CHAPTER VIII

"Oh, what a jolly day! We've had a glorious ride," said Helena, throwing

herself down on the grass beside Mrs. Friend. "And how are you? Have you

been resting--or slaving--as you were _expressly_ forbidden to do?"

For Mrs. Friend had been enjoying a particularly bad cold and had not

long emerged from her bedroom, looking such a pitiful little wreck, that

both Lord Buntingford and Helena had been greatly concerned. In the five

weeks that had now elapsed since her arrival at Beechmark she had stolen

her quiet way into the liking of everybody in the house to such an extent

that, during the days she had been in bed with a high temperature, she

had been seriously missed in the daily life of the place, and the whole

household had actively combined to get her well again. Mrs. Mawson had

fed her; and Lucy Friend was aghast to think how much her convalescence

must be costing her employer in milk, eggs, butter, cream and chickens,

when all such foods were still so frightfully, abominably dear. But they

were forced down her throat by Helena and the housekeeper; while Lord

Buntingford enquired after her every morning, and sent her a reckless

supply of illustrated papers and novels. To see her now in the library or

on the lawn again, with her white shawl round her, and the usual

needlework on her knee, was a pleasant sight to everybody in the house.

The little lady had not only won this place for herself by the sweet and

selfless gift which was her natural endowment; she was becoming the

practical helper of everybody, of Mrs. Mawson in the house, of old Fenn

in the garden, even of Buntingford himself, who was gradually falling

into the habit of letting her copy important letters for him, and keep

some order in the library. She was not in the least clever or

accomplished; but her small fingers seemed to have magic in them; and her

good will was inexhaustible.

Helena had grown amazingly fond of her. She appealed to something

maternal and protecting in the girl's strong nature. Since her mother's

death, there had been a big streak of loneliness in Helena's heart,

though she would have suffered tortures rather than confess it; and

little Lucy Friend's companionship filled a void. She must needs respect

Lucy's conscience, Lucy's instincts had more than once shamed her own.

"What are you going to wear to-night?" said Mrs. Friend, softly smoothing

back the brown hair from the girl's hot brow.

"Pale green and apple-blossom."

Lucy Friend smiled, as though already she had a vision of the

full-dress result.

"That'll be delicious," she said, with enthusiasm.

"Lucy!--am I good-looking?"

The girl spoke half wistfully, half defiantly, her eyes fixed on Lucy.

Mrs. Friend laughed.

"I asked that question before I had seen you."

"Of whom?" said Helena eagerly. "You didn't see anybody but Cousin Philip

before I arrived. Tell me, Lucy--tell me at once."

Mrs. Friend kept a smiling silence for a minute. At last she said--"Lord

Buntingford showed me a portrait of you before you arrived."

"A portrait of me? There isn't one in the house! Lucy, you deceiver, what

do you mean?"

"I was taken to see one in the hall."

A sudden light dawned on Helena.

"The Romney? No! And I've been showing it to everybody as the loveliest

thing going!"

"There--you see!"

Helena's face composed itself.

"I don't know why I should be flattered. She was a horrid minx. That no

doubt was what the likeness consisted in!"

Mrs. Friend laughed, but said nothing. Helena rose from the grass,

pausing to say as she turned towards the house:

"We're going to dance in the drawing-room, Mawson says. They've

cleared it."

"Doesn't it look nice?"

Helena assented. "Let me see--" she added slowly--"this is the third

dance, isn't it, since I came?"

"Yes--the third."

"I don't think we need have another"--the tone was decided, almost

impatient--"at least when this party's over."

Mrs. Friend opened her eyes.

"I thought you liked to dance every week-end?"

"Well--ye-es--amongst ourselves. I didn't mean to turn the house

upside-down every week."

"Well, you see--the house-parties have been so large. And besides there

have been neighbours."

"I didn't ask _them_," said Helena. "But--we won't have another--till we

go to Town."

"Very well. It might be wise. The servants are rather tired, and if they

give warning, we shall never get any more!"

Mrs. Friend watched the retreating figure of Helena. There had indeed

been a dizzy succession of week-end parties, and it seemed to her that

Lord Buntingford's patience under the infliction had been simply

miraculous. For they rarely contained friends of his own; his lameness

cut him off from dancing; and it had been clear to Lucy Friend that in

many cases Helena's friends had been sharply distasteful to him. He

was, in Mrs. Friend's eyes, a strange mixture as far as social

standards were concerned. A boundless leniency in some cases; the

sternest judgment in others.

For instance, a woman he had known from childhood had lately left her

husband, carried off her children, and joined her lover. Lord Buntingford

was standing, stoutly by her, helping her in her divorce proceedings,

paying for the education of the children, and defending her whenever he

heard her attacked. On the other hand, his will had been iron in the

matter of Lord Donald, whose exposure as co-respondent in the

particularly disreputable case had been lately filling the newspapers.

Mrs. Friend had seen Helena take up the _Times_ on one of the days on

which the evidence in this case had appeared, and fling it down again

with a flush and a look of disgust. But since the day of the Dansworth

riot, she had never mentioned Lord Donald's name.

Certainly the relations between her and her guardian had curiously

changed. In the first place, since her Dansworth adventure, Helena had

found something to do to think about other than quarrelling with "Cousin

Philip." Her curiosity as to how the two wounded police, whom she had

driven to the County Hospital that day, might be faring had led to her

going over there two or three times a week, either to relieve an

overworked staff, or to drive convalescent soldiers, still under

treatment in the wards.

The occupation had been a godsend to her, and everybody else. She still

talked revolution, and she was always ready to spar with Lord

Buntingford, or other people. But all the same Lucy Friend was often

aware of a much more tractable temper, a kind of hesitancy--and

appeasement--which, even if it passed away, made her beauty, for the

moment, doubly attractive.

Was it, after all, the influence of Lord Buntingford--and was the event

justifying her mother's strange provision for her? He had certainly

treated her with a wonderful kindness and indulgence. Of late he had

returned to his work at the Admiralty, only coming down to Beechmark for

long week-ends from Friday to Monday. But in these later week-ends he had

gradually abandoned the detached and half-sarcastic attitude which he had

originally assumed towards Helena, and it seemed to Lucy Friend that he

was taking his function towards her with a new seriousness. If so, it had

affected himself at least as much as the proud and difficult girl whose

guidance had been so hurriedly thrust upon him. His new role had brought

out in him unexpected resources, or revived old habits. For instance he

had not ridden for years; though, as a young man, and before his

accident, he had been a fine horseman. But he now rode whenever he was at

Beechmark, to show Helena the country; and they both looked so well on

horseback that it was a pleasure of which Lucy Friend never tired to

watch them go and to welcome them home.

Then the fact that he was a trained artist, which most of his friends had

forgotten, became significant again for Helena's benefit. She had some

aptitude, and more ambition--would indeed, but for the war, have been a

South Kensington student, and had long cherished yearnings for the Slade.

He set her work to do during the week, and corrected it with professional

sharpness when he reappeared.

And more important perhaps than either the riding or the drawing, was the

partial relaxation for her benefit of the reserve and taciturnity which

had for years veiled the real man from those who liked and respected him

most. He never indeed talked of himself or his past; but he would discuss

affairs, opinions, books--especially on their long rides together--with a

frankness, and a tone of gay and equal comradeship, which, or so Mrs.

Friend imagined, had had a disarming and rather bewildering effect on

Helena. The girl indeed seemed often surprised and excited. It was

evident that they had never got on during her mother's lifetime, and that

his habitual bantering or sarcastic tone towards her while she was still

in the school-room had roused an answering resentment in her. Hence the

aggressive mood in which, after two or three months of that half-mad

whirl of gaiety into which London had plunged after the Armistice, she

had come down to Beechmark.

They still jarred, sometimes seriously; Helena was often provocative and

aggressive; and Buntingford could make a remark sting without intending

it. But on the whole Lucy Friend felt that she was watching something

which had in it possibilities of beauty; indeed of a rather touching and

rare development. But not at all as the preliminary to a love-affair. In

Buntingford's whole relation to his ward, Lucy Friend, at least, had

never yet detected the smallest sign of male susceptibility. It suggested

something quite different. Julian Horne, who had taken a great fancy to

Helena's chaperon, was now recommending books to her instead of to

Helena, who always forgot or disobeyed his instructions. With a little

preliminary lecture, he had put the "Greville Memoirs" in her hands by

way of improving her mind; and she had been struck by a passage in which

Greville describes Lord Melbourne's training of the young Queen Victoria,

whose Prime Minister he was. The man of middle-age, accomplished, cynical

and witty, suddenly confronted with a responsibility which challenged

both his heart and his conscience--and that a responsibility towards an

attractive young girl whom he could neither court nor command, towards

whom his only instrument was the honesty and delicacy of his own

purpose:--there was something in this famous, historical situation which

seemed to throw a light on the humbler situation at Beechmark.

Four o'clock! In another hour the Whitsuntide party for which the house

stood ready would have arrived. Helena's particular "pals" were all

coming, and various friends and kinsfolk of Lord Buntingford's; including

Lady Mary Chance, a general or two, some Admiralty officials, and one or

two distinguished sailors with the halo of Zeebrugge about them. The

gathering was to last nearly a week. Mrs. Mawson had engaged two extra

servants, and the master of the house had resigned himself. But he had

laid it down that the fare was to be simple--and "no champagne." And

though of course there would be plenty of bridge, he had given a hint to

Vivian Lodge, who, as his heir-apparent, was his natural aide-de-camp in

the management of the party, that anything like high play would be

unwelcome. Some of Helena's friends during the latter week-ends of May

had carried things to extremes.

Meanwhile the social and political sky was darkening in the June England.

Peace was on the point of being signed in Paris; but the industrial war

at home weighed on every thinking mind. London was dancing night after

night; money was being spent like water; and yet every man and woman of

sense knew that the only hope for Britain lay in work and saving.

Buntingford's habitual frown--the frown not of temper but of

oppression--had grown deeper; and on their long rides together he had

shown a great deal of his mind to Helena--the mind of a patriot full of

fear for his country.

A man came across the lawn. Lucy Friend was glad to recognize Geoffrey

French, who was a great favourite with her.

"You are early!" she said, as they greeted.

"I came down by motor-bike. London is hateful, and I was in a hurry to

get out of it. Where is Helena?"

"Gone to change her dress. She has been riding."

Frank mopped his brow in silence for a little. Then he said with the

half-mischievous smile which in Lucy Friend's eyes was one of his chief

physical "points."

"How you and Philip have toned her down!"

"Oh, not I!" said Lucy, her modesty distressed. "I've always admired her

so! Of course--I was sometimes surprised--"

Geoffrey laughed.

"I daresay we shall all be surprised a good many times yet?" Then he

moved a little closer to the small person, who was becoming everybody's

confidante. "Do you mind telling me something--if you know it?" he said,

lowering his voice.

"Ask me--but I can't promise!"

"Do you think Helena has quite made up her mind not to marry Dale?"

Mrs. Friend hesitated.

"I don't know--"

"But what do you think?"

She lifted her gentle face, under his compulsion, and slowly, pitifully

shook her head.

Geoffrey drew a long breath.

"Then she oughtn't to ask him here! The poor little fellow is going

through the tortures of the damned!"

"Oh, I'm so sorry. Isn't there anything we can do?" cried Mrs. Friend.

"Nothing--but keep him away. After all he's only the first victim."

Startled by the note in her companion's voice, Mrs. Friend turned to look

at him. He forced a smile, as their eyes met.

"Oh, we must all take our chance! But Peter's not the boy he was--before

the war. Things bowl him over easily."

"She likes him so much," murmured Lucy. "I'm sure she never means to

be unkind."

"She isn't unkind!" said Geoffrey with energy. "It's the natural fated

thing. We are all the slaves of her car and she knows it. When she was in

the stage of quarrelling with us all, it was just fun. But if Helena

grows as delicious--as she promised to be last week--" He shrugged his

shoulders, with a deep breath--"Well,--she'll have to marry somebody some

day--and the rest of us may drown! Only, if you're to be umpire--and she

likes you so much that I expect you will be--play fair!"

He held out his hand, and she put hers into it, astonished to realize

that her own eyes were full of tears.

"I'm a mass of dust--I must go and change before tea," he said abruptly.

He went into the house, and she was left to some agitated thinking.

An hour later, the broad lawns of Beechmark, burnt yellow by the May

drought, were alive with guests, men in khaki and red tabs, fresh from

their War Office work; two naval Commanders, and a resplendent

Flag-Lieutenant; a youth in tennis flannels, just released from a city

office, who seven months earlier had been fighting in the last advance of

the war, and a couple of cadets who had not been old enough to fight at

all; girls who had been "out" before the war, and two others, Helena's

juniors, who were just leaving the school-room and seemed to be all aglow

with the excitement and wonder of this peace-world; a formidable

grey-haired woman, who was Lady Mary Chance; Cynthia and Georgina Welwyn,

and the ill-dressed, arresting figure of Mr. Alcott. Not all were

Buntingford's guests; some were staying at the Cottage, some in another

neighbouring house; but Beechmark represented the headquarters of a

gathering of which Helena Pitstone and her guardian were in truth the

central figures.

Helena in white, playing tennis; Helena with a cigarette, resting between

her sets, and chaffing with a ring of dazzled young men; Helena talking

wild nonsense with Geoffrey French, for the express purpose of shocking

Lady Mary Chance; and the next minute listening with a deference graceful

enough to turn even the seasoned head of a warrior to a grey-haired

general describing the taking of the Vimy Ridge; and finally, Helena,

holding a dancing class under the cedars on the yellow smoothness of the

lawn, after tea, for such young men as panted to conquer the mysteries of

"hesitation" or jazzing, and were ardently courting instruction in the

desperate hope of capturing their teacher for a dance that night:--it was

on these various avatars of Helena that the whole party turned; and Lady

Mary indignantly felt that there was no escaping the young woman.

"Why do you let her smoke--and paint--and _swear_--I declare I heard her

swear!" she said in Buntingford's ear, as the dressing-bell rang, and he

was escorting her to the house. "And mark my words, Philip--men may be

amused by that kind of girl, but they won't marry her."

Buntingford laughed.

"As Helena's guardian I'm not particularly anxious about that!"

"Ah, no doubt, she tells you people propose to her--but is it true?"

snapped Lady Mary.

"You imagine that Helena tells me of her proposals?" said Buntingford,

wondering.

"My dear Philip, don't pose! Isn't that the special function of a

guardian?"

"It may be. But, if so, Helena has never given me the chance of

performing it."

"I told you so! Men will flirt with her, but they _don't_ propose to

her!" said Lady Mary triumphantly.

Buntingford, smiling, let her have the last word, as he asked Mrs. Friend

to show her to her room.

Meanwhile the gardens were deserted, save for a couple of gardeners and

an electrician, who were laying some wires for the illumination of the

rose-garden in front of the drawing-room, and Geoffrey French, who was in

a boat, lazily drifting across the pond, and reading a volume of poems by

a friend which he had brought down with him. The evening was fast

declining; and from the shadow of the deep wood which bordered the

western edge of the pond he looked out on the sunset glow as it climbed

the eastern hill, transfiguring the ridge, and leaving a rich twilight in

the valley below. The tranquillity of the water, the silence of the

woods, the gentle swaying of the boat, finally wooed him from his book,

which after all he had only taken up as a protection from tormenting

thoughts. Had he--had he--any chance with Helena? A month before he would

have scornfully denied that he was in love with her. And now--he had

actually confessed his plight to Mrs. Friend!

As he lay floating between the green vault above, and the green weedy

depths below, his thoughts searched the five weeks that lay between him

and that first week-end when he had scolded Helena for her offences. It

seemed to him that his love for her had first begun that day of the

Dansworth riot. She had provoked and interested him before that--but

rather as a raw self-willed child--a "flapper" whose extraordinary beauty

gave her a distinction she had done nothing to earn. But every moment in

that Dansworth day was clear in memory:--the grave young face behind the

steering-wheel, the perfect lips compressed, the eyes intent upon their

task, the girl's courage and self-command. Still more the patient Helena

who waited for him at the farm--the grateful exultant look when he said

"Come"--and every detail of the scene in Dansworth:--Helena with her most

professional air, driving through soldiers and police, Helena helping to

carry and place the two wounded men, and that smiling "good-bye" she had

thrown him as she drove away with Buntingford beside her.

The young man moved restlessly; and the light boat was set rocking. It

was curious how he too, like Lucy Friend, only from another point of

view, was beginning to reflect on the new intimacy that seemed to be

developing between Buntingford and his ward. Philip of course was an

awfully good fellow, and Helena was just finding it out; what else was

there in it? But the jealous pang roused by the thought of Buntingford,

once felt, persisted. Not for a moment did French doubt the honour or the

integrity of a man, who had done him personally many a kindness, and had

moreover given him some reason to think---(he recalled the odd little

note he had received from Buntingford before Helena's first

week-end)--that if he were to fall in love with Helena, his suit would be

favourably watched by Helena's guardian. He could recall moreover one or

two quite recent indications on Buntingford's part--very slight and

guarded--which seemed to point in the same direction.

All very well: Buntingford himself might be quite heart-whole and might

remain so. French, who knew him well, though there was fourteen years

between them, was tolerably certain--without being able to give any very

clear reason for the conviction--that Buntingford would never have

undertaken the guardianship of Helena, had the merest possibility of

marrying her crossed his mind. French did not believe that it had ever

yet crossed his mind. There was nothing in his manner towards her to

suggest anything more than friendship, deepening interest, affectionate

responsibility--all feelings which would have shown themselves plainly

from the beginning had she allowed it.

But Helena herself? It was clear that however much they might still

disagree, Buntingford had conquered her original dislike of him, and was

in process of becoming the guide, philosopher, and friend her mother had

meant him to be. And Buntingford had charm and character, and

imagination. He could force a girl like Helena to respect him

intellectually; with such a nature that was half the battle. He would be

her master in time. Besides, there were all Philip's endless

opportunities of making life agreeable and delightful to her. When they

went to London, for instance, he would come out of the shell he had lived

in so long, and Helena would see him as his few intimate friends had

always seen him:--as one of the most accomplished and attractive of

mortals, with just that touch of something ironic and mysterious in his

personality and history, which appeals specially to a girl's fancy.

And what would be the end of it? Tragedy for Helena?--as well as bitter

disappointment and heartache for himself, Geoffrey French? He was

confident that Helena had in her the capacity for passion; that the

flowering-time of such a nature would be one of no ordinary intensity.

She would love, and be miserable--and beat herself to pieces--poor,

brilliant Helena!--against her own pain.

What could he do? Might there not be some chance for

himself--_now_--while the situation was still so uncertain and

undeveloped? Helena was still unconscious, unpledged. Why not cut in at

once? "She likes me--she has been a perfect dear to me these last few

times of meeting! Philip backs me. He would take my part. Perhaps, after

all, my fears are nonsense, and she would no more dream of marrying

Philip, than he would dream, under cover of his guardianship, of making

love to her."

He raised himself in the boat, filled with a new inrush of will and

hope, and took up the drifting oars. Across the water, on the white

slopes of lawn, and in some of the windows of the house, lights were

appearing. The electricians were testing the red and blue lamps they had

been stringing among the rose-beds, and from the gabled boathouse on the

further side, a bright shaft from a small searchlight which had been

fixed there, was striking across the water. Geoffrey watched it

wandering over the dark wood on his right, lighting up the tall stems of

the beeches, and sending a tricky gleam or two among the tangled

underwood. It seemed to him a symbol of the sudden illumination of mind

and purpose which had come to him, there, on the shadowed water--and he

turned to look at a window which he knew was Helena's. There were lights

within it, and he pictured Helena at her glass, about to slip into some

bright dress or other, which would make her doubly fair. Meanwhile from

the rose of the sunset, rosy lights were stealing over the water and

faintly glorifying the old house and its spreading gardens. An

overpowering sense of youth--of the beauty of the world--of the mystery

of the future, beat through his pulses. The coming dance became a rite

of Aphrodite, towards which all his being strained.

Suddenly, there was a loud snapping noise, as of breaking branches in the

wood beside him. It was so startling that his hands paused on the oars,

as he looked quickly round to see what could have produced it. And at the

same moment the searchlight on the boathouse reached the spot to which

his eyes were drawn, and he saw for an instant--sharply distinct and

ghostly white--a woman's face and hands--amid the blackness of the wood.

He had only a moment in which to see them, in which to catch a glimpse of

a figure among the trees, before the light was gone, leaving a double

gloom behind it.

Mysterious! Who could it be? Was it some one who wanted to be put across

the pond? He shouted. "Who is that?"

Then he rowed in to the shore, straining his eyes to see. It occurred to

him that it might be a lady's maid brought by a guest, who had been out

for a walk, and missed her way home in a strange park. "Do you want to

get to the house? I can put you across to it if you wish," he said in a

loud voice, addressing the unknown--"otherwise you'll have to go a long

way round."

No answer--only an intensity of silence, through which he heard from a

great distance a church clock striking. The wood and all its detail had

vanished in profound shadow.

Conscious of a curious excitement he rowed still further in to the bank,

and again spoke to the invisible woman. In vain. He began then to doubt

his own eyes. Had it been a mere illusion produced by some caprice of the

searchlight opposite? But the face!--the features of it were stamped on

his memory, the gaunt bitterness of them, the brooding misery.

How could he have imagined such a thing?

Much perplexed and rather shaken in nerve, he rowed back across the

pond--to hear the band tuning in the flower-filled drawing-room, as he

approached the house.

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