From that hour Lady Mary began to face the future as a creditor. Her
coming days with Peter were numbered and enjoyed as the reward of her
sacrifice.
Yet another month slipped away. The year was now at the full of the
first green, and London roared at the height of the season. Peter began
to be much oppressed with the social rush. Much of it he now saw as mere
noise and hurry. He read steadily in the morning, for he still intended
seriously to be called to the Bar. In the afternoon he rode or went for
long solitary journeys on the river. An evening seldom passed without
meeting Lady Mary. They frankly exchanged plans, and schemed for
snatches of conversation in crowded places.
At this time they were opportunely invited to leave the hurry of London
for a few days in Norfolk. A friend of Haversham had got together at
Wroxham a fleet of wherries. Peter and Lady Mary joined the same boat
for their last unclouded days together. Only Lady Mary knew how precious
and irrevocable they were. For Peter they were slow days of agreeable
idleness, as they glided from reach to reach of the quietest country in
the world. Always there was the same circle of sky, with an idle mill
and rows of grey-green sedges; the quiet lapping of water and plod of
the quanting. Tiny villages dropped past them, with square towers and
clusters of small buildings. Upon the third evening of the cruise, Lady
Mary picked up some London letters at Potter Heigham. One was from Lord
Wenderby. She opened it and read:
"LADY MARY,--I hope you will not regard this as a breach of our
contract. Things are moving quickly in the Cabinet. I must decide
at once to stay or go. I can wait for you six days. If you cannot
now help me to break with my ties and interests of the moment I
must put away our vision of the future.
"I saw you in the Park the other day. I cannot hope you will ever
be my wife. Believe that I wish you all the happiness of your
heart.
"WENDERBY."
Lady Mary answered at once. She told Wenderby to come for his answer on
her return to London. Meantime, if he needed to know her mind, let him
believe all that he wished.
Now she had only two days. She decided to tell Peter in London when they
returned. Here she would part from him without a destroying word.
The last evening of the cruise was warm with a breeze from the land to
the sea, enough for sailing. Peter and Lady Mary sat, after an early
dinner, together on deck. Laughter came from the drawing-room below--a
London drawing-room planted in a wilderness of marsh and water. Sunset
was burning itself out. Light was flung upon miles of water, making of
the country about them a glimmering palette. The mill on the horizon was
derelict, standing black and crude, an eyeless giant, blind to the
colour of earth and sky.
Merriment swelled below them. A clever musician parodied the latest
phase of a modern French composer.
"This," said Peter with a sardonic gesture at the people below, "is a
return to Nature."
"You are more scathing than you know," answered Lady Mary with a smile.
"You are listening to a burlesque of the latest thing in music, written
in the scale of the Opopo islanders. The Opopo islanders can only count
up to five. We are determined to be primitive."
"I should like to sail away into all that," said Peter, waving his arm
vaguely at the sunset.
Lady Mary caught at the idea.
"Can you sail?" she asked.
"Pretty fair," said Peter.
"Then why not?"
Lady Mary pointed to the dinghy beneath them. The mast was shipped, and
the sail folded.
"Will you come?" asked Peter.
"It is our last evening."
Peter did not hear the sorrow of her phrase.
"Our last evening of the simple life," he laughed. He climbed down, and
held the ladder firm.
"How are you for wraps?" he called. "It is going to be colder later.
This breeze will freshen."
Lady Mary smiled at his expert way.
"Where," she inquired, "did you learn all this?"
"I learned it with Antony. We did this sort of thing at Oxford."
The reference to her brother brought Lady Mary again in view of her
sacrifice. She shivered and was silent as Peter rowed softly out into
the stream, and spread the tiny sail. The breeze caught it, and the
little boat leaned over, hesitated, and swung quickly across the river.
The air freshened upon their faces. They dropped almost in a moment away
from the lighted flat, and soon were alone, speeding at ease over the
beautiful water.
"Why didn't we think of this before?" said Peter happily. He pushed over
the tiller. The little boat turned, and the water chuckled under her
bows.
"Let me take you into the open. The breeze is beginning to be stiff for
this tiny boat; but we can always lower sail if it gets too rough."
"Anything to-night," said Lady Mary.
"I love to hear you say that," Peter sang.
They passed into a wide lake, and were soon far from the shore, which
showed now as a dark line picked out here and there with light.
"Anything to-night," Peter echoed the phrase. "It sounds," he went on,
"as if the present mattered more than anything in the world."
The breeze was stronger as they neared the middle of the water. The boat
heeled dangerously.
"We've too much canvas for a tub," said Peter. He lowered the sail, and
found he could take in a tiny reef. The hurry of the little boat was
stilled. It swung idly on the water, and the wind seemed to have left
them. Peter was busy with the sail, and Lady Mary sat still as a statue
opposite him, her hand on the side of the boat. His happy face was
intolerable. How would he take the news which waited for him at home? He
was ready now to swing the reefed sail to the mast, but she impulsively
stopped him.
"Don't do that," she said abruptly.
"The boat will stand it," Peter protested.
"It's not that," said Lady Mary. "Let us stay a while in this open
place."
Her tone arrested him. It was urgent and entreating. He dropped the sail
into the boat, and they sat silent for a time. Lady Mary was blaming her
weakness. Why did she not at once signal for that brief run over the
little span of water between them and the fleet? It would take her to
the duty she had accepted. Her holiday was finished.
Peter misread the entreaty in her voice.
"You do not want to go back?" he said.
"Not at once."
"You, too, find all that less inspiring than it seems?" He waved his
hand towards the people they had left.
"This is better, for a time," she answered evasively.
"You still believe in all that?" He looked towards the lighted masts,
his face troubled and perplexed.
"Of course I believe," she assured him.
Peter eagerly bent forward. "You remember," he said softly, "a night
upon the terrace at Highbury?"
Lady Mary looked at him, terror waiting to spring at her heart.
"I hardly know," Peter continued, "whether I still believe all that I
believed at Highbury. It is all too insolent, and some of it is foolish
and cruel. I have seen ugly and brutal things. I am beginning to see
that there are no classes. Rank is nothing at all. There are only
people."
Why did he talk like that to-night? It was intolerable.
"You are wrong," she cried out. "Wealth is nothing, and there are bad
shoots in an old tree. But there are men and women who must think and
rule. It is their right."
"That may be only your beautiful dream."
"Peter," she called distressfully, "you don't know what you are saying."
He looked at her in wonder at the veiled agony of her voice. The pure
white line of her face showed like stone in the shutting light. There
was a short silence. Then Lady Mary spoke again:
"I want you to suppose something," she said urgently. "It is possible
that I may be asked to make a sacrifice for this belief of mine. It will
be painful for me and for my dearest friend."
"Nothing in the world is worth a moment of your pain."
Peter's sincerity redeemed from ridicule the tragic untimeliness of his
dithyrambic assurance. Lady Mary was brought nearer to tears than to
laughter.
"Not even my faith?" she protested.
"It would be an evil faith, or it would not make you suffer."
"Why do you put me so high?" Again there was a note of stress.
"I shall always do that."
He put his hand firmly upon hers that rested on the side of the boat.
She held her breath, fighting the desperate flutter of her soul. When
she dared to look at him, she still met the shining worship of a boy.
His hand rested upon hers, temperate and cool. She was glad she had not
trembled or drawn away. Peter felt only an exquisite sense of privilege.
He sat with bright eyes, happy in her beautiful austerity. She triumphed
over her thrilled senses, and in her triumph faced him carven and tense.
The light faded rapidly. Colour went out of the sky and the water. Lady
Mary took a long farewell of Peter's adoration. She knew that the light
in his eyes was soon to be put out.
At last, with a deep sigh, her hand still quietly held, she said:
"Now, Peter, we must go. We have no light in the boat."
He reluctantly made ready the sail. The breeze caught it rudely. Their
dream was broken up with the noise of water and wind. They came within
sight and sound of the river. Peter lowered the sail to row in to the
side of their wherry. There was only a moment now.
Lady Mary caught at Peter's wrist upon the oars.
"You will believe in me always, Peter?"
"Always."
"My life may take me away from you," she desperately urged. "We read
things differently."
A burst of laughter came from the deck of the wherry. Lady Mary withdrew
her hand from Peter's wrist.
"Nothing in the world can shake my belief in you," said Peter, still
pausing on the oars.
"That is easily said."
Lady Mary cried out in pain at the light heart of the boy she loved.
"I mean it in every fibre," Peter insisted. "I am utterly yours."
"Row in to the boat," said Lady Mary. "This is the end."