IT IS NOT POSSIBLE FOR TRUE LOVE TO FORGET.
"Have you seen the full moon
Drift behind a cloud,
Hiding all of nature
In a dusky shroud?
"Have you seen the light snow
Change to sudden rain,
And the virgin streets grow
Black as ink again?
"Have you seen the ashes
When the flame is spent,
And the cheerless hearth-stone
Grim and eloquent?
"Have you seen the ball-room
When the dance is done,
And its tawdry splendor
Meets the morning sun?
"Dearest, all these pictures
Cannot half portray
How my life has altered
Since you've gone away!"
HARRY ROMAINE.
It was impossible for Hawthorne to sleep that night after the sight of
the beautiful stranger, Miss Fitzgerald, whose startling likeness to
his lost darling had awakened in his heart a fresh agony of love and
pain.
He tossed and turned restlessly all night upon his pillow, thinking of
Geraldine until his heart was on fire with its agony.
Could it be true what that dastard Standish had told him?
Had he indeed won the girl from the path of truth and honor, to make
shipwreck of her life for the sake of a guilty love?
No, no, no! He could not, would not believe it!
She was pure as snow, his lovely Geraldine.
But where was she, what had been her fate since she left New York in
company with the arch-villain, Standish?
"I cannot find her by myself. I must put a detective on the case
to-morrow," he decided.
The young author, who was burning the midnight oil over a charming
poem, was disturbed by his groans, and came in to see about him.
"I fear you are worse. That little outing was too much for you," he
exclaimed.
"No, it is not that. I am restless; it is a trouble of the heart,"
confessed the patient, frankly.
"Ah!" exclaimed Ralph, sympathetically, adding: "Can I help you?"
"No one can help me," sighed Hawthorne, hopelessly.
"Is it a love affair?"
"Yes."
"It is hopeless, I judge, from your expressions. Then why not throw it
from your mind? Forget the cruel fair one?"
"Have you ever loved, Ralph?"
"Never," laughed the handsome young author, who only worshiped at the
shrine of the muses.
"I thought not, or you would not use that hackneyed word forget. It is
impossible to real love--a poet's dream, but an impossibility."
"Have you loved so deeply?"
"With all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my mind!" groaned
Hawthorne, adding: "My dear friend, may God keep you from ever knowing
such love and pain and grief as fill my heart to bursting."
Ralph was silent. He saw that here was a grief beyond comfort.
He wondered what was the mysterious nature of Hawthorne's sad
love-story, but he was too generous to ask such a question.
He could only gaze at him in tender, silent sympathy.
Hawthorne continued, passionately:
"It is not my way to dwell on my own troubles, but to-night my sorrow
overwhelms me! To love and to lose--oh, Ralph, that is the bitterest
thing of life!"
"Is she dead, your loved one?"
"Ah! no, she is not dead! I could almost wish that she were, in my
dread that she is dead to me forever! And if she is, oh, if she is, how
can I bear the gloom of my life henceforward?--the blank darkness of a
night of storm following on the sunshine of a perfect day. Oh, God!"
groaned Hawthorne, tossing his arms above his pillow in anguish.
The young poet gazed at him in deepest sympathy and pity. He had not
loved yet, but he could understand and pity, for to the poet's soul
all the secrets of life are felt and known through the subtle occultism
of genius.
"The poet in a golden clime was born,
With golden stars above;
Dowered with the hate of hate, the scorn of scorn,
The love of love.
"He saw through life and death, through good and ill,
saw through his own soul."
As Ralph gazed at the handsome face of the unhappy lover, he felt that
here was the material for a novelist's pen to frame a most bewitching
love-story, and he hoped that some day Hawthorne would confide in him.
Suddenly the young man looked up at him, saying, abruptly:
"Ralph, I want you to take me to the best detective in Chicago
to-morrow morning."
"Very well," replied Ralph, going to a table and mixing a sedative
that had been used under Doctor Rowe's orders. He presented it to the
patient, saying:
"Drink this, or you won't be able to stir to-morrow morning."
Hawthorne complied readily, for he was, indeed, weary of the tumult of
his mind and heart.
He closed his eyes wearily, and Ralph dimmed the light and returned to
his study, and the last verse of the pretty poem he was composing.
When he had written the last line he heard Hawthorne breathing gently
in a saving sleep, and he, too, retired to his bed.
Both slept late the next morning, and breakfast and the morning papers
were brought up together for Hawthorne.
Ralph saw that his charge was comfortable, and went out to a
neighboring _cafe_ where he was wont to meet his friend Mr. Hill at the
morning meal.
Hawthorne made a very light meal in bed, dismissed the servant with
the tray, and then turned his attention to the newspapers--the Chicago
_Herald_ first.
And as he skimmed over the telegraphic news from abroad, he came across
a paragraph that worked a curious change in him.
His face grew pale with emotion, and sinking back on his pillow, he
sighed to himself:
"I must go home."
When Ralph returned with Mr. Hill, who always made a morning call
on his _protege_, as he humorously termed Hawthorne, they found the
patient dressing in feverish haste.
"Boys, I must return to New York to-day," he exclaimed.
While they gazed at him in surprise, he continued:
"Business of a very important nature obliges me to cross the ocean as
soon as possible; and--in brief--I owe you both a debt of gratitude
that I wish to repay you by asking you to accompany me on my trip to
Europe as my guests. Will you come? I am not poor, as you supposed,
in the kindness of your hearts, when you took me in, a stranger, and
nursed and cared for me, and a cordial welcome will meet you in my
English home!"
They were startled and surprised at his generosity, but Hawthorne would
not listen to their refusals.
"I love you both like brothers, and I will not be refused. You shall
come with me," he declared, and his cordiality won their consent.
Arrangements were speedily made, and after a visit to a detective, the
three friends left for New York.