Askatoon never included the Mazarines in its social scheme. Certainly
Tralee was some distance from the town, but, apart from that, the
new-comers remained incongruous, alien and alone. The handsome,
inanimate girl-wife never appeared by herself in the streets of
Askatoon, but always in the company of her morose husband, whose only
human association seemed to be his membership in the Methodist body
so prominent in the town. Every Sunday morning he tied his pair of bay
horses with the covered buggy to the hitching-post in the church-shed
and marched his wife to the very front seat in the Meeting House, having
taken possession of it on his first visit, as though it had no other
claimants. Subsequently he held it in almost solitary control,
because other members of the congregation, feeling his repugnance to
companionship, gave him the isolation he wished. As a rule he and
his wife left the building before the last hymn was sung, so avoiding
conversation. Now and again he stayed to a prayer-meeting and, doing so,
invariably “led in prayer,” to a very limited chorus of “Amens.” For in
spite of the position which Tralee conferred on its owner, there was
a natural shrinking from “that wild boar,” as outspoken Sister Skinner
called him in the presence of the puzzled and troubled Minister.
This was always a time of pained confusion for the girl-wife. She
had never “got religion,” and there was something startling to her
undeveloped nature in the thunderous apostrophes, in terms of the oldest
part of the Old Testament, used by her tyrant when he wrestled with the
Lord in prayer.
These were perhaps the only times when her face was the mirror of her
confused, vague and troubled youth. Captive in a world bounded by a
man’s will, she simply did not begin to understand this strange and
overpowering creature who had taken possession of her body, mind and
soul. She trembled and hesitated before every cave of mystery which her
daily life with him opened darkly to her abashed eyes. She felt herself
going round and round and round in a circle, not forlorn enough to rebel
or break away, but dazed and wondering and shrinking. She was like one
robbed of will, made mechanical by a stern conformity to imposed rules
of life and conduct. There were women in Askatoon who were sorry for
her and made efforts to get near her; but whether it was the Methodist
Minister or his wife, or the most voluble sister of the prayer-meeting,
none got beyond the threshold of Tralee, as it were.
The girl-wife abashed them. She was as one who automatically spoke
as she was told to speak, did what she was told to do. Yet she always
smiled at the visitors when they came, or when she saw them and others
at the Meeting House. It was, however, not a smile for an individual,
whoever that individual might chance to be. It was only the kindness
of her nature expressing itself. Talking seemed like the exercise of a
foreign language to her, but her smiling was free and unconstrained, and
it belonged to all, without selection.
The Young Doctor, looking at her one day as she sat in a buggy while her
monster-man was inside the chemist’s shop, said to himself:
“Sterilized! Absolutely, shamefully sterilized! But suppose she wakes up
suddenly out of that dream between life and death--what will happen?”
He remembered that curious, sudden, delicate catch of his palm on the
day when they first shook hands at the railway-station, and to him it
was like the flutter of life in a thing which seemed dead. How often he
had noticed it in man and animal on the verge of extinction! He had not
mistaken that fluttering appeal of her fingers. He was young enough to
translate it into flattering terms of emotion, but he did not do so.
He was fancy-free himself, and the time would come when he would do a
tremendous thing where a woman was concerned, a woman in something the
same position as this poor girl; but that shaking, thrilling thing was
still far off from him. For this child he only felt the healer’s desire
to heal.
He was one of those men who never force an issue; he never put forward
the hands of the clock. He felt that sooner or later Louise Mazarine--he
did not yet know her Christian name--would command his help, as so many
had done in that prairie country, and not necessarily for relief of
physical pain or the curing of disease. He had helped as many men and
women mentally and morally as physically; the spirit of healing was
behind everything he did. His world recognized it, and that was why he
was never known by his name in all the district--he was only admiringly
called “The Young Doctor.”
He had never been to Tralee since the Mazarines had arrived, though he
had passed it often and had sometimes seen Louise in the garden with her
dog, her black cat and her bright canary. The combination of the cat and
the canary did not seem incongruous where she was concerned; it was
as though something in her passionless self neutralized even the
antagonisms of natural history. She had made the gloomy black cat
and the light-hearted canary to be friends. Perhaps that came from an
everlasting patience which her life had bred in her; perhaps it was the
powerful gift of one in touch with the remote, primitive things.
The Young Doctor had also seen her in the paddock with the horses,
bare-headed, lithe and so girlishly slim, with none of the unmistakable
if elusive lines belonging to the maturity which marriage brings. He had
taken off his hat to her in the distance, but she had never waved a hand
in reply. She only stood and gazed at him, and her look followed him
long after he passed by. He knew well that in the gaze was nothing
of the interest which a woman feels in a man; it was the look of one
chained to a rock, who sees a Samaritan in the cheerless distance.
In the daily round of her life she was always busy; not restlessly, but
constantly, and always silently, busy. She was even more silent than
her laconic half-breed hired woman, Rada. There was no talk with her
gloating husband which was not monosyllabic. Her canary sang, but no
music ever broke from her own lips. She murmured over her lovely yellow
companion; she kissed it, pleaded with it for more song, but the only
music at her own lips was the occasional music of her voice; and it had
a colourless quality which, though gentle, had none of the eloquence and
warmth of youth.
In form and feature she was one made for emotion and demonstration, and
the passionate play of the innocent enterprises of wild youth; but there
was nothing of that in her. Gray age had drunk her life and had
given her nothing in return--neither companionship nor sympathy nor
understanding; only the hunger of a coarse manhood. Her obedience to
the supreme will of her jealous jailer gave no ground for scolding or
reproach, and that saved her much. She was even quietly cheerful, but
it was only the pale reflection of a lost youth which would have been
buoyant and gallant, gay and glad, had it been given the natural thing
in the natural world.
There came a day, however, when the long, unchanging routine, gray with
prison grayness, was broken; when the round of household duties and the
prison discipline were interrupted. It was as sudden as a storm in the
tropics, as final and as fateful as birth or death. That day she was
taken suddenly and acutely ill. It was only a temporary malady, an
agonizing pain which had its origin in a sudden chill. This chill was
due, as the Young Doctor knew when he came, to a vitality which did not
renew itself, which got nothing from the life to which it was sealed,
which for some reason could not absorb energy from the stinging, vital
life of the prairie world in the June-time.
In her sudden anguish, and in the absence of Joel Mazarine, she sent
for the Young Doctor. That in itself was courageous, because it was
impossible to tell what view the master of Tralee would take of her
action, ill though she was. She was not supposed to exercise her will.
If Joel Mazarine had been at home, he would have sent for wheezy,
decrepit old Doctor Gensing, whose practice the Young Doctor had
completely absorbed over a series of years.
But the Young Doctor came. Rada, the half-breed woman, had undressed
Louise and put her to bed; and he found her white as snow at the end of
a paroxysm of pain, her long eyelashes lying on a cheek as smooth as a
piece of Satsuma ware which has had the loving polish of ten thousand
friendly fingers over innumerable years. When he came and stood beside
her bed, she put out her hand slowly towards him. As he took it in his
firm, reassuring grasp, he felt the same fluttering appeal which
had marked their handclasp on the day of their first meeting at the
railway-station. Looking at the huge bed and the rancher-farmer’s coarse
clothes hanging on pegs, the big greased boots against the wall, a
sudden savage feeling of disgust and anger took hold of him; but the
spirit of healing at once emerged, and he concentrated himself upon the
duty before him.
For a whole hour he worked with her, and at length subdued the
convulsions of pain which distorted the beautiful face and made the
childlike body writhe. He had a resentment against the crime which had
been committed. Marriage had not made her into a woman; it had driven
her back into an arrested youth. It was as though she ought to have worn
short skirts and her hair in a long braid down her back. Hers was the
body of a young boy. When she was free from pain, and the colour had
come back to her cheeks a little, she smiled at him, and was about
to put out her hand as a child might to a brother or a father, when
suddenly a shadow stole into her eyes and crept across her face, and she
drew her clenched hand close to her body. Still, she tried to smile at
him.
His quiet, impersonal, though friendly look soothed her.
“Am I very sick!” she asked.
He shook his head and smiled. “You’ll be all right to-morrow, I hope.”
“That’s too bad. I would like to be so sick that I couldn’t think of
anything else. My father used to say that the world was only the size of
four walls to a sick person.”
“I can’t promise you so small a world,” remarked the Young Doctor with
a kind smile, his arm resting on the side of the bed, his chair drawn
alongside. “You will have to face the whole universe to-morrow, same as
ever.”
She looked perplexed, and then said to him: “I used to think it was a
beautiful world, and they try to make me think it is yet; but it isn’t.”
“Who try to make you?” he asked.
“Oh, my bird Richard, and Nigger the black cat, and Jumbo, the dog,” she
replied.
Her eyes closed, then opened strangely wide upon him in an eager,
staring appeal.
“Don’t you want to know about me?” she asked. “I want to tell you--I
want to tell you. I’m tired of telling it all over to myself.”
The Young Doctor did not want to know. As a doctor he did not want to
know.
“Not now,” he said firmly. “Tell me when I come again.”
A look of pain came into her face. “But who can tell when you’ll come
again!” she pleaded.
“When I will things to be, they generally happen,” he answered in a
commonplace tone. “You are my patient now, and I must keep an eye on
you. So I’ll come.”
Again, with an almost spasmodical movement towards him, she said:
“I must tell you. I wanted to tell you the first day I saw you. You
seemed the same kind of man my father was. My name’s Louise. It was my
mother made me do it. There was a mortgage--I was only sixteen. It’s
three years ago. He said to my mother he’d tear up the mortgage if I
married him. That’s why I’m here with him--Mrs. Mazarine. But my name’s
Louise.”
“Yes, yes, I know,” the Young Doctor answered soothingly. “But you must
not talk of it now. I understand perfectly. Tell me all about it another
time.”
“You don’t think I should have--” She paused.
“Of course. I tell you I understand. Now you must be quiet. Drink this.”
He got up and poured some liquid into a glass.
At that moment there was a noise below in the hall. “That’s my husband,”
the girl-wife said, and the old wan captive-look came into her face.
“That’s all right,” replied the Young Doctor. “He’ll find you better.”
At that moment the half-breed woman entered the room. “He’s here,” she
said, and came towards the bed.
“That old woman has sense,” the Young Doctor murmured to himself. “She
knows her man.”
A minute later Joel Mazarine was in the room, and he saw the half-breed
woman lift his wife’s head, while the Young Doctor held a glass to her
lips.
“What’s all this?” Mazarine said roughly. “What?” He stopped suddenly,
for the Young Doctor faced him sharply.
“She must be left alone,” he said firmly and quietly, his eyes fastening
the old man’s eyes; and there was that in them which would not be
gainsaid. “I have just given her medicine. She has been in great pain.
“We are not needed here now.” He motioned towards the door. “She must be
left alone.”
For an instant it seemed that the old man was going to resist the
dictation; but presently, after a scrutinizing look at the still,
shrinking figure in the bed, he swung round, left the room and descended
the stairs, the Young Doctor following.