There was no pomp of leave-taking about Mariquita's departure for
Loretto. She was only going on a visit, and would return.
"Whatever you decide upon," Sarella insisted, "you must come back for
your father's wedding."
Mariquita promised, and went away, her father driving her all the way to
Loretto in the auto. Her departure did not move him much, though he
would have been better pleased, after all, if she were going away to a
husband's house. Sarella, watching them disappear in the distance, felt
it more than the stoical old half-breed.
"I shall miss her," she said to herself; "I like her better than I
thought I should. She's as straight as an arrow, and as true as gold. I
suppose this watch _is_ gold; he'd never dare to give me _rolled_
gold.... Only nine o'clock. It will be a long day, and I shall miss her
all the time. Quiet as she is, it will make a lot of difference. No one
has such a nice way of laughing, when she does laugh. I wonder if she
guesses how little her father cares? _He_ won't miss her much. Some men
care never a pin for a woman unless they want to marry her. _He_ has no
use for the others. I expect it makes them good husbands, though. Poor
Mariquita! I think I should have hated him if I had been her. It never
occurred to her; at first I thought she must be an A-Number-One
hypocrite, she seemed to think him so exactly all that he ought to be to
her. Then I thought she must be stupid--I soon saw she was as sincere as
a baby. But she's not stupid either. She's just Mariquita; she really
does see only the things she ought to see, and it's queer. I never saw
anyone else that way. I thought at first she _must_ be jealous of me,
the old man put her so completely on one side, and made such a lot of
me. Any other girl would have been. I soon saw she wasn't; it never
entered her head that he might leave me money that ought to be hers--it
would have entered mine, I know. But 'she never thought of that,' as she
used to say about everything." Oddly enough, it was at this particular
recollection that a certain dewy brightness (that became them well)
glistened in Sarella's pretty eyes.
"Well," she thought, "I'm glad I can call to mind that I did the best I
could for her. It made me feel just sick to think of the old man
brow-beating and bullying her. I saw a big hulking fellow beat his
little girl once, and I felt just the same, only I could _do_ nothing
then but scream. I was a child myself, and I did scream, and I bit him.
I'm glad I did bite him, though I was spanked for it. I suppose I'll
have to confess biting him, though I don't call it a sin. What on earth
can Mariquita confess? At first her goodness put my back up. But I wish
she was back. It never occurs to her that she's good. I soon found that
out. And she thinks everyone else as good as gold. She thinks all these
cowboys good, and she does almost make them want to be. It was funny
that she didn't dislike me. (_I_ should have if I'd been in her place.)
When she kissed me good-bye and said 'Sarella, we'll never forget each
other,' it meant more than pounds of candy-talk from another girl.
Forget her! Not I. Will Gore? He will never think any other girl her
equal. Mrs. Gore may make up her mind to that. Perhaps he'll marry
someone not half so good as himself and rather like it. Pfush! It feels
lonesome now. I often used to get into my own room to get out of
Mariquita's way, and stretch the legs of my mind over a novel. I wish
she was here now...."
And Sarella did not speedily give over missing Mariquita. She was a girl
who on principle preferred men's society to that of other women, but in
practice had considerable need of female companionship. She liked to
make men admire her, but she did not much care to be admired by the
cowboys, and took it for granted that they already admired her as much
as befitted their inferior position. She had always been too shrewd to
try and make other women admire her, but she liked talking to them about
clothes, which no man understands; and, though Mariquita had been
careless about her own sumptuous affairs, she had been a wonderfully
appreciative (or long-suffering) listener when Sarella talked about
hers.
"And after all," Sarella confessed, "she had taste. My style would not
have suited her. That plain style of her own was best for her."
When Don Joaquin returned from Denver he seemed unlike himself, almost
subdued. He had been much impressed by the great convent and its large
community; the nuns had made much of him, and of Mariquita. They spoke
in a way that at last put it into his head that he had under-valued her;
there is nothing for awaking our appreciation of our own near relations
like the sudden perception that other people think greatly of them.
Gore's respect and admiration for his daughter had not done much, for he
had only looked upon it as the blind predilection of a young man in love
with a beautiful girl. Several of the nuns, including their Reverend
Mother, had spoken to him apart, in Mariquita's absence, not
immediately on his and her arrival, but on the evening of the following
day; on the morrow he was to depart on his return to the range, and in
these conversations the Sisters let him plainly see that they regarded
the girl as peculiarly graced by God, and of rarely high and noble
character.
He asked the Superior if she thought Mariquita would wish to stay with
them and become one of themselves.
"No," was the answer. "She is a born Contemplative. Every nun must be a
contemplative in some degree, but I use the word in its common sense. I
mean that I believe she will find herself called to an Order of pure
Contemplatives. She will make a Retreat here, and very likely will be
shown during it what is God's will for her."
It surprised the kind and warm-hearted Religious that he did not inquire
whether that life were not very hard. But she took charitable refuge in
the supposition that he knew so little about one Order or another as to
be free from the dread that his child might have a life of great
austerity before her.
"You may be sure," she said, in case later on any such affectionate
misgiving should trouble him, "that she will be happy. Unseen by you or
us she will do great things for God and His children. You shall share in
it by giving her to Him when He calls. She is your only child ("As yet,"
thought Don Joaquin, even now more concerned for her brother, than for
her) and God will reward your generosity. He never lets Himself be
outstripped in that. For the gift of Abraham's son He blest his whole
race."
Don Joaquin knew very little about Abraham, but he understood that all
the Jews since his time had been notably successful in finance.
It did not cause him any particular emotion to leave his daughter. She
was being left where she liked to be, and would doubtless be at home
among these holy women who seemed to think so much of her, and to be so
fond of her. He had forgiven her for wishing to be a nun and thought
highly of himself for having given his permission.
The nuns thought he concealed his feelings to spare Mariquita's, and
praised God for the unselfishness of parents.
Mariquita had never expected tenderness from him, but she thought him a
good man and a good father, and was very grateful for his concession in
abandoning his insistence on her marriage, and sanctioning her choice of
her own way of life. And he did embrace her on parting, and bade God
bless her, reminding her that it would be her duty to pray much for
himself and Sarella. At the range he found a letter, which had arrived
late on the day on which he had left home with her, and this letter he
took as a proof that she had prayed to some purpose. The dispensation
was granted and he could now fix his marriage for any date he chose.
"Did she send me her love?" Sarella asked, jealous of being at all
forgotten.
"Yes, twice; and when I kissed her she said, 'Kiss Sarella for me.' Also
she sent you a letter."
Sarella received very few letters and liked getting them. She was rather
curious to see what sort of letter Mariquita would write, and made up
her mind it would be "nunnish and poky."
Whether "nunnish" or no, it was not "poky," but pleasant, very cheerful
and bright, and very affectionate. It contained little jokish allusions
to home matters, and former confidential talks, and one passage (much
valued by Sarella) concerning a gown, retracting a former opinion and
substituting another backed by most valid reasons. "If those speckled
hens go on eating each other's feathers," said the letter, "you'll have
to kill them and eat them. Once they start they never give it up, and it
puts the idea in the others' heads. Feathers don't suit everybody, but
fowls look wicked without them. I hope poor old Jack doesn't miss me;
give him and Ginger my love, and ask him to forgive me for not marrying
Mr. Gore--he gave me a terrible lecture about it, and Ginger said, 'Quit
it, Dad! I _knew_ she wouldn't. I know sweethearts when I see
them--though I never did see one--not of my own.' I expect Larry Burke
will show her one soon, don't you, Sarella? It will do very well; Larry
will have the looks and Ginger will have the sense, and teach him all
he needs. He has such a good heart he can get on without _too_ much
sense...."
Sarella liked her letter, and decided that Mariquita was not lost,
though removed.