XX

Peter stood one evening in early March--it was his second spring in

London--upon the terrace at Westminster. The friendly member who had

brought him there had for a moment disappeared. Perhaps it was the first

stirring of the year, or the air blowing up from the sea after the fumes

of the stuffiest room in London, but Peter felt a glad release as he

watched the tide sweeping in from the bridge. He had just heard the

speech of a socialist minister reflecting just that intellectual

rigidity from which he was beginning to recoil. The day was warm, with

faint ashes of a sunset dispersed over a sky of intense blue. Peter

watched a boat steaming out into a world so wide that it dwarfed the

towers under which he had that afternoon been sitting. Dead phrases

lingered in his brain, prompting into memory a multitude of doctrines

and ideas--the stuff on which he had fed since he set out to explore

revolutionary London. He shot them impatiently at the open sky. They

rattled against the impenetrable blue like peas flung at a window. Peter

impulsively breathed deeply of the flowing air. It rushed into the

corners of his brain.

He left the House, and walked towards Charing Cross. He fitfully turned

over in his mind passages of the speech he had heard that afternoon,

but repeatedly the windy heavens rebuked him. He began to feel as if,

with adventures all about him, he had for days been prying into a heap

of rubbish.

He pulled up on the pavement beside a great horse straining to start a

heavy dray. Sparks flew from his iron hoofs, which, in a desperate

clatter, marked the rhythm of his effort. The muscles of his flank were

contracted. His whole form was alive with energy. The dray started and

moved away.

Elfinly there intruded upon Peter, watching the struggle of this

beautiful creature, a memory of the ministerial orator. The one seemed

grotesquely to outface the other. The straining thews of the horse were

in tune with the sky. The breath in his nostrils was that same air from

the sea which had met Peter upon the terrace. Nature was knit in a

friendly vitality, mysteriously opposed to all the categories. The

categories were somehow mystically shattered beneath the iron of the

horse's beating hoofs; were shredded by the wind which noisily fluttered

Peter's coat.

That same evening he attended a fashionable lecture, wherein it was

explained that marriage was an affair of State. The theme touched in

Peter a strain of feeling that had slept from the moment he had lost

Miranda. When the lecturer had shown how the erotic forces now loose in

the world, and acting blindly, could be successfully run in leash by a

committee of experts, Peter left the meeting and sat in a restaurant

waiting for dinner. The place was gay with tongues. The tongues were

German and French, or English that clearly was not natural; for this was

a dining place of men who paid the bill for women they had not met

before. The company was very select; and Peter, devouring an expensive

meal, admired with the shyness that beauty still raised in him, the

clothes, faces, and obvious charms of the lovely feeders. Sometimes his

heart beat a little faster as the insolent, slow eyes of one of these

women curiously surveyed him. There was a beautiful creature who

especially fascinated him. He felt he would like just to look at her,

and enjoy the play of her face. He could not do as he wished, because

now and then she glanced at him, and he would not have met her eyes for

the world. Once, however, there was a clashing of their looks, and Peter

felt that his cheeks were burning.

Tumultuously rebuking his pulse, Peter caught an ironic vision of

himself leading a long file of these brilliant women to the lecturer

from whom he had just escaped, with a request that he should deal with

them according to his theory of erotic forces.

May was drawing to an end when Peter's mother decided she must spend a

few weeks with her brother in Hamingburgh. Peter realised, as she told

him of this, how quietly necessary she had been to him during these last

months. Always he returned to the still, beautiful figure of his mother

as to something rooted and safe. Sometimes, as he entertained some of

his talking friends, he watched her sitting monumentally wise, passively

confounding them.

"I won't stay alone in London," Peter suddenly announced.

His mother calmly considered him.

"I can easily arrange it for you," she suggested at last.

"I should go mad," said Peter briefly. He crossed to where his mother

was sitting.

"Why, Peter," she said, "I hardly see anything of you."

"You are always there," said Peter, putting his arm around her shoulder.

"You simply don't know what a comfort it is to have you. Somehow you

keep things from going to the devil. I don't mean the housekeeping,"

continued Peter, answering his mother's puzzled look. "The fact is,

mother, you're quite wonderful. You're the only person I know who hasn't

any opinions. You just _are_."

Peter decided to go into the country, and return to London when his

mother was ready to come back. The time for this had almost arrived,

when he met Marbury in the lobby of the House of Commons.

Marbury broke away from his friends as Peter was hesitating whether to

pass him.

"Hullo, Peter, what are you doing in this dusty place? I thought you

were loose in the theatre."

"Was," Peter briefly corrected.

"Then you got tired?"

"No, I squabbled with the editor."

"How are you getting on?" asked Marbury, quietly inspecting his friend.

"Very badly. How are you?"

"I'm standing in a month or so for the family seat," answered Marbury.

"That's why I'm here. You must come and see the election. Politics from

within."

"Damn politics."

"I'll tell you what it is, Peter. It's the Spring."

"I want to get away from all this infernal talking," said Peter.

"You've discovered that some of it's a bit thin?"

"I'll tell you what I've discovered," said Peter savagely, "I've

discovered that almost any damn fool can be intellectual."

"Try the stupid fellows who are always right."

"Who are they?"

"Latest definition of a Tory. Come and talk to the farm-labourers."

"Not yet. I'm going to live in the air."

"What will you do? Books?"

"I hate books."

"Come now, Peter, not all books," protested Marbury. "Let me send you

some. Books for the open."

"Can you find me a book that has nothing to do with any modern thing--a

book that goes with the earth and touches bottom."

"What's wrong with Shakespeare?" asked Marbury.

"I've packed Shakespeare."

"I'll send you some more."

"Be careful," Peter warned him; "I shall pitch anything that looks like

a talking book into the fire."

"You mustn't do that, Peter. The books I am going to send you are

valuable."

They were walking now in Whitehall.

"When do you begin to be elected?" asked Peter, suddenly expanding.

"Almost at once. I'll send for you when the time comes."

"What's the idea of that?"

"You must come round the constituency--fifty miles across in its

narrowest part. I want someone to feed me with sandwiches and keep my

spirits up. Besides it will do you good. You'll meet some people who

have never written a book and haven't any opinions."

"Beasts of the field," said Peter.

"Not at all. They're all on the register; and they will vote for

Marbury."

By the time they had reached Charing Cross Marbury had persuaded Peter

to tell his address. He also agreed to join Marbury immediately he was

summoned. The next day he went with his mother to Hamingburgh, and

afterwards packed for the country. He would wander aimlessly in

Worcestershire from village to village till Marbury sent for him.

Already he was happier for the meeting. He felt an access of real

affection for Marbury on being interrupted in his packing by the arrival

of the books Marbury had promised. He pitched them unopened into his

trunk, in confidence that Marbury had chosen well.

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