CHAPTER XXXIX. FEIGNING.

The next morning, Mr. Mirabel took two members of the circle at

Monksmoor by surprise. One of them was Emily; and one of them was the

master of the house.

Seeing Emily alone in the garden before breakfast, he left his room

and joined her. “Let me say one word,” he pleaded, “before we go to

breakfast. I am grieved to think that I was so unfortunate as to offend

you, last night.”

Emily’s look of astonishment answered for her before she could speak.

“What can I have said or done,” she asked, “to make you think that?”

“Now I breathe again!” he cried, with the boyish gayety of manner which

was one of the secrets of his popularity among women. “I really feared

that I had spoken thoughtlessly. It is a terrible confession for a

clergyman to make--but it is not the less true that I am one of the most

indiscreet men living. It is my rock ahead in life that I say the first

thing which comes uppermost, without stopping to think. Being well aware

of my own defects, I naturally distrust myself.”

“Even in the pulpit?” Emily inquired.

He laughed with the readiest appreciation of the satire--although it was

directed against himself.

“I like that question,” he said; “it tells me we are as good friends

again as ever. The fact is, the sight of the congregation, when I get

into the pulpit, has the same effect upon me that the sight of the

footlights has on an actor. All oratory (though my clerical brethren are

shy of confessing it) is acting--without the scenery and the costumes.

Did you really mean it, last night, when you said you would like to hear

me preach?”

“Indeed, I did.”

“How very kind of you. I don’t think myself the sermon is worth the

sacrifice. (There is another specimen of my indiscreet way of talking!)

What I mean is, that you will have to get up early on Sunday morning,

and drive twelve miles to the damp and dismal little village, in which I

officiate for a man with a rich wife who likes the climate of Italy. My

congregation works in the fields all the week, and naturally enough

goes to sleep in church on Sunday. I have had to counteract that. Not by

preaching! I wouldn’t puzzle the poor people with my eloquence for the

world. No, no: I tell them little stories out of the Bible--in a nice

easy gossiping way. A quarter of an hour is my limit of time; and, I

am proud to say, some of them (mostly the women) do to a certain extent

keep awake. If you and the other ladies decide to honor me, it is

needless to say you shall have one of my grand efforts. What will be

the effect on my unfortunate flock remains to be seen. I will have

the church brushed up, and luncheon of course at the parsonage. Beans,

bacon, and beer--I haven’t got anything else in the house. Are you rich?

I hope not!”

“I suspect I am quite as poor as you are, Mr. Mirabel.”

“I am delighted to hear it. (More of my indiscretion!) Our poverty is

another bond between us.”

Before he could enlarge on this text, the breakfast bell rang.

He gave Emily his arm, quite satisfied with the result of the morning’s

talk. In speaking seriously to her on the previous night, he had

committed the mistake of speaking too soon. To amend this false step,

and to recover his position in Emily’s estimation, had been his

object in view--and it had been successfully accomplished. At the

breakfast-table that morning, the companionable clergyman was more

amusing than ever.

The meal being over, the company dispersed as usual--with the one

exception of Mirabel. Without any apparent reason, he kept his place at

the table. Mr. Wyvil, the most courteous and considerate of men, felt it

an attention due to his guest not to leave the room first. All that he

could venture to do was to give a little hint. “Have you any plans for

the morning?” he asked.

“I have a plan that depends entirely on yourself,” Mirabel answered;

“and I am afraid of being as indiscreet as usual, if I mention it. Your

charming daughter tells me you play on the violin.”

Modest Mr. Wyvil looked confused. “I hope you have not been annoyed,” he

said; “I practice in a distant room so that nobody may hear me.”

“My dear sir, I am eager to hear you! Music is my passion; and the

violin is my favorite instrument.”

Mr. Wyvil led the way to his room, positively blushing with pleasure.

Since the death of his wife he had been sadly in want of a little

encouragement. His daughters and his friends were careful--over-careful,

as he thought--of intruding on him in his hours of practice. And, sad to

say, his daughters and his friends were, from a musical point of view,

perfectly right.

Literature has hardly paid sufficient attention to a social phenomenon

of a singularly perplexing kind. We hear enough, and more than enough,

of persons who successfully cultivate the Arts--of the remarkable manner

in which fitness for their vocation shows itself in early life, of

the obstacles which family prejudice places in their way, and of the

unremitting devotion which has led to the achievement of glorious

results.

But how many writers have noticed those other incomprehensible persons,

members of families innocent for generations past of practicing Art or

caring for Art, who have notwithstanding displayed from their earliest

years the irresistible desire to cultivate poetry, painting, or music;

who have surmounted obstacles, and endured disappointments, in the

single-hearted resolution to devote their lives to an intellectual

pursuit--being absolutely without the capacity which proves the

vocation, and justifies the sacrifice. Here is Nature, “unerring

Nature,” presented in flat contradiction with herself. Here are men

bent on performing feats of running, without having legs; and women,

hopelessly barren, living in constant expectation of large families to

the end of their days. The musician is not to be found more completely

deprived than Mr. Wyvil of natural capacity for playing on an

instrument--and, for twenty years past, it had been the pride and

delight of his heart to let no day of his life go by without practicing

on the violin.

“I am sure I must be tiring you,” he said politely--after having played

without mercy for an hour and more.

No: the insatiable amateur had his own purpose to gain, and was not

exhausted yet. Mr. Wyvil got up to look for some more music. In that

interval desultory conversation naturally took place. Mirabel contrived

to give it the necessary direction--the direction of Emily.

“The most delightful girl I have met with for many a long year past!”

Mr. Wyvil declared warmly. “I don’t wonder at my daughter being so fond

of her. She leads a solitary life at home, poor thing; and I am honestly

glad to see her spirits reviving in my house.”

“An only child?” Mirabel asked.

In the necessary explanation that followed, Emily’s isolated position

in the world was revealed in few words. But one more discovery--the most

important of all--remained to be made. Had she used a figure of speech

in saying that she was as poor as Mirabel himself? or had she told him

the shocking truth? He put the question with perfect delicacy---but with

unerring directness as well.

Mr. Wyvil, quoting his daughter’s authority, described Emily’s income as

falling short even of two hundred a year. Having made that disheartening

reply, he opened another music book. “You know this sonata, of course?”

he said. The next moment, the violin was under his chin and the

performance began.

While Mirabel was, to all appearance, listening with the utmost

attention, he was actually endeavoring to reconcile himself to a serious

sacrifice of his own inclinations. If he remained much longer in the

same house with Emily, the impression that she had produced on him would

be certainly strengthened--and he would be guilty of the folly of making

an offer of marriage to a woman who was as poor as himself. The one

remedy that could be trusted to preserve him from such infatuation as

this, was absence. At the end of the week, he had arranged to return to

Vale Regis for his Sunday duty; engaging to join his friends again at

Monksmoor on the Monday following. That rash promise, there could be no

further doubt about it, must not be fulfilled.

He had arrived at this resolution, when the terrible activity of Mr.

Wyvil’s bow was suspended by the appearance of a third person in the

room.

Cecilia’s maid was charged with a neat little three-cornered note

from her young lady, to be presented to her master. Wondering why

his daughter should write to him, Mr. Wyvil opened the note, and was

informed of Cecilia’s motive in these words:

“DEAREST PAPA--I hear Mr. Mirabel is with you, and as this is a secret,

I must write. Emily has received a very strange letter this morning,

which puzzles her and alarms me. When you are quite at liberty, we shall

be so much obliged if you will tell us how Emily ought to answer it.”

Mr. Wyvil stopped Mirabel, on the point of trying to escape from the

music. “A little domestic matter to attend to,” he said. “But we will

finish the sonata first.”

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