Edward Fanshawe, the individual whose appearance at Tom Heriot’s funeral
had excited Miss Jean’s curiosity so strongly, was, perhaps, about the
last man in England to whom Mr. Heriot of Pitcomlie, or any other
father, would have confided his daughter’s happiness. Almost all that
could be said in his favour was negative. There was no harm in him. He
had never been involved in any discreditable transaction; he had wronged
nobody; he had not even bored his friends. A certain fine instinct,
indeed, in this respect, possessed the man; he had no high moral
qualities, no principles to speak of, no plan of life nor rule of
action; but he was never a bore. He perceived, with the quickness of
lightning, the moment when his friends had had enough of him. Perhaps
that moment arrived simultaneously with the moment in which he felt that
he had enough of them; anyhow, he chose it with the most admirable
exactitude. It was the one great quality of his character; he was like
the sun in Hood’s poem, which “never came an hour too soon,” and he
never stayed a moment too late.
Mr. Fanshawe was always agreeable, sympathetic, ready to interest
himself in what interested those about him; he was a gentleman of the
best blood and connections--cousin to Lord Strangeways, once removed,
and allied by the mother’s side to the Duchess of Dimsdale, whose name
is a sufficient guarantee, we trust, for any man’s gentility. He had
just the amount of family and of money which is best adapted to
demoralize a man, and turn him away from the natural and wholesome
channels of use. And at the same time he had no land, no local
habitation to keep up, no duties to do. What he had was in money, which
a careful father had so locked up that the poor fellow could not even
ruin himself by spending everything, and thus give himself the chance of
a new start. He could only forestall his income, which he did
continually, with more or less painful consequences to himself, and no
great harm to anybody else; for he was weak-minded enough to have a
prejudice in favour of paying his debts, though he seldom did it until
considerably after date. He was not a fool, any more than he was a
rogue; he was the very best, gentlest, most amiable, kind, and harmless
of good-for-nothings; but a good-for-nothing he was. He had no vices,
not even that of active selfishness, which, in such a man, might have
been the first step to virtue. He was a little over thirty, but felt as
if he had never been any younger, and never would be any older. He was
not appalled by the thought of all the openings in life which he had
thrown aside; or of the men who had passed him on the way, or of the
advantages he had let slip. The past did not upbraid him, neither did
the future alarm him. He never thought of asking himself what was to
become of him when his active manhood began to droop. “To-morrow shall
be as to-day,” he said to himself; or rather he did not say it, for he
never went so far as to have any talk with himself on the subject.
Fanshawe had rooms in London, where he appeared generally for a portion
of the season. He had been in the habit of meeting Tom Heriot in
Leicestershire for the hunting, just as he was in the habit of meeting
certain other kinds of men, periodically, in other places. By means of
thus dividing his year, and keeping to the regular routine of change, of
which men without any duties make a kind of fantastic duty for
themselves, his acquaintance was simply unlimited. He knew all kinds of
people, and most of the people whom he knew, he knew intimately. This
was how Tom Heriot and he had become friends--friends by accident as it
were, by the mere fact of meeting year after year in the same place,
doing the same thing at the same moment. They had been intimates, but no
more friends than this implies, at the moment when Tom, by Fanshawe’s
side, was struck by the stroke of that grim unsuspected Death which
hovers about the hunting-field. It was Fanshawe who helped to lift him,
to disengage him from his fallen horse, and carry him to the bed which
turned out to be his death-bed. And the two nights of watching which
followed made Fanshawe something like Tom Heriot’s brother, made him the
benefactor of Tom Heriot’s family, the object of their warmest
gratitude, and connected for ever with poor Tom’s name and memory.
Nothing could be more real than this connexion, and yet nothing could
be more accidental or arbitrary.
The position was quite false, for he knew in reality but little of Tom;
and yet it was perfectly natural and true, for he had been to Tom in his
hour of need all that a brother could have been; and to Tom’s father and
sister this stranger was no more a stranger; he was a son, a brother,
“Tom’s dearest friend.” And it seemed only natural to both parties that
Fanshawe should accompany the mournful _cortége_ to Pitcomlie--and that
he who had watched Tom so tenderly should help to lay him in his grave,
should support his fellow-watchers, and do what he could to console his
friend’s family.
This had seemed perfectly natural to Fanshawe, who was ever sympathetic
and ready to help. Besides, Scotland was not to him an unknown place. He
had gone to the North often enough, to shooting boxes and castles among
the moors. Scotland meant game and deer-stalking, mountains and lochs,
and vigorous exercise, according to his understanding. Of course he was
well enough aware that April is not the moment for such delights. He
must have known too that no delights were possible in the circumstances,
and that his goodnature was about to plunge him into a new kind of
experience, and not a cheerful one. But yet if he ever paused to think
where he was going, he was of opinion that he knew perfectly what the
manner of living was. And it may be supposed that to such a man it was
strange and somewhat overpowering to find himself at the end of a few
days stranded as it were on the quietest coast, in the midst of the
most tranquil rural life, in a sorrowful house where there were no
visitors, no amusements, nothing going on, nothing to see.
The sombre excitement of the arrival, and of the funeral, had for the
first moment cast a veil over the gravest aspect of this seclusion. Half
of Fife, as Miss Jean truly said, had shown their “respect” to the heir
of Pitcomlie, and this fact had kept the stranger from perceiving the
dead calm that awaited him. It was on the Sunday afternoon that he first
discovered what it was that he had fallen into. He had gone decorously
to the parish church in the morning, with that amount of information
respecting its simple forms and ceremonies which the moors and the
grouse have communicated to the well-meaning and inquisitive English
sportsman. And though we will not say that Mr. Fanshawe’s mind was not
visited by a momentary surprise that no part of the service was in
Gaelic, he yet got through that part of the day well enough; and then he
returned with the family to luncheon, a meal which was eaten almost in
silence and at which he first fully realised the state of affairs.
The first Sunday is a painful moment for people in fresh grief. Mr.
Heriot sat at the foot of his table, sombre, incapable of speech, with
his head bent upon his breast, answering mechanically, but sometimes
with flashes of painful irritation, when he was addressed. Marjory from
time to time attempted to talk; but the tears would come into her eyes
in the midst of a sentence, her lip would quiver, and the words die
away. Little Milly, with her hair more golden-bright than ever over her
black frock, sat with great eyes opened upon the visitor, ready to cry
every time that Marjory’s voice faltered; and Uncle Charles, who sat
beside the child, was checked by some irritable word from his brother
whenever he began to speak. Thus Mr. Fanshawe found himself sadly out of
place in the family sitting-room downstairs.
He went up into his room after lunch, and took down all the books out of
the shelves, and looked at them one after another; then he made an
excursion round the room, and looked at all the pictures. There were
some prints of well known pictures which he knew as well as his A B C,
and there were some childish portraits of the Heriots, one of poor Tom,
which he could recognise, and of another boy, and of a round-faced girl
with curls, who, no doubt, was Marjory. This was very mild fare; he sat
down at the window afterwards, with a copy of Milton, which was the
liveliest reading he could find, and read a few lines of Comus, and
looked out upon the sea. Soon the monotonous chant of the waves
attracted him, and he made his way through the silence and the sunshine
downstairs, meeting no one, hearing no sound, feeling as if the house
itself was dead or enchanted.
The weather was very fine, as warm as it often is in Scotland in June,
though it was still only April. The Firth was blue as the sky above it,
but of a deepened and darker tone; the rich brown cliffs stood out in
strong relief with every inequality defined against that dazzling
background. In the distance the opposite coast glimmered in the hazy
brightness, marking itself by the white creamy edge of surf upon the
rocks; and looming to the westward through a haze of mingled smoke and
sunshine, stood Arthur’s Seat, like a muffled sentinel watching over the
half-apparent towers and roofs of Edinburgh. The scene was fine enough
to have attracted even a less susceptible gazer; and Fanshawe, though he
was a good-for-nothing, had an eye for beauty. He sat down upon the
cliff beyond the old house of Pitcomlie, half-way down, where the
sea-side turf was all broken with bits of projecting rock. The salt
spray dashed upon the red rocks underneath--whitest white and bluest
blue, and russet brown of the richest tone, put in with all nature’s
indifference to crudity of colour, made up the foreground; and the
distant line of the opposite coast, the vague shadow of Tantallon, the
Bass rock, lying like a great pebble on the water, the great hill in the
distance, with its ridges glimmering through the smoke of the unseen
town, lent many a suggestion, human fulness of imagery, mystery and
depth to the landscape.
Fanshawe was fully capable of appreciating the beauty of the scene; but
when he had taken in all its beauty, another thought crept upon him
which was very natural. The broad estuary before him was all but
deserted; only a few distant ships nearer Leith broke the blue as it
shaded off into the distance. The Comlie boats were all safe in harbour,
the fishermen taking their Sabbath ease; one or two white sails were
dropping down the western coast, disappearing round St. Abb’s Head into
the grey-blue horizon; but nothing was visible nearer, except the high
white cliffs of the May, the lighthouse island, which he had already
watched from his window. Nothing to do! nothing that could even suggest
a passing hope of amusement. After a while he looked upon the scene with
dismay; it was as blank to him as a beautiful face in stone. Then he
climbed to the top of the cliff, and looked out across the rich flat
homely country. These well-laboured fields were a thousand times better
for Mr. Heriot’s rent-roll than if they had been picturesquely
intersected by green lanes and waving hedgerows; but they were blank,
blank to the soul of the strange visitor who found himself stranded in
this noiseless place. Not a sound seemed to exist in that quiet country,
except the murmur of the sea. Mr. Fanshawe said to himself spitefully
that it was Scotch Sabbatarianism which prevented the very birds from
singing, which chased away all rural sights and sounds, which swept the
boats from the sea, and which demanded one monotonous level of
dulness--dulness dead as death. And then this horrible question occurred
to him: Was he sure it would be any better to-morrow? He was not at all
sure; he conjured up before him other scenes of rural life which he had
known; stray visits to his relatives, which he had paid at long
intervals, when he had found the decorations of the church the only
amusement and a school-feast the only dissipation; and here, in grim
Scotland, there were not even these simple elements of pleasure. Mr.
Fanshawe’s heart died within him as he gazed over that rich,
well-ploughed country-side.
If it should occur to anyone that this mood was very inappropriate to
the really sympathetic nature of one who had watched over Tom Heriot’s
sick-bed, and had grieved over, and fully felt the frightful blow which
his death had given to the family so near at hand, we can but say in
reply that even to the most sympathetic the impression produced by death
is the one that is effaced most rapidly. Already Fanshawe had felt, with
that impatience which is natural to humanity, that enough had been given
to Tom. He could not and would not have expressed the sentiment in
words; but it was a natural sentiment. Mr. Heriot’s heart-broken
despondency, which was partly veiled and partly heightened by the
irritability of grief, overawed the young man; but already he had begun
to feel it hard upon him that Marjory, for instance, should refuse to be
comforted. He himself felt healed of his momentary wound; and why did
not she begin at least to allow herself to be healed also?
It seemed to Fanshawe, as it seems to all except the chief sufferers in
every such bereavement, that it is churlish and almost fictitious to
“give way”--and that the natural thing is to get better of your grief as
you do of a headache, or, at least, not to annoy and worry other people,
by letting them see that it is continually there. He had felt it very
much at the time, but he had got over it; and it seemed natural to him
that others should get over it also. And when he met Mr. Charles and
Milly coming very solemnly hand in hand round the corner of the old
house, their gravity seemed almost a personal affront to him.
“The child is but a child,” he said to himself; “and the old fellow is
only his uncle. Much my uncle would care if I were to die! Really this
is making too great a fuss,” and a certain air of disapproval came into
the look with which he met them. “Going to take a walk?” he said.
“We were going down to the foot of the cliff,” said Mr. Charles. “This
little thing is pale, and wants the air; will you come too? It is not
very high, but the cliff is bold, and I am fond of the place. No
scenery, you know, no scenery,” said Mr. Charles, waving his hand
towards the rocks with an air of protecting pride. “A poor thing, Sir,
but mine own,” was the sentiment with which he gazed at the brown
headland, the angle of the coast upon which his paternal house was
placed; “but to us who were born here, it has a beauty of its own.”
“It has a great deal of beauty,” said Fanshawe; “but of a desolate kind.
To look out upon a sea without even a boat--”
“There are plenty of boats sometimes,” said Mr. Charles, somewhat
hastily; “you would not have the fishers out on the Sunday, unless when
there’s some special necessity?--a great haul of herring, or such
like--good food that should not be wasted, might excuse it; but without
that there’s no reason. There are plenty of ships in Leith Harbour, and
lying beyond Inchkeith as you would see when we crossed the Firth--”
As these words were said, Mr. Charles suddenly recollected how he had
crossed the Firth last, a mourner bringing poor Tom to his burial; and
he added hastily, “We were not thinking much of what we saw at such a
sorrowful time; but still the ships were there.”
“Is Mr. Heriot fond of yachting?” said Fanshawe, taking no notice of
this dolorous conclusion. “A yacht would be a resource.”
“The boys had once a boat,” said Mr. Charles. “You must pardon us for
our uncheerful ways. There is not a thing about but what is connected
with his memory. They had a boat when they were quite young, before
Charlie went to India. I am not fond of the sea myself; it’s a very
precarious pleasure; and to run the risk of your life for an hour’s sail
seems a want of sense and a waste of strength.”
“Shouldn’t you like to go to the May, Milly?” said Fanshawe, pointing to
the white cliffs of the island, which seemed on this clear day to be but
a few fathoms off the shore. A sparkle of pleasure came into Milly’s
little face; her big blue eyes lighted up; the corners of her mouth,
which had seemed permanently depressed, rose like the corners of an
unbent bow.
“Oh!” she began; and then paused and looked at her uncle, and became
melancholy once more.
Milly was like Fanshawe, she had had enough of the family grief; but she
was too dutiful to break its bond.
“The May is not so near as it seems,” said Mr. Charles. “It’s very
dangerous in some tides; the landing is bad. Our fishers themselves are
far from fond of the May. And, altogether, our coast is not a coast for
pleasure-sailing. There are accidents enough among those who cannot help
themselves, poor fellows! Many a tragedy I have known on Comlie Shore.”
“But if there is no yachting,” said Fanshawe, with momentary
forgetfulness of his good-breeding, “how do you get through the time--at
least in Summer--if you spend it here?”
Mr. Charles looked at him with suppressed offence. A man who found
Pitcomlie dull was to the Heriots the concentration of impertinence and
bad taste. Little Milly looked up, too, with her wondering eyes. Milly
did not know what to make of this man, who was not quite in harmony, she
felt, with the surroundings, yet who made suggestions which were very
delightful, and who had the melancholy and splendid distinction of being
“poor Tom’s friend.” She was afraid he was going to be scolded, and was
sympathetic; yet how could Uncle Charles scold a grown up gentleman, who
was Tom’s friend? Thus orderly age and dutiful childhood looked
surprised at one who was beyond all the bonds familiar to them, and
whose time and whose life seemed of so little importance to himself.
“My time seldom hangs heavy on my hands,” said Mr. Charles. “If you live
to my age, you will learn that time is short--far too short for what a
man has to do. I am sixty, and the days run through my hands like
sea-sand. Many and many is the thing I have to put aside for want of
time; and most likely I’ll die with heaps of odds and ends left
incomplete.”
“I don’t see any reason,” said Fanshawe, in his levity; “at sixty it
appears to me you have much more certainty of life before you than at
half the age. A man who lives till sixty may surely live to a hundred if
he pleases. By that time all the dangers must be over.”
“And I suppose,” said Mr. Charles, not quite pleased to hear his sixty
years treated so lightly, “you hope to do as much yourself.”
“I don’t know,” said the young man, laughing and shrugging his
shoulders. “Seriously, do you think it’s worth the while? I am more than
half way, and it has not been so delightful. No; a short life and a
merry one must be the best.”
“That was poor Tom’s idea,” said Mr. Charles, with the look of a man who
is improving the occasion.
His own feeling was that no sermon could have pointed a sharper moral.
At the sound of Tom’s name, little Milly began to cry; not that she knew
very much of Tom, but the vague pain and sorrow which filled the house
had made his name the emblem of everything that was melancholy and
grievous to her. Milly’s tears gave the last aggravation to Fanshawe’s
impatience.
“Poor Tom!” he cried; “he had a merry life. Better thirty years of that
than a long, dull blank, with nothing particular in it. He thought so,
and so should I. I don’t like--forgive me for saying so--to think of
poor Heriot as a warning. On the whole, I should not object to the same
sort of end. Better that than to drink the cup to the dregs--”
“As I am doing, you mean,” said Mr. Charles.
“No, indeed--far from that. As I should do, if such were to be my fate.
It depends, I suppose, upon the groove one gets into,” said Fanshawe,
with a short, uneasy laugh.
And then he began to talk hurriedly to Milly about the chances of a
voyage to the May.
“I do not understand that young man,” said Mr. Charles, privately, to
Marjory. “May, my dear, you must try your hand. There is good about him.
If there had not been good about him, he would never have done what he
did for Tom. But he thinks Pitcomlie dull, and he thinks a long life
undesirable. I should like to understand the lad; and as we all have
cause to be grateful to him, I wish you would try your hand.”
“If you wish it, uncle,” said Marjory.
This was in the silence of the evening, when she sat by the window,
looking out at the flush of sunset which still dyed all the western sky,
and lit up the Firth with crimson and gold. Milly stood close by her,
with an arm round her neck. The child had said her hymn, and discharged
all her Sunday duties. She was vaguely sad, because the others were
sad--yet satisfied in that she had fulfilled all personal requirements;
and over Marjory, too, a sense of quiet had stolen. The dead were in
their graves and at rest; the living remained, with work, and tears, and
dying all before them. She talked softly to Uncle Charles as the sunset
lights faded, feeling an indescribable quiet come over her mind as the
twilight came over the earth. Only Mr. Heriot sat alone in the library,
with his head bent on his breast, doing nothing, reading nothing;
thinking over the same thoughts for hours together. The old father felt
that he had come to an end; but for the others it was not so: the pause
in their lives was over, and existence had begun again.