CHAPTER XV.

ABOUT five months after Rosy’s marriage her old grandmother’s “misery”

become greater than she could endure, or ruther a sudden cold which she

took proved fatal to her, and she took to her bed, and after a week’s

illness passed away.

She wuz stayin’ with Rosy when she wuz took sick, and Maggie and I did

everything we could do to relieve her wants and help her; but I see the

first time I put my eyes on her face after her seizure that we could not

help her—it wuz pneumonia; it carried her off after a few days of

sufferin’.

The night before her death I went down to her cabin with a basket of

jelly and broth and fruit, but she wuz beyend takin’ any nourishment.

She wuz propped up on pillows, her black face in marked contrast to the

snowy linen that Maggie had furnished for her bed.

Genieve, patient nurse, wuz settin’ by her, her beautiful face wearin’

its usual look of triumphant sorrow, joyful ignominy, or—I don’t know as

I can describe the look in words, but, anyway, she had the look she

always had, different from anybody else’s, more sorrowful, more riz up,

more inspired.

The Book of books wuz in her hand; she had been readin’ to her till she

had fallen asleep.

At last Aunt Clo opened her eyes and looked up long and thoughtfully

into the beautiful and pityin’ face bent above her, and finally she said

to Genieve:

“Honey, did you come down out’n de Belovéd City dat you read me about?”

“Oh, no, Aunt Clo. Don’t you know me? I am Genieve, your old friend

Genieve.”

“I done thought I see a light round your forehead, honey. It seems like

I _did_ see de light; sure you hain’t one of dem angels?”

“Oh, no, Aunt Clo; you know me, don’t you?”

And Genieve lifted her head and gave her a spoonful of the hot broth I

had brought.

She sunk back on the pillow, and after a minute said, with the old

persistency that Aunt Clo wuz wont to cling to any idee she had formed:

“It jess seems as if I did see de light a shinin’ down out of your eyes,

honey, into my ole heart.”

A more peaceful look settled down upon the face that had been drawn and

seamed with “the misery.” And when she fell into her last sleep the same

expression remained.

And I wondered if indeed Genieve’s sweet soul did not by some magnetism

of attraction draw down a band of bright spirits whose heavenly looks

wuz reflected upon her own, and if indeed a glow from the heavens she

tried to picture to the old black woman might not be reflected dimly

into her poor old heart.

[Illustration:

“WHEREFOAH, BREDREN, LET US PRAY.”

]

But we see through a glass darkly; we may not see clearly into the

beauties and wonders of the Belovéd City.

Genieve stayed and rendered all the assistance she could. She stayed as

long as she wuz needed.

But as soon as the news got out that Aunt Clo wuz dead, a crowd of her

relations, near and distant, come in and took possession of the cottage

and begun preparations for an elaborate funeral.

A colored minister wuz sent for, and he preached a long sermon in which

her virtues wuz held up as a pattern, and her sudden death as a warnin’

for ’em all to be ready for “de Master’s call, which might come in de

night time, or in de heat and burden of de day, but wuz shuah to come.

Shuah, young, careless girl; shuah, gay, happefyin’ young man, for de

trumpet must sound, and de dead must go at de bugle call of de Reapeh.

“He reaps de flowehs of de gahden,” sez he, pintin’ to the grave of

Belle Fanchon, which wuz not fur from the cabin-door.

“He reaps de flowehs in all deir beauty, an’ de ripe grain an’ de wheat.

Dis wheat we lay in de grave to-day, knowin’ dat de incorruption will

rise up incorruptible, an’ de glory will come up glorious, an’ we shall

all see it in de twinklin’ of de eye—an’ wherefoah, bredren, let us

pray.”

And he knelt down and offered up a prayer full of faith, and pathos, and

the wise ignorance of his childlike race.

Rising up from his knees, he directed the mourners to pass in front of

the coffin and view the remains, which they did with loud groanings and

many tears and exclamations of grief.

Then the coffin wuz closed, and the minister stood up in front of it and

sez:

“Christians, fall into line.”

And the church-members silently fell into line two by two till they wuz

all in their places.

Then he sez, “Sinners, fall into line.”

And the irreligious came forward jest as calmly and took their places,

and the procession moved off, and Aunt Clo wuz carried away to her last

sleep, in a little colored graveyard some mile and a half away.

I told Josiah about it after I got home; I sez:

“The good and the bad always foller on after every departed friend; but

I never see ’em sorted out so careful before, and I never see such a

calm willingness to be put amongst the goats as I see there.”

“Wall,” sez he, “they knew they wuz goats, so what wuz the use of

kickin’?”

“Wall,” sez I, “I have seen white folks lots of times that must have

known they wuz goats, but they didn’t love to be sorted out on the left

side, and no money could have made ’em walk up and fall into a sinner’s

line.”

Sez he, “If they be sinners, why can’t they own up to it? I would if I

wuz a sinner.”

But I felt that it wuz ofttimes hard work to tell the difference; and I

sez:

“I am glad it hain’t me that has to do the separatin’ between the good

and the bad, for I shouldn’t know where to lay holt, appearances are so

deceitful sometimes. Sheepskins are wore often over goats, and anon a

sheep puts on the skin and horns of a goat to face the world in and

fight with it. I shouldn’t know where to begin or leggo.”

“Wall, that is because you are a woman,” sez Josiah. “Wimmen _never_

know where or how to lay holt of any hard work or head work. I could do

it in a minute, and any man could that wuz used to horned cattle.”

I sithed and thought to myself the thought I had entertained more or

less ever sence I stood up with Josiah Allen at the altar. How

different, how different my pardner and I looked on some things, and how

impossible it wuz seemingly for us to ever get the same view on ’em.

But I didn’t multiply any more words with him, knowin’ it wouldn’t be of

any use; and then agin, as I looked clost at him, I see a shade of

serious pensiveness, and even sadness, as it were, a shadin’ down onto

his eyebrow.

And my talk didn’t seem to lighten it any as I went on and told him that

they said that this custom of dividin’, as it were, the sheep and the

goats wuz practised a good deal in different parts of the South.

But I still see the shadowy shade on his foretop, and went on more

cheerful, and told him that the little boy Abe wuz goin’ to be took into

the family of the good colored preacher, so he wuz sure of a good home

and good treatment.

But in vain wuz all my cheerful perambulations of conversation. I see

that he looked demute, and broodin’ over some idee; and finally he spoke

out:

“Samantha, goin’ to funerals, or hearin’ about ’em, puts folks to

thinkin’.”

“Yes, it duz, Josiah;” and sez I, in quite a solemn axent, “it stands us

all in hand to be prepared.”

[Illustration:

ABE.

]

Sez he, “I wuzn’t thinkin’ of that side of the subject, Samantha; but it

brings back to me that old thought and fear that has been growin’ on me

for years more or less. Samantha,” sez he, “I worry, and have worried

for years, for fear that you will some time be left a relict with

nuthin’ to lean on.”

I glanced up at him, and the thought come to me instinctively that it

would be the ondoin’ of us both if I should try to lean heavy on him

now, for my weight is great, and he is small-boneded, and I knew that he

would crumple right down under the weight of 200 pounds heft.

But I didn’t speak my thoughts—oh, no; I merely looked at him real

affectionate, and I took up a sock I wuz mendin’ for him (we wuz in our

own room), and I attackted it as socks should be attackted if you lay

out to make ’em good and sound. And he went on still more confidential

and confidin’, and told me several things he thought I had ort to do if

I wuz ever left a relict of him.

It wuz real touchin’, and I wuz considerable affected by it—not to

tears—no; I thought I wouldn’t shed any tears if I could help it, for

darnin’ is close work, and it calls for all the eyesight you have got;

and then I had on a new gray lawn dress that I felt would spot easy; so

I restrained my emotions with a almost marble composure, and anon I sez

to him as he wuz a goin’ on in that affectin’ way, and sez I:

“I may be took first, Josiah Allen.”

And he admitted that that might be the case, though he couldn’t bear to

think on’t, he said, it gin him such awful feelin’s.

He said he had never been able to think on’t with any composure. But

after a while he talked more diffuse on the subject, and owned up that

he had thought on’t; and sez he, in a still more confidin’ and

affectionate way:

“For years, Samantha, I have had it in my head what I would put on your

tombstun if I should live to stand up under the hard, hard blow of

havin’ to rare one up over you.

“I have thought I should have it read as follers, and to wit, namely:

“‘Here lies Samantha, wife of Deacon Josiah Allen, Esquire, of

Jonesville. Deacon in the Methodist Church, salesman in the Jonesville

cheese factory, and a man beloved and respected by every one who knows

him but to love him, and names him but to praise.’

“Its endin’ in poetry, Samantha, wuz jest what I knew wuz touchin’, dumb

touchin’, and would be apt to please you; and it is always a man’s aim

to write the obituarys of his former deceased pardner in a way that

would suit her and be pleasin’ to her.”

Sez I calmly, “Yes, I should know a man wrote that if I read it in the

darkest night that ever rolled, and I wuz blindfolded.”

“Wall,” sez he anxiously, “don’t it suit you? Don’t you think it is

uneek, sunthin’ new and strikin’?”

“Oh, no,” sez I, “no, it hain’t nuthin’ new at all; but mebby it is

strikin’—or that is,” sez I, “it depends on who is struck.”

“Wall,” sez he, “it is dumb discouragin’, after a man racks his brains

to try to get up sunthin’ strong and beautiful, to think a woman can’t

be tickled and animated with it.”

Sez I calmly, “I hain’t said that I wuzn’t suited with it.” And sez I

with still more severe axents, for I see he looked disappointed, “I will

say further, Josiah, that it meets my expectations fully; it is jest

what I should expect a male pardner to write.”

“Wall,” sez he, lookin’ pleaseder and more satisfieder, “I thought you

would appreciate it after you thought it over for a spell.”

“I do, Josiah,” sez I, turnin’ over the sock I wuz a mendin’ and

attacktin’ a new weak spot in the heel, “I do appreciate it fully.”

Josiah looked real tickled and sort o’ proud, and I kep’ on in calm

axents and a darnin’ too, for the hole wuz big, and night wuz a

descendin’ down onto us. And I could hear Aunt Mela’s preparations for

supper down below, and I wanted to get the sock done before I went

down-stairs. So I sez, sez I:

“I have thought about it sometimes too, Josiah, and I have got it kinder

fixed out in my mind what I would have on your tombstun—if I lived

through it,” sez I with a deep sithe.

“What wuz it?” sez he in a contented tone, for he knows I love him. “It

is poetry, hain’t it?”

“Yes,” sez I calmly, “I laid out to end it with a verse of poetry; it

wuz to run as follers: ‘Here lies Josiah Allen, husband of Samantha

Allen, and—’”

“Hold on!” sez Josiah, gettin’ right up and lookin’ threatenin’. “Hold

on right there where you be; no such words as them is a goin’ on my

tombstun while I have a breath left in my body. Husband of—Josiah,

husband of—I won’t have no such truck as that, and I can tell you that I

won’t.”

“Be calm, Josiah,” sez I, “be calm and set down,” for he looked so bad

and voyalent that I feared apperplexy or some other fit. Sez I, “Be

calm, or you will bring sunthin’ onto yourself.”

“I won’t be calm, and I don’t care what I bring on, and I tell you I

ruther bring it on than not, a good deal ruther. The idee! Josiah Allen,

husband of—It has got to a great pass if a man has got down to that—to

be a husband of—”

“Why,” sez I, lookin’ up into his face stiddily, as he stood over me in

a wild and threatenin’ attitude—and some wimmen would have been skairt

and showed it out; but I wuzn’t. Good land! don’t I know Josiah Allen,

and through him the hull race of mankind? I knew he wouldn’t hurt a hair

of my foretop, but he would like to skair me out of the idee, that I

knew.

But sez I in a reasonable axent, “You had got it all fixed out

‘Samantha, wife of Josiah—’”

“Wall, that is the way!” sez he, hollerin’ enough almost to crack my

ear-pan—“that is the way every man has it on his pardner’s headstun. Go

through the hull land and see if it hain’t; you can look on every stun.”

[Illustration:

“HE WUZ A WALKIN’ UP AND DOWN.”

]

Oh, how that “stun” rolled through my head! And sez I, “I am not deef,

Josiah Allen, neither am I in Shackville, or Loontown, or the barn. Do

you want to raise a panic in your son’s household? Moderate your voice

or you will harm your own insides. I know it is the way every man has

wrote it about their pardners, and it seemed so popular amongst men I

thought I would try it.”

“Wall, you won’t try it on me!” he hollered as loud as ever. “You won’t

try it on me, and don’t you undertake it. Why, ruther than to have them

words rared up over me I would—I would ruther not die at all. ‘Josiah

Allen, husband of—’ No, mom, you don’t come no such game over me; you

don’t demean me down into a ‘husband of—’!”

“Why,” sez I, lookin’ calmly into his face (for I see I must be calm),

“don’t you know how I have wrote my name for years and years, ‘Josiah

Allen’s Wife’?”

“Wall, that wuz the way to write it; it wuz stylish,” he yelled. Oh, how

he yelled! Why, that “stylish” almost broke a hole through my ear-pan;

the pan jest jarred, it wuz so voyalent.

Sez I, “Set down, Josiah, and less argue on it.”

“I won’t argue on it, it is too dumb foolish; I am goin’ out to walk in

the back garden before supper.”

And he ketched down his hat and drawed it down over his ears enough to

break ’em off if they hadn’t been well sot on, and slammed the door so

one of them panels is weak to this day—it wuz a little loose to start

with.

And I went and stood in the winder with my hand over my eyes, and

watched him all the while he wuz a walkin’ up and down them walks, for I

wuz most afraid he would totter and fall over, or mebby he would start

off a bee-line for the crick and drown himself, he wuz so rousted up and

agitated. And I hain’t dasted to open my head sence on the subject—I

don’t dast to, not knowin’ what it would bring onto him. At the table

they noticed my pardner’s excited and riz up mean—they couldn’t help it.

And Maggie asked him “if he wuzn’t feelin’ well.”

And I spoke right up, such is a female’s devoted love for her

companion—I spoke right up and sez:

“We have been a talkin’ over funerals and such, and your Pa got

agitated.”

I spoze I told the truth—I spoze I did; I didn’t tell what the “such”

wuz that he had been a talkin’ about; I don’t know as I wuz obleeged to.

[Illustration:

“THIS DARK EARTH VALLEY.”

]

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