A footman had brought the message, which Bob now took and opened
mechanically. It was from the commodore.
“For heaven’s sake,” it ran, “return at once to New York Will explain.”
Bob eyed it gloomily. The commodore must have been considerably rattled
when he had sent that.
“Any answer, sir?” said the footman.
Bob shook his head. What could he answer? He couldn’t run away now; the
commodore ought to know that. Of all fool telegrams!—
“A business message, I suppose?” purred the lady at his side. “I trust
it is nothing very important, to call you away?”
“No, I shouldn’t call it important,” said Bob. “Quite unnecessary, I
should call it.”
He crumpled up the message and thrust it into his pocket. At that moment
one of Mrs. Ralston’s paid performers—a high-class monologist—began to
earn his fee. He was quite funny and soon had every one laughing. Bob
strove to forget his troubles and laugh too. Mrs. Dan couldn’t very well
talk to him now, and relieved from that lady’s pertinent prattle, he
gradually let that “dull-care grip” slip from his resistless fingers.
Welcoming the mocking goddess of the cap and bells, he yielded to the
infectious humor and before long forgot the telegram and everything save
that crop of near-new stories.
But when the dinner was finally over, he found himself, again wrapped in
deep gloom, wandering alone on the broad balcony. He didn’t just know
how he came to be out there all alone—whether he drifted away from
people or whether they drifted away from him. Anyhow he wasn’t burdened
with any one’s company. He entertained a vague recollection that several
people had turned their backs on him. So if he was forced to lead a
hermit’s life it wasn’t his fault. Probably old Diogenes hadn’t _wanted_
to live in that tub; people had made him. They wouldn’t stand him in a
house. There wasn’t room for him and any one else in the biggest house
ever built. So the only place where truth could find that real, cozy,
homey feeling was _alone_ in a tub. And things weren’t any better
to-day. Nice commentary on our boasted “advanced civilization!”
Bob felt as if he were the most-alone man in the world! Why, he was so
lonesome, he wasn’t even acquainted with himself. This was only his
“double” walking here. He knew now what that German poet was driving at
in those _Der Doppleganger_ verses. His “double” was alone. Where was
he?—the real he—the original ego? Hanged if he knew! He looked up at
the moon, but it couldn’t tell him. At the same time, in spite of that
new impersonal relationship he had established toward himself, he felt
he ought to be immensely relieved in one respect. There would be no
“cozy-cornering” for him that evening. He had the whole wide world to
himself. He could be a wandering Jew as well as a _Doppleganger_, if he
wanted to.
He made out now two shadows, or figures, in the moonlight. Mrs. Dan and
Mrs. Clarence were walking and talking together, but somehow he wasn’t
at all curious about them. His mental faculties seemed numbed, as if his
brain were way off somewhere—between the earth and the moon, perhaps.
Then he heard the purring of a car, which seemed way off, too. He saw
Mrs. Dan and Mrs. Clarence get into the car and heard Mrs. Dan murmur
something about the village and the telegraph office, and the car slid
downward. Bob watched its rear light receding this way and that, like a
will-o’-the-wisp, or a lonesome firefly, until it disappeared on the
winding road. A cool breeze touched him without cooling his brow. Bob
threw away a cigar. What’s the use of smoking when you don’t taste the
weed?
He wondered what he should do now? Go to bed, or—? It was too early for
bed. He wouldn’t go to bed at that hour, if he kept to that
even-tenor-of-his-way condition. He hadn’t violated any condition, so
far. Those fellows who had inveigled him into this wild and woolly
moving-picture kind of an impossible freak performance would have to
concede that. There could be no ground for complaint that he wasn’t
living up to the letter and spirit of his agreement, even at the
sacrifice of his most sacred feelings. Yes, by yonder gracious lady of
the glorious moon! He wondered where _his_ gracious lady was now and
what she was doing? Of course, the hammer-thrower was with her.
“Are you meditating on your loneliness, Mr. Bennett?” said a
well-remembered voice. The tones were even and composed. They were also
distantly cold. Bob wheeled. Stars of a starry night! It was she.
* * * * *
She came right up and spoke to him—the pariah—the abhorred of many!
His heart gave a thump and he could feel its hammering as his glowing
eyes met the beautiful icy ones.
“How did you get rid of him?” he breathed hoarsely.
“Him?” said Miss Gwendoline Gerald, in a tone whose stillness should
have warned Bob.
“That sledge-hammer man? That weight-putter? That Olympian village
blacksmith, I mean? The fellow with the open honest face?”
“I don’t believe I understand,” observed the young lady, straight and
proud as a wonderful princess in the moonlight. Bob gazed at her in
rapture. Talk about the shoulders of that girl who had given him the
cold shoulder at the dinner-table!—Miss Gwendoline’s shoulders were a
thousand times superior; they would cause any sculptor to rave. Their
plastic beauty was that of the purest marble in that pure light. And
that pure, perfect face, likewise bathed in the celestial flood of
light—until now, never had he quite realized what he had lost, in
losing her.
“But never mind about explaining,” went on the vision, apropos of Bob’s
Olympian, village-blacksmith remark. “I didn’t come to discuss
generalities.”
“Of course not,” assented Bob eagerly.
The music from the house now sounded suspiciously like a trot. Miss
Gerald saw, though indistinctly, a face look out of the door. It might
have been the little dark thing peering around for Bob, for she was
quite capable of doing that. Bob didn’t notice her—if it were she. He
had eyes for but one. He was worshiping in that distant, eager, hungry,
lost-soul kind of a way. Miss Gerald’s glance returned to Bob.
“Will you be so good as to take a turn or two about the garden with me?”
she said in a calm, if hard and matter-of-fact tone. A number of people
were now approaching from the other end of the broad, partially-enclosed
space and Miss Gerald had observed them.
“Will I?” Bob’s accents expressed more eloquently than words how he felt
about complying with that request. Would a man dying of thirst drink a
goblet of cool, sparkling spring-water? Would a miser refuse gold? Or a
canine a bone? “Will I?” repeated Bob, ecstatically, and threw back his
shoulders. Thus men go forth to conquer. He did not realize how unique
he was at the moment, for he was quite swept away. The girl cast on him
a quick enigmatic glance, then led the way.
Sometimes his eyes turned to the stars and sometimes toward her as they
moved along. In the latter instance, they were almost proprietary, as if
he knew she ought to belong to him, though she never would. The stars
seemed to say she was made for him, the breeze to whisper it. Of course,
he hadn’t really any right to act “proprietary”; it was taking a certain
poetic license with the situation. Once Miss Gerald caught that
proprietary look and into the still depths of her own gaze sprang an
expression of wonder. But it didn’t linger; her eyes became once more
coldly, proudly assured.
Bob didn’t ask whither she was leading him, or what fate had in store
for him. Sufficient unto the present moment was the happiness thereof! A
fool’s paradise is better than no paradise at all. He didn’t stop now to
consider that he might be playing with verity when he hugged to his
breast an illusory joy.
She didn’t talk at first, but he didn’t find anything to complain of in
that. It was blissful enough just to swing along silently at her side.
He didn’t have to bother about the truth-proposition when she didn’t say
anything. He could yield to a quiet unadulterated joy in the stillness.
If denied, temporarily, the music of her voice, he was, at least,
privileged to visualize her, as she walked along the narrow path with
the freedom and grace of a young goddess, or one of Diana’s lithe forest
attendants. The vision, at length, stopped at the verge of a terrace
where stood an Italian-looking little summer-house, or shelter. No one
was in it, and she entered. They wouldn’t be disturbed here.
She leaned on a marble balustrade and for a moment looked down upon the
shadowy tree-tops. The moonlight glinted a rounded white arm. Bob
breathed deep. It was a spot for lovers. But there was still no
love-light in Miss Gerald’s eyes. They met the gaze of Bob, who hadn’t
yet come out of that paradoxical trance, with cold contemplation.
“Do you know what people are beginning to say about you, Mr. Bennett?”
began the vision, with considerable decision in her tones.
“No,” said Bob.
“Some of them are wondering—well, if you are mentally quite all right.”
“Are they?” It was more the silvery sound of her voice than what people
were saying that interested Bob.
“The judge and Mrs. Vanderpool have agreed that you aren’t. People are a
little divided in the matter.”
“Indeed?” observed Bob. Of course if people were “divided,” that would
make it more interesting for them. Give them something to talk about!
“The doctor agrees with the judge and Mrs. Vanderpool, but the bishop
seems inclined to give you the benefit of the doubt,” went on Miss
Gerald, her silvery tones as tranquil and cold as moonlight on the still
surface of an inland sea. “He said something about inherited
eccentricities, probably just beginning to crop out. Or suggested it
might be—well, a pose.”
“Very nice of the bishop!” muttered Bob. “Benefit of the doubt? Quite
so! Fine old chap!”
“Is that all you have to say?” said Miss Gerald, a faint note of scorn
in her voice now. As she spoke she leaned slightly toward him. The
moonlight touched the golden hair.
“Maybe he felt he had to differ,” remarked Bob, intent on the golden
hair (it wasn’t golden out here, of course) and the stars beyond. “He
might not really differ at heart, but he had to seem broad and
charitable. Ecclesiastical obligation, or habit, don’t you see!”
“I don’t quite see,” said the girl, though her bright eyes looked
capable of seeing a great deal.
“No?” murmured Bob. Some of that paradoxical happiness seemed to be
fading from him. He couldn’t hold it; it seemed as elusive as moonshine.
If only she would stand there silently and let him continue to worship
her, like that devout lover in the song—in “distant reverence.” It
wasn’t surely quite consistent for a goddess to be so practical and
matter-of-fact.
“There are others who agree with the doctor and the judge and Mrs.
Vanderpool,” continued the girl.
“You mean about my having a screw loose?”
“Exactly.” Crisply. “And some of them have consulted me.”
“And what did you say?” Quickly.
“I’m afraid I couldn’t enlighten them. I believe I suggested that sun
theory—although it really wasn’t blistering hot to-day, and you,” with
inimitable irony, “look capable of standing a little sunshine.”
“Yes, I feel as if I could stand a whole lot,” said Bob gloomily.
“Also I said,” unmindful of this last remark, “there is sometimes a
method in eccentricity, or madness. Lord Stanfield agreed with me. He
said he found you an ‘interesting young man.’”
“Did he? Confound his impudence!” That monocle-man certainly did ruffle
Bob.
“You forget he’s an old friend of my aunt’s.” Severely. “As I was
saying, Lord Stanfield found you ‘interesting,’ and we agreed there
might be a method,” studying him closely, “but when we came to search
for one, we couldn’t find it.”
She didn’t ask a question, so he didn’t have to reply.
“Mr. Bennett, why did you answer me like that down in the village?”
Bob hung his head. He felt worse than a boy detected stealing apples.
“Had to,” he muttered desperately.
“Why?” There was no mercy in that still pitiless voice.
Bob took another long breath. “Please don’t ask me,” he pleaded after an
ominous pause. That wasn’t not telling the truth; it was only
temporizing.
The violet eyes gleamed dangerously. “I’m just a little bit curious,”
said the girl in the same annihilating tone. “In the light of subsequent
proceedings, you will understand! And as Mrs. Ralston’s niece! Aunt
doesn’t quite realize things yet. The others have spared her feelings. I
haven’t, of course, gone to her. Aunt and I never ‘talk over’ our
guests.” Proudly.
That made Bob wince. He looked at her with quite helpless eyes. “Maybe
she will order me off the premises before long,” he said eagerly. “I
have already been considering the possibility of it. Believe me,”
earnestly, “it would be the best way. Can’t you see
I’m—dangerous—positively dangerous? I’m worse than a socialist—an
anarchist! Why, a Russian nihilist couldn’t make half the trouble in the
world that I can. I’m a regular walking disturber. Disaster follows in
my path.” Bitterly. “Some people look upon me as worse than the black
plague. Now if your aunt would only turn me out? You see I can’t go
unless she does. Got to think of that even-tenor-of-my-way! But if she
would only quietly intimate—or set the dog on me—”
The girl gazed at him more steadily. “I wonder if the judge and the
doctor and Mrs. Vanderpool aren’t right, after all?” she observed
slowly. “Let me look in your eyes, Mr. Bennett.” Bob did. Miss Gerald
had heard that one could always tell crazy people by their eyes. She
intended to sift this matter to the bottom and therefore proceeded with
characteristic directness. Folk that were—well, “off,” she had been
told, invariably showed that they were that, by a peculiar glitter.
Miss Gerald gazed a few moments critically, steadily and with unswerving
intention. Bob withstood that look with mingled wretchedness and
rapture. He began to forget that they were just the eyes of a would-be
expert on a mental matter, and his own eyes, looking deeper and deeper
in those wonderful violet depths (he stood so she got the benefit of the
moonlight) began to gleam with that old, old gleam Miss Gerald could
remember in the past. Bob had never _talked_ love in those blissful days
of yore, but he had looked it.
“I don’t see any signs of insanity,” said the girl at length with cold
assurance. That gleam wasn’t a glitter. Nothing crazy about it! She had
seen it too often in other men’s eyes, as well as in Bob’s—not perhaps
to such a marked degree in other men’s eyes,-but sufficiently so that
she was fairly familiar with it. “You look normal enough to me.”
“Thank you,” said Bob gratefully.
“And that’s just why”—a slight frown on the smooth fine brow—“I don’t
understand. Of course, a man not normal, might have answered as you did
me (I’m not thinking of it as a personal matter, you will understand).”
“Oh, I understand that,” returned Bob. “I’m just a problem, not a
person.” She made him quite realize that. She made it perfectly and
unmistakably apparent that he was, unto her, as some example in
trigonometry, or geometry, or algebra, and she wanted to find the
“solution.” He was an “X”—the unknown quantity. The expression on her
patrician features was entirely scholastic and calculating. Bob now felt
the ardor of his gaze becoming cold as moonlight. This wasn’t a lovers’
bower; it was only a _palestra_, or an observatory.
“You haven’t answered me yet,” she said.
No diverting her from her purpose! She was certainly persistent.
“You insist I shall tell you why I didn’t want to see you?”
She looked at him quickly. “That isn’t what I asked, Mr. Bennett. I
asked you to explain that remark in the village.”
“Same thing!” he murmured. “And it’s rather hard to explain, but if I’ve
got to—?” He looked at her. On her face was the look of proud
unyielding insistence. “Of course, I’ve got to tell you the truth,” said
Bob, and his tone now was dead and dull. “In the first place, dad’s
busted, clean down and out, and—well, I thought I wouldn’t see you any
more.”
“I fail to see the connection.” Her tones were as metallic as a voice
like hers could make them.
“It’s like this!” said Bob, ruffling his hair. Here was a fine romantic
way to make an avowal. “You see I was in love with you,” he observed,
looking the other way and addressing one of the furthermost stars of the
heaven. “And—and—when a fellow’s in love—and he can’t—ah!—well, you
know—ask the girl—you understand?”
“Very vaguely,” said Miss Gerald. Bob’s explanation, so far, was one of
those explanations that didn’t explain. If he had so heroically made up
his mind not to see her, he could have stayed away, of course, from the
Ralston house. He couldn’t explain how he was bound to accept the
invitation to come, on account of being in “honor bound” to that
confounded commodore, et al., to do so. There were bound to be loose
ends to his explanation. Besides, those other awfully unpleasant things
that had happened? He had to tell the truth, but he couldn’t tell why he
was telling the truth. That had been the understanding.
Miss Gerald, at this point, began to display some of those alert and
analytical qualities of mind that had made her father one of the great
railroad men of his day. For an instant she had turned her head slightly
at Bob’s avowal—who shall say why? It may be she had felt the blood
rush swiftly to her face, but if so a moment later she looked at him
with that same icy calm. One hand had tightened on the cold balustrade,
but Bob hadn’t noticed that. She plied him now with a number of
questions. She kept him on the gridiron and while he wriggled and
twisted she stirred up the coals, displaying all the ability of an
expert stoker. He was supersensitive about seeing her and yet as a free
agent (she thought him that) he _had_ seen her. From her point of view,
his mental processes were hopelessly illogical—worse than that. Yet she
knew he was possessed of a tolerable mentality and a good-enough
judgment for one who had in his composition a slight touch of
recklessness.
“I give it up,” she said at length wearily.
“Do you? Oh, thank you!” exclaimed Bob gratefully. “And if your aunt
orders me from the place—”
“But why can’t you just go, if you want to? I’m sure no one will detain
you.” Haughtily.
“Can’t explain, only it’s impossible. Like Prometheus bound to the rock
for vultures to peck at, unless—”
“How intelligible! And what a happy simile—under the circumstances!”
with far-reaching scorn. “What if I should tell my aunt that her guest
compared himself to—?”
“That’s the idea!” returned Bob enthusiastically. “Tell her that! Then,
by jove, she would—Promise me! Please!”
“Of course,” said the girl slowly, “my diagnosis must be wrong.” Or
perhaps she meant that she had lost faith in that glitter-theory.
“If you only _could_ understand!” burst from Bob explosively. It was
nature calling out, protesting against such a weight of anguish.
But Miss Gerald did not respond. A statue could not have appeared more
unaffected and unsympathetic. She had half turned as if to go; then she
changed her mind and lingered. It annoyed her to feel she had been
baffled, for she was a young woman who liked to drive right to the heart
of things. Her father had been called a “czar” in his world, and she had
inherited, with other of his traits, certain imperious qualities. So for
a moment or two she stood thinking.
An automobile from the village went by them and proceeded to the house.
It contained Mrs. Dan and Mrs. Clarence returning from the telegraph
office, but Bob hardly saw it, or was aware who were its occupants. Miss
Gerald absorbed him to the exclusion of all else now. He had no mind for
other storms that might be gathering. Suddenly the girl turned on him
with abrupt swiftness.