THE NEW HOME.
It seemed to Jessie that she was still saying, "Keep every evil far
from me," and trying to go to sleep, when a voice said sharply--
"Now then, it's time to wake up! Make haste and get your clothes on,
for your father and one of the lodgers will be here wanting their
breakfasts presently."
Jessie woke with a great start, and sprang up, struggling with the
shawl which was still wrapped about her head. Free of this, she
looked about her in a dazed way, trying to rouse herself and collect
her wits. It was not yet daylight, of course, and the lighted lamp
stood on the table in the midst of the dirty dishes just as it had
the night before; her stepmother too--her hair and dress and whole
appearance were exactly as they had been the night before, the only
difference being that she seemed, if anything, less agreeable.
"Wake up! wake up!" she called sharply again. "I want you to make
yourself useful, not to be giving me more trouble. Get on your
things, then light the fire as quick as you can--no, I'll light the
fire to-day, because your father can't bear to be kept waiting, but I
shall look to you to do it other mornings, and to get up without
being called, too."
"Yes," said Jessie dutifully, "I hope I shall be able to wake up."
She was so sleepy at the moment that she could scarcely stand, or see
to get into her garments. She looked around her for a place where
she could wash. Cold water would help her to wake up, perhaps.
It was really painful to be so terribly sleepy.
"Please, where can I wash?" she asked at last. "I--I can't wake--up;
I--I--" and she was asleep again. Her stepmother's sharp voice soon
roused her, though.
"A place to wash in!" she snapped crossly. "Why, you must wait until
some of them have gone out, then you can go to one of the bedrooms,
unless you'd like to wash at the tap, out there," pointing to the
scullery; "there's a dipper there you can use."
Jessie gladly accepted the last offer. She was longing to feel the
freshness of cold water on her aching head and heavy eyes, and her
hot face, and she groped her way out to the scullery.
It was lighted by a candle only, but even so Jessie could see the
untidy muddle of everything. The sink by the tap was crowded with
pots and pans and dirty dishes, and so was the table and the dirty
floor. Where was she to wash, and where was the dipper? She looked
around her hopelessly. She was so heavy with sleep she could hardly
see, so aching in every limb she could scarcely stand; and the sight
of the miserable place, and the close smell of it, made her feel
positively sick and ill.
She did not dare, though, trouble her stepmother any further, she had
to act for herself; so she looked about her, first of all for the
dipper, and presently saw it standing, full of potato peelings, on
the floor under the sink. She seized it thankfully, and emptying its
contents on to a dirty plate, went to the tap and gave it a good wash
out. While she was doing this her eye fell on a piece of soap.
At last she managed to draw a dipperful of clean fresh water, and
glad enough she was; it felt so delicious, in fact, and she enjoyed
it so much, she could not bear to tear herself away from it, until
her mother's sharp voice brought her back to her duties again, and
the rest of her toilet was finished more hurriedly.
"What shall I do first?" she asked timidly, when she was ready.
In her clean pinafore, with her hair well brushed, and her cheeks
still glowing from the cold water, she looked so fresh and such a
pleasant sight to see, that a ray of something like pleased surprise
showed itself for a moment even on Mrs. Lang's tired face.
"Can you wash up two or three of the cups and things without smashing
them?" she asked.
"Oh yes," said Jessie, almost reproachfully, "I always do at home."
But the mere mention of that name brought the tears to her eyes, and
prevented her saying more.
"Well, do that first. You needn't wash more than two cups and
plates. I'd better lend you something to put on over your clean
apron, or you'll be wanting another before the day is out."
"I've got my overalls here," said Jessie, with pride. "Granny made
me two," and she stepped to the old bag and lifted out a dark-blue
galateen pinafore which covered her all up to the hem of her frock.
When she came back from washing the dishes she brought the
sweeping-brush with her, and, as a matter of course, began to sweep
up the littered floor. Mrs. Lang opened her mouth to tell her to
stop, then apparently thought better of it, and let her go on.
The kitchen swept, Jessie asked for a duster to dust the chairs and
other things, which needed it badly enough!
"A duster! Don't bother me about such things. We haven't got any."
Jessie looked nonplussed. "May I have this?" she asked at last,
picking up a bit of rag from a pile of things untidily heaped on a
chair. Mrs. Lang, though, was gone, and did not hear her.
Jessie looked at the rag, and pondered. At last, however, the
temptation to wipe off some of the dust became too much for her, and
she used it. "I can wash out the rag again," she comforted herself
by thinking. "I wonder what I had better do next," for Mrs. Lang had
not returned. "I s'pose I'd better sweep out the passage and brush
down the steps. Oh, I do want some breakfast!" she added, with a
sigh.
While she was sweeping down the steps before the front door, her
stepmother came into the kitchen again. The semblance of a smile
crossed her face as she looked at the neatly-arranged chairs, and
heard the broom going in the distance.
"We're to be kept tidy, now, I s'pose," she muttered, with a laugh.
"I wonder how long it'll last. She won't get much encouragement
here."
Jessie came into the kitchen with her broom, and found her stepmother
frying bacon. It smelt very good, and Jessie was ravenously hungry.
"Does father have to go to work every day as early as this?" she
asked.
"Work!" cried Mrs. Lang, with a scornful laugh. "Work! I've never
known your father work since he crossed my path! It's the races he's
off to; you wouldn't find him get up at this hour for anything else."
Jessie stared wide-eyed. "Doesn't he ever work?" she gasped.
"How does he live, then?"
"Well you may ask!" snapped Mrs. Lang bitterly. "He's kept. I do
the work, and he finds that more to his taste. I've got the house
full of lodgers, and I can tell you it takes me all my time, and
more, to look after them. I never get any pleasure, and your father
never gets any work, and he thinks that is just as it should be."
Jessie stood for a moment looking very thoughtful. Everything in
this house seemed to her wrong. Just as it all used to be in her old
home before she went to her grandfather's; but she knew nothing
better then, she was too young. Now she was older and better able to
understand, for she had had a long and happy experience of what a
home could and should be, where each did a share, and thought always
of others first. She felt suddenly a great pity for her stepmother,
and a liking such as she had not thought possible an hour or so ago.
Perhaps she could do something, she thought, to make her less
unhappy; at any rate she could help her.
"I will help you," she said, looking up at her with a smile.
"It won't be so hard with two of us to see to things."
Mrs. Lang's face softened a little, and a smile actually gleamed in
her eyes as she glanced from the frying-pan to Jessie. "Yes, you can
help a bit, I expect, you seem to know how to set about things.
Did you help your grandmother?"
"Oh yes, a lot," said Jessie, and at the recollection the tears
brimmed up in her eyes. "I wonder how she is, and how granp is!
Oh, I expect he was in a dreadful way when he came home, and heard
what had happened!" and at the thought poor Jessie's tears
overflowed, and she sobbed bitterly.
"Hush, don't make that noise," said her stepmother quickly, but not
unkindly. "Be quiet, child, your father's coming, and he'll beat you
if you go on like that. Oh, it's you, Tom," as a young man lounged
heavily into the kitchen, "I thought 'twas Harry."
Tom Salter dropped into a chair by the table with a tired yawn.
"Yes, it's me; I'm up, but I ain't awake," he said, with a laugh.
"Hullo," as he caught sight of Jessie, "is this the little girl you
was telling me about?"
"Yes, this is Jessie."
He looked at Jessie and smiled, and she smiled back. He had a
good-tempered face and kind eyes, and she thought she should like
him.
"Bit tired, I expect?"
"Yes, thank you, I am," said Jessie shyly.
"Hullo, missis, been having a spring clean?" he asked comically, as
he glanced about him. "The place looks so tidy I hardly knew it."
Mrs. Lang looked half annoyed. "New brooms sweep clean," she said
shortly, "and two pairs of hands can do what one can't."
"That's true," said the young man soothingly. "I don't know how you
ever managed to get through it all by yourself."
Mrs. Lang looked mollified. "It would have been all right if Harry
would have lent a hand now and then," she said, "but he won't even
clean his own boots, let alone any one else's; while as for bringing
in a scuttle of coal, or going an errand, or putting a spade near the
garden, he'd think himself disgraced for ever if he did either.
Disgraced! He!" with a bitter laugh, and the meaning in her voice
should have made her self-satisfied husband feel very small--if
anything could have that effect on him.
Just at that moment heavy footsteps were heard approaching and
conversation ceased.
"Here's your father coming," said Mrs. Lang in a lowered tone to
Jessie. Then, as she stooped down to the oven to get out the dish of
bacon for him, "We won't have ours now," she whispered to Jessie;
"you and me'll have ours after they're gone, when there's a little
peace and quietness," and Jessie, in spite of her hunger, which was
making her feel quite sick and faint, felt glad.
"While you are waiting will you run up and talk to Charlie?" she
asked kindly, for she saw Jessie's dread of her father, which was
only too plainly written on her face.
"Who is Charlie?" Jessie asked, "and where is he? I'd like to go."
"You go up-stairs, and on the second landing from this you'll see
four doors, one of the back ones is our bedroom, and the next one is
Charlie's. He is my son, you know, he's just about your age, but
he's--he's very delicate." Mrs. Lang hesitated a little, and turned
her face away from Jessie for a moment. "He's got to lie in bed all
the time, it is very dull for him, and he'll be glad to see you, he
knows you are come."
The door was banged open and banged shut again. "What's the use of
my taking the trouble to get up, in such weather as this, and shave
myself, and--and put myself out like this," grumbled the master of
the house, entering half dressed, half asleep, and more than half
angry. "No horses can run--"
Jessie crept to the door and escaped as swiftly and silently as
possible. At the sight of her father all her old terror of him
rushed over her again, and she felt she could not face him.
Up the stairs she hurried as fast as the darkness and her own
ignorance of the house would let her, then stopped suddenly. She did
not know how many landings she had passed, or where to go. She tried
to remember, but it was no good. "I'll go on a little further,
though," she thought, "it will be better than going back again," and
she groped her way carefully up another little flight of stairs.
Round the bend of them a light gleamed from a partly open door.
She went on further and looked in. The room was empty and very
untidy, but there was a light burning in it. It was the one her
father had just left. In the dimness she made out a smaller door
beside it. Was this Charlie's? She listened for a moment, then a
small thin voice called out, "Is anybody there? Who is it?
Mother, is that you?"
Jessie stepped over to the door and knocked. "It is me--Jessie," she
called back. "Your mother sent me up to see you. May I come in?"
"Yes, please."
Jessie turned the handle very carefully. She felt painfully shy now
that she was actually here, but it was too late to turn back, so she
sidled in around the door, wondering very much what she should see,
and what she should say.
What she saw was an untidy room with a small bed in it, and a large
window just opposite the bed. There were a few fairly good pieces of
furniture in it as well, but the whole place looked neglected, untidy
and comfortless. Jessie did not notice this so much just at first,
though, for the little figure in the bed claimed most of her
attention.
Charlie was really of the same age as herself, but he was so thin and
worn and helpless, he looked much younger, and his pale little face
wore something of the appealing look of a baby.
A great, great pity for him swelled up in Jessie's heart, and drove
out most of her shyness. "I am _so_ sorry you are ill," she said
sympathetically. "Are you always like it?"
"Yes," said Charlie, looking at her with very shy, but very great
interest. "I have been for a long time. I think it is seven years
now. I fell backwards off a 'bus and hurt my back."
"Oh, what a dreadful thing!" exclaimed Jessie. "Couldn't a doctor
cure you?"
"No. I was in hospital for nearly a year, but mother wanted me; she
didn't like my being there, and when they said they couldn't make me
well, mother said she would have me come home with her. She wanted
me."
"Were you glad?"
"Yes. I was very glad. I wanted mother."
A short pause following, Jessie thought she had better introduce
herself. "I am Jessie Lang," she said; "and--and I am come to live
here, father says I must. I s'pose for always--to help your mother
with the lodgers."
"Are you? How nice! I am so glad," cried Charlie; "then you'll be
able to come and talk to me sometimes."
"I am not glad," said Jessie, with a quaver in her voice; "but I
should like to come and talk to you as often as I can."
Then presently she added, in a conflicting tone, "I don't know what
to call your mother. I don't like to say 'Mrs. Lang,' it seems so--
so silly and--stuck-up, and I don't like to call her 'mother,'
because, you see, she isn't mine at all, really."
"I should," said Charlie decidedly. "I have to call your father
'father,' though I hate to. I don't like him. I hate him--he's--
he's unkind to mother!" and the pale face flushed and the sad eyes
filled with the strength of other feeling.
"Oh!" exclaimed Jessie, "you ought not to speak like that, I am sure.
Why do you ha--why don't you like him?"
"'Cause he's so unkind to mother. He is unkind to me, too, but I
don't mind that, I don't see him often; but he's always going on at
mother, he makes her miserable, and he--he hits her!" staring at
Jessie with wide, horrified eyes. "We were so happy and comfortable
before he came, but now everything seems all wrong, and mother is
always unhappy, and--and I--I can't bear it."
"Don't cry," said Jessie soothingly. "Did you live here always?"
"Yes, and we had nice lodgers, and a nice house, and we had money
enough for what we wanted, but father costs such a lot, and takes
nearly all the money mother gets, and he won't give her any of it.
He won't work himself, either. All the nice lodgers left because he
made such rows in the house, and was always quarrelling; there's only
one of them left, that's Miss Patch. She has the attic right at the
top of the house. She went up there because it is quieter."
He talked on eagerly in his old-fashioned way, his face flushing with
weakness and excitement. It was such a rare treat to him to have any
one to talk to, particularly any one of his own age--a sympathetic
listener, too.
"Do you know Miss Patch yet?"
"No," said Jessie. "I only came last night very late. I've seen one
lodger, a young man. He came down in the kitchen to his breakfast."
"Oh, Tom Salter! You'll like him--I do. I want my breakfast, don't
you?"
"Yes," said Jessie, with a deep sigh. "I am _very_ hungry, but--
but--your mother said we would wait till father was gone."
She hesitated over the term by which she should speak of her
stepmother. Charlie noticed it.
"I wish you'd call her 'mother,'" he said gently; "it would make us
seem more like brother and sister, and I would love to have a sister.
I've wished so often that I'd got one, or had got somebody to talk
to, and read and play with me. Mother would like it, too. She isn't
really cross, you know. She is only tired and worried. You see,
she's got me to look after, and me and father to keep, and ever so
many lodgers. I am so glad you're come to help her. I do long to be
able to, and I can only give her extra trouble." He spoke with sad
earnestness far beyond his age.
A ray of comfort entered Jessie's sad heart. She felt really drawn
towards her new stepbrother, and she loved to feel she was being
useful.
"Yes, I'll help her," she said as brightly as she could for the
weariness which was creeping over her. "I have been, a little,
already. Can I help you? I'd love to try and make your room a
little bit tidier."
"Does it look untidy?" asked Charlie, feeling somewhat taken aback.
It looked more than untidy, but Jessie was too polite to say so, and
as she leaned against the bed she was planning in her mind what she
could do to make it nicer for him.
"I wish I could get you some flowers," she said eagerly, "some out of
our garden. Oh, we had such lots there, such lovely ones, roses, and
violets, jessamine and lilac, and may--oh, all sorts. I had a garden
of my own, too. Oh, I'd love to take you to granny's, and let you
see it all!"
Charlie was watching her and listening with intense interest.
"How sorry you must be to leave it all!" he remarked sympathetically.
"I'd love to lie in a garden with flowers, and the bees humming, and
no noise of rattling carts and milk-cans. Oh, Jessie!" but to his
dismay Jessie buried her face in her hands and burst into tears.
"I can't stay here," she cried, "I can't, I can't! I _must_ go home.
I shall die if I don't go home to granp," and she sobbed and sobbed
until Charlie was quite frightened.
"Jessie, don't--don't--don't cry like that. I'll ask mother to let
you go, if you want to so badly--but I wish you didn't," he sighed,
his own lips quivering. "I wish you would stay here. I want you
_so_ much, I am so lonely and dull, and--and I hoped you were come to
stay."
Jessie's own tears were checked more quickly by the sight of his than
they would have been by any other means. She pulled herself together
as well as she could. "No--o, don't ask mother," she said in a
choked, thick voice, "it is no use, father would make me stay, and it
would only make him angry if we asked him, and I--I want to help you,
too," she added, quite truthfully. "I shan't mind so much by and by,
p'raps. Don't cry, Charlie. Turn round and listen, and I'll tell
you more stories. Then, after breakfast, I'll tidy your room."
The violence of Charlie's sobs had quite frightened away and stopped
hers, and banished for a time her home-sickness. She put all her
thoughts into her coaxing of Charlie, and after a time he raised his
head and turned around and faced her, and while he lay back on his
pillows, very weary after his excitement, Jessie, the more weary of
the two, tried bravely to be cheerful, and to talk brightly, and so
Mrs. Lang found them when, a little later, she brought up Charlie's
breakfast on a tray.
Mrs. Lang even smiled when she saw the two together, evidently on
such good terms, and the happy smile with which Charlie looked up at
her delighted her sad heart. He was the apple of her eye, the great
love of her life, the only thing in the world she cared for, and to
see him happy, to see his dull, cheerless days brightened, gave her
more pleasure than anything. She kissed her boy and looked quite
kindly at Jessie.
"Your breakfast is ready in the oven," she said, "and I'm sure you
must be famished. I am. I thought I should never get the men
started off. Now, darling," to Charlie, "will you take your
breakfast?" She put down the tray and raised him on his pillow a
little. Jessie, accustomed now to invalids, beat up the pillow and
placed it behind him.
"Is that right?" she asked.
"Oh yes, that's lovely," said Charlie, with a sigh of pleasure.
Mrs. Lang brought forward the tray. Jessie's eye fell on it with
dismay. Trained by Miss Barley in dainty neatness, and by her
grandmother in cleanness and care and thoughtfulness, the sight of it
shocked her. The black dingy tray was smeared and dirty, the slice
of bread rested on it, with no plate between, the knife and fork and
cup were dirty too, and all was put down anyhow. Charlie probably
was not accustomed to daintiness, but this was enough to check
whatever appetite an invalid might have. Jessie longed to take the
tray away, and set it according to her own notions, but she said
nothing, for instinct told her that her mother's feelings would be
hurt if she did, and that it would not be nice for a stranger to come
in and begin to alter things according to her own tastes. She made
up her mind, though, to try in small ways to make things nicer for
the invalid when she got the opportunity.