CHAPTER XXXI

NEW PROSPECTS

Mr. Woodstock's house at Tottenham was a cheerful abode when the months

of early summer came round, and there was thick leafage within the

shelter of the old brick wall which shut it off from the road.

For the first time in his life he understood the attractions of

domesticity. During the early months of the year, slippers and the

fireside after dinner; now that the sunset-time was growing warm and

fragrant, a musing saunter about the garden walks; these were the

things to which his imagination grew fond of turning. Nor to these

only; blended with such visions of bodily comfort, perchance lending to

them their chief attraction, was the light of a young face, grave

always, often sad, speaking with its beautiful eyes to those simpler

and tenderer instincts of his nature which had hitherto slept. In the

presence of Ida (who was now known, by his wish, as Miss Woodstock)

Abraham's hard voice found for itself a more modest and musical key.

He began--novel sensation--to look upon himself as a respectable old

gentleman; the grey patches on his head were grateful to him from that

point of view. If only he had been able to gather round his

granddaughter and himself a circle of equally respectable friends and

acquaintances, he would have enjoyed complete satisfaction. Two or

three at most there were, whom he could venture to bring over with him

from the old life to the new. For Ida he could as yet provide no

companionship at all.

But Ida did not feel the want. Since the day of her coming to the new

house her life had been very full; so much was passing within, that she

desired to escape, rather than discover, new distractions in the world

around her. For the week or so during which Waymark had lain ill, her

courage had triumphed over the sufferings to which she was herself a

prey; the beginning of his recovery brought about a reaction in her

state, and for some days she fell into a depressed feebleness almost as

extreme as on the first morning of her freedom. It distressed her to be

spoken to, and her own lips were all but mute. Mr. Woodstock sometimes

sat by her whilst she slept, or seemed to be sleeping; when she stirred

and showed consciousness of his presence, he left her, so great was his

fear of annoying her, and thus losing the ground he had gained. Once,

when he was rising to quit the room, Ida held out her hand as if to

stay him. She was lying on a sofa, and had enjoyed a very quiet sleep.

"Grandfather," she murmured, turning to face him. It was the first time

she had addressed him thus, and the old man's eyes brightened at the

sound.

"Are you better for the sleep, Ida?" he asked, taking the hand she had

extended.

"Much; much better. How the sun shines!"

"Yes, it's a fine day. Don't you think you could go out a little?"

"I think I should like to, but I can't walk very far, I'm afraid."

"You needn't walk at all, my dear. Your carriage shall be here whenever

you like to order it."

"My carriage?"

The exclamation was like a child's pleased wonder. She coloured a

little, and seemed ashamed.

"How is Mr. Waymark?" was her next question.

"Nothing much amiss now, I think. His eyes are painful, he says, and he

mustn't leave the room yet, but it won't last much longer. Shall we go

together and see him?"

She hesitated, but decided to wait till he could come down.

"But you'll go out, Ida, if I order the carriage?"

"Thank you, I should like to."

That first drive had been to Ida a joy unspeakable. To-day for the

first time she was able to sweep her mind clear of the dread shadow of

brooding, and give herself up to simple enjoyment of the hour.

Abraham went and told Waymark of all this as soon as they got back. In

the exuberance of his spirits he was half angry with the invalid for

being gloomy. Waymark had by this time shaken off all effects of his

disagreeable adventure, with the exception of a weakness of the eyes;

but convalescence did not work upon him as in Ida's case. He was

morose, often apparently sunk in hopeless wretchedness. When Abraham

spoke to him of Ida, he could scarcely be got to reply. Above all, he

showed an extreme impatience to recover his health and go back to the

ordinary life.

"I shall be able to go for the rents next Monday," he said to Mr.

Woodstock one day.

"I should have thought you'd had enough of that. I've found another man

for the job."

"Then what on earth am I to do?" Waymark exclaimed impatiently. "How am

I to get my living if you take that work away from me?"

"Never mind; we'll find something," Abraham returned. "Why are you in

such a hurry to get away, I should like to know?"

"Simply because I can't always live here, and I hate uncertainty."

There was something in the young man's behaviour which puzzled Mr.

Woodstock; but the key to the puzzle was very shortly given him. On the

evening of the same day he presented himself once more in Waymark's

room. The latter could not see him, but the first sound of his voice

was a warning of trouble.

"Do you feel able to talk?" Abraham asked, rather gruffly.

"Yes. Why?"

"Because I want to ask you a few questions. I've just had a call from

that friend of yours, Mr. Enderby, and something came out in talk that

I wasn't exactly prepared for."

Waymark rose from his chair.

"Why didn't you tell me," pursued Mr. Woodstock, "that you were engaged

to his daughter?"

"I scarcely thought it necessary."

"Not when I told you who Ida was?"

This disclosure had been made whilst Waymark was still confined to his

bed; partly because Abraham had a difficulty in keeping the matter to

himself; partly because he thought it might help the other through his

illness. Waymark had said very little at the time, and there had been

no conversation on the matter between them since.

"I don't see that it made any difference," Waymark replied gloomily.

The old man was silent. He had been, it seemed, under a complete

delusion, and could not immediately make up his mind whether he had

indeed ground of complaint against Waymark.

"Why did Mr. Enderby call?" the latter inquired.

"Very naturally, it seems to me, to know what had become of you. He

didn't see the report in the paper, and went searching for you."

"Does Ida know of this?" he asked, after a pause, during which Waymark

had remained standing with his arms crossed on the back of the chair.

"I have never told her. Why should I have done? Perhaps now you will

believe what I insisted upon before the trial, that there had been

nothing whatever--"

He spoke irritably, and was interrupted by the other with yet more

irritation.

"Never mention that again to me as long as you live, Waymark. If you do,

we shall quarrel, understand!"

"I have no more pleasure in referring to it than you have," said

Waymark, more calmly; "but I must justify myself when you attack me."

"How long has this been going on?" asked the other, after a silence.

"Some three months--perhaps more."

"Well, I think it would have been better if you'd been straightforward

about it, that's all. I don't know that I've anything more to say. We

know what we're about, and there's an end of it."

So saying, the old man went out of the room. There was a difference in

him henceforth, something which Ida noticed, though she could not

explain it. On the following day he spoke with her on a matter she was

surprised to hear him mention, her education. He had been thinking, he

said, that she ought to learn to play the piano, and be taught foreign

languages. Wouldn't she like him to find some lady who could live in

the house and teach her all these things? Ida's thoughts at once ran to

the conclusion that this had been suggested by Waymark, and, when she

found that her grandfather really wished it, gave a ready assent. A

week or two later the suitable person had been discovered--a lady of

some thirty years of age, by name Miss Hurst. She was agreeable and

refined, endowed, moreover, with the tact which was desirable in one

undertaking an office such as this. Ida found her companionship

pleasant, and Mr. Woodstock congratulated himself on having taken the

right step.

At the same time that the governess came to the house, Waymark left it.

He returned to his old lodgings, and, with an independence which was

partly his own impulse, partly the natural result of the slight

coolness towards him which had shown itself in Mr. Woodstock, set to

work to find a means of earning his living. This he was fortunate

enough to discover without any great delay; he obtained a place as

assistant in a circulating library. The payment was small, but he still

had his evenings free.

Ida did not conceal her disappointment when Abraham conveyed this news

to her; she had been hoping for better things. Her intercourse with

Waymark between his recovery and his leaving the house had been

difficult, full of evident constraint on both sides. It was the desire

of both not to meet alone, and in Mr. Woodstock's presence they talked

of indifferent things, with an artificiality which it was difficult to

support, yet impossible to abandon. They shunned each other's eyes.

Waymark was even less at his ease than Ida, knowing that Mr. Woodstock

observed him closely at all times. With her grandfather Ida tried to

speak freely of their friend, but she too was troubled by the

consciousness that the old man did not seem as friendly to Waymark as

formerly.

"This will of course only be for a time?" she said, when told of

Waymark's new employment.

"I don't know," Abraham replied indifferently. "I should think it will

suit him as well as anything else."

"But he is clever; he writes books. Don't you think he will make

himself known some day?"

"That kind of thing isn't much to be depended on, it seems to me. It's

a doubtful business to look forward to for a living."

Ida kept silence on the subject after that. She did not seem to brood

any longer over sad thoughts, yet it was seldom she behaved or spoke

light-heartedly; her face often indicated an absent mind, but it was

the calm musing of one whose thoughts look to the future and strengthen

themselves with hope. Times there were when she drew away into

solitude, and these were the intervals of doubt and self-questioning.

With her grandfather she was reconciled; she had become convinced of

his kindness to her, and the far-off past was now seldom in her mind.

The trouble originated in the deepest workings of her nature. When she

found herself comparing her position now with that of former days, it

excited in her a restive mood to think that chance alone had thus

raised her out of misery, that the conscious strength and purity of her

soul would never have availed to help her to the things which were now

within her grasp. The old sense of the world's injustice excited anger

and revolt in her heart. Chance, chance alone befriended her, and the

reflection injured her pride. What of those numberless struggling

creatures to whom such happy fortune could never come, who, be their

aspirations and capabilities what they might, must struggle vainly,

agonise, and in the end despair? She had been lifted out of hell, not

risen therefrom by her own strength. Sometimes it half seemed to her

that it would have been the nobler lot to remain as she was, to share

the misery of that dread realm of darkness with those poor disinherited

ones, to cherish that spirit of noble rebellion, the consciousness of

which had been as a pure fire on the altar of her being. What was to be

her future? Would she insensibly forget her past self, let her strength

subside in refinement--it might be, even lose the passion which had

made her what she was?

But hope predominated. Forget! Could she ever forget those faces in the

slums on the day when she bade farewell to poverty and all its

attendant wretchedness? Litany Lane and Elm Court were names which

already symbolised a purpose. If ever she still looked at her

grandfather with a remnant of distrust, it was because she thought of

him as drawing money from such a source, enjoying his life of ease in

disregard of the responsibilities laid upon him. The day would come

when she could find courage to speak to him. She waited and prepared

herself.

Prepared herself, for that, and for so much else. Waymark's behaviour

would have cost her the bitterest misery, had she not been able to

explain it to her own satisfaction. There could be but one reason why

he held aloof from her, and that an all-sufficient one. In her new

position, it was impossible for him to be more than just friendly to

her. If that had been his attitude in the old days, how could his

self-respect allow him to show the slightest change? In his anxiety not

to do so, he had even fallen short of the former kindness. No

forgiveness was needed, when she felt that she understood him so well.

But all the more did it behove her to make herself worthy of him in all

things. She had still so much to learn; she was so far his inferior in

culture and understanding. Her studies with Miss Hurst were fruitful.

Nor were her domestic duties forgotten. Mr. Woodstock had supplied her

with a good housekeeper, to help her inexperience, but Ida took an

adequate burden on her own shoulders. This again was a new and keen joy.

Waymark dined with them one Sunday in June, and, in the course of the

evening, went with Abraham to the smoking-room for some private

conversation.

"Do you remember," he began, "once offering to buy those shares of

mine?"

"Yes, I do," replied Mr. Woodstock, narrowing his eyes.

"Does the offer still hold good?"

"Yes, yes; if you're anxious to realise."

"I am. I want money--for two purposes."

"What are they?" Abraham asked bluntly.

"One is a private matter, which I don't think I need speak of; but the

other I can explain. I have found a courageous publisher who has

offered to bring my book out if I take a certain risk. This I have made

up my mind to do. I want to get the thing out, if only for the sake of

hearing Mrs. Grundy lift up her voice; and if it can't be otherwise, I

must publish at my own expense."

"Will it repay you?" Mr. Woodstock asked.

"Ultimately, I have no doubt; but I don't care so much about that."

"H'm. I should think that's the chief matter to be considered. And you

won't tell me what the other speculation is?"

"I'm going to lend a friend some money, but I don't wish to go into

detail."

The old man looked at him shrewdly.

"Very well," he said presently. "I'll let you have the cash. Could you

manage to look in at the office to-morrow at mid-day?"

This was arranged, and Waymark rose, but Mr. Woodstock motioned to him

to resume his seat.

"As we're talking," he began, "I may as well have over something that's

on my mind. Why haven't you told Ida yet about that engagement of

yours?"

"Haven't _you_ done so?" Waymark asked, in surprise.

"Did you think I had?"

"Why, yes, I did."

"I've done nothing of the kind," Abraham returned, pretending to be

surprised at the supposition, though he knew it was a perfectly natural

one.

Waymark was silent.

"Don't you think," the other pursued, "it's about time something was

said to her?"

"I can't see that it matters, and--"

"But I _can_ see. As long as that isn't known you're here, to speak

plainly, on false pretences."

"Then I won't come here at all!"

"Very good," exclaimed the old man irritably, "so long as you explain

to her first."

Waymark turned away, and stood gazing gloomily at the floor. Abraham

regarded him, and a change came over his hard face.

"Now, look here," he said, "there's something in all this I can't make

out. Is this engagement a serious one?"

"Serious?" returned the other, with a look of misery. "How can it be

otherwise?"

"Very well; in that case you're bound to let Ida know about it, and at

once. Damn it all, don't you know your own mind?"

Waymark collected himself, and spoke gravely.

"I, of course, understand why you press so for this explanation. You

take it for granted that Ida regards me as something more than a

friend. If so, my manner since she has been here must have clearly

shown her that, on my side, I have not the least thought of offering

more than friendship. You yourself will grant so much, I believe. For

all that, I don't deny that our relations have always been unusual; and

it would cost me very much to tell her of my engagement. I ask you to

relieve me of the painful task, on the understanding that I never come

here again. I can't make you understand my position. You say my

behaviour has not been straightforward. In the ordinary sense of the

word it has not;--there let it rest. Tell Ida what you will of me, and

let me disappear from her world."

"The plain English of all which," cried Abraham angrily, "is, that, as

far as you are concerned, you would be quite willing to let the girl

live on false hopes, just to have the pleasure of her society as long

as you care for it."

"Not so, not so at all! I value Ida's friendship as I value that of no

other woman, and I am persuaded that, if I were free with her, I could

reconcile her entirely to our connection remaining one of friendship,

and nothing more."

Waymark, in his desperate straits, all but persuaded himself that he

told the truth. Mr. Woodstock gazed at him in doubt. He would give him

to the end of July to make up his mind; by that time Waymark must

either present himself as a free man, or allow Ida to be informed of

his position. In the meanwhile he must come to Tottenham not oftener

than once a week. To this Waymark agreed, glad of any respite.

He returned to his lodgings in a state of nervous misery. Fortunately,

he was not left to his thoughts; in a few minutes a knock at his door

announced a visitor in the person of Mr. O'Gree. The Irishman exhibited

his wonted liveliness, and at once began to relate an incident to the

disadvantage of his archenemy.

"Faith," he cried, "I'd have given a trifle if ye could have heard the

conversation between Tootle and me, just after breakfast yesterday. The

boys were filing out of the room, when, 'Mr. O'Gree!' cries

Pendy.--'Sir!' I reply.--'The boys were called late this morning, I

hear.'--'No such thing, sir,' I assure 'um. 'Half-past six to the

minute, by my watch.'--'Oh, _your_ watch, Mr. O'Gree,' cries the old

reprobate. 'I fear your watch doesn't keep very good time.'--'Sure,

you're in the right, sir,' said I; 'it's been losing a little of late;

so only last night I stopped it at half-past six, to make sure it would

show me the right calling-time this morning.' And, when I'd said that,

I just nod my head, as much as to say, 'There's one for ye, me boy!'

and walk off as jaunty as a Limerick bantam."

Then, after a burst of merriment, O'Gree suddenly fixed his face in a

very grave expression.

"I'm resolved, Waymark, I'm resolved!" he exclaimed. "At midsummer I

break my chains, and stand erect in the dignity of a free man. I've

said it often, but now I mean it. Sally urges me to do ut, and Sally

never utters a worrud that isn't pure wisdom."

"Well, I think she's right. I myself should prefer a scavenger's

existence, on the whole. But have you thought any further of the other

scheme?"

"The commercial undertaking? We were talking it over the other night.

Sally says: Borrow the money and risk ut. And I think she's in the

right. If you enter the world of commerce, you must be prepared for

speculation. We looked over the advertisements in a newspaper, just to

get an idea, and we calculated the concern could be set afloat for

seventy-five pounds. Out of that we could pay a quarter's rent, and

stock the shop. Sally's been behind the counter a good bit of late, and

she's getting an insight into that kind of thing. Wonderful girl,

Sally! Put her in Downing Street for a week, and she'd be competent to

supplant the Premier!"

"You have decided for a chandler's?"

"Yes; we neither of us know much about tobacco, and tobacco perhaps

isn't quite the thing for a man of education. But to be a chandler is

something worthy of any man's ambition. You supply at once the solids

and the luxuries of life; you range from boiled ham and pickles to

mixed biscuits and preserves. You are the focus of a whole street. The

father comes to you for his mid-day bread and cheese, the mother for

her half-ounce of tea, the child for its farthing's-worth of sweets.

For years I've been leading a useless life; once let me get into my

shop, and I become a column of the social system. Faith, it's as good

as done!"

"From whom shall you borrow the cash?"

"Sally's going to think about that point. I suppose we shall go to a

loan office, and make some kind of arrangement. I'm rather vague on

these things, but Sally will find it out."

"I understand," said Waymark, checking his amusement, "that you are

perfectly serious in this plan?"

"As serious as I was in the moment of my birth! There's no other

chance."

"Very well, then, suppose I offer to lend you the money."

"You, Waymark?"

"No less a person."

And he went on to explain how it was that he was able to make the

offer, adding that any sum up to a hundred pounds was at his friend's

disposal.

"Ye mean it, Waymark!" cried O'Gree, leaping round the room in ecstasy.

"Bedad, you are a man and a brother, and no mistake! Ye're the first

that ever offered to lend me a penny; ye're the first that ever had

faith in me! You shall come with me to see Sally on Saturday, and tell

her this yourself, and I shouldn't be surprised if she gives you a

kiss!"

O'Gree exhausted himself in capering and vociferation, then sat down

and began to exercise his luxuriant imagination in picturing unheard-of

prosperity.

"We'll take a shop in a new neighbourhood, where we shall have the

monopoly. The people 'll get to know Sally; she'll be like a magnet

behind the counter. I shall go to the wholesale houses, and impress

them with a sense of my financial stability; I flatter myself I shall

look the prosperous shopkeeper, eh? Who knows what we may come to? Why,

in a few years we may transfer our business to Oxford Street or

Piccadilly, and call ourselves Italian warehousemen; and bedad, we'll

turn out in the end another Crosse and Blackwell, see if we don't!"

At the utmost limit of the time allowed him by the rules of The

Academy, the future man of business took his leave, in spirits

extravagant even for him.

"Faith," he exclaimed, when he was already at the door, "who d'ye think

I saw last Sunday? As I was free in the afternoon, I took a walk, and,

coming back, I went into a little coffee-shop for a cup of tea. A man

in an apron came up to serve me, and, by me soul, if it wasn't poor old

Egger! I've heard not a word of him since he left last Christmas. He

was ashamed of himself, poor devil; but I did my best to make him easy.

After all, he's better off than in the scholastic line."

Waymark laughed at this incident, and stood watching O'Gree's progress

down the street for a minute or two. Then he went to his room again,

and sitting down with a sigh, fell into deep brooding.

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