CHAPTER XXXII

THE NEW FOREMAN

The Dan Lewis who came back to Clarke's Bottle Factory was a very

different man from the one who had walked out of it five years before. He

had gone out a stern, unforgiving, young ascetic, accepting no

compromise, demanding perfection of himself and of his fellow-men. The

very sublimity of his dream doomed it to failure. Out of the crumbling

ideals of his boyhood he had struggled to a foothold on life that had

never been his in the old days. His marriage to Birdie Smelts had been

the fiery furnace in which his soul had been softened to receive the

final stamp of manhood.

For his hour of indiscretion he had paid to the last ounce of his

strength and courage. After that night in the lodging-house, there seemed

to him but one right course, and he took it with unflinching promptness.

Even when Birdie, secure in the protection of his name and his support,

lapsed into her old vain, querulous self, he valiantly bore his burden,

taking any menial work that he could find to do, and getting a sort of

grim satisfaction out of what he regarded as expiation for his sin.

But when he became aware of Birdie's condition and realized the use she

had made of him, the tragedy broke upon him in all of its horror. Then

he, too, lost sight of the shore lights, and went plunging desperately

into the stream of life with no visible and sustaining ideal to guide

his course, but only the fighting necessity to get across as decently

as possible.

After a long struggle he secured a place in the Ohio Glass Works, where

his abilities soon began to be recognized. Instead of working now with

tingling enthusiasm for Nance and the honeysuckle cottage, he worked

doggedly and furiously to meet the increasing expense of Birdie's

wastefulness and the maintenance of her child.

Year by year he forged ahead, gaining a reputation for sound judgment and

fair dealing that made him an invaluable spokesman between the employer

and the employed. He set himself seriously to work to get at the real

conditions that were causing the ferment of unrest among the working

classes. He made himself familiar with socialistic and labor newspapers;

he attended mass meetings; he laid awake nights reading and wrestling

with the problems of organized industrialism. His honest resentment

against the injustice shown the laboring man was always nicely balanced

by his intolerance of the haste and ignorance and misrepresentation of

the labor agitators. He was one of the few men who could be called upon

to arbitrate differences, whom both factions invariably pronounced

"square." When pressure was brought to bear upon him to return to

Clarke's, he was in a position to dictate his own terms.

It was the second week after his reinstatement that he came up to the

office one day and unexpectedly encountered Nance Molloy. At first he did

not recognize the tall young lady in the well-cut brown suit with the bit

of fur at the neck and wrists and the jaunty brown hat with its dash of

gold. Then she looked up, and it was Nance's old smile that flashed out

at him, and Nance's old impulsive self that turned to greet him.

For one radiant moment all that had happened since they last stood there

was swept out of the memory of each; then it came back; and they shook

hands awkwardly and could find little to say to each other in the

presence of the strange stenographer who occupied Nance's old place at

the desk by the window.

"They told me you weren't working here," said Dan at length.

"I'm not. I've just come on an errand for Mrs. Clarke."

Dan's eyes searched hers in swift inquiry.

"I'm a trained nurse now," she said, determined to take the situation

lightly. "You remember how crazy I used to be about doping people?"

He did not answer, and she hurried on as if afraid of any silence that

might fall between them.

"It all started with the smallpox in Calvary Alley. Been back

there, Dan?"

"Not yet."

"Lots of changes since the old days. Mr. Snawdor and Fidy and Mrs. Smelts

and Mr. Demry all gone. Have you heard about Mr. Demry?"

Dan shook his head. He was not listening to her, but he was looking at

her searchingly, broodingly, with growing insistence.

The hammering of the type-writer was the only sound that broke the

ensuing pause.

"Tell me your news, Dan," said Nance in desperation. "Where you

living now?"

"At Mrs. Purdy's. She's going to take care of Ted for me."

"Ted? Oh! I forgot. How old is he now?"

For the first time Dan's face lit up with his fine, rare smile.

"He's four, Nance, and the smartest kid that ever lived! You'd be

crazy about him, I know. I wonder if you couldn't go out there some

day and see him?"

Nance showed no enthusiasm over the suggestion; instead she gathered up

her muff and gloves and, leaving a message for Mr. Clarke with the

stenographer, prepared to depart.

"I am thinking about going away," she said. "I may go out to California

next week."

The brief enthusiasm died out of Dan's face.

"What's taking you to California?" he asked dully, as he followed her

into the hall.

"I may go with a patient. Have you heard of the trouble they're in at the

Clarkes'?"

"No."

"It's Mr. Mac. He's got tuberculosis, and they are taking him out to the

coast for a year. They want me to go along."

Dan's face hardened.

"So it's Mac Clarke still?" he asked bitterly.

His tone stung Nance to the quick, and she wheeled on him indignantly.

"See here, Dan! I've got to put you straight on a thing or two. Where can

we go to have this business out?"

He led her across the hall to his own small office and closed the door.

"I'm going to tell you something," she said, facing him with blazing

eyes, "and I don't care a hang whether you believe it or not. I never was

in love with Mac Clarke. From the day you left this factory I never saw

or wrote to him until he was brought to the hospital last July, and I was

put on the case. I didn't have anything more to do with him than I did

with you. I guess you know how much that was!"

"What about now? Are you going west with him?"

Dan confronted her with the same stern inquiry in his eyes that had shone

there the day they parted, in this very place, five years ago.

"I don't know whether I am or not!" cried Nance, firing up. "They've done

everything for me, the Clarkes have. They think his getting well depends

on me. Of course that's rot, but that's what they think. As for Mr. Mac

himself--"

"Is he still in love with you?"

At this moment a boy thrust his head in the door to say that Dr. Adair

had telephoned for Miss Molloy to come by the hospital before she

returned to Hillcrest.

Nance pulled on her gloves and, with chin in the air, was departing

without a word, when Dan stopped her.

"I'm sorry I spoke to you like that, Nance," he said, scowling at the

floor. "I've got no right to be asking you questions, or criticizing what

you do, or where you go. I hope you'll excuse me."

"You _have_ got the right!" declared Nance, with one of her quick changes

of mood. "You can ask me anything you like. I guess we can always be

friends, can't we?"

"No," said Dan, slowly, "I don't think we can. I didn't count on seeing

you like this, just us two together, alone. I thought you'd be married

maybe or moved away some place."

It was Nance's time to be silent, and she listened with wide eyes and

parted lips.

"I mustn't see you--alone--any more, Nance," Dan went on haltingly. "But

while we are here I want to tell you about it. Just this once, Nance, if

you don't mind."

He crossed over and stood before her, his hands gripping a chair back.

"When I went away from here," he began, "I thought you had passed me up

for Mac Clarke. It just put me out of business, Nance. I didn't care

where I went or what I did. Then one night in Cincinnati I met Birdie,

and she was up against it, too--and--"

After all he couldn't make a clean breast of it! Whatever he might say

would reflect on Birdie, and he gave the explanation up in despair. But

Nance came to his rescue.

"I know, Dan," she said. "Mrs. Smelts told me everything. I don't know

another fellow in the world that would have stood by a girl like you did

Birdie. She oughtn't have let you marry her without telling you."

"I think she meant to give me my freedom when the baby came," said Dan.

"At least that was what she promised. I couldn't have lived through

those first months of hell if I hadn't thought there was some way out.

But when the baby came, it was too late. Her mind was affected, and by

the law of the State I'm bound to her for the rest of her life."

"Do you know--who--who the baby's father is, Dan?"

"No. She refused from the first to tell me, and now I'm glad I don't

know. She said the baby was like him, and that made her hate it. That was

the way her trouble started. She wouldn't wash the little chap, or feed

him, or look after him when he was sick. I had to do everything. For a

year she kept getting worse and worse, until one night I caught her

trying to set fire to his crib. Of course after that she had to be sent

to the asylum, and from that time on, Ted and I fought it out together.

One of the neighbors took charge of him in the day, and I wrestled with

him at night."

"Couldn't you put him in an orphan asylum?"

Dan shook his head.

"No, I couldn't go back on him when he was up against a deal like that. I

made up my mind that I'd never let him get lonesome like I used to be,

with nobody to care a hang what became of him. He's got my name now, and

he'll never know the difference if I can help it."

"And Birdie? Does she know you when you go to see her?"

"Not for two years now. It's easier than when she did."

There was silence between them; then Nance said:

"I'm glad you told me all this, Dan. I--I wish I could help you."

"You can't," said Dan, sharply. "Don't you see I've got no right to be

with you? Do you suppose there's been a week, or a day in all these years

that I haven't wanted you with every breath I drew? The rest was just a

nightmare I was living through in order to wake up and find you. Nance--I

love you! With my heart and soul and body! You've been the one beautiful

thing in my whole life, and I wasn't worthy of you. I can't let you go!

I--Oh, God! what am I saying? What right have I--Don't let me see you

again like this, Nance, don't let me talk to you--"

He stumbled to a chair by the desk and buried his head in his arms. His

breath came in short, hard gasps, with a long agonizing quiver between,

and his broad shoulders heaved. It was the first time he had wept since

that night, so long ago, when he had sat in the gutter in front of Slap

Jack's saloon and broken his heart over an erring mother.

For one tremulous second Nance hovered over him, her face aflame with

sympathy and almost maternal pity; then she pulled herself together and

said brusquely:

"It's all right, Danny. I understand. I'm going. Good-by."

And without looking back, she fled into the hall and down the steps to

the waiting motor.

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