THE TORTURE ROOM.
I remember hearing a gentleman at the depot remark that the very
enormity of the crimes committed by the Romanists, is their best
protection. "For," said he, "some of their practices are so shockingly
infamous they may not even be alluded to in the presence of the refined
and the virtuous. And if the story of their guilt were told, who would
believe the tale? Far easier would it be to call the whole a slanderous
fabrication, than to believe that man can be so vile."
This consideration led me to doubt the propriety of attempting a
description of what I saw in that room. But I have engaged to give a
faithful narrative of what transpired in the nunnery; and shall I leave
out a part because it is so strange and monstrous, that people will not
believe it? No. I will tell, without the least exaggeration what I saw,
heard, and experienced. People may not credit the story now, but a day
will surely come when they will know that I speak the truth.
As I entered the room I was exceedingly shocked at the horrid spectacle
that met my eye. I knew that fearful scenes were enacted in the
subterranean cells, but I never imagined anything half so terrible as
this. In various parts of the room I saw machines, and instruments of
torture, and on some of them persons were confined who seemed to be
suffering the most excruciating agony. I paused, utterly overcome with
terror, and for a moment imagined that I was a witness to the torments,
which, the priests say, are endured by the lost, in the world of woe.
Was I to undergo such tortures, and which of those infernal engines
would be applied to me? I was not long in doubt. The priest took hold of
me and put me into a machine that held me fast, while my feet rested
on a piece of iron which was gradually heated until both feet were
blistered. I think I must have been there fifteen minutes, but perhaps
the time seemed longer than it was. He then took me out, put some
ointment on my feet and left me.
I was now at liberty to examine more minutely the strange objects around
me. There were some persons in the place whose punishment, like my own,
was light compared with others. But near me lay one old lady extended
on a rack. Her joints were all dislocated, and she was emaciated to the
last degree. I do not suppose I can describe this rack, for I never saw
anything like it. It looked like a gridiron but was long enough for the
tallest man to lie upon. There were large rollers at each end, to which
belts were attached, with a large lever to drive them back and forth.
Upon this rack the poor woman was fastened in such a way, that when the
levers were turned and the rollers made to revolve, every bone in her
body was displaced. Then the violent strain would be relaxed, a little,
and she was so very poor, her skin would sink into the joints and remain
there till it mortified and corrupted.
It was enough to melt the hardest heart to witness her agony; but
she bore it with a degree of fortitude and patience, I could not have
supposed possible, had I not been compelled to behold it. When I entered
the room she looked up and said, "Have you come to release me, or only
to suffer with me?" I did not dare to reply, for the priest was there,
but when he left us she exclaimed, "My child, let nothing induce you
to believe this cursed religion. It will be the death of you, and that
death, will be the death of a dog." I suppose she meant that they would
kill me as they would a dog. She then asked, "Who put you here?" "My
Father," said I. "He must have been a brute," said she, "or he never
could have done it." At one time I happened to mention the name of
God, when she fiercely exclaimed with gestures of contempt, "A God! You
believe there is one, do you? Don't you suffer yourself to believe any
such thing. Think you that a wise, merciful, and all powerful being
would allow such a hell as this to exist? Would he suffer me to be torn
from friends and home, from my poor children and all that my soul holds
dear, to be confined in this den of iniquity, and tortured to death in
this cruel manner? No, O, no. He would at once destroy these monsters
in human form; he would not suffer them, for one moment, to breathe the
pure air of heaven."
At another time she exclaimed, "O, my children! my poor motherless
children! What will become of them? God of mercy, protect my children!"
Thus, at one moment, she would say there was no God, and the next,
pray to him for help. This did not surprise me, for she was in such
intolerable misery she did not realize what she did say. Every few hours
the priest came in, and gave the rollers a turn, when her joints would
crack and--but I cannot describe it. The sight made me sick and faint at
the time, as the recollection of it, does now. It seemed as though that
man must have had a heart of adamant, or he could not have done it.
She would shriek, and groan, and weep, but it did not affect him in the
least. He was as calm, and deliberate as though he had a block of wood
in his hands, instead of a human being. When I saw him coming, I once
shook my head at her, to have her stop speaking; but when he was gone,
she said, "Don't shake your head at me; I do not fear him. He can but
kill me, and the quicker he does it the better. I would be glad if he
would put an end to my misery at once, but that would be too merciful.
He is determined to kill me by inches, and it makes no difference what I
say to him."
She had no food, or drink, during the three days I was there, and the
priest never spoke to her. He brought me my bread and water regularly,
and I would gladly have given it to that poor woman if she would have
taken it. But she would not accept the offer. It would only prolong
her sufferings, and she wished to die. I do not suppose she could have
lived, had she been taken out when I first saw her.
In another part of the room, a monk was under punishment. He was
standing in some kind of a machine, with heavy weights attached to his
feet, and a belt passed across his breast under his arms. He appeared to
be in great distress, and no refreshment was furnished him while I was
there.
On one side of the room, I observed a closet with a "slide door," as the
nuns called them. There were several doors of this description in the
building, so constructed as to slide back into the ceiling out of
sight. Through this opening I could see an image resembling a monk; and
whenever any one was put in there, they would shriek, and groan, and beg
to be taken out, but I could not ascertain the cause of their suffering.
One day a nun was brought in to be punished. The priest led her up to
the side of the room, and bade her put her fingers into some holes in
the wall just large enough to admit them. She obeyed but immediately
drew them back with a loud shriek. I looked to see what was the matter
with her, and lo! every nail was torn from her fingers, which were
bleeding profusely. How it was done, I do not know. Certainly, there was
no visible cause for such a surprising effect. In all probability the
fingers came in contact with the spring of some machine on the other
side, or within the wall to which some sharp instrument was attached. I
would give much to know just how it was constructed, and what the
girl had done to subject herself to such a terrible and unheard-of
punishment. But this, like many other things in that establishment, was
wrapped in impenetrable mystery. God only knows when the veil will be
removed, or whether it ever will be until the day when all secret things
will be brought to light.
When the three days expired, I was taken out of this room, but did not
go to work again till my feet were healed. I was then obliged to assist
in milking the cows, and taking care of the milk. They had a large
number of cows, I believe thirty-five, and dairy rooms, with every thing
convenient for making butter and cheese. When first directed to go
out and milk, I was pleased with the idea, for I hoped to find and
opportunity to escape; but I was again disappointed. In the cow yard, as
elsewhere, every precaution was taken to prevent it.
Passing out of the main yard of the convent through a small door, I
found myself in a small, neat yard, surrounded by a high fence, so that
nothing could be seen but the sky overhead. The cows were driven in,
and the door immediately locked, so that escape from that place seemed
impossible.
At harvest time, in company with twenty other nuns, I was taken out
into the country to the residence of the monks. The ride out there was
a great treat, and very much enjoyed by us all. I believe it was about
five miles, through a part of the city of Montreal; the north part
I think, but I am not sure. We stopped before a large white stone
building, situated in the midst of a large yard like the one at the
nunnery. A beautiful walk paved with stone, led from the gate to the
front door, and from thence, around the house. Within the yard, there
was also a delightful garden, with neat, well kept walks laid out in
various directions. Before the front door there stood a large cross.
I think I never saw a more charming place; it appeared to me a perfect
paradise. I heard one of the priests say that the farm consisted of four
hundred acres, and belonged to the nunnery. The house was kept by two
widow ladies who were married before they embraced the Romish faith.
They were the only women on the place previous to our arrival, and I
think they must have found it very laborious work to wait upon so many
monks. I do not know their number, but there was a great many of them,
besides a large family of boys, who, I suppose, were being educated for
priests or monks.
Immediately on our arrival a part of our number were set to work in the
fields, while the rest were kept in the house to assist the women. I
hoped that I might be one of these last, but disappointment was again
my lot. I was sent to the field with the others, and set to reaping; a
priest being stationed near, to guard us and oversee our work. We were
watched very closely, one priest having charge of two nuns, for whose
safe keeping he was responsible. Here we labored until the harvest was
all gathered in. I dug potatoes, cut up corn and husked it, gathered
apples, and did all kinds of work that is usually done by men in the
fall of the year. Yet I was never allowed to wear a bonnet on my head,
or anything to shield me from the piercing rays of the sun. Some
days the heat was almost intolerable, and my cap was not the least
protection, but they allowed me no other covering.
In consequence of this exposure, my head soon became the seat of severe
neuralgic pain, which caused me at times to linger over my work. But
this was not permitted. My movements were immediately quickened, for the
work must be done notwithstanding the severe pain. Every command must be
obeyed whatever the result.
At night a part of our number were taken to the nunnery, and the rest
of us locked up in our rooms in the house. We were not permitted to
take our meals with the two housekeepers, but a table was set for us in
another room. One would think that when gathering the fruit we would
be allowed to partake of it, or at least to taste it. But this was not
allowed; and as a priest's eye was ever upon us, we dare not disobey,
however much we might wish to do so. I used to wonder if the two women
who kept the house were as severely dealt with as we were, but had no
means whereby to satisfy my curiosity. They were not allowed to converse
with us, and we might not speak to them, or even look them in the face.
Here, as at the nunnery, we were obliged to walk with the head bent
forward a little, the eyes fixed on the floor, one hand, if disengaged,
under the cape, the other down by the side, and on no occasion might we
look a person in the face. The two women seemed to be governed by the
same rules that we were, and subject to the same masters. I used to
think a great deal about them, and longed to know their history. They
wore blue dresses, with white caps, and white handkerchiefs on their
necks. Their life, I think, was a hard one.