off, and I thanked God for that,'
Walter answered; and Gladys heard the tremor in his voice, and saw his
firm, hue mouth take a long, stern curve.
'It did not surprise you?' she asked in the same soft, far-off voice,
which betrayed nothing but the gentlest sisterly confidence and regard.
'No, but I suffered agony enough till I heard it. When, one lives
through such dark days as these were, Gladys, faith in humankind becomes
very difficult. I feared lest your scruples might be overcome.'
'I am sorry you had such a fear for me, Walter, even for a moment, but
perhaps it was natural. And when will you come back from this dreadful
Australia, did you say?'
'Perhaps never.'
He did not allow himself to look at her face, because he did not dare;
but he saw her pick the berries from a red bunch she had pulled, and
drop them one by one to the ground. Never had he loved her as he did
then in the anguish of farewell, and he called himself a fool for not
having gone, as prudence prompted, leaving only a written message
behind.
'And is that all you have to say to me, Walter, that you are going to
Australia--on the fourteenth, is it?--and that you will never come
back?'
'It is all I dare to say,' he answered, nor did he look at her yet,
though there was a whimsical, tender little smile on the lovely mouth
which might have won his gaze.
'And you are quite determined to go alone?'
'Well, you see,' he began, glad of anything to get on commonplace
ground, 'I might get plenty of fellows, but it's an awful bore, unless
they happen just to be the right sort.'
'Yes, that is quite true, there are so few nice fellows,' said Gladys
innocently. 'Don't you think you might get a nice girl to go with you,
if you asked her properly?'
Then Walter flashed a sad, proud look at her--a look which Gladys
fearlessly met, and thought at that very moment that she had never seen
him look so well, so handsome, so worthy of regard. Sorrow had wrought
her perfect work in him, and he had emerged from the shadow of blighted
hope and frustrated ambition a gentler, humbler, ay, and a holier man
than he had yet been. Suddenly that look of sad, quiet wonder, which had
a touch of reproach in it, quite broke Gladys down, and she made no
effort to stem the tears which might make him sad or glad, she did not
care.
'Gladys,' he began hurriedly, 'it is more than man is fit to bear, to
see these tears. If they mean nothing more than a natural regret at
parting from one whom circumstances have strangely thrown in your way,
perhaps too often, tell me so, and I shall thank you, even for that
kindly regret; but if they mean that I may come back some day--worthier,
perhaps, than I am to-day'--
'That day will never come,' broke in Gladys quietly. 'But if you will
take me to Australia with you, Walter, I am ready to go this very day.'
His face grew dusky red, his eyes shone, he looked at her as if he
sought to read her soul.
'Do you know what you are saying, Gladys? If you go, it can only be in
one way--as my wife.'
'Well?'
She took a long breath, but was allowed to say no more until a long time
after, when she raised her face from her lover's breast, and demanded
that he should take her home.
'It is an awful thing we have done, Gladys,' he said, touching her dear
head for the twentieth time, and looking down into her eyes, which were
luminous with the light of love,--'an awful thing for me, at least. We
shall have to flee the country, and they will say I have abducted the
heiress of Bourhill.'
'Oh, do! Run off with me, as the Red Reiver and all these nice,
interesting sort of people used to do long ago. Let us abscond, and not
tell a single living soul, except the faithful Teen.'
But Walter shook his head.
'It is what I should like to do above everything, but I must resist the
temptation. No, my darling; for your sake, everything must be most
scrupulously conventional, if a little hurried. I shall pay your
guardian a visit to-morrow morning, which will somewhat astonish him.'
Gladys looked at him with a sudden access of admiration. To hear him
speak in that calm, masterful tone pleased her as nothing else could
have done.
'But you won't let them frighten you, and abscond without me? That would
be too mean,' she said saucily.
Walter made no verbal reply, and so, hand in hand, they turned to leave
the moonlit woods, and there was a look on the face of Walter such as
you see on the faces of reverent worshippers who have found rest and
peace to their souls.
'Poor Liz!' he said under his breath, as he uplifted his eyes to the
clear sky, as if seeking to penetrate its mystery, and find whither that
wayward soul had fled.
Gladys laid her soft cheek against his arm, and silence fell upon them
again. But the heart of each was full to the uttermost, and they asked
no more.
It was, indeed, the world well lost for love.
* * * * *
On the morning of the ninth of October, this announcement appeared in
the marriage list of the _Glasgow Herald_, and was read and discussed at
many breakfast-tables:--
'At Bourhill, Ayrshire, on the 8th instant, Walter Hepburn to Gladys
Graham.'
It may be added that it was a source of profound wonder to many, and of
awful chagrin to a few. In the house of the Pollokshields' Fordyces the
announcement was discreetly tabooed, though George must have felt it
keenly, seeing Gladys had suffered so little over the unhappy
termination of their engagement that she could substitute another
bridegroom though retaining the same marriage-day.
On the fourteenth the young couple set sail for the land of the Southern
Cross, and were absent exactly twelve months, the reason for their
return being that they wished their first-born child to see the light
first in Bourhill. And they never left it again; for Walter made use of
the Colonial connection he had made to build up a new business in
Glasgow, which has prospered far above his expectation. So fortune has
blessed him in the end, and he can admit now that the bitterness of the
old days was not without its purpose.
The faithful Teen, no longer melancholy, reigns in a snug house of her
own, not a hundred miles from Mauchline, but retains her old adoration
for Bourhill and its bonnie, sweet mistress.
There are occasional comings and goings between the Bellairs Crescent
Fordyces and Bourhill, and the family are united in approving the
marriage of Gladys now, though they had their fling at it with the rest
of the folk when it was a nine days' wonder. But that is the way of the
world mostly, to go with the crowd, which jumps on a man when he is
down, and gives him a kindly pat or a cringing salute, as may seem most
advisable, when he is up.
But the wise man takes no account of such, pursuing his own path with
integrity and perseverance, cherishing the tried friends, and keeping
warm and close in his heart, like a dove in its nest, the love which,
through sunshine and storm, remains unchanged.
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Transcriber's note: Printer's errors retained.