PERUGIA, _17th July_ (1874).
I am made anxious by your sweet letter of the 6th saying you have been
ill and are "not much better."
The letter is all like yours, but I suppose however ill you were you
would always write prettily, so that's little comfort.
About the Narcissus, please. I want them for my fishpond stream
rather than for the bee-house one. The fishpond stream is very
doleful, and wants to dance with daffodils if they would come and
teach it. How happy we are in our native streams. A thunder-storm
swelled the Tiber yesterday, and it rolled over its mill weirs in
heaps, literally, of tossed water, the size of haycocks, but black
brown like coffee with the grounds in it, mixed with a very little
yellow milk. In some lights the foam flew like cast handfuls of heavy
gravel. The chief flowers here are only broom and bindweed, and I
begin to weary for my heather and for my Susie; but oh dear, the ways
are long and the days few.
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LUCCA, _29th July_ (1874).
I'm not going to be devoured when I come, by anybody, unless _you_
like to. I shall come to your window with the birds, to be fed myself.
And please at present always complain to me whenever you like. It is
the over boisterous cheerfulness of common people that hurts me; your
sadness is a help to me.
You shall have whatever name you like for your book provided you
continue to like it after thinking over it long enough. You will not
like "Gleanings," because you know one only gleans refuse--dropped
ears--that other people don't care for. _You_ go into the garden and
gather with choice the flowers you like best. That is not gleaning!
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LUCCA, _10th August_ (1874).
I have been grieved not to write to you; but the number of things that
vex me are so great just now, that unless by false effort I could
write you nothing nice. It is very dreadful to live in Italy, and more
dreadful to see one's England and one's English friends, all but a
field or two, and a stream or two, and a one Susie and one Dr. Brown,
fast becoming like Italy and the Italians.
I have too _much sympathy_ with your sorrow to write to you of it.
What I have not sympathy with, is your hope; and how cruel it is to
say this! But I am driven more and more to think there is to be no
more good for a time, but a reign of terror of men and the elements
alike; and yet it is so like what is foretold before the coming of the
Son of man that perhaps in the extremest evil of it I may some day
read the sign that our redemption draws nigh.
Now, Susie, invent a nice cluster of titles for the book and send them
to me to choose from, to Hotel de l'Arno, Florence. I must get that
out before the day of judgment, if I can. I'm so glad of your sweet
flatteries in this note received to-day.
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FLORENCE, _25th August_ (1874).
I have not been able to write to you, or any one lately, whom I don't
want to tease, except Dr. Brown, whom I write to for counsel. My time
is passed in a fierce steady struggle to save all I can every day, as
a fireman from a smoldering ruin, of history or aspect. To-day, for
instance, I've been just in time to ascertain the form of the cross of
the Emperor, representing the power of the State in the greatest
_political_ fresco of old times--fourteenth century. By next year, it
may be next month, it will have dropped from the wall with the
vibration of the railway outside, and be touched up with new gilding
for the mob.
I am keeping well, but am in a terrible spell (literally, "spell,"
enchanted maze, that I can't get out of) of work.
I _was_ a little scandalized at the idea of your calling the book
"word-painting." My dearest Susie, it is the chief provocation of my
life to be called a "word-painter" instead of a thinker. I hope you
haven't filled your book with descriptions. I thought it was the
thoughts you were looking for?
"Posie" would be pretty. If you ask Joanie she will tell you perhaps
_too_ pretty for _me_, and I can't think a bit to-night, for instead
of robins singing I hear only blaspheming gamesters on the other side
of the narrow street.
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FLORENCE, _1st September_ (1874).
Don't be in despair about your book. I am sure it will be lovely. I'll
see to it the moment I get home, but I've got into an entirely
unexpected piece of business here, the interpretation of a large
chapel[11] full of misunderstood, or not at all understood, frescoes;
and I'm terribly afraid of breaking down, so much drawing has to be
done at the same time. It has stranded botany and everything.
I was kept awake half of last night by drunken blackguards howling
on the bridge of the Holy Trinity in the pure half-moonlight. This is
the kind of discord I have to bear, corresponding to your uncongenial
company. But, alas! Susie, you ought at ten years old to have more
firmness, and to resolve that you won't be bored. I think I shall try
to enforce it on you as a very solemn duty not to _lie_ to people as
the vulgar public do. If they bore you, say so, and they'll go away.
That is the right state of things.
How am I to know that _I_ don't bore you, when _I_ come, when you're
so civil to people you hate?
[Footnote 11: Spanish chapel in S. Maria Novella.]
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PASS OF BOCCHETTA, _1st October_ (1874).
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All that is lovely and wonderful in the Alps may be seen without the
slightest danger, in general, and it is especially good for little
girls of eleven who can't climb, to know this--all the best views of
hills are at the bottom of them. I know one or two places indeed where
there is a grand peeping over precipices, one or two where the
mountain seclusion and strength are worth climbing to see. But all the
entirely beautiful things I could show you, Susie; only for the very
highest sublime of them sometimes asking you to endure half an hour of
_chaise a porteurs_, but mostly from a post-chaise or smoothest of
turnpike roads.
But, Susie, do you know, I'm greatly horrified at the penwipers of
peacocks' feathers! _I_ always use my left-hand coat-tail, indeed, and
if only I were a peacock and a pet of yours, how you'd scold me!
Sun just coming out over sea (at Sestri), which is sighing in towards
the window, within your drive, round before the door's breadth of
it,[12] seen between two masses of acacia copse and two orange trees at
the side of the inn courtyard.
[Footnote 12: That is, within that distance of the window.--J. R.]
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GENEVA, _19th October_ (1874).
How I have been neglecting you! Perhaps Joanie may have told you that
just at my last gasp of hand-work, I had to write quite an unexpected
number of letters. But poor Joanie will think herself neglected now,
for I have been stopped among the Alps by a state of their glaciers
entirely unexampled, and shall be a week after my "latest possible"
day, in getting home. It is eleven years since I was here, and very
sad to me to return, yet delightful with a moonlight paleness of the
past, precious of its kind.
I shall be at home with Joan in ten days now, God willing. I have much
to tell you, which will give you pleasure and pain; but I don't know
how much it will be--to tell you--for a little while yet, so I don't
begin.
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OXFORD, _26th October_ (1874).
Home at last with your lovely, most lovely, letter in my breast
pocket.