CHAPTER XXVI. HELENA’S DIARY.

The event of to-day began with the delivery of a message summoning me to

my father’s study. He had decided--too hastily, as I feared--that he was

sufficiently recovered to resume his usual employments. I was writing

to his dictation, when we were interrupted. Maria announced a visit from

Mr. Dunboyne.

Hitherto Philip had been content to send one of the servants of the

hotel to make inquiry after Mr. Gracedieu’s health. Why had he now

called personally? Noticing that father seemed to be annoyed, I tried

to make an opportunity of receiving Philip myself. “Let me see him,” I

suggested; “I can easily say you are engaged.”

Very unwillingly, as it was easy to see, my father declined to allow

this. “Mr. Dunboyne’s visit pays me a compliment,” he said; “and I must

receive him.” I made a show of leaving the room, and was called back to

my chair. “This is not a private interview, Helena; stay where you are.”

Philip came in--handsomer than ever, beautifully dressed--and paid his

respects to my father with his customary grace. He was too well-bred

to allow any visible signs of embarrassment to escape him. But when he

shook hands with me, I felt a little trembling in his fingers, through

the delicate gloves which fitted him like a second skin. Was it the

true object of his visit to try the experiment designed by Eunice

and himself, and deferred by the postponement of our dinner-party?

Impossible surely that my sister could have practiced on his weakness,

and persuaded him to return to his first love! I waited, in breathless

interest, for his next words. They were not worth listening to. Oh, the

poor commonplace creature!

“I am glad, Mr. Gracedieu, to see that you are well enough to be in your

study again,” he said. The writing materials on the table attracted his

attention. “Am I one of the idle people,” he asked, with his charming

smile, “who are always interrupting useful employment?”

He spoke to my father, and he was answered by my father. Not once had

he addressed a word to me--no, not even when we shook hands. I was

angry enough to force him into taking some notice of me, and to make an

attempt to confuse him at the same time.

“Have you seen my sister?” I asked.

“No.”

It was the shortest reply that he could choose. Having flung it at me,

he still persisted in looking at my father and speaking to my father:

“Do you think of trying change of air, Mr. Gracedieu, when you feel

strong enough to travel?”

“My duties keep me here,” father answered; “and I cannot honestly say

that I enjoy traveling. I dislike manners and customs that are strange

to me; I don’t find that hotels reward me for giving up the comforts of

my own house. How do you find the hotel here?”

“I submit to the hotel, sir. They are sad savages in the kitchen; they

put mushroom ketchup into their soup, and mustard and cayenne pepper

into their salads. I am half-starved at dinner-time, but I don’t

complain.”

Every word he said was an offense to me. With or without reason, I

attacked him again.

“I have heard you acknowledge that the landlord and landlady are very

obliging people,” I said. “Why don’t you ask them to let you make your

own soup and mix your own salad?”

I wondered whether I should succeed in attracting his notice, after

this. Even in these private pages, my self-esteem finds it hard to

confess what happened. I succeeded in reminding Philip that he had his

reasons for requesting me to leave the room.

“Will you excuse me, Miss Helena,” he said, “if I ask leave to speak to

Mr. Gracedieu in private?”

The right thing for me to do was, let me hope, the thing that I did.

I rose, and waited to see if my father would interfere. He looked at

Philip with suspicion in his face, as well as surprise. “May I ask,” he

said, coldly, “what is the object of the interview?”

“Certainly,” Philip answered, “when we are alone.” This cool reply

placed my father between two alternatives; he must either give way, or

be guilty of an act of rudeness to a guest in his own house. The choice

reserved for me was narrower still--I had to decide between being told

to go, or going of my own accord. Of course, I left them together.

The door which communicated with the next room was pulled to, but not

closed. On the other side of it, I found Eunice.

“Listening!” I said, in a whisper.

“Yes,” she whispered back. “You listen, too!”

I was so indignant with Philip, and so seriously interested in what was

going on in the study, that I yielded to temptation. We both degraded

ourselves. We both listened.

Eunice’s base lover spoke first. Judging by the change in his voice, he

must have seen something in my father’s face that daunted him. Eunice

heard it, too. “He’s getting nervous,” she whispered; “he’ll forget to

say the right thing at the right time.”

“Mr. Gracedieu,” Philip began, “I wish to speak to you--”

Father interrupted him: “We are alone now, Mr. Dunboyne. I want to know

why you consult me in private?”

“I am anxious to consult you, sir, on a subject--”

“On what subject? Any religious difficulty?”

“No.”

“Anything I can do for you in the town?”

“Not at all. If you will only allow me--”

“I am still waiting, sir, to know what it is about.”

Philip’s voice suddenly became an angry voice. “Once for all, Mr.

Gracedieu,” he said, “will you let me speak? It’s about your daughter--”

“No more of it, Mr. Dunboyne!” (My father was now as loud as Philip.) “I

don’t desire to hold a private conversation with you on the subject of

my daughter.”

“If you have any personal objection to me, sir, be so good as to state

it plainly.”

“You have no right to ask me to do that.”

“You refuse to do it?”

“Positively.”

“You are not very civil, Mr. Gracedieu.”

“If I speak without ceremony, Mr. Dunboyne, you have yourself to thank

for it.”

Philip replied to this in a tone of savage irony. “You are a minister

of religion, and you are an old man. Two privileges--and you presume on

them both. Good-morning.”

I drew back into a corner, just in time to escape discovery in the

character of a listener. Eunice never moved. When Philip dashed into the

room, banging the door after him, she threw herself impulsively on his

breast: “Oh, Philip! Philip! what have you done? Why didn’t you keep

your temper?”

“Did you hear what your father said to me?” he asked.

“Yes, dear; but you ought to have controlled yourself--you ought,

indeed, for my sake.”

Her arms were still round him. It struck me that he felt her influence.

“If you wish me to recover myself,” he said, gently, “you had better let

me go.”

“Oh, how cruel, Philip, to leave me when I am so wretched! Why do you

want to go?”

“You told me just now what I ought to do,” he answered, still

restraining himself. “If I am to get the better of my temper, I must be

left alone.”

“I never said anything about your temper, darling.”

“Didn’t you tell me to control myself?”

“Oh, yes! Go back to Papa, and beg him to forgive you.”

“I’ll see him damned first!”

If ever a stupid girl deserved such an answer as this, the girl was

my sister. I had hitherto (with some difficulty) refrained from

interfering. But when Eunice tried to follow Philip out of the house, I

could hesitate no longer; I held her back. “You fool,” I said; “haven’t

you made mischief enough already?”

“What am I to do?” she burst out, helplessly.

“Do what I told you to do yesterday--wait.”

Before she could reply, or I could say anything more, the door that led

to the landing was opened softly and slyly, and Miss Jillgall peeped

in. Eunice instantly left me, and ran to the meddling old maid. They

whispered to each other. Miss Jillgall’s skinny arm encircled my

sister’s waist; they disappeared together.

I was only too glad to get rid of them both, and to take the opportunity

of writing to Philip. I insisted on an explanation of his conduct while

I was in the study--to be given within an hour’s time, at a place which

I appointed. “You are not to attempt to justify yourself in writing,”

I added in conclusion. “Let your reply merely inform me if you can keep

the appointment. The rest, when we meet.”

Maria took the letter to the hotel, with instructions to wait.

Philip’s reply reached me without delay. It pledged him to justify

himself as I had desired, and to keep the appointment. My own belief is

that the event of to-day will decide his future and mine.

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