CHAPTER VII

VARIETIES OF WORK IN A GOSPEL MISSION

We are apt to think that all persons who accept the hospitality of the

Mission are low-born people; we have not found it so. There have knelt

at the altar of the Gospel Mission, priests and preachers, lawyers,

doctors, merchants, engineers, college men and poor chaps who have had

no education but that of the street.

I remember one night when we were located at 1230 Pennsylvania Avenue,

there knelt at the altar three men, one an ex-preacher, one a graduate

of the University of Virginia, and one the nephew of an ex-President of

the United States. We believed they were all converted. The preacher was

in bad physical condition, and we felt it necessary to put him into a

Christian institution for such as he for medical treatment. The taste

for liquor had gone, but the ulcerated stomach and bowels remained, also

his nerves were in a dangerous condition. How we ever obtained money

enough to pay that man's bills for six weeks is yet a marvel, but we did

it. He came out a redeemed, humble man. He went to the pastor of a large

church in Brooklyn, whom he had known at college, and before that large

church he acknowledged his sin with shame and deep contrition. The

church had grace enough to accept him. The congregation opened a rescue

mission, supported entirely by that church, where for five years he has

preached the gospel and has saved a hundredfold more souls than the big

church which supports the mission.

The Virginian never again crossed our path, but Mr. Buchanan died after

three years of a good life, an honored member of an Episcopal church in

Washington.

Men who have been dissipated, even when redeemed and reformed do not, as

a usual thing, live to old age. The wages of sin is death to the body,

though the soul may enter upon eternal life.

Among the sorrowful who nightly are to be found at the missions of this

city either pensioned by their family or the government, but not

permitted to return to their homes, is one man who was once one of the

_best_ mail agents between Washington and New York City. Another, the

son of an ex-cabinet officer. Another has been Chief Mathematician in a

government bureau, besides about twenty wrecks of various government

departments.

I remember the case of a well-known man in Philadelphia. He was

converted one extremely cold night at the Breakfast Association. No

provision is made there for beds, so that poor fellow started “to carry

the banner”—that is to walk the streets all night. About three o'clock

in the morning he was taken with a congestive chill. A kind policeman,

seeing the man was ill and not drunk, sent him at once to that blessed

little Presbyterian hospital in West Philadelphia.

It happened that one of the Board of Directors of the Breakfast

Association, Mr. Tibbals, had given the poor fellow his card. The

authorities, finding the card, sent for Mr. Tibbals. The sick man had

revived enough when Mr. Tibbals arrived, to give his true name and the

address of his parents, which was a number on Fifth Avenue, New York

City. That street was then a residence street for very wealthy people.

Just as soon as it could be done, a telegram for $100 was received in

reply and we were directed to do all we could for him. But the man died

before night, and Mr. Tibbals was asked to take the body to New York.

The coffin was carried into one of the handsomest brown-stone residences

on that handsome avenue.

The mother and father met Mr. Tibbals, and in the parlor the coffin was

opened for identification. It was the body of the only son of that proud

family. The father gave one look, one great sob, then seized his hat and

fled. The mother said, “O Mr. Tibbals, you think I am grief-stricken

over his death! But I am not even sorry. This son has been a drunkard

from childhood. We could not keep him at home, for he would steal

everything he could carry away and sell it for whisky. Since we lost

sight of him, I have never opened a paper without fearing I should read

his name in connection with some awful crime. No, I am relieved. I shall

know where he is. I have often gotten into my carriage and have had the

driver go up and down this street (which was then covered with

cobblestones) as fast as the law permitted him to drive, and I have

screamed and screamed my heart out. I have gone to the seashore to

scream to let off my nervous strain. Had I given just one such scream in

my own house, I would this day be in a mad house. Oh, no, for this

death, after what you hope was a conversion, I am deeply grateful to

God!”

And yet people wonder at Carrie Nation. It is a wonder that grief like

that does not make iconoclasts of all mothers whose sons go down the

Jericho road.

The following testimony, given in the winter of 1911, by one who had

stood on many rounds of the social ladder, a man who accepted

redemption, and is now kept by the power of God:

A REMARKABLE TESTIMONY

“When Brother Wheeler requested me to address this meeting, I felt

somewhat nervous, for the simple reason that I had never in my life

addressed a religious meeting before, and I so stated to Mr. Wheeler.

However, I could not refuse him, and here I am.

“True, in years gone by, while down South, I have spoken to political

gatherings. Since I got religion, I stopped that. If I should ever make

a political address again, it will be in the interest of the Prohibition

party. I regret that I have no experience in addressing a religious

meeting, and I, therefore, ask you to be patient with me, especially as,

due to previous engagements, I was unable to prepare myself, except in

so far that I have decided to make a few remarks on personal salvation,

and by the term personal I have my own in mind.

“I want to tell you something about my own experience, how I had lost my

God and found Him again. A man born and reared on the Bowery or any of

its side streets in New York City, a man who from his childhood on has

been influenced by evil-minded and sinful people, has never heard of

Christ, and in the course of time becomes a hardened criminal, such a

man may be condemned by mankind, but never by God.

“A man born and raised in a comfortable, refined home, who has been

taught the doctrines of Christ, has confessed his belief that Christ is

His Saviour, has a full knowledge of right and wrong and of the duties

he owes his fellow-man—if such a man becomes a willing victim to sensual

pleasures, he may not be condemned by mankind, but God will condemn him,

unless he repents and starts to lead a new, clean life.

“Only too often men are so completely wrapped up in their personal

matters, as, for instance, in their business affairs, that they

absolutely lose sight of the obligations they owe God, and also their

fellow-men, and, as a natural result, neglect their souls.

“I honestly believe that such a man is more to be pitied than the ones

who, either through their own fault or being victims of circumstances,

have lost their hold in life and finally found themselves 'down and

out.' A man may temporarily be without food and shelter, but this is

nothing compared to trying to live without God. However, a man who is a

wanderer on the face of the earth and who has lost his God, is indeed a

wretched being. I am speaking from experience.

“For years I had violated the divine laws. I had been what is generally

termed a society man, 'way down South. I enjoyed a large income, but I

spent everything for worldly pleasures. Finally, I became disgusted with

my surroundings; but, better still, I became disgusted with myself. I

drifted to New York City, determined to live a new life. This occurred

about fourteen years ago. Up to that time I had not been within or even

near a church for seven years. The New York atmosphere apparently did

not agree with me. Instead of leading a clean, moral life—by that I

understood at that time a life simply conforming to the requirements of

the social laws (the divine laws did not exist for me)—I became worse

than I had ever been.

“Although I made good money, as the saying is, I was, nevertheless,

broke all the time. I voluntarily gave up several splendid positions

because objections had been made to my reporting late in the morning for

duty, and, having become rather nervous, I practically found it

impossible to get along with anyone. I had become a slave to my habits,

and finally associated with the 'has beens,' as they are sometimes

called.

“There is not a man in this room who knows more about the life on the

east side of New York than I do. I know full well what it means to be

hungry and homeless. I have worked as a longshoreman, newspaperman,

cook, bookkeeper and correspondent. I have been running hot frankfurter

stands, etc., sometimes I had two jobs in one day. I was given a

wonderful taste of the ups and downs in New York City, especially the

downs. I certainly am grateful to Providence for subjecting me to that

awful experience in New York City, for in that way I learned to know

human nature. I learned to know that the so-called submerged masses were

composed of human beings, not brainless individuals; that, as a matter

of fact, there are better people, especially morally, among the poor

than among the so-called society people.

“I might be asked why it was that I did not find God again, when I was

down and out in New York City. Christ was knocking, knocking all the

time to enter my heart, but I had become a cynic and would not let Him

in. I used to think in those times that if there was a just God I would

not be in such a sorrowful plight. The trouble with me was, I did not

have enough sense to admit that my condition was simply due to my own

faults and to nothing else.

“During my stay in New York I have met many saintly people, men and

women who devoted their time, energy and money to the uplift of the

homeless and the friendless. Those good people tried their best to have

me converted. They did not succeed because I was not willing and because

I actually believed most of my friends who were in charge of the several

missions that I was in the habit of attending were suffering from

hallucinations, although perfectly honest in their self-imposed task.

[Illustration: PENNY LUNCH ROOM]

“The greatest evil in New York City is, as everywhere, the saloon. The

majority of you men present here this evening must admit if it were not

for the saloon you would not be here as applicants for bodily

assistance. There are evil spirits in us and around us to lead us

astray; the devil's worst temptation is whisky or any other intoxicating

drink. Man was made in the image of God; when a man gets drunk he is

worse than a beast. A man will get drunk again and again, a beast will

not, having seemingly more sense than a man. The saloon is the greatest

foe to the spread of the gospel. In most cases the saloon-keeper knows

quite well that he is a highway robber, that his business is ruining

untold thousands of men, women and children, but as his so-called

business is a legalized one, he may continue indirectly committing

murder.

“Really I have more respect for the highwayman and robber than for a

saloon-keeper. During my voluntary and involuntary observations in New

York and elsewhere, I have come to the conclusion that Christ would

conquer the world in much less time if only the awful saloon and dive

could be eliminated.

“In my travels in this country and in the foreign countries, I have met

many people who by word and deed were spreading the gospel. Some of them

naturally inquired of me whether I had been converted. My answer was

'No,' because, as a matter of fact, I did not know the meaning of the

word converted. I was told to seek Christ and the meaning would be made

plain to me. Evidently I was not sufficiently willing to meet Christ

half way, and thus I wasted years of my life before I finally submitted

to the pleadings of the Saviour.

“While I was in the Philippine Islands, twelve years ago, I was deeply

impressed with the different attitudes of the officers and enlisted men

when on the firing line. It was plain, even to the casual observer, that

the men who were thoroughly devout Christians—and there are many

thousands of Christians in our army—were not afraid to face the bullets,

but the men who were agnostics and unbelievers, whatever that may mean,

were so nervous and excited that they hardly knew what they were doing,

or they were downright cowards.

“In my own case I was not afraid of death, as I had given very little

thought to such a possibility; besides I had become more or less

indifferent to life and possible death. One hot summer day, while

fighting the Filipinos, I was shot through the head. An army surgeon

bandaged me up as best he could and then assured me I was very likely

not to live through the day.

“If I ever got scared, it was then, and if ever I prayed, it was then,

in spite of the excruciating pains I suffered. The words of a comrade,

who was a fine soldier, though not a thorough Christian, uttered by him

shortly before I was wounded, were constantly ringing in my ears,

namely, 'A man may possibly live without Christ, but he cannot die

without Christ.'

“For a month or so the doctors and nurses did not think I would live,

but God spared my life, and no doubt for a purpose. For six months I was

unable to utter a word, as the bullet had passed through my tongue. It

was well for me I could not talk to any human being, but I could talk to

God. During those months I lived my entire life over again. I promised

God to become a better man. True, I became more earnest in my views of

life, I realized the value of the golden rule, but I was not converted.

I could not yet understand the meaning of the word.

“The Red Cross nurses, who at the beginning of the trouble in the

Philippines were in charge of the hospital, were not only experts in

their profession, but were splendid types of self-sacrificing

Christians, and their presence alone made the patients think of their

mothers or sisters or other dear ones at home, thousands of miles away,

and thus unconsciously these nurses, noble representatives of womanhood,

frequently wrought a change for the better in the hearts of the wounded

soldiers.

“While I was a patient at Manilla I saw many a man pass out of this

life. The man with Christ in his heart died with a smile on his lips,

knowing he had done his duty and that Christ would meet him. The

unbeliever suffered agonies.

“I was wounded almost twelve years ago, not a day has passed without my

communicating with God, and God was always willing to talk with me, when

I addressed Him. As a result of my experience in the Philippines I spent

almost three years in the hospital. I thank God He made me suffer, it

was the only possible way for me to find Him again. My conversion did

not take place all at once, it took place gradually. God used different

means and ways in recalling me. I cannot mention them here without

baring my life to you, which may be of no interest to you. Let me assure

you no man can succeed without Christ. A man may amass a fortune, but if

he neglects his soul his life is of little value.

“Among the applicants at different missions, I have met men who claimed

the good people in charge were nothing but hypocrites. It is certainly

strange that those fellows apply to hypocrites for help. Why don't they

go to the agnostic or to the unbeliever?

“Follow my advice, first seek Christ; He is always ready and willing to

accept you; the rest is easy. A drunkard cannot become sober by taking

the Keeley cure or anything like that. The desire for drink is often

inherited, medicine will not cure the sufferer, only God's grace can

cure him.

“Why is it that the man who lives with Christ is always happy, even

under adverse circumstances, and the man without Him is, as a rule,

nothing but an egotist? You can easily find the answer yourself. Come to

Christ, and, if you are willing to come, why not now?”

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