TRANSMUTATION.
'Affection follows Fortune's wheels,
And soon is shaken from her heels;
For, following beauty or estate,
Her loving soon is turned to hate.'
_Sir Walter Raleigh._
'Do you remember,' wrote Cherry, 'poor Fernan's old rival in the Life
Guards, Sir Adrian Vanderkist? I have seen him! He descended upon
us at luncheon-time in all his glory; and Mrs. Underwood was like
Eve entertaining the Angel. I hope that is not profane! it is only
Paradise Lost. I don't comprehend her delight, for he is only the
grandson of a man who made a great fortune by inventing some metal to
look like silver. Though he must have been Dutch, this youth is not
the conventional Dutchman in seven knickerbockers perched on a barrel,
but is small and insignificant, in spite of his magnificent get-up.
Never did Fernan, in his most bejewelled days, equal that studious
exquisiteness; and I could pity the baronet for having had a rival with
black moustaches that curl of their own accord; but pity evaporates
when I find that he has got Brown Murad, and hear Mrs. Underwood's
gratitude for his promise of tickets for somebody's concert. I wonder
whether he is thinking about Marilda?
'April 15th. Two great events begin to loom. One is our _soirée
musicale_, for which the cards are actually being written; and Edgar
and Alda are debating the programme. I am to have a quiet corner out of
sight, and use my eyes and ears. How I wish you and Lance could send up
yours!
'The other is a great function at St. Matthew's, on the opening of the
new infant-schools, on Whit Tuesday. Clement is coming down for it;
and Robin, Angel, and I are to go with Cousin Tom to his office, where
Clem will meet and take charge of us. It certainly is a fine thing to
come to London, and see the world; though the nicest part of the world
to me is that odd little room of Mrs. Renville's where people are so
entertaining, and one catches glimpses of great luminaries in their
moments of unbending and good nature.......
'May 3rd. Where shall I begin the story of our _soirée_? I will pass
over the misery of serving as a _corpus vile_, for Alda and Mrs.
Sturt to try experiments on with scraps of head-gear and jewellery,
and merely state that I had the white alpaca with blue velvet edges,
and blue beads round my head and neck; and then they did not _very
much_ mind the sight of me; and Edgar even said I looked a tidy little
thing enough. He and Marilda disposed of me in a nice little nook
in the recess of a window, more than half hidden by a curtain, and
capital for seeing and hearing, nearly as good as my old perch in the
organ gallery. Alda looked beautiful--such lovely rosy clouds of soft
gauziness, and wreaths of wild roses! She has put an end to the habit
of dressing like Marilda, to their mutual benefit; but, oh, if I could
see old W.W. in such garb! Doesn't she look disgusted? But who knows
what John may put her into?
'Oh, the things people wear! (then followed some pen-and-ink outlines,)
and the colours and the festoonings! I trust that in some stratum of
society somewhere there is more notion of the beautiful. If the world
is all like this, I can't tell why it should be so dangerous; for, as
far as I can see, it consists in conjugating the verb _to bore_.
'However, there was the music, and that was compensation. (A critical
account ensued then.) _Private._ Poor Edgar was quite upset when one of
the ladies varied from the programme by singing Alice's favourite old
"Sands of Dee." I saw him frowning and biting the end of his moustache,
as if he could hardly bear it; but, as you may guess, he was the more
funny and lively when he came to me, teasing me about that Sir Adrian,
whom he calls a specimen of the transmutation of metals--Dutch slime
made shiny, and threatening me with who or what would be transmuted
next; but I think Marilda has more principle.
'Afterwards I had a great treat, for Edgar spied Mr. Grinstead, whom
we had never expected, though he had a card, as he does not care for
music; and Cousin Tom only knows him through having bought his lovely
group of Una and the Lion. I had met him at the Renvilles'; and Edgar
brought him to my corner, where he leant against the window-shutter,
and talked most pleasantly, only he would go on all through the songs;
but one could excuse a great deal to a man who knew Thorwaldsen, and
has seen Canova; and he told me so much that I wanted to hear, that
it was a perfect feast. When he found I had never seen the Leonardo
at Morecombe House, he caught Mrs. Underwood, and arranged to take us
there at four o'clock on Wednesday. Fancy seeing a Leonardo! and with
him to explain it! Mrs. Underwood was quite in a rapture, because she
wants to see a cabinet that Lady Morecombe gave £150 for; but I thought
it very nasty of Sir Adrian to say that he knew Lord Morecombe very
well, and could take her there any day, to which Alda answered that she
hated show houses.'
(Enclosed from Edgar.)
'The fact is, that the Cherry is a brilliant success. She is our one
native genius for conversation; and I will say for the Pursuivant
that it has kept her up to the day. At Renville's she is the life of
everything; and even here the ocean of dullness cannot so entirely
asphyxiate her but that she sparkles up through it; and luckily Alda
has not so perceived it as to begin the extinguishing process--indeed,
she has affairs of her own to look to. As to Grinstead--it is a case
of captivation. Don't be afraid, or the reverse: he is a confirmed old
bachelor, bald and spectacled. Renville showed him her sketch of his
Una, and he said nothing had ever so hit off the soul. He met her at
their house; and she, not knowing who he was, was not encumbered with
any awe of greatness, but chattered like her own little self, till he
was taken with her freshness and cleverness, came here on purpose to
meet her, and is to show her the Morecombe gallery. A fine chance!
Altogether, the little maid has so many feathers in her cap, that she
wouldn't know where to stick them, if--poor little dear!--she ever
found them out, and didn't think every attention pure pity to her lame
foot.'
* * * * *
The next was the day of the festival at St. Matthew's. Mr. Underwood
graciously consented to use a carriage large enough to transport Cherry
and both her little sisters to his office, at the door of which there
appeared, however, not Clement, but Ferdinand Travis. The organist
had been suddenly taken ill, and Clement was supplying his place; so
Ferdinand, whose firm had taken a Whitsun holiday, was the substitute,
in the vain hope that Alda would have been of the party.
'No,' said Angela; 'they are going to ride. And, O Fernan! I am sure I
saw Brown Murad com--'
There she stopped short, either aghast at a sort of spasm that crossed
Ferdinand's countenance, or diverted by the full current of life in
Holborn; and he, recovering, began to point out whatever could interest
Cherry. He had a great deal to tell about St. Matthew's, where he knew
his way as well as Clement himself, and piloted his charge in good time
to the very place their brother had indicated for them.
The service was most beautiful, and full of life; and then ensued a
procession to, and benediction of, the new school and nursery for the
little ones. Afterwards came the new experience of luncheon for the
large motley party in the refectory of the clergy-house--new at least
to Cherry, for her sisters were not unfamiliar there; Robina had a dear
friend's little brother among the choristers, and Angela was chattering
to a curate or two. Clement was happy in meeting with old comrades; and
Cherry was glad that she was saved from being a burthen by Ferdinand's
devotion, and quite accepted his assurance that it was a great delight
to him.
Then followed a feast for the school-children and the aged; but the
atmosphere soon became too much for Cherry, and she thankfully accepted
Ferdinand's proposal of showing her the church in detail. It was only
on the other side of the quadrangle; and there was a great charm in
the lofty, cool, quiet building, where she could dwell thoroughly on
every decoration, permanent or temporary, and in full sympathy with her
companion, who went so fully and deeply into all these subjects, as to
lead her on, and open new meanings to her. At last they sat down in a
sort of cloister that ran round the court, to wait for the rest.
'Do you know,' said Geraldine, 'this place gives me a sense of life
and vigour. Our own seems to me, in comparison, a sort of sleeping, or
rather a mechanically acting, body, wanting a spirit and soul to be
breathed into it and make it effective.'
'You have never told me about your new curate,' said Ferdinand; and
indeed, by tacit consent, they had avoided the subject in Edgar's
presence.
'Mr. Flowerdew? Oh, he is very good, very gentle, and kind; but he is a
depressed elderly man, with all the energy disappointed and worn out of
him. His wife is dead; and he has two or three children, out, settled,
and fighting their way; and there he is alone, still an assistant
curate, tumbled about in secondary positions too long to care for any
more than just doing his duty without any life or spring.'
'Do you see much of him?' said Ferdinand, surprised by this intimate
knowledge.
'Yes. He makes the sick his special care, and he thinks me one; so he
comes sometimes, and sits half an hour when I am painting, without
saying a word. I think it is cheerful for him, in his way,' said
Cherry, with a merry laugh. 'And he is very musical; so the boys
like that. But do you know, Ferdinand, when I look at him, I do feel
thankful that my own dear father had not the long weary wear and tear
to change him. That man is older than he would be even now.'
'Of course it must be good,' said Ferdinand. 'And is there no chance of
Mr. Bevan coming back?'
'He wants another summer at the baths. The absence of the head
paralyses everything so. I always feel, when I go back from St.
Faith's, as if we had the framework, and of course the real essentials;
but we have to do all the work of bringing it home to ourselves.'
'I know what you mean,' said Ferdinand; 'though Bexley must be more to
me than any other place, this one is the great help and compensation to
me. How I wish Alda were near it!'
'Has she ever been here?'
'Once or twice; but only under its shadow does one enter into the real
life. Some day perhaps--'
Geraldine could not imagine the day of Alda's entering into the real
life of St. Matthew's; but she could only say, 'Of course there is a
vast difference between only coming as an outsider, and being one of
the congregation.'
'Immense; though I never found it out till I came to live here; and so
it would be with her. After all, were she but near, or I could see her
freely, I should enjoy my present life very much.'
'I'll tell you what I should do in your place,' said Cherry. 'I would
go straight to Mr. Underwood, and ask his leave to visit her; and I
don't believe he would make any objection.'
'No. Alda forbids that,' he answered, decidedly; 'and she can be the
only judge.' Cherry felt small. But presently he added, 'I wish I
could be rid of the doubt whether the present state of things is not
burdensome to her. Perhaps I ought to to have freed her at once; I
could have worked for her without binding her.'
'Nothing but affection really binds,' said Cherry, in some difficulty
for her answer.
'No; I might have trusted to that, but I thought the release would cost
her as much as myself; and she was at home then!' and he suppressed a
heavy sigh.
'She said it would be easier to meet you in London,' said Cherry; 'but
I don't think it is.'
'And absence leaves room for imaginations,' he said. 'And I have
nothing tangible to set against what I hear--ay, and see.'
'What?' the word was out of Cherry's mouth before she could check it.
'You can cast it out of my mind, perhaps,' he said. 'Do you ever see a
fellow of the name of Vanderkist?'
Cherry could not help starting. And his black brows bent, and his face
became stern, so that she was fain to cry, 'Oh, but it's Marilda!'
'Impossible!' he said, with what she thought a terrible smile at her
simplicity. 'I tell you, I saw his first look at her--at my Alda!' Some
ruthless Spanish ancestor must have looked out of the deep glow of his
eyes, as he added, 'I hear he has betted that she, as well as whatever
I used to prize, shall be his before the end of the season.'
'Let him!' said Cherry, proudly. 'Alda can't help that. She can't
hinder his coming to the house.'
'I know,' he said. 'Do not suppose that I doubt her. I trust her
entirely; but I am foolish enough to long for the assurance that there
is no cause for the rumour that she encourages him.'
Under such eyes of dark fire, it was well that Cherry could sincerely
answer, 'Oh no! Every one does come round her; but she does not let him
do so a bit more than other people.'
'You entirely believe that I may dismiss this as a base groundless
suspicion?'
'I do!' she said, with all her heart. 'We all know that Alda is used
to admiration; it comes to her as naturally as pity and help to me,
and makes no impression on her. Mrs. Underwood likes to have him as a
fashionable guest, that's all. Oh, Alda could never be so wicked!'
'You are right, Geraldine. Thank you,' he said, just as Clement and
the younger ones came in search of them, with Fred Somers, erst
fellow-chorister, now fellow-Cantab--a little wiry merry fellow, the
very antipodes to his bosom friend.
All wanted to stay for seven o'clock Evensong; but Robina was clear
that it was impossible, since the ladies were dispersing, and they had
no invitation to the clergy-house. Angela wildly asked if Clement could
not take them to the Tower, or St Paul's; Cherry could sit in a seat
while they went round.
'Sit in a seat!' cried Robina. 'She is tired already. Clement, do go
and call a cab.'
'Could you not go to Mrs. Kedge's, Cherry?' asked Clement. 'I want you
to hear our Pentecost Hymns.'
'Come to my rooms,' said Ferdinand. 'They are much nearer; and you
shall have tea and everything in no time.'
'Like greased lightning!' returned Angel, who always talked what she
supposed to be Yankee to Ferdinand. 'Oh, what fun! Do come, Cherry!'
'Do come,' repeated Ferdinand, eagerly; 'it is only round the corner,
no crossing, and no stairs; and you shall have a good rest--much better
than jingling away in a cab.'
'Thank you;' and Cherry looked inquiringly at Robina, whose discretion
she viewed as little short of Wilmet's. 'Would Miss Fulmort approve?'
'Yes,' said that wise little bird; 'we need only be in by ten. You had
much better, Cherry. You are quite as good as a brother--aren't you,
Fernan?'
In ten minutes more, Mr. Travis's landlady was aghast at the procession
pouring into her quiet ground-floor; while, after insisting on Cherry's
installation on a dingy lumpy bumpy sofa, their host might be overheard
giving orders for a sumptuous tea, though not exactly with the genius
of Wilmet or Lance.
He had cast his anxieties to the winds, and had never shown himself
so lively or so much at ease. To all it was a delightful frolic. Mr.
Somers was full of fun, and even Clement was gay--perhaps because
Whittingtonia had become a sort of native element to him, or else
because the oddity of the thing overcame him; and Angela was in an
ecstatic state, scarcely kept within bounds by her morning's promise to
be _very_ good.
Those dingy bachelor's rooms, close upon the street, and redolent of
tobacco to the utmost degree, could seldom have re-echoed with such
girlish fun as while Angela roamed about, saucily remarking on the
pipes and smoking equipments--relics, not disused, of the Life Guard
days. So likewise was the beautiful little chased silver tea-pot,
which was committed to Robin's management. Indeed, there was a large
proportion of plate, massive and remarkable.
'Mexican taste,' said Ferdinand, handing a curious sugar-basin. 'It
belonged to my grandmother, and was turned over to me when I set up for
myself.'
'What's this on it? said Angel. 'I declare, 'tis the caldron the
Mexicans boiled people's hearts in.'
'For shame, Angel!' said Robin; 'the Aztecs were not cannibals.'
'I beg your pardon, Bobbie; I know we read about Cortes seeing them
cutting out people's hearts on their temples like the tower of Babel,
because I thought of Fernan.'
'Hush!' said Cherry, seeing that the horrid subject was displeasing.
'There's nothing witty in talking of horrors. Besides, is not this the
Spanish olla?'
'I believe it is,' answered Ferdinand. 'It is the Mendez bearing, and
as the Travises can boast of none, I followed my spoons.'
'With the dish,' said Mr. Somers; a joke that in their present mood set
them laughing.
'Nothing can be more suited to the circumstances,' said Cherry, 'as the
olla is the emblem of hospitality.'
'What are the three things up above?' asked Angel; 'turnips going to be
stewed?'
'Santiago's cockle-shells, the token of pilgrimage,' said Ferdinand.
'That's the best part of the coat.'
'Some day I'll work you a banner-screen, Fernan,' said Robina; 'but
that will be when you impale our Underwood rood.'
'And the pilgrim is brought to the cross,' said Angela, in one of her
grave moments of fanciful imagery.
The echo of her words, however, struck Cherry as conveying an innuendo
that the child did not mean. Crosses could hardly be wanting to one who
had Alda for his wife; but happily no one else seemed to perceive it;
and they drifted on from grave to gay, and gay back to grave, till it
was time to return to the festival Evensong.
Clement and his friends had to hurry away to the station directly
after. He would have put his three sisters into a cab, and sent it home
with them; but Ferdinand insisted on squeezing his long limbs into
durance and escorting them, to the tune of Angel's chatter and the
clatter of the windows. Cherry was the first set down; and she went
straight to the drawing-room, ready for interest and sympathy.
'How late you are!' said Alda.
'How did you come?' asked Marilda.
'In a cab. It is gone on with the little girls. We stayed for evening
service. The lights were so beautiful!'
'Just what boys and girls run after,' said Mr. Underwood. 'I like my
opera to be an opera, and my church to be a church.'
'Yes,' said Mrs. Underwood, 'staying out so late, and in the city. I
don't half like such doings.'
'What could you have done between services?' added Alda. 'Were you at
the clergy-house all day?'
'Of course they were,' said Mr. Underwood. 'Trust a curate to take
care of a pretty girl. High or low, they are all alike.'
'No,' said Cherry, in blushing indignation; 'we had tea at Mr.
Travis's.'
'Indeed!' said Alda.
And Cherry knew the tone but too well; and under this plentiful shower
of cold water, perceiving her own fatigue, bade good night. She was
kindly bidden to send Nurse for wine, tea, or whatever she needed; but
she was still conscious of displeasure.
In the morning she was weary and dispirited, and for the first time
felt that there was no one to remark, as Felix or Wilmet would have
done, that she was flagging. Failing this, she prepared as usual to go
to her class; but before starting she encountered Mrs. Underwood.
'Geraldine,' said that lady, majestically, 'you are a talented young
person; but--you must excuse me--I cannot have such independence under
my roof. It is not _comifo_. Bless me, don't tremble so; I don't mean
anything. You meant no harm; only you should have come home, you know,
when your brother wasn't there.'
'But he was!' gasped Geraldine, colouring.
'Why, wasn't it that young man Travis met you?'
'He met us, for Clement was hindered; but Clement was there, and was
with us all the time.'
'H'm! That ought to have been explained. Why didn't you tell your
sister? She is quite distressed.'
A summons from Mr. Underwood obliged Cherry to hurry away, her heart
throbbing, her head whirling, and no comfort but hard squeezing the
ivory back of Lord Gerald; and when she reached Mr. Renville's, her
hand was trembling so, that she could not have drawn a line if the
good haus-frau had not dosed her with the strong coffee, which in true
German fashion was always ready. Then the absorbing interest of her art
revived her; and she returned home, cheered, and believing that the
misunderstanding was cleared up.
Indeed, Mrs. Underwood was as good-natured as ever; and Alda was
chiefly employed in rejecting all the solicitations to accompany
the party to Morecombe House, and rebutting the remonstrances on
the incivility to Mr. Grinstead; to which Marilda had yielded, but
grumbling loudly at the bore of seeing pictures and taking no pains to
conceal that she was cross and angry with Cherry for having brought it
upon her.
Poor Cherry! Of the few parties of pleasure of her life, this was
that which most reminded her of the old woman of Servia! After having
Marilda's glum face opposite through the drive, she was indeed most
kindly welcomed by Mr. Grinstead; but how could she enjoy the attention
that was so great a kindness and honour, when every pause before a
picture was a manifest injury to her companions?
Mrs. Underwood indeed had occupation in peeping under holland covers,
estimating the value of carpets and curtains, and admiring the gilt
frames; but this did not hold out as long as the examination of each
favourite picture in detail; and what was worse, Marilda plumped
herself down in the first chair in each room, and sat poking the floor
with her parasol, the model of glum discontent. How could the mind be
free for the Madonna's celestial calm, or the smiling verisimilitude
of portraiture? how respond or linger, when the very language of art
was mere uninteresting jargon to impatient captives, who thought her
comprehension mere affectation? While to all other discomforts must be
added the sense of missing one of the best opportunities of her life,
and of ill responding to a gracious act of condescension.
She came home tired to death, and with a bad headache, that no one took
the trouble to remark; and she dressed for dinner with a sense that it
mattered to no one how she felt.
Just as she was ready, Marilda came gravely in, sitting down in
preparation, Cherry felt, for something dreadful; but even her
imagination failed to depict the fact.
'Geraldine,' was the beginning, 'Alda wishes you to hear that she has
put an end to the engagement.'
Cherry absolutely screamed, 'Oh, oh, don't let her do that! It would be
so dreadful!'
Marilda looked severe. 'I don't suppose you thought what it was coming
to.'
'O! I have often been sorry to see things, but it seemed so atrocious
to think so.'
'Then you must have known you were doing wrong.'
'What--how--what have I done? I don't know what you mean!'
'Indeed! It is of no use to look frightened and innocent. Perhaps you
did not mean anything; but when it grew so marked, Alda could not but
feel it.'
'What? Does Alda mean _that?_' cried Cherry, starting up, scarlet with
horror.
'Now I see you understand. She is terribly hurt. She excuses it, for
she says you have been so petted all your life, that you don't know the
right bounds.'
'And can you really think this of me?' moaned she.
'It is just like every one when they have the chance--no one ever means
it,' said Marilda.
'Oh!' cried Cherry, as a fresh horror came across her, 'but if Alda
thinks ever so horridly of me, how can she doubt him? Oh, stop her,
stop her! Let me only tell her how he talked of her yesterday! His
whole soul is full of her. Oh, stop her, Marilda, do!'
'It is of no use,' said Marilda; 'she has sent her letter. She was
resolved to do nothing hastily, so she went this morning and saw the
little girls.'
'Oh, oh!' broke in Cherry, with another cry of pain. 'Those poor
children have not been brought into trouble again?'
'No; it was no doing of theirs; but when she perceived the exclusive
attention that--when she found,' hesitated Marilda, forgetting her
lesson, 'how you had been sitting in the cloister--in short, how it had
all gone on--she said it was the finishing stroke.'
'Oh!' a sigh or groan, as if stabbed; then with spirit, 'but why wasn't
she there herself? He only took me for want of her! He only speaks to
me because I am her sister. He was so unhappy--I was trying to cheer
him.'
'So you might think; but that's the way those things run on. There's
the gong!'
Cherry rose, but felt that sitting at table would end in faintness, and
Marilda went away in doubt, between pity and displeasure, whether at
contrition or affectation.
No sooner was the door shut, and Cherry alone, than a terrible hysterical
agony came on. There was personal sense of humiliation--passionate anger,
despair, for Ferdinand's sake--miserable loneliness and desertion. She
felt as if she were in a house full of enemies; and had absolute
difficulty in restraining screams for Felix to come and take her
home. The physical need of Wilmet or Sibby, to succour and soothe her
agitation and exhaustion, soon became so great as to overpower the
mental distress; but she would not call or ring; and when Mrs. Sturt
came, the kind woman made as if the headache accounted for all.
She reported that Miss Alda likewise had gone to her room with a
headache; and Cherry saw no one but Mrs. Underwood, who looked in to
offer impossible remedies, and be civilly but stiffly compassionate.
The stifled hysteria was much worse for Geraldine than free tears. She
had a weary night of wretched dream fancies, haunted by Ferdinand's
sombre face, convulsed with rage, and tormented by the belief that
she had done something so frightful as to put her out of the pale of
humanity; nor was it till long after daylight that she could so collect
her ideas as to certify herself that if she had done wrong, it had at
least been unwittingly; but even then she was in a misery of shame, and
of the most intense longing for her brother or sister to defend and
comfort her.
She managed to rise and dress; but she was far too unwell to attempt
the classes for the day. Alda spoke coldly; and she crept away, to lie
on the sofa in the old school-room, trusting that before post-time
her hand might grow steady enough to write an entreaty to be taken
home, and longing--oh! longing more every hour for Edgar, and still
he did not come! Marilda looked in, began to believe her really ill,
grew compassionate, asked how she treated such attacks, deemed her
penitent, and began to soothe her as if she was a naughty baby. Then,
in desperation, Cherry ventured to ask what had been heard of him--Mr.
Travis. He had been at the door--he had taken no refusal--had forced an
interview--he was gone. Alda was in her own room, bolted in. Marilda
had not seen her since.
Cherry shook from head to foot, and quivered with suppressed strangling
sobs, as the shame of such a requital for the sacrifice of Ferdinand's
whole career agonised her at one moment, and at another she was
terrified at the possible effect on that fervid nature.
Oh, that long, long piteous day! She never did write--never even felt
as if she could sit up to guide a pen. At last Alda came in, with a
strange awe-struck paleness about her face, as if she had gone through
something terrible; and in a tone that sounded unnatural, said, 'Come,
Cherry, don't give way so. I didn't mean to accuse you. People don't
always know what they are doing. I am thankful on my own account.'
Cherry had longed for a kind word; but this sort of pardon was like
Alda's taking the advantage of her when Felix was not there to protect
her. Not naturally meek, she was too much shaken to control a voice
that sounded more like temper than sorrow. 'You have no right to accuse
me at all, as if I were a traitor!'
'Not a deliberate traitor, my dear,' said Alda, in a voice of candour;
'certainly not; but you don't know the advantage helplessness and
cleverness give over us poor beauties who show our best at first. I
blame no one for using their natural weapons.'
'Don't, Alda!' cried Cherry, with the sharpness of keen offence. 'You
may keep that speech for those you got it up for!'
'Well, if you are in such a mood as that, nobody can talk to you,'
said Alda, going away, and leaving her to a worse paroxysm of misery
than before, and an inexpressible sense of desolation, passing into an
almost frantic craving for Edgar, to make him take her home.
Marilda gave a little relief by telling her that he was sent for; but
after long expectation, word came that he was not at home, nor did his
landlady know when he would return.
By this time it was too late to send a letter; and Cherry began to feel
ashamed of having so given way, and to think of exerting herself to
recover, if only to be in a condition to go home when Edgar should be
found; so she made an effort to remember the remedies with which she
was wont to be passively dosed by Wilmet, went to bed, and tried hard
to put herself to sleep. Though it was long before she effectually
succeeded, she was much calmer in the morning, deeply wounded indeed,
but trying to accept the imputation that her habit of expecting aid
might have led her into what had given umbrage to Alda, and that self
immolation might yet heal the misunderstanding, and the desire to plead
with Alda seemed to brace her nerves; but Alda was not attainable. She
only just came in, in her habit, while Mrs. Sturt was dressing Cherry,
and said that she had such a headache, that she must take a country
ride; and Cherry, who felt as if she had been under a stampede of wild
horses, could only just crawl to the sofa, and lie there; while the
whole family were in such wholesome dread of that dumb hysteria, that
they were as tender as they knew how to be, and abstained from all
reference to the previous day.
The afternoon had come on the weary, home-sick, exhausted spirit, when
a springy step came along the corridor, a light airy rap struck the
door, and a tall, lithe, yet strong form, and a pair of kind smiling
eyes, brought the sense of love and guardianship that the spoilt child
of home had been pining for. She had yesterday meant to cry out to
him,' O Edgar, take me home!' but she did not speak, only looked up,
glad and relieved.
'Why, Cherry,' as he kissed her hot brow, and caressingly held her limp
cold hand, 'it seems to be the family fashion to suffer by proxy for
these little catastrophes. Who is to take to his or her bed when some
Indian spinster hooks W.W.'s engineer?'
'Hush, Edgar! Have you seen _him?_'
'Have not I?'
'Ah, I knew you must be with him, when they could not find you!'
'Me? No; I had enough of it the night before! I had had too narrow an
escape of getting my neck wrung for declining to act as go-between, to
subject myself to the same again, and went off with some fellows to
Richmond--only came back an hour ago.'
'O, Edgar! if you had but tried--'
'Take my advice, Cherry. Never put your foot into a boiling cauldron!
Besides, don't you know perfectly well that never was there a worse
matched pair? St. Anthony and Venus attired by the Graces; and very
little more attire could he give her. If dear old Blunderbore had had
a grain of common sense he would have told them so a year ago; and I
should have thought even you could have seen it to be a happy release.'
'I see you don't know the cause--'
'Visible enough to the naked eye!' And Edgar, in imitation of Theodore,
hummed 'Mynheer van Dunck.'
'For shame, Edgar! Oh no! it is only what could be mended if you would
but show her that I--that he--that he only was kind to me for her sake.
If she would only hear what he was saying to me! but she won't! Just
set it straight; and then, please--please take me home.'
'Well,' said Edgar, as he gathered the drift of her broken phrases,
spoken with her face hidden on his shoulder, 'this is as nasty,
spiteful a trick as Alda ever played! He said she put it on some motive
of jealousy--and she always was a jealous toad; but I never guessed at
this! Never mind, Chérie. She only wanted a pretext, and you came first
to hand. I'll let her know what I think of it--and Polly too!'
'But, indeed, I don't think I was guarded enough.'
'Of course you don't. You and Tina think yourselves the most
heavenly-minded when you can accuse yourselves of anything utterly
ridiculous.'
'It was what she heard from Robin and Angel.'
'The marplots of the family--little minxes!' said Edgar, with a
bitterness she was sorry to have provoked. 'No,' he added, 'not
marplots in this case. I see it all as plain as a pikestaff! Felix
having shown his usual refreshing innocence by leaving Alda in this
predicament, she had to get out of it as best she could; so she trumps
up this charge between Robin's prudery and Angel's chatter; nor would I
have blamed her a bit if she had only flourished it in his eyes; but to
poison Marilda with it, and annihilate you--I can't forgive that!'
'Oh, but she believes it.'
'If she gets up a little delusion--a slight screen to the Mynheer--she
ought to keep it to herself.'
'I shall try to write it all properly to her when I get home.'
'Home! You aren't going to be ill?'
'No; but I can't stay after all this--to be looked on in this way.'
'I'll settle that.'
'You can't expose Alda.'
'I shall expose her no more than I have done fifty times before. Don't
be afraid. We understand one another--Polly, Alda, and I.'
'Don't defend me! I had so much rather go back.'
'Of course; but you need not be a little goose. You did not come here
for pleasure, but business. And is this great genius to be stifled
because Alda talks a little unjustifiable nonsense?'
'Do you think Felix and Wilmet would tell me to stay?'
'Wilmet certainly would. Felix might be tempted to take his baby home
to rock; but even he has sense enough to tell you that the only way to
deal with such things is to brazen them out.'
'I haven't got any brass.'
'Then you must get some. Seriously, Cherry, it would be very silly to
go flying home, throwing up all your opportunities, and the very thing
to give some _vraisemblance_ to Alda's accusation. If I had only been
here yesterday, I'd have choked it in the throat of her, and hindered
you from caring a straw; but I didn't want to meet Travis in his exies.'
'I wish you would really tell me about him--poor dear Fernan!'
'Take care! That looks suspicious. Well, poor fellow! the Mexican is
strong in him. _Grattez lui_ ever so slightly. Well for Mynheer that he
is not out with him on a prairie, with a revolver! But, whereas Audley
and Felix caught him in time to make a spoon out of a bowie-knife, I
don't expect much to happen, beyond my distraction from his acting
caged panther in my room till two o'clock that night!'
'He came here and saw her yesterday. Have you seen him since?'
No; Edgar had kept out of the way, and would not talk of him; but stood
over his sister, wishing to soothe and relieve the little thing, for
whom he cared more than for all the lovers put together, and whose wan
exhausted looks, visible suffering, and nervous shudders he could not
bear to see. 'I wish you weren't too big for rocking, Baby,' he said.
And then he sat down to the piano, playing and singing a low soft
lullaby, which at last brought quiet sleep to the refreshment of the
harassed mind and weary frame.
The hum of conversation in an undertone at length gradually roused her.
'The long and short of it is, that she was tired of it.'
'But she wouldn't have invented such a story.'
'I never said she invented it! She's not so stupid but that she can
put a gloss on a thing; and you _know_ she hates to have a civil word
said to any one but herself--particularly to that poor little dear.'
'Then it wasn't right to let him be always running after her.'
'Stuff! They'd been cronies ever since he was first caught; in fact,
she was one of the tame elephants that licked him into shape, long
before he set eyes on either of you. No stuff about it at all; they are
just like brother and sister. The poor child would no more be capable
of such a thing than that lay figure of hers--hasn't it in her; and for
you to go and bully her!'
'Well,' in a half-puzzled, half-angered tone, 'that's what Alda says.
She declares she only told me, and never meant me to speak to _her_
about the cause.'
'She wanted to play off the injured heroine; and you--not being up to
such delicate subtilties, walked off to speak your mind. Eh!'
'I thought I ought.'
'You put your great thumb on a poor little May-fly, just as if it had
been a tortoise!'
'I'm sure I had no notion she would be so unhappy; all girls do such
things; and most are proud of it. I was only disappointed to find her
like the rest; but I'd no notion she would cry herself ill.'
Here Geraldine's senses became sufficiently clear to make her aware
that she was the topic, and ought to rouse herself, no longer to let
the discussion mingle with her dreams. With some effort she opened her
eyes, and saw Edgar astride on the music-stool, and Marilda leaning on
the mantel-shelf.
'I'm awake,' she drowsily said.
'To the battle over your prostrate body,' said Edgar. 'Go to sleep
again, little one. Polly is very sorry, and won't do so no more.'
'She didn't say so, Edgar,' said Cherry; 'and if I had really done so,
she ought to have been a great deal more angry with me.'
'Well, Geraldine,' said Marilda, 'I believe, whatever you did, you
didn't know it; and I know I was hard on you. My father and mother
don't know anything about it--only that it is off--'
'And that they rightly ascribe to Alda's good sense,' said Edgar.
This much relieved Cherry, who had thought it impossible to remain
where she was, viewed as a traitor to her own sister. It wounded her,
indeed, that Marilda should merely condone the offence, instead of
acquitting her; but when she recollected the probability that Marilda
had suffered the like treatment from Alda, who was nevertheless loved
so heartily, it began to dawn upon her that there was a disposition to
view the offence as common, natural, and light, rather than not excuse
the offender. She despised her cousin for lowering the standard to suit
a favourite, and was sure she should never be comfortable again till
she got home; but she was reasonable enough to perceive the force of
what Edgar had shown her--as to the folly of forsaking her studies, and
abandoning the advantages offered to her; and his kindness had much
cheered her; so she said no more about going home, and resumed her
former habits, though feeling that Marilda's patronizing cordiality was
gone, and that Alda was simply cold and indifferent.
She felt especially unwilling to face the two little girls, who seemed
to have acted as false witnesses against her; but an imploring note
from Robina besought her to call; and on arriving in the parlour, where
interviews were allowed, she was greeted with, 'O Cherry, is it true?
and was that why Alda came here?'
Then she found that they had heard from home of the rupture of the
engagement; and that they had immediately connected it with Alda's
extraordinary visit of the week previous.
'She came to bring us a cake,' said Robin; 'but as she never did so
before, I thought something was at the bottom of it, and that she just
wanted to hear more about Ferdinand and his lodgings.'
'And,' added Angel, who, if less sensible, was far before Robina in a
certain irregular precocity, 'I thought I'd get a rise out of her, and
chaff her a little. She used to be so savage last year, whenever Fernan
treated you with common humanity.'
'O Angel, how could you!'
'You don't mean that it did the harm! Bobbie said so; but I didn't
think Alda could be so silly as to think it in earnest, Cherry.'
'Angel, you have been playing with edge-tools.'
'Cherry, tell me what you mean!' Angela pounced on both her arms, as if
to shake it out of her.
'Never do such a thing again, Angel. You cannot tell what you may be
doing.'
'Well, if any one could be so stupid! So dense, as not to see it was
fun! Now, Robin--'
'I think,' said the practical Robin, 'that all you can do, is to write
down a full confession that you meant to tease Alda.'
'Yes, yes, yes,' cried Angela, with less shame than Cherry would have
thought possible, 'I will! I will! and then they'll make it up. Who
would have thought Alda could have been so easily taken in? But how
shall I do it unknownst to the harpies?'
Cherry offered a pencil, and a bit of her drawing-block. She made no
suggestion, thinking that the more characteristic the confession was,
the more it would prove its authenticity. Angela retired into a window,
and wrote, in her queer unformed hand:
I, Angela Margaret Underwood, hereby confess that whatever I
told Alda, my sister, about Geraldine and F.T., was all cram;
and if I did it too well, I'm very sorry for it. F.T. didn't
take a bit more notice of Cherry than of Robin and me; and of
course he cannot marry the three of us: and of course it was
all right, for Clement was there. Ask him.
Witness my hand,
ANGELA MARGARET UNDERWOOD.
Then she called, 'Come and witness it, Robin.'
'Nonsense,' said Robina; and coming to look, she exclaimed, 'you have
made it simply ridiculous. This will do no good!--See, Cherry.'
But Cherry would not have it altered, and merely bade Robina write her
testimony.
This took much longer, though the produce was much briefer. It was
only--
MY DEAR ALDA,
Angela was only talking nonsense the other day. If I had not
thought so, I would have told you.
Your affectionate sister,
ROBINA B. UNDERWOOD.
'You've made a letter of it!' exclaimed Angela. 'I thought it was to be
a last will and--no, a dying speech and confession; which is it? Well,
if that does not set it all straight, I can't tell what will!'
Cherry was a good deal perplexed by the testimony now she had obtained
it. She thought the matter over on her return, and ended by seeking
Marilda; and with much excuse for Angela, putting it into her hands to
show to Alda. She felt it due to herself to make sure that Marilda saw
it, such as it was.
Marilda undertook that Alda should see it. Geraldine watched and
waited. There was no apology to herself. At that she did not wonder.
Was there any note of recall sounded to Ferdinand? Was Alda proud? or
was she in very truth indifferent, and unwilling to give up her excuse
for a quarrel? or had she really relented, and apologized in secret?
It was strange to know so little, and venture so much less with her own
sister than could Marilda, whom, in their present stiff reserve, Cherry
durst not question.