"And doubly loud,
Shook o'er his turret cell the thunder cloud;
And flashed the lightning by the latticed bar."
_Corsair._
There is nothing like solitary confinement to bring the transgressor to
his right senses. He is shut out from all external communication, and
forced to look in upon himself; his eye turns and looks inwards; he has
free time and full scope for thought; nothing to distract, nothing to
wean away from self-examination; all resources are taken away but
one--thought; and the solitary one has time to think both on his past
and future fate.
When Edward L'Estrange was first confined in prison, his mind was not
yet settled from its passions; the whole of the first night he paced his
cell up and down, and black thoughts filled his mind. He had the
Captain's word he would be rescued,--he would yet have free scope for
revenge. He felt doubly angry; first at the total miscarriage of his
time-wrought plot, secondly at the absurd delay and loss of precious
moments he had made in his useless attempts to convince a woman against
her will. If he had only been quicker!--if he had used more despatch in
the business! Then he was vexed at being caught at so dastard an
endeavour; he was vexed to think what the Captain would say,--he was now
perhaps laughing over his grog at the failure! Yet he would be
rescued;--he would have a sweet revenge! He would enter the Towers
disguised, and challenge the Earl to mortal combat--nay, he would
assassinate him; he would break the proud heart of Ellen; she would not
love _him_,--he would be avenged on him she did love. Oh! how he abused
himself for his lack of courage. If she was only once more in his power!
These, and a hundred other such thoughts, coursed his mind as he marched
round his prison; and he fancied every minute he should hear the door
open, and his liberty would be gained.
The hours of darkness fled by, and the sanguine thoughts he had
cherished during the night began to cool with the first gray dawn; his
spirits fell, a reaction took place, and his mind became less and less
sanguine, till he felt low--very low.
The excitement of the night passed away with its shades; with the
morning a very different train of thoughts arose. He began to see things
in their true light; he saw himself first an angry lover--angry because
the girl he loved did not love him; then he had become a companion of
men worse than himself, he had touched pitch and not escaped its
defilement; then he had been a false friend to the Earl, a guest for
whom his noble host had sought with sorrow, and one who had been guilty
of a breach of all the laws of hospitality, and who had basely turned
his heel against him whose bread he ate. He had sunk lower still, he had
been the accuser of innocence, he had filled a happy home with tears, he
had abducted a high-souled pure maiden, and had he not been stayed in
his villany he would have perhaps driven her to death; he had been
caught in his wickedness, had attempted the life of one, been the
murderer of another, and a third was placed at the doors of the grave by
his hand.
What had he done all this for? a dream, a baseless vision. How could he
ever fancy a being so pure, so loveable, would love a thing of guilt
like him? He had lost his name, his honour, his fame; he was the
occupant of a gaol, and a felon's death and unhallowed grave were before
him,--the fitting meed for such a crime, or rather a succession of
crimes like his. There was one thought that still gave him some relief,
and this was the thought of his rescue; he would then live to retrieve
his character; he felt he could never be worthy the love, but perhaps he
might yet gain the friendship, of Ellen. He would leave for a foreign
shore, change his name, achieve high renown, and come back meriting at
least the _friendship_ of one, of whose love he had now lost all hope of
being worthy. This was a better tone of mind, and he began not to
repent, but to feel remorse for his crimes. It was the remorse of one of
those fallen angels, who yet know no wish even of repentance.
Conflicting hopes and fears too, often sinking to despair, took
possession of his mind. His morning meal was brought,--he could not
partake of it. The day wore through, he became hungry and tired, and he
ate some of his prison fare; alas, to what had he brought himself! The
knowledge that others were now happy, especially one, and that his name
would only be mentioned to be reviled, was maddening; he began to hate
all mankind, because he had made them justly hate him; he began to be
angry at any one being happy, because he had made himself miserable. Oh!
how slowly the hours passed, how he longed for night and darkness. All
was sunshine and happiness without, all gloom and misery in his prison;
and because he was wretched he felt angry because the sun shone. Would
it were night, more congenial to his dark temperament of mind. He looked
at the barred window of his room, it was high beyond his reach and the
wall was smooth. Oh! if he could only climb and look at the world
without, anything was better than the accursed walls of his gaol. A
little bird settled on the bars, but it was outside; it warbled a few
notes, and then flew away. He hated that bird, because it was happy and
he was wretched. The turnkey brought his evening meal; he was a harsh,
bad-looking man, and as incommunicative as a stock; he asked him some
questions, but surly answers only he got in return. A second night came,
and still no rescue. That night he slept, but his sleep was full of
horrid dreams. Another day passed through, and still no help. He began
to despair, and thought the Captain had promised too much; he could not
perform his promise, he would leave him to his fate, _he_ would be hung.
Oh, horror! and yet he couldn't do so. But why not? he would not betray
him, he had sworn that on the book of God. The Captain knew he would not
perjure himself, and would leave him to be executed. What did he care?
would God he had never known him. These are your worldly friends, they
leave you in the hour of necessity. Ellen would not have left him, and
even now, if he were condemned, he felt sure she would visit him in his
condemned cell. Even that thought had bliss in it, he would see her
again. But to die like a felon, oh! it was horrible; to be a felon was
nothing, but to die one was horrible; he never would,--he would put an
end to his life first, dash out his brains against the wall. Another day
passed; he became moody, and lower in spirits. The dull routine,--the
same prison fare twice a day, brought by the same ill-looking man; the
same dreadful thoughts; the same dream-scared sleep;--it was a living
death. He began to look forward to death as a release. Sunday came, that
evening he would have been a week in his cell. It was Sunday a fortnight
ago Ellen had been taken away; on Sunday a week ago he had perpetrated
his deeds of darkness, after keeping the innocent girl a week in a still
crueller prison--for she was innocent, he deserved it; and now on Sunday
he was in solitary confinement: there was something of a retributive
providence in it. It did not escape him. He heard the church bells ring
their call to the house of God; there was a time he had loved that
sound, the time when he had loved Ellen, and they went to church
together; now the sound was maddening to his ear, the bells rang the
knell of departed bliss; they would soon ring his knell, and in a
felon's grave he would rest. To-morrow his trial came on; he would
confess his guilt and soon all would be over.
The day was very hot,--hot to oppressiveness, and as the evening came on
he now and then heard distant peals of thunder. Criminal experience
tells us that the night before the trial is far more awful to the
criminal than the night before execution. This was the night before
L'Estrange's trial, and he did not prove an exception to the rule. He
had all the week determined to plead guilty, but now the trial was near
he would not; he might be pardoned by some clever defence, and he
determined to use it. He could not go to sleep that night, he paced his
cell in an agony of mind. It was then certain the Captain had deserted
him. Oh, how he hated the man! Darkness increased: now and then a fitful
glare of faint lightning glimmered through his cell; by-and-by it got
brighter, and the thunder crashes grew louder and more distinct; it was
evident a heavy storm was wearing up. He heard the rain descend in
torrents, and the vividity of the double-forked lightning, and the
detonating peals of thunder which shook the prison, shook also his
guilty mind. It seemed as if heaven spoke in wrath for the last time,
and gave her final warning. It wakened something between conviction,
and a desire to become better; but, alas! it was only like the breath of
a dying lamp, which wakens a ray, too soon to expire again. Something
muttered in his heart it was too late; it was so voice-like it made him
start, it was as if some one spoke. He sat down on his comfortless bed,
and looked the picture of guilty, hopeless woe. Suddenly he heard a
footstep outside his door; it was like the step of a soldier; he heard
the clanking sound of the spur. A key grated in the door, and it was
opened by the turnkey; behind him strode in a tall dark figure: the
latter person took the lamp from the turnkey, and ordering him in a low
voice to come back in half an hour, bade him quit the cell. The door was
again locked, the key turned, and the two alone in the prison.
L'Estrange knew who it was, he felt an instinct that told him it was--it
could be--no other than the Captain. He could not see him, though he was
aware he was seen by the dark lantern. Just then a tremendous flash lit
up the prison, and distinctly showed him he was right in his surmise; it
was the Captain. He waited till the crackling peal ceased, and then said
in a light voice:
"Hallo, Ned, how are you, old fellow? why damme, prison fare doesn't
seem to agree with you, you are as white as a ghost; cheer up, old
fellow, I am come to rescue you!"
"Prison thoughts are worse than its fare. I am a different man since I
have been here so long."
"Egad, you haven't turned blue, have you? Why, bless my soul, you spoke
just like old Power, or some such snivelling Puritan. Come, get rid of
all this nonsense, and listen to me. I have come to get you clear of
these quarters. Egad they don't agree with one; faugh! how close this
cell is; you must get out, and breathe the fresh air."
"I am resolved to abide the worst, Captain; thanks for all your trouble;
I will be tried, condemned, and hung; the world will wag on just the
same when I am gone."
"Trash--who the devil has put this nonsense into your brains? Has the
parson been here? You are right, by G--! a week in prison has changed
you a bit, I am d--d if I'd know you to be the same fellow! You sit
moping like a girl under sentence of death for murdering her child!
Come, cheer up; I tell you this air is bad for any one. Egad, it is
making me feel quite devout. Oh! d-- that accursed thunderstorm"--as a
brilliant flash blazed through the cell--"hark at the rain, you and I
will have a wet night of it."
"Is it not like the voice of God calling us to account for our
wickedness?"
"The voice of the devil! why I swear you must set up gaol chaplain. What
in the name of Heaven has put such ideas into your brainpan? a common
bout of thunder the voice of God,--anything else?"
"Blaspheme not! leave me to my fate--hanging is too good for me; you
brought me to this--"
"And I'll bring you out of it again, one good turn deserves another! Do
you think I am as great a fool as yourself? What hangs you hangs me
also, and I am not so jolly tired of life as you are just now. Wait till
you are out of this cursed hole, and you will get like yourself again;
life is too sweet to be thrown away like a coat!"
"To you it may be sweet--all that would render it so to me is gone! My
love is blighted--my hopes dead--the world would only be 'a wider
prison;' let me end my misery with my life, and bury my shame with my
body."
"Preaching again! Look you, Ned, it is always the same accursed story,
a lot of stuff talked--then you accept, and then retract, and after all
go. Now I have no time for this! you shall not be tried--nor
condemned--nor hung! I have planned your escape, and by Heaven it was no
easy matter, and deuced expensive with bribes! A score of fellows are
all ready to play their part, and I am d--d if you shall fail."
"How am I to escape?" said L'Estrange, beginning to feel freedom, after
all, was not to be despised; "the walls are high, the watchers
vigilant."
"The walls may be as high as Heaven, and the ditches as deep as hell,
and the sentinels as vigilant as Argus, but I will do them all! Pest, do
you take me for a nincompoop, or fool, or what? There, what do you think
of that?" throwing down a coil of rope--"and of that?" flinging a file
on the ground. "Now, I know you are not a fool, and will find out their
use and you will promise me to escape! You will find the rope long
enough to reach pretty near the rocks below the prison--your window
looks south to Arthur's Seat."
"And when I am out--where am I to go?"
"Patience, by G--! and I'll tell you. There are rocks beneath your
window; I took a reconnaissance of the whole yesterday; you must then
slip down the hill--go through the back slums of the Canongate, get out
by Holyrood, and make for the Hunter's Bog; if you are attacked there is
a pistol, and a knife for close quarters.--Egad, that was a bright
flash! and here comes my man; good-night, it is now close on midnight,
Bill will wait till three in the morning--it is a famous night though!
raining buckets, and dark as pitch! Don't let one of those accursed
flashes show you dangling by the rope, or some one might spy you. Wait
for a good blazer, and then drop like lightning, ha! ha! ha! good-night
I'll have a jolly wet ride home."
He then wrung L'Estrange's hand, telling him they would meet at
Philippi, or mayhap in Hades if there was such a place; he would find
him out if he was above ground anywhere. And, following the turnkey, he
left him to manage his escape as he best could.
END OF VOL. I.
LONDON: PRINTED BY W. CLOWES AND SONS STAMFORD STREET AND CHARING CROSS.
ENDNOTES:
[A] See Note A. _Oliver Cromwell._
[B] See Note B. _Weird of the Wentworths._
[C] See Note C. _Queen's Drive._
[D] See Note D. _Switzerland._
[E] See Note E. _Devil's Bridge._
[F] See Note F. _The Towers._
[G] See Note G. _Justifiable Suicide._
[H] See Note H. _Rebecca._