CHAPTER XXXV.

Had Arthur been a little less wrapped up in thoughts of Angela, and a

little more alive to the fact that, being engaged or even married to

one woman, does not necessarily prevent complications arising with

another, it might have occurred to him to doubt the prudence of the

course of life that he was pursuing at Madeira. And, as it is, it is

impossible to acquit him of showing a want of knowledge of the world

amounting almost to folly, for he should have known upon general

principles that, for a man in his position, a grizzly bear would have

been a safer daily companion than a young and lovely widow, and the

North Pole a more suitable place of residence than Madeira. But he

simply did not think about the matter, and, as thin ice has a

treacherous way of not cracking till it suddenly breaks, so outward

appearances gave him no indication of his danger.

And yet the facts were full of evil promise, for, as time went on,

Mildred Carr fell headlong in love with him. There was no particular

reason why she should have done so. She might have had scores of men,

handsomer, cleverer, more distinguished, for the asking, or, rather,

for the waiting to be asked. Beyond a certain ability of mind, a taking

manner, and a sympathetic, thoughtful face, with that tinge of

melancholy upon it which women sometimes find dangerously interesting,

there was nothing so remarkable about Arthur that a woman possessing

her manifold attractions and opportunities, should, unsought and

without inquiry, lavish her affection upon him. There is only one

satisfactory explanation of the phenomenon, which, indeed, is a very

common one, and that is, that he was her fate, the one man whom she was

to love in the world, for no woman worth the name ever _loves_ two,

however many she may happen to marry. For this curious difference would

appear to exist between the sexes. The man can attach himself, though

in varying degree, to several women in the course of a lifetime, whilst

the woman, the true, pure-hearted woman, cannot so adapt her best

affection. Once given, like the law of the Medes and Persians, it

altereth not.

Mildred felt, when her eyes first met Arthur’s in Donald Currie’s

office, that this man was for her different from all other men, though

she did not put the thought in words even to herself. And from that

hour till she embarked on board the boat he was continually in her

mind, a fact which so irritated her that she nearly missed the steamer

on purpose, only changing her mind at the last moment. And then, when

she had helped him to carry Miss Terry to her cabin, their hands had

accidentally met, and the contact had sent a thrill through her frame

such as she had never felt before. The next development that she could

trace was her jealousy of the black-eyed girl whom she saw him helping

about the deck, and her consequent rudeness.

Up to her present age, Mildred Carr had never known a single touch of

love: she had not even felt particularly interested in her numerous

admirers, but now this marble Galatea had by some freak of fate found a

woman’s heart, awkwardly enough, without the semblance of a

supplication on the part of him whom she destined to play Pygmalion.

And, when she examined herself by the light of the flame thus newly

kindled, she shrank back dismayed, like one who peeps over the crater

of a volcano commencing its fiery work. She had believed her heart to

be callous to all affection of this nature, it had seemed as dead as

the mummied hyacinth; and now it was a living, suffering thing, and all

alight with love. She had tasted of a new wine, and it burnt her, and

was bitter sweet, and yet she longed for more. And thus, by slow and

sad degrees, she learnt that her life, which had for thirty years

flowed on its quiet way unshadowed by love’s wing, must henceforth own

his dominion, and be a slave to his sorrows and caprices. No wonder

that she grew afraid!

But Mildred was a woman of keen insight into character, and it did not

require that her powers of observation should be sharpened by the

condition of her affections, to show her that, however deeply she might

be in love with Arthur Heigham, he was not one little bit in love with

her. Knowing the almost irresistible strength of her own beauty and

attractions, she quickly came to the conclusion—and it was one that

sent a cold chill through her—that there must be some other woman

blocking the path to his heart. For some reason or other, Arthur had

never spoken to her of Angela, either because a man very rarely

volunteers information to a woman concerning his existing relationship

with another of her sex, knowing that to do so would be to depreciate

his value in her eyes, or from an instinctive knowledge that the

subject would not be an agreeable one, or perhaps because the whole

matter was too sacred to him. But she, on her part, was determined to

probe his secret to the bottom. So one sleepy afternoon, when they were

sitting on the museum verandah, about six weeks after the date of their

arrival in the island, she took her opportunity.

Mildred was sitting, or rather half lying, in a cane-work chair, gazing

out over the peaceful sea, and Arthur, looking at her, thought what a

lovely woman she was, and wondered what it was that had made her face

and eyes so much softer and more attractive of late. Miss Terry was

also there, complaining of the heat, but presently she moved off after

an imaginary beetle, and they were alone.

“Oh, by-the-by, Mr. Heigham,” Mildred said, presently, “I was going to

ask you a question, if only I can remember what it is.”

“Try to remember what it is about. ‘Shoes, sealing-wax, cabbages, or

kings.’ Does it come under any of those heads?”

“Ah, I remember now. If you had added ‘queens,’ you would not have been

far out. What I wanted to ask you——” and she turned her large, brown

eyes full upon him, and yawned slightly. “Dear me, Agatha is right; it

_is_ hot!”

“Well, I am waiting to give you any information in my power.”

“Oh! to be sure, the question. Well, it is a very simple one. Who are

you engaged to?”

Arthur nearly sprang off his chair with astonishment.

“What makes you think that I am engaged?” he asked.

She broke into a merry peal of laughter. Ah! if he could have known

what that laugh cost her.

“What makes me think that you are engaged!” she answered, in a tone of

raillery. “Why, of course you would have been at my feet long ago, if

it had not been so. Come, don’t be reticent. I shall not laugh at you.

What is she like?” (Generally a woman’s first question about a rival.)

“Is she as good-looking—well, as I am, say—for, though you may not

think it, I have been thought good-looking.”

“She is quite different from you; she is very tall and fair, like an

angel in a picture, you know.”

“Oh! then there is a ‘she,’ and a ‘she like an angel.’ Very different

_indeed_ from me, I should think. How nicely I caught you out;” and she

laughed again.

“Why did you want to catch me out?” said Arthur, on whose ear Mrs.

Carr’s tone jarred; he could not tell why.

“Feminine curiosity, and a natural anxiety to fathom the reasons of

your sighs, that is all. But never mind, Mr. Heigham, you and I shall

not quarrel because you are engaged to be married. You shall tell me

the story when you like, for I am sure there is a story—no, not this

afternoon; the sun has given me a headache, and I am going to sleep it

off. Other people’s love-stories are very interesting to me, the more

so because I have reached the respectable age of thirty without being

the subject of one myself;” and again she laughed, this time at her own

falsehood. But, when he had gone, there was no laughter in her eyes,

nothing but tears, bitter, burning tears.

“Agatha,” said Mildred that evening, “I am sick of this place. I want

to go to the Isle of Wight. It must be quite nice there now. We will go

by the next Currie boat.”

“My dear Mildred,” replied Miss Terry, aghast, “if you were going back

so soon, why did you not leave me behind you? And just as we were

getting so nicely settled here too, and I shall be so sorry to say

good-bye to that young Heigham, he is such a nice young man! Why don’t

you marry him? I really thought you liked him. But, perhaps he is

coming to the Isle of Wight too. Oh, that dreadful bay!”

Mildred winced at Miss Terry’s allusions to Arthur, of whom that lady

had grown extremely fond.

“I am very sorry, dear,” she said, hastily; “but I am bored to death,

and it is such a bad insect year: so really you must begin to pack up.”

Miss Terry began to pack accordingly, but, when next she alluded to the

subject of their departure, Mildred affected surprise, and asked her

what she meant. The astonished Agatha referred her to her own words,

and was met by a laughing disclaimer.

“Why, you surely did not think that I was in earnest, did you? I was

only a little cross.”

“Well, really, Mildred, you’ve got so strange lately that I never know

when you are in earnest and when you are not, though, for my part, I am

very glad to stay in peace and quiet.”

“Strange, grown strange, have I!” said Mrs. Carr, looking dreamily out

of a window that commanded the carriage-drive, with her hands crossed

behind her. “Yes, I think that you are right. I think that I have lost

the old Mildred somewhere or other, and picked up a new one whom I

don’t understand.”

“Ah, indeed,” remarked Miss Terry, in the most matter-of-fact way,

without having the faintest idea of what her friend was driving at.

“How it rains! I suppose that he won’t come to-day.”

“He! Who’s he?”

“Why, how stupid you are! Mr. Heigham, of course!”

“So you always mean him, when you say ‘he!’”

“Yes, of course I do, if it isn’t ungrammatical. It is miserable this

afternoon. I feel wretched. Why, actually, here he comes!” and she tore

off like a school-girl into the hall, to meet him.

“Ah, indeed,” again remarked Miss Terry, solemnly, to the empty walls.

“I am not such a fool as I look. I suppose that Mr. Heigham wouldn’t

come to the Isle of Wight.”

It is perhaps needless to say that Mrs. Carr had never been more in

earnest in her life than when she announced her intention of departing

to the Isle of Wight. The discovery that her suspicions about Arthur

had but too sure a foundation had been a crushing blow to her hopes,

and she had formed a wise resolution to see no more of him. Happy would

it have been for her, if she could have found the moral courage to act

up to it, and go away, a wiser, if a sadder, woman. But this was not to

be. The more she contemplated it, the more did her passion —which was

now both wild and deep—take hold upon her heart, eating into it like

acid into steel, and graving one name there in ineffaceable letters.

She could not bear the thought of parting from him, and felt, or

thought she felt, that her happiness was already too deeply pledged to

allow her to throw up the cards without an effort.

Fortune favours the brave. Perhaps, after all, it would declare itself

for her. She was modest in her aspirations. She did not expect that he

would ever give her the love he bore this other woman; she only asked

to live in the sunlight of his presence, and would be glad to take him

at his own price, or indeed at any price. Man, she knew, is by nature

as unstable as water, and will mostly melt beneath the eyes of more

women than one, as readily as ice before a fire when the sun has hid

his face. Yes, she would play the game out: she would not throw away

her life’s happiness without an effort. After all, matters might have

been worse: he might have been actually married.

But she knew that her hand was a difficult one to lead from, though she

also knew that she held the great trumps—unusual beauty, practically

unlimited wealth, and considerable fascination of manner. Her part must

be to attract without repelling, charm without alarming, fascinate by

slow degrees, till at length he was involved in a net from which there

was no escape, and, above all, never to allow him to suspect her

motives till the ripe moment came. It was a hard task for a proud woman

to set herself, and, in a manner, she was proud; but, alas, with the

best of us, when love comes in at the door, pride, reason, and

sometimes honour, fly out the window.

And so Miss Terry heard no more talk of the Isle of Wight.

Thenceforward, under the frank and open guise of friendship, Mildred

contrived to keep Arthur continually at her side. She did more. She

drew from him all the history of his engagement to Angela, and

listened, with words of sympathy on her lips, and wrath and bitter

jealousy in her heart, to his enraptured descriptions of her rival’s

beauty and perfections. So benighted was he, indeed, that once he went

so far as to suggest that he should, when he and Angela were married,

come to Madeira to spend their honeymoon, and dilated on the pleasant

trips which they three might take together.

“Truly,” thought Mildred to herself, “that would be delightful.” Once,

too, he even showed her a tress of Angela’s hair, and, strange to say,

she found that there still lingered in her bosom a sufficient measure

of vulgar first principles to cause her to long to snatch it from him

and throw it into the sea. But, as it was, she smiled faintly, and

admired openly, and then went to the glass to look at her own nut-

brown tresses. Never had she been so dissatisfied with them, and yet

her hair was considered lovely, and an aesthetic hair-dresser had once

called it a “poem.”

“Blind fool,” she muttered, stamping her little foot upon the floor,

“why does he torture me so?”

Mildred forgot that all love is blind, and that none was ever blinder

or more headstrong than her own.

And so this second Calypso of a lovely isle set herself almost as

unblushingly as her prototype to get our very unheroic Ulysses into her

toils. And Penelope, poor Penelope, she sat at home and span, and

defied her would-be lovers.

But as yet Ulysses—I mean Arthur—was conscious of none of those things.

He was by nature an easy-going young gentleman, who took matters as he

found them, and asked no questions. And he found them very pleasant at

Madeira, or, rather, at the Quinta Carr, for he did everything except

sleep there. Within its precincts he was everywhere surrounded with

that atmosphere of subtle and refined flattery, flattery addressed

chiefly to the intellect, that is one of the most effective weapons of

a clever woman. Soon the drawing-room tables were loaded with his

favourite books, and no songs but such as he approved were ordered from

London.

He discovered one evening, for instance, that Mildred looked best at

night in black and silver, and next morning Mr. Worth received a

telegram requesting him to forward without delay a large consignment of

dresses in which those colours predominated.

On another occasion he casually threw out a suggestion about the

erection of a terrace in the garden, and shortly afterwards was

surprised to find a small army of Portuguese labourers engaged upon the

work. He had made this suggestion in total ignorance of the science of

garden engineering, and its execution necessitated the removal of vast

quantities of soil and the blasting of many tons of rock. The

contractor employed by Mrs. Carr pointed out how the terrace could be

made equally well at a fifth of the expense, but it did not happen to

take exactly the direction that Arthur had indicated, so she would have

none of it. His word was law, and, because he had spoken, the whole

place was for a month overrun with dirty labourers, whilst, to the

great detriment of Miss Terry’s remaining nerves, and even to the

slight discomfort of His Royal Highness himself, the air resounded all

day long with the terrific bangs of the blasting powder.

But, so long as he was pleased with the progress of the improvement,

Mildred felt no discomfort, nor would she allow any one else to express

any. It even aggravated her to see Miss Terry put her hands to her head

and jump, whenever a particularly large piece of ordnance was

discharged, and she would vow that it must be affectation, because she

never even noticed it.

In short, Mildred Carr possessed to an extraordinary degree that

faculty for blind, unreasoning adoration which is so characteristic of

the sex, an adoration that is at once magnificent in the entirety of

its own self-sacrifice, and extremely selfish. When she thought that

she could please Arthur, the state of Agatha’s nerves became a matter

of supreme indifference to her, and in the same way, had she been an

absolute monarch, she would have spent the lives of thousands, and

shaken empires till thrones came tumbling down like apples in the wind,

if she had believed that she could thereby advance herself in his

affections.

But, as it never occurred to Arthur that Mrs. Carr might be in love

with him, he saw nothing abnormal about all this. Not that he was

conceited, for nobody was ever less so, but it is wonderful what an

amount of flattery and attention men will accept from women as their

simple right. If the other sex possesses the faculty of admiration, we

in compensation are perfectly endowed with that of receiving it with

careless ease, and when we fall in with some goddess who is foolish

enough to worship _us_, and to whom _we_ should be on our knees, we

merely label her “sympathetic,” and say that she “understands us.”

From all of which wise reflections the reader will gather that our

friend Arthur was not a hundred miles off an awkward situation.

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