III

Mr. Paragon was intended for a gardener. Had he been put upon the land

at an early age he would neither have read books nor misread men:

missing these opportunities for cynicism. He might have given his name

to a chrysanthemum; and in ripe age have been full of meditated wisdom.

That Mr. Paragon at this time should sensibly have softened from the

bitterness of his youth, was as much due to his large garden as to the

influence of his wife and the effect of his prosperity. In his oldest

and toughest clothes, working as English labourers worked before they

had lost the secret, Mr. Paragon in no way resembled himself as member

of the Labour church and a popular orator. The land absorbed him. He

handled his spade in an indescribable, professional manner. You

recognised the connoisseur who gathers in his palms the rarest china.

You trust the man who by mere handling of an object can convey to you a

sense of its value. In the same way you trusted Mr. Paragon with a

spade. When Mr. Paragon took a cutting it always struck. When he

selected seeds they always were fruitful. When he built a bank or

rounded the curve of a plot the result was always pleasing; and it came

of itself, without reflection or difficulty. His gift was from nature.

He had read no literature of gardening, and he had had no instruction.

It was his charming privilege that a garden naturally blossomed under

his hands.

Mrs. Paragon encouraged in every possible way her husband's love of the

soil. Instinctively she divined that here he was best, and that here he

was nearest herself. She was rarely without some of his flowers upon her

table or pinned in her dress; and when on free days Mr. Paragon spent

absorbed and laborious hours in the garden, Mrs. Paragon brought him

cheese and beer, or tea and muffins, waiting at his elbow, interested

and critical, while he discussed his plans, and asked her for advice

which he never regarded. Had Mrs. Paragon neglected to feed him on these

occasions he would not have noticed it, for he lost all count of time,

and did not remember he was hungry till darkness came.

The most striking event of the year for Mr. Paragon and his house was

the disposal of the season's rubbish. For twelve months it accumulated

in a large hole, rotting in the rain and sun. Mr. Paragon dug it

carefully into the soil at the end of the year, using it as a foundation

for beds and banks. Usually the whole family assisted at the carting of

the rubbish, with a box on wheels.

Peter was master of the convoy for carting the rubbish, and this was a

military enterprise. Miranda harassed his operations to the best of her

ability. There were ambuscades, surprises, excursions and alarms.

Mr. Smith looked upon these operations with delight. He liked to see Mr.

Paragon at work in the garden. He was proud of his successful neighbour,

and took real pleasure in his competence. Moreover, he delighted in

Peter's lively and interesting pretences. He would himself have led the

attack upon Peter's convoy had he been free of Mrs. Smith's critical and

contemptuous survey from the back-parlour window. Once he had actively

taken part, and Mrs. Smith discovered him on all fours among the

gooseberries, whence he had intended to create a diversion in Peter's

rear. The rational frigidity with which she had come from the house to

inquire what he imagined himself to be doing effectually prevented a

repetition.

This afternoon there was a sharp encounter. This was a great moment in

Peter's life owing to a brief, almost instantaneous, passage. Miranda

met Peter's onslaught in her manly fashion, and soon they were locked in

a desperate embrace. Suddenly Peter saw Miranda, as it seemed to him

afterwards, for the first time. Her head was flung back, her cheeks

crimsonly defiant, eyes shining, and hair scattered. For Peter it was a

vision. He saw with uneasy terror that Miranda was beautiful. He had a

quailing instinct to release her. It passed; but Miranda met the look

that came into his eyes and understood.

Who can say how softly and insensibly the change had been prepared? The

books they had read; the strange couples that walked in the evening,

curiously linked; the half-thoughts and surmises; queer little impulses

of cruelty or tenderness that had passed between them--all were suddenly

gathered up.

Peter realised the difference in his life that this moment had made for

him in the late evening when Mr. Paragon was showing him a transit of

Jupiter's third moon. Astronomy was a passion with Mr. Paragon.

Astronomy overthrew Genesis and confounded religion. He had picked up

cheap a six-inch reflecting telescope, and very frequently on fine

evenings he probed the heavens for uninspected nebulæ, resolved double

stars, mapped the surface of the moon, followed the fascinating mutation

of the variables. Peter was very soon attracted and absorbed into his

father's pastime. It had a breathless appeal for him. Awed and excited,

he would project his mind into the measureless dark spaces. It was an

adventure. Sometimes they would rise after midnight, and these were the

times Peter loved best. The extreme quiet of the hour; loneliness upon

earth giving a keener edge to the loneliness of heaven; the silence of

the sleeping street lending almost a terror to the imagined silence of

space; the secret flavour which crept into the enterprise from the mere

fact of waking while the world was asleep--all this gave to the

situation, for Peter, an agreeable poignancy. Already he had discovered

the appeal of Shelley, and he would repeat, pleasantly shuddering,

passages of his favourite story:

"I have made my bed

In charnels and on coffins, where black death

Keeps record of the trophies won from thee,

Hoping to still these obstinate questionings

Of thee and thine, by forcing some lone ghost,

Thy messenger, to render up the tale

Of what we are."

The contrast was striking at these times between Peter and his father.

For Mr. Paragon every double star resolved was a nail in the coffin of

the Established Church; every wonder of the skies, inspected and

verified, was a confirmation that society was built on stubble. But for

Peter these excursions were food for fancy, the stuff of his dreams. He

soared into space, not as Mr. Paragon intended, to discover the fraud of

priests and kings, but to voyage with Shelley's Mab through the

beautiful stars.

To-night the adventure had lost its edge. Nothing could be more exciting

than a transit of Jupiter's third moon. The gradual approach of the tiny

moon to the edge of the planet; its momentary extinction; the slow

passage of the little shadow on the cloud-bright surface--the loveliness

of this miniature play was sharpened for Peter by knowledge of its

immensity. Mr. Paragon gave up the telescope to Peter, and waited for

breathless exclamation. But Peter was silent.

"Well," said Mr. Paragon, "can't you see it?"

"Yes," answered Peter indifferently.

"Perhaps the focus isn't quite right," suggested Mr. Paragon. He looked

anxiously at Peter. Peter's indifference was unusual.

"It's all right, father, I can see it well. It's a black spot, and it's

moving across."

"Wonderful!" said Mr. Paragon. "Think of it, Peter. Jupiter to-night is

60,000,000 miles away. It would easily hold 1300 of us, and it's got

five moons. Looks as if it were made for lighting people to bed, don't

it?"

"Yes, father," said Peter without interest.

Peter's fancy had suddenly flown to a passage in _Romeo and Juliet_,

hitherto passed as absurd--something about cutting up Romeo into little

stars. Peter smelled the wet earth and remembered Miranda. His

imagination to-night refused the cold voyage into space. His father's

figures, after which his mind had so often adventurously strained, were

senseless.

His attention fell suddenly asleep at the telescope.

He realised that his father was asking him whether the transit was

finished. He started into watchfulness and replied, still indifferently,

that it was.

Mr. Paragon was mortified. He showed Peter the wonders of the universe

with a sort of proprietary satisfaction. He was proud of the size of

Jupiter. He was personally exalted that the distance between the earth

and the moon should be 240,000 miles. He had the pride of a

conscientious cicerone; of the native who does the honours of his town.

Peter to-night was disappointing.

"Well," said Mr. Paragon desperately, "what do you think of it?"

"It was very clear," Peter dutifully answered.

"There's not many lads your age," grumbled Mr. Paragon, "that have seen

a transit of Jupiter's third moon."

"I know," said Peter, trying to feel excited and grateful. He had been

looking forward to this evening for weeks. Why was he unable to enjoy

it?

He repeated the question to himself as, half an hour later, he lay

peacefully in bed. Then he found himself trying to remember the exact

phrase about Romeo and the little stars.

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