The school was assembled at evening chapel on the last Sunday of this
summer term. To-morrow would be prize-giving, with all its attendant
festivities, down to concert in the evening and another
house-supper—perhaps—at Adams’s in celebration of their again having
won the house cricket-cup. On Tuesday the school would break up, to meet
again in large numbers on Friday for the match at Lord’s.
Just now the hymn after the third collect had been sung, but after that,
instead of the chaplain continuing to read the prayers, the Head did so.
Next him in his pew was Frank. And before the prayer for all sorts and
conditions of men, there was a short pause and the silence became tense,
for every one present guessed what was coming. Then the quiet, slow
voice began again.
“Your prayers are requested for your friend David Blaize,” it said, “who
is lying dangerously ill.”
Then the three remaining prayers were said, but before the final hymn
was given out, there came another pause, and the Head rose. He spoke
more intimately now.
“You will all want to know what news I have to give you,” he said, “so
before we finish the service I will tell you. I saw David Blaize just
before chapel. He was quite conscious and not frightened at all. He knew
quite well, for his father had told him, that he was in extreme danger.
I only saw him for a minute, but I said we were going to pray for him
this evening, as we have done. Perhaps you would like to hear what he
said to me.”
The Head paused a moment, began once, and then mastered his voice
better.
“He said, ‘Thanks awfully, sir. That’ll do me good.’”
A little rustle and stir went round chapel, and all that any one had
known of David came and stood quite close to him. Bags, sitting at the
end of the seat of the sixth form, leaned forward, putting his head on
his hands. Frank, who had come down an hour before, just looked at the
Head, waiting.
Then the Head spoke again.
“I have told you this on purpose,” he said, “to show you how he faces
death, if it is that God wishes him to face. Also to show you that, as
he still hopes to live, we must hope it with him in all the power that
prayer gives us. But he faces death with all the—the gay courage with
which he faced that which has brought him into peril of it. There are
many of you who loved him, and I am among them, and we must be level
with him in our courage. Now we will sing the hymn, ‘Lead us, Heavenly
Father, lead us.’”
* * * * *
The whole school, of course, knew what had happened. Two days before a
young horse harnessed to a light cart, and frightened by a
traction-engine, had bolted straight down the steep High Street at
Marchester, full at its lower end with the crowded traffic of
market-day, and the driver had been pitched off the box, so that it
galloped on, unchecked and mad with fright. At the moment, David, with a
bag of macaroons which he had just bought, came out of school-shop;
throwing the parcel to Bags, who was with him, he had shouted out,
“Catch hold, and don’t eat any,” and had rushed straight out into the
road, taking a header, so to speak, at the horse. He had got hold of a
rein, and then, still holding it, had been jerked off his feet, and the
wheel of the cart had gone over him. But the horse was checked, and when
they picked the boy up they found that the rein was still wrapped round
his wrist.
There were severe internal injuries, not necessarily fatal, but, until
several days had elapsed, every minute was critical with danger. Up till
this morning all had gone well, but a few hours ago there had been
disquieting symptoms, with fever and restlessness and signs of
exhaustion. He had been conscious all day, and was no longer in great
pain, but it was feared that nervous shock consequent on internal injury
might overcome the splendid powers of rallying which he had shown at
first. His father and Margery had come down the day before, but to-day
they had scarcely seen him, since the utmost quiet was necessary. And an
hour ago he had been told that he was in great danger. It was to this
that the Head had referred.
Adams’s house was nearer to where the accident happened than the school
sanatorium, and he had been moved there since every extra yard was extra
danger, and for two days now a strange silence, as of life in a dream,
had lain over it. There had been no need for Adams to tell them not to
make any noise or disturbance, for the boys crept about like mice, and
no voice was raised. It seemed impossible that this should have happened
to anybody, most of all that it should have happened to David. And yet
in the room at the end of the passage, just beyond the baize door into
Adams’s private part of the house, he was lying now, midway between life
and death, horribly tired, but not afraid.
Maddox waited for the Head to disrobe after service was over, just
outside the chapel. The school and then the masters passed by him, but
he only nodded at one and another, and still waited. At last the Head
came out into the red twilight after sunset.
“Glad you waited for me, Maddox,” he said. “I didn’t know you were down
till just before chapel.”
“Is there anything more to tell than what you told us all sir?” he
asked.
The Head took his arm.
“No, my dear fellow,” he said. “It’s not hopeless, you know. They don’t
say that.”
“Would they allow me to see him, sir? He needn’t know I did. I could
just look at him without his seeing me.”
“You must ask the doctor about that. You got down this afternoon only?”
“Yes sir. I only heard this morning.”
They walked on in silence a little way as far as the iron gate into the
quadrangle. Then Maddox spoke again.
“He’s the best chap in the world, sir,” he said. “He saved me, you know.
Just saved me.”
The Head pressed his arm.
“Ah, that’s between you and David,” he said. “It’s not for me to hear.
But I know you love him, which is the only point. Please God, you’ll
have him with you many years yet. And if not, Frank, you mustn’t be
bitter, or think that it’s a cruel ordinance that takes him away. God
takes him, and we must give, even as David gave himself when he just
jumped at that horse. Do you think he would have withheld himself if he
had known what the result would have been? Not a bit of it; he would
have done it just the same; we both know that. His life was his, and,
like the brick he is, he chose to risk it.”
They walked on in silence half across the quiet quadrangle.
“Will you come and sup with us?” asked the Head presently. “I can give
you a bed, too, if you like.”
“Oh, thanks awfully, sir,” said Frank, “but I think I’ll go down to the
house. Mr. Adams will put me up somehow. Or I shall sit up. I should
like to be down there.”
The Head nodded.
“I see,” he said. “I quite understand. Good night then.”
Maddox went out of schoolyard, and down the road to his old house. The
afterglow of sunset was fading fast, the road showed grey between black
hedgerows, and as he crossed the stream, the reflection of a big star
wavered on the quiet, flowing water. The whole place was intensely
familiar to him, part of his blood, part of his intimate life, and,
passing the fives-court, he remembered how, on a wet day not yet three
years ago, he had given David and Bags elementary instruction in squash,
and had walked down this same road afterwards, waiting for David to come
in with a parcel for him. Now that friend of his heart lay between life
and death in the house of which the lights already shone between the
elm-trees. He tried to realise, and again shrank from realising, what
the loss would mean to him. He had a hundred friends alive and well, but
he could not measure David by any of them. He was just David. . . .
There was no fresh news when he got to the house: he saw David’s father
and sister for a minute only, but was not allowed to go in to see him.
After that he went into the boys’ part of the house, and found that Bags
was waiting up also, by permission, in the double prefects’ study which
he shared with David. Maddox knew it well: it was the one he had managed
to procure for himself alone the year that David came to the school and
fagged for him.
Bags was full of quiet politeness. He gave Maddox the sofa, and, since
the rest of the house had gone to bed, suggested that he might smoke if
he wished.
“Adams won’t mind,” he said. “It’s jolly of you to come and keep me
company. You know——”
And then Bags could not speak any more at once.
“Thanks, I won’t smoke,” said Maddox. “You were with David at his
private school too, weren’t you?”
“Yes, two years,” said Bags.
“And been pals ever since. Same as me. Both of us David’s friends, I
mean.”
Bags forgot to be shy of this great Cambridge cricket-blue.
“You should have seen David,” he said, jerking out the words. “He went
bang for that horse, like taking a header. I—I ought to have done it,
you know. I got out of school-shop just in front of him and stood
staring.”
“Oh, my God, why didn’t you?” said Maddox suddenly.
“I know, it was rotten of me,” he said. “But David was so damned quick
about it, you know. He just chucked a bag of macaroons at me, and simply
jumped. And then the wheel went over him, and he was dragged along with
the rein round his wrist.”
Bags gave one awful sniff and pointed to a white paper parcel that
protruded from the cupboard where tea things were kept.
“There they are,” he said. “He told me not to eat any. Last thing he
said. And . . . and I want to see him again so frightfully, just to see
him you know. What a ripper! He didn’t know how I liked him. You did
too. Same boat, isn’t it?”
Bags had no pretence of fortitude left, and mopped his eyes.
“Damn that horse,” he said. “Who’d have cared if it had killed the whole
High Street, so long as David didn’t put his carcase in the light,
silly—silly idiot. But—but a fellow just loves him the more for it. I
keep thinking over day after day of these last five years. Do you
remember when he was swished?”
Maddox nodded.
“Yes; jolly well deserved it too. And he was so sick with me afterwards
when I told him so. But we made it up. David said he was sorry. Silly
fool! As if he ever did anything to a pal he could be sorry for.”
Bags caught his breath.
“Don’t know what there was about him,” he said, “but there he was. Just
David, you know. And he liked you most awfully. I used to get damned
jealous. Sorry if you mind.”
The two sat there together while the warm night with many stars wheeled
overhead above the sleeping house, talking occasionally, but for the
most part in silence. Adams, who also was sitting up, came in from time
to time to see them, and they would sit all three together. From the
sick-room came no determining news: David was conscious and awake, and
they had given him all the morphia that they dared. His temperature had
not risen further, but he was very much exhausted; the question was how
his strength would hold out unless he got to sleep. This Adams told
them, and perhaps they talked for a little of David, recalling some
incident of past days. Then Adams would leave them again to go back to
David’s father and sister.
But not long after midnight he came in again, having only just gone out.
“David has suddenly asked if you were here, Frank,” he said. “He wants
to see you, and the doctor thinks you had better go to him. He is
getting very restless, and perhaps you may be able to quiet him. That’s
what they want you to do. You can trust yourself?”
Frank got up.
“Yes, sir; I know I can,” he said.
The room where he lay was lit by a lamp that was shaded from the bed,
and near the head of it was standing the doctor, who nodded to Frank as
he came in, and beckoned him to the bed, putting a chair for him by the
side of it.
“David, old chap, here I am,” he said.
David turned his tired eyes to him.
“Oh, I say, that’s ripping,” he said faintly. “But I can’t see you very
well. Mayn’t there be a bit more light?”
The doctor quietly tilted the shade round the lamp, so that the light
fell on Frank’s face.
“Will that do?” said Frank.
“Yes, rather. I wanted to see you awfully. I wondered if you would come.
I thought perhaps you would when you knew. Frank, am I going to die?”
Frank pulled the chair a little closer, and bent over him.
“No,” he said. “You’re going to do nothing of the sort. We can’t get on
without you possibly, so you’ve got to get well. See?”
The doctor came close to Frank and whispered to him.
“Tell him he must go to sleep,” he said, and stepped back again out of
sight.
“And to get well,” continued Frank, “you’ve got to go to sleep and bring
your strength back. David, don’t you remember our two beds at the end of
dormitory? Well, think yourself back in yours with me in the one next
you, and imagine it’s time to go to sleep. It’s quite easy you know.
Imagine it’s that jolly evening after our house-match last year, when
you were so tired you fell asleep without undressing.”
“Yes, I remember,” said David.
He was silent a little, but his eyes were still wide.
“I say, would it bore you awfully to hold my hand,” he said. “You’re so
strong and fit and quiet. I might get some. I don’t know. Am I talking
rot?”
“No, not a bit. There!”
Frank fitted his hand into David’s, which lay like a sick child within
it.
“Yes, ripping,” said he, a little drowsily. “Sure it’s not an awful
bore?”
“It’s a frightful bore,” said Frank.
David smiled.
“You didn’t get a rise out of me,” he said.
“Shall have another try before long,” said Frank. “Comfortable?”
“Rather.”
David lay for some ten minutes still wide-eyed, but quiet. Then his
eyelids fluttered, closed and opened again.
“Awfully comfortable,” he said. “I wanted just you to tell me what to
do. I did so want you to come.”
David’s eyelids dropped again, and the doctor came round to Maddox’s
side.
“Sit quite still,” he whispered, “and don’t speak to him again.”
“Sure it doesn’t bore you?” asked David once more.
Again there was silence, and the two, the friend and the doctor,
remained absolutely still for some five minutes. Then from the bed came
a long sigh. David’s head rolled a little sideways on the pillow, and
after that came the quiet, regular breathing. Then the doctor whispered
once more to Maddox.
“You may have to sit like that with your arm out for hours,” he said.
“We’ll try to make you comfortable presently. Can you manage it?”
“Why, yes,” said he.
The doctor quietly left the room, but came back soon after with pillows,
and, as well as he could, propped up Maddox’s outstretched arm. Then he
spoke to the nurse who was to sit up, and came back to the bed and
looked at David a moment, listening to his regular breathing.
“I’m going to get a bit of sleep now,” he whispered to Frank, “but I’m
afraid you won’t. You must stop just as you are. If he lets go of your
hand you must still sit there in case he wakes and asks for you. If he
says anything, answer him as if he was in his dormitory, and you in the
bed next him. You’re in charge.”
It was a couple of hours before David moved. Then he turned a little in
bed.
“Frank,” he said.
“Oh, shut up and go to sleep,” said Frank. “’Tisn’t morning.”
“Right oh!” said David.
All sensation had gone from Maddox’s arm; it was quite numb up to the
shoulder, and it was only with his eyes that, presently after, he knew
that David had let his hand slip from his own. Then very gently he
withdrew it, and it fell helplessly on to his knees.
David slept on through the hour before dawn when the flame of vitality
burns dim and the dying loose their hold on life, until through the
curtains the pale light of morning looked in, dimming the lamp-light.
Outside the twitter of birds began, and the hushed sounds of life stole
about within the house, and the nurse moved quietly to and fro in the
room, setting things in order for the day. She brought Frank a cup of
tea and some bread and butter, and he ate and drank without moving from
the bedside. Before long the doctor paid his promised visit, but there
was nothing for him to do, now that sleep had come to David. The
immediate necessity was fulfilled, and beyond that there was no need to
look at present. Only Hope, the little white flame which had burned so
dim and had come so near to being quenched the evening before, shone
more bravely.
All that morning Maddox sat by David’s bed as he slept. It was he who
had brought to him, through the tie of their love and David’s
instinctive obedience to his suggestion, the sleep that had been so
imperative a need, and the sunny morning grew broad and hot as he dozed
sometimes, but oftener watched, filled with a huge and humble exultation
of happiness that he had been able to help David. And when David woke,
as he did, a little after noon, it was the best of all. For even while
his eyes were yet scarcely unclosed, he spoke just one word—Frank’s
name, still sleepily.
“Oh, go to sleep,” said Frank, just as he had said it twelve hours
before. “No early school.”
But this time David reasserted himself a little.
“’Course not,” he said. “But I’ve slept ages and—and I want something
to eat.”
The beaming nurse stepped to the bedside.
“I’ll bring you some beef-tea in a minute,” she said. “Lie quite still.”
David turned his head.
“Why, it’s quite morning,” he said.
“Absolutely,” said Frank.
“And I’ve slept ever since you told me we were in dormitory together,”
he said. “How long ago was that?”
“Oh, about twelve hours,” said Frank.
“And you’ve sat here all the time?”
“Think so.”
“Oh, I say! And just because you thought I might want you.”
David’s eyes were bright and untired again: there was life shining
behind them, young life that may still be feeble as the snowdrops
raising their frail heads above the ground on some sunny morning of
February are feeble. But they answer to the beckoning of spring, not,
like late autumn blossoms, feeling the chill of the winter that
approaches.
Frank leaned over him.
“Yes, I thought you might want me,” he said; “but also I couldn’t go
away. I wanted you.”
David smiled at him.
“I was pretty bad yesterday, wasn’t I?” he asked.
“Yes, pretty bad.”
“I knew I must be, because I didn’t care what happened. I do to-day. I’m
going to get better.”
“Of course you are,” said Frank, “and here’s your food.”
“Lord, it smells good,” said David. “Do be quick, nurse.”
* * * * *
So there was house-supper at Adams’s that night.
* * * * * *
Transcriber's note:
Obvious printer errors have been corrected including missing periods at
end of line.
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The use of hyphenated words has been retained. Where two spellings of
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