THE VOICE OF THE SIREN
Gordon left the house with a lingering look at Ruth's window
and turned his face toward Gramercy Park, where another woman was
waiting for his footstep.
He had suffered intensely in the scene with his wife. He did not
believe it possible that she retained such power over him. He drew
a deep breath of relief that it was over. Her pride would come
to the rescue; for he knew that with her tenderness she combined
strength, and with her delicacy, supreme energy.
The exaltation of his great victory of yesterday welled within him
and drowned the sense of pain. It had been the most momentous day
of his life. Visions of his Temple with gorgeous dome of gold--rising
in the sky from its pile of gleaming marble rose before his fancy.
He could hear the peal of the grand organ, the swell of the chorus
choir, and the response from five thousand eager faces before him.
He was speaking with inspiration as never before. He was leading
not a forlorn hope against overwhelming odds, but a triumphant host
of free, godlike men and women to certain victory.
He thought of the love that filled the heart of the woman to whom
he was hurrying, that she should do this unheard of thing while
yet breathing the breath of the capital of Mammon.
And then there stole over him, as oil on slumbering fires, the
memory of her kisses, the melting languor of her eyes, the odour
of her hair, the fever of her creamy flesh, until his senses reeled
as drunk with wine. A smile played about his lips; he quickened his
pace, lifted his head high, his nostrils dilated wide; he looked
dreamily over the housetops into the sky and saw only the face of
a woman.
He was in the grip of superhuman impulses. In the quickened throb
of his heart and the rush of his blood was the sweep of subconscious
forces of nature playing their role in the cosmic drama of all
sentient life, laughing at man's laws, making and unmaking the
history of races and worlds.
He was justifying his desires now in his new-found Social philosophy,
which he had studied closely since Overman's suggestion of its
scope.
He knew instinctively that between these elemental impulses and
the Moral Law there was war. He would reconcile them by leading a
revolution that should decree a new basis for the Moral Law itself.
He would make these very subconscious forces the expression of the
highest Moral Law. It suddenly flashed over him that this was the
key to the paradox of life. He would be the prophet of the new era,
and this beautiful woman his comrade in leadership in the Social
Revolution it must bring.
His face flushed with the new enthusiasm, and the glorious autumn
day about him seemed one with his spirit. The sky was cloudless
with fresh breezes sweeping over the seas from the south.
When he stepped to the downtown platform his eye wandered up and
down Twenty-third Street and Sixth Avenue and lingered on rivers
of women, below.
His own drama, his million-dollar gift, the enormous sensation it
had made in the morning press, had not produced a ripple on this
swirling tide of flesh. They crowded the windows filled with feathers
and hats, elbowed and jostled one another on the pavements, pushed
and squeezed and trampled each other's feet and skirts fighting
for standing room around the Monday bargain counters, oblivious of
the existence of the spiritual world, church, God, or devil.
Again the ceaseless roar of the city, calm and fierce as the sea,
one with its eternity of life, stunned him with its immensity and
its indifference. He felt himself once more but an atom lost in
the surging tides that beat on these stone pavements, worn by the
surge of myriads dead and waiting for the throb of hosts unborn.
What did they care? If he were to drop dead that moment, in the
morning of his manhood, with the shout of victory on his lips, they
would not lift an eye from their gaze on hat or ribbon to watch
his funeral cortege trot to the cemetery. A brief obituary and he
would be forgotten.
"After all," he mused, "Nature will have her way about this old
world and its destiny. Self-development is the first law of life,
not self-effacement."
His brow clouded for a moment as he recalled Kate's strange reserve
and shrinking at his morning visit. Would she, womanlike, at the
last moment contradict herself and withhold the full surrender of
life? It was impossible, and yet he felt a vague fear. At any rate,
he had burned the bridges behind. His way was clear. He would bring
to bear every power he possessed to win her, and in the vanity of
his powerful manhood he laughed with the certainty of victory.
When he greeted Kate and bent to kiss her she drew back, blushed
and firmly said:
"No; we have had our moments of madness."
And the man smiled.
"I mean it," she said, shaking her head.
"You will change your mind. It's a woman's way. Those moments of
bliss, so intense it was pain, when our souls and bodies met in a
kiss, have made a new world for you and me."
"But we will keep ourselves pure and unspotted," she answered
slowly. "All night I fought this battle alone. Our love is a hopeless
tragedy."
"It shall not be so for you, my shining one."
"There are others," she said, nervously clasping her hands, "whose
lives are linked with ours. The face of your wife I saw last night
will forever haunt me with its pathos. I've seen your children
once--so like you, and yet so like her."
"Even so. Life has no meaning now except that you are mine and I
am yours."
"But may you not be mine in a nobler way than the cheap surrender
to our senses? We can love and suffer and wait. You love me. It is
enough."
"But, Kate, my dear, there can be no middle course between right
and wrong, a lie and the truth."
She fixed on him an intense look.
"Have you told her?"
"Yes, and we have separated as man and wife. She leaves for Florida
for the winter. She has agreed at my request to secure a divorce,
and you and I will marry under the new forms of Social freedom.
Our union will be a prophecy of the revolution that shall redeem
society."
"You are doing a great wrong," she protested, her full red lips
drawn with pain. "When I think of your wife and children, of her
tears and reproaches, I am sick with fear."
"Perfect love will cast out fear. The world is large. The soul is
large. Lift up your head and be yourself. You said to me in this
room once you were not afraid."
"Yes; I had not kissed you then, or felt the bliss and agony of your
strong arms about me. Now, I am afraid of you"--her voice sank to
a tense whisper--"and I am afraid of myself!"
He seized her hand.
"You will take the risk. You are cast in such a mould," he said,
with ringing assurance. "You are the chosen one, my dauntless
comrade in a holy crusade. We will call womanhood from enslavement
to form, ceremony and tradition, in which the brute nature of man
has bound her, out and up into her larger self, the mate and equal
of man."
She shook her head, and her hair began to fall in waving ringlets
about her forehead, temples and neck.
"I am afraid. I cannot permit this sacrifice on your part. You must
break with society, your friends, your father, your past, your wife
and children. I must brave the sneers of gossip and the tongue of
slander. It will destroy your work and end your career."
"It will give it grander scope. Back of the dead forms of the age,
the living heart of a new life is beating. It will burst its bounds
as surely as the dead limbs in that park will in spring put on their
shimmering satin which Nature is now weaving in her mills beneath
the sod. You and I will open the doors of the soul and body to a
new and wider life. And, after all, the body is the soul. I know
it as I drink the madness of your beauty."
"I do not fear the world so much, I shrink from striking a woman
a mortal blow. I know what it is to love now," she insisted sadly.
"Ruth and I have grown out of each other's life. Besides, you do
not know her. Beneath her little form are caged powers you have not
guessed," he replied, with a curious smile. "I groan and bellow in
pain until you can hear me a mile. It is my way. She can take her
place on the cold slab of a surgeon's table, feel the crash of
steel through nerve and muscle and artery without a groan. I might
rave, commit suicide or murder in a tempest of passion, but mark
my word, she will lift her lithe figure erect and, with soft, even
footstep, go her way."
He said this with a ring of tender pride, as though she were his
child about whom he was boasting.
"I believe you love her still," Kate said, flushing with a look of
surprise.
"You know her love could not live in the fires with which my eyes
are consuming you," he said with intensity.
She lowered her gaze and glanced uneasily about as though afraid
of him.
"Must the strength of manhood be forever throttled by the impulses
and mistakes of youth? Great changes in society are impending. You
have felt it. The whole world is trembling at their coming. Changes
in the forms of marriage must come that shall give scope for our
highest development. I ask you to enter with me into this new world
as a comrade pioneer and priestess. We will enter into a marriage
so free, so spontaneous no chains shall gall it; and yet in the
breadth of its freedom so sweet, so strong, so harmonious it will
be a sublime revelation to the world."
"And you think me fit for such priesthood?" she asked. "There are
hidden fires beneath this form you deem so fair. I have never known
restraint except in the willing slavery of your love. You do not
know me--I warn you. I did not know myself until I felt the mad
rush of blood from my heart in your arms yesterday. I am afraid of
this woman I met for the first time in the wild joy of your kiss."
"I'm not afraid of you," he laughed, springing to his feet and
striding toward her.
She trembled at his approach, but did not protest except with a
helpless look in her violet eyes.
He stood for a moment towering over her, his feet braced apart, his
big hands fiercely locked, his wide chest heaving with the exultant
joy of the mastery of her life, his steel-gray eyes sparkling with
the insolence of strength.
"We were born for one another," he said, in low, burning tones.
"It was for me you were waiting. Lo! I am here, and you are mine.
In you I have seen the ideal that haunts every full-grown man's
soul, of comradeship in every work, sympathy with every hope, the
glory of a perfect body, and perfect faith with perfect freedom."
"And you see all this in me?" she asked earnestly.
"Yes. You are my affinity, nerve answering nerve, thought echoing
thought. In our union I see a love so strong, of such utter surrender,
of such devotion of intellect, such mystic enthusiasm and physical
joy, its waves must break in ecstasy on our souls forever."
She arose with a sigh, looked appealingly at him, and her lips
mechanically said:
"It is wrong."
But the man saw the flash of unutterable love in her eyes and the
tender smile about her full lips; and laughing aloud, he took her
deliberately in his arms.
He kissed a tear from her lashes. A tremor shook her splendid form,
she closed her eyes, breathing deeply, slipped her arms around his
neck and sighed:
"My darling!"