The boys came in presently, and Jill and her mother went to bed. The
young girl's head scarcely touched her pillow when she was in the land
of dreams, but the older woman stayed awake.
She held tightly clasped in her hand the little bottle which the chemist
had given her, and which was to give relief to her suffering. It was in
her power to take the cork out of the bottle, and drink off the contents
at any moment, but she refrained from doing so.
Cruel as her pain had been all day she did not want to drown it in
oblivion now; she wished to stay awake, she did not want the short hours
of the summer night to slip away in forgetfulness.
Poll stretched out one hot hand, and laid it softly, with a mother's
tenderness, on the shoulder of the girl who slept so peacefully at her
side. It was pleasant to touch that young form; it was such ease to her
tortured mind that it was almost as good as ease of body would have
been.
Poll had always loved Jill with a curious, passionate, wayward
affection. She had married a man whom she had not greatly cared for.
He had been cruel to her in his time, and she had looked upon his death
as a deliverance. She was the mother of three children, but two of them
seemed to Poll to belong to her husband, and one to her. The boys were
rough and commonplace; they were just like their father; Jill was
beautiful both in mind and body, and Jill with her sweetness and love,
her sympathy and tenderness, was Poll's very own. She was built on her
model--the same features, the same dark eyes, the same thick coils of
raven-black hair; a trifle more of refinement in the girl than in the
mother; a shade or two of greater beauty; added to this the glamour of
early youth, but otherwise Jill was Poll over again.
Heart to heart these two had always understood each other; heart to
heart their love was returned. Now Jill was giving herself to another.
It was all in the course of nature, and Poll would not have wished it
otherwise.
Had things been different, had that ache in her breast never been, and
in consequence had that craving for strong drink never seized her, she
might have been happy with Jill's children on her knees.
Had everything been different she might have taken Nat into her heart,
and loved him for her daughter's sake.
But as things were, Poll felt that she could never love Nat; for
although he little guessed it, he was the means of separating her from
Jill.
Poll lay awake all night close to the girl; she could not possibly waste
the precious hours in sleep, because she meant to go away from her for
ever in the morning. Poll felt that it would be utterly impossible for
her to keep sober always, and it was part of Nat's creed that sobriety
was godliness.
She had made up her mind what to do with the quick, fierce tenacity
which was peculiar to her, when she heard the young man speak.
The chemist had told her only too plainly that she must go into a
hospital or die. Poll preferred death to the hospital; but Jill should
not witness her dying tortures, and Jill's husband should never know
that her mother had been one of those base, low women who get rid of
their miseries in drink.
Jill did not want Poll any longer now, and because she loved her, the
poor soul determined to go away and leave her.
"I'll drink the stuff in the little bottle to-morrow night," murmured
Poll. "I'll want it then, but I like to lie wide-awake and close to the
child to-night. When the light comes in I'll look well at all her
features. I know 'em, of course--none better; but I'll take a good
filling look at 'em when the light comes in."
She lay still herself, great pulses throbbing all over her body, the
pain without becoming gradually less in intensity, by reason of the
greater pain which surged and surged within.
There was one creature whom she loved with the fierce, hungry intensity
of an untutored, a wild and yet in some ways a noble nature. The bond
between her and her daughter was about to be severed. She herself,
through her own deed, would cut the cord which bound them.
The light stole in at the window, at first faintly, then with more and
more glad beams of sunshine and joy. Poll heard a neighbouring clock
strike three. She said to herself:
"I'll lie and look at the child until the half-hour sounds, then I'll
get up."
The minutes dragged themselves away, too slowly in one sense, too
quickly in another. The solemn boom of the half-hour rang out into the
sleeping morning. Poll rose very softly, and dressed herself.
"I must have some money," she murmured. "I'll take a sovereign or two
out of Jill's stocking. She'd be glad to give it me, bless her! and
I'll write on a scrap of paper that I took it, and that I'm gone, and
that she'll never be troubled by me no more. Oh, poor Jill, it 'ud be
cruel to write like that, for I never did trouble her. With all my
sins, I never troubled my gel. We was knit too close, heart to heart,
for either of us to trouble t'other."
Poll stooped down as she spoke, drew away the bed-clothes, and putting
her hand lightly and softly against Jill's warm throat, revealed a
narrow blue ribbon, to which a key was attached. Taking a pair of
scissors out of her pocket, she cut the ribbon, and with the key in her
hand went into the kitchen.
She opened the drawer of the bureau, and pulling out the old stocking,
opened it, and spread the contents of a small gingham bag on the top of
the dresser.
Jill, by care and management, had collected between four and five
pounds. There were three sovereigns, a half-sovereign, some silver, and
some coppers in the bag. Besides this there was a little parcel wrapped
up carefully in tissue paper, and brown-paper over it. Poll opened
this, and saw that it contained five bright-looking sovereigns.
"I didn't know Jill was so rich," she murmured. "It's a good thing:
she'll have somewhat to furnish her house with. Now, how little can I
do with? A sovereign and ten shillings' worth of silver. That will be
'eaps. Oh, my gel, I wouldn't rob you of a penny ef I could help it,
but you are the last to grudge it to me."
She returned the rest of the money to the old stocking, and shut the
drawer. Then she considered what sort of note she should write to Jill.
It must be brief, for time was passing. It must also be brief because
poor Poll was a very bad scribe.
She found a sheet of thin paper, and dipping a rusty pen into a penny
bottle of ink, scribbled a few words.
"_Dear Jill_,
"_This is to say as I'll come back again when I'm cured. I'll ha' no
pain when I come back, my gel, so you make yourself 'appy. I 'as took
one pound in gold, and ten shillings in silver out of the old stocking_.
"_Your Mother_.
"_Tell Nat as I 'as my eye on 'im, and according as he deals with you,
according will I think on him_."
Poll left the letter open on the top of the bureau; then she went back
for a moment into the inner room.
Jill was lying fast asleep. Poll bent over her with a long, hungry
gaze. She stooped her head, and lightly, very lightly, kissed the young
girl on her forehead.
"Mother," murmured Jill in her sleep; "oh, poor mother! oh, poor
mother!"
A look of pain came over her face; she turned away with a profound and
even careworn sigh.
"My gel!" responded Poll. "Oh, yes, it's best and right for me to go."
Instead of dressing herself in her usual picturesque fashion, with a
coloured apron and gay turban, Poll put on a grey shawl, and a dowdy,
old-fashioned bonnet of rusty black lace. She tied up her other clothes
in a big handkerchief, and without again glancing at her daughter left
the room.
A moment later she was in the street. She had not troubled herself to
give the boys a farewell look. In the intense pain of the other parting
she had forgotten their very existence.
A few moments after she had left the house, the clock from the
neighbouring church struck four. Jill often awoke at four o'clock, but
this morning she slept on, quite oblivious of the passing of time.
Not so, however, one of the occupants of the press bed in the kitchen.
This small person opened his ferrety blue eyes, wriggled his freckled
face above the bed-clothes, and darted a quick, sly glance round the
apartment.
"Oh, jiminy!" he murmured, "I 'ope as Bob won't wake till I 'as done it.
Oh, my eyes and stars! what a chance is here."
He crept quietly out of bed, and with the light agile movements of a
little cat went across the kitchen. He reached the bureau, and bending
down pulled the drawer open, which contained Jill's hard-earned savings.
Tom was a little person who possessed neither conscience nor fear. He
soon emptied the contents of the stocking into his eager little palm.
The brown-paper parcel which contained Nat's five sovereigns was
clutched in his other hand. He then ran across the room, slipped the
coins into his trousers pockets, put his trousers on and returned to the
bureau.
His mother's letter, wide-open and exposed to the view of all who cared
to read, attracted his attention. Thanks to the board-school which he
attended, Tom could both read and write. He soon acquainted himself
with the contents of the letter, and murmuring "jiminy!" once again
under his breath, went up to the bed where Bob still slept.
Tom stood on one leg, and contemplated Bob's sleeping face with its
upturned nose, and its thick crop of freckles, for half a minute. Then
taking up an old shoe, he flung it at the sleeper and awaited the
result.
Bob started up with a howl.
"Hold your noise this minute," said Tom, falling upon Bob, and half
throttling him. "Hold your noise, and I'll tell yer some'at. See here,
Bob, I ha' got some swag, and ef you make a row Jill 'ull hear us."
The word "swag" had a magical effect on Bob. He stopped crying, wiped
his dirty face, and looked at his brother with a world of wonder and
desire lighting up each insignificant feature.
"Oh, my word, Tom!" he said, "is it gingerbread?"
"Gingerbread!" echoed Tom, in a voice of scorn. "You see yere. If you
split I'll split you. Yere, ain't this prime?"
Tom thrust his hands deep into his pockets, and pulling out his store of
gold and silver, spread his treasures on the bed. Bob's eyes began to
glitter, and his face turned white.
"Oh, Tom," he gasped, "you're a thief."
"I ain't," said Tom. "It's Jill's, and what's Jill's is mine. Ain't I
her brother? Think on her saving it all up, and us being pinched and
'arf starved. Mean, I calls it, despert mean. Well, she can save some
more. She ain't never goin' to see this swag agin." Bob began slowly
and cautiously to wriggle himself out of bed. He slipped on his
trousers and his little jacket with trembling haste.
"Are we to be pals in it?" he said, looking at Tom. "Ef I don't split,
are we to go pals?"
"I don't mind givin' yer some on it," said Tom. "But pals--that means
'arf and 'arf--no thank yer, young un."
Bob edged himself between Tom and the door of the room.
"Look yere," he said, "ef yer don't go arf, I'll screech out, and Jill
'ull come. I'm atween you and the door, and I'll screech orful loud,
and Jill 'ull come afore you gits down-stairs, so now you knows. It's
'arf the swag with me, or its none."
Tom's eyes shot forth little rays of wrath, but he knew that Bob had a
queer obstinate tenacity of his own, and he thought it best to humour
him.
"All right," he said, "don't screech. We'll go pals. 'Spose as we runs
away."
"I 'ates that book-shop," said Bob.
"And I'm run to death by the Boy Messenger Company," said Tom in a
gloomy voice. "'Spose we goes to sea, Bob."
"'Spose we does," said Bob, with a little yelp. "`A life on the rolling
wave'--oh, my stars, won't it be fine?"
"Mother has run away too," said Tom. "There's her letter on the top of
the dresser. It was seeing her helping herself out of the stocking as
put me up to it. She took some of the money, and she left the key in
the drawer, that's how I come by this jolly find. You read her letter,
Bob."
Bob did so, with his eyes glittering.
"I say," he exclaimed, "yere is a jolly go. I ha' got a stuff in my
pocket, a kind of new sort of Indy-rubber wot rubs out writing. I say,
Tom, let's put the whole of it on mother."
"The whole of wot? Wot do yer mean?"
"She says she has took thirty shillings. Let's rub out them words, and
put as she took _all_ that wor in the stocking. Then the perlice won't
be a'ter us, and we can go off to sea without no one a-finding of us
out." Tom reflected over Bob's words of wisdom, and finally decided
that his plan was worth adopting. While Jill still slept, the wicked,
clever little fingers erased a portion of Poll's letter, and added the
words instead, "I 'as took all the money you has hoarded away in the old
stocking. I know you won't grudge it."