_Circe_.--You will go then, Ulysses, but tell me, without reserve, what
carries you from me?
_Ulysses_.--Pardon, goddess, the weakness of human nature. My heart will
sigh for my country. It is an attachment which all my admiration of you
cannot entirely overcome.
_Circe_.--This is not all. I perceive you are afraid to declare your
whole mind. But what, Ulysses, do you fear? My terrors are gone. The
proudest goddess on earth, when she has favoured a mortal as I have
favoured you, has laid her divinity and power at his feet.
_Ulysses_.--It may be so while there still remains in her heart the
tenderness of love, or in her mind the fear of shame. But you, Circe,
are above those vulgar sensations.
_Circe_.--I understand your caution; it belongs to your character, and
therefore, to remove all diffidence from you, I swear by Styx I will do
no manner of harm, either to you or your friends, for anything which you
say, however offensive it may be to my love or my pride, but will send
you away from my island with all marks of my friendship. Tell me now,
truly, what pleasures you hope to enjoy in the barren rock of Ithaca,
which can compensate for those you leave in this paradise, exempt from
all cares and overflowing with all delights?
_Ulysses_.--The pleasures of virtue; the supreme happiness of doing good.
Here I do nothing. My mind is in a palsy; all its faculties are
benumbed. I long to return into action, that I may worthily employ those
talents which I have cultivated from the earliest days of my youth. Toils
and cares fright not me; they are the exercise of my soul; they keep it
in health and in vigour. Give me again the fields of Troy, rather than
these vacant groves. There I could reap the bright harvest of glory;
here I am hid like a coward from the eyes of mankind, and begin to appear
comtemptible in my own. The image of my former self haunts and seems to
upbraid me wheresoever I go. I meet it under the gloom of every shade;
it even intrudes itself into your presence and chides me from your arms.
O goddess, unless you have power to lay that spirit, unless you can make
me forget myself, I cannot be happy here, I shall every day be more
wretched.
_Circe_.--May not a wise and good man, who has spent all his youth in
active life and honourable danger, when he begins to decline, be
permitted to retire and enjoy the rest of his days in quiet and pleasure?
_Ulysses_.--No retreat can be honourable to a wise and good man but in
company with the muses. Here I am deprived of that sacred society. The
muses will not inhabit the abodes of voluptuousness and sensual pleasure.
How can I study or think while such a number of beasts--and the worst
beasts are men turned into beasts--are howling or roaring or grunting all
about me?
_Circe_.--There may be something in this, but this I know is not all. You
suppress the strongest reason that draws you to Ithaca. There is another
image besides that of your former self, which appears to you in this
island, which follows you in your walks, which more particularly
interposes itself between you and me, and chides you from my arms. It is
Penelope, Ulysses, I know it is. Don't pretend to deny it. You sigh for
Penelope in my bosom itself. And yet she is not an immortal. She is
not, as I am, endowed by Nature with the gift of unfading youth. Several
years have passed since hers has been faded. I might say, without
vanity, that in her best days she was never so handsome as I. But what
is she now?
_Ulysses_.--You have told me yourself, in a former conversation, when I
inquired of you about her, that she is faithful to my bed, and as fond of
me now, after twenty years' absence, as at the time when I left her to go
to Troy. I left her in the bloom of youth and beauty. How much must her
constancy have been tried since that time! How meritorious is her
fidelity! Shall I reward her with falsehood? Shall I forget my
Penelope, who can't forget me, who has no pleasure so dear to her as my
remembrance?
_Circe_.--Her love is preserved by the continual hope of your speedy
return. Take that hope from her. Let your companions return, and let
her know that you have fixed your abode with me, that you have fixed it
for ever. Let her know that she is free to dispose as she pleases of her
heart and her hand. Send my picture to her, bid her compare it with her
own face. If all this does not cure her of the remains of her passion,
if you don't hear of her marrying Eurymachus in a twelvemonth, I
understand nothing of womankind.
_Ulysses_.--O cruel goddess! why will you force me to tell you truths I
desire to conceal? If by such unmerited, such barbarous usage I could
lose her heart it would break mine. How should I be able to endure the
torment of thinking that I had wronged such a wife? What could make me
amends for her being no longer mine, for her being another's? Don't
frown, Circe, I must own--since you will have me speak--I must own you
could not. With all your pride of immortal beauty, with all your magical
charms to assist those of Nature, you are not so powerful a charmer as
she. You feel desire, and you give it, but you have never felt love, nor
can you inspire it. How can I love one who would have degraded me into a
beast? Penelope raised me into a hero. Her love ennobled, invigorated,
exalted my mind. She bid me go to the siege of Troy, though the parting
with me was worse than death to herself. She bid me expose myself there
to all the perils of war among the foremost heroes of Greece, though her
poor heart sunk and trembled at every thought of those perils, and would
have given all its own blood to save a drop of mine. Then there was such
a conformity in all our inclinations! When Minerva was teaching me the
lessons of wisdom she delighted to be present. She heard, she retained,
she gave them back to me softened and sweetened with the peculiar graces
of her own mind. When we unbent our thoughts with the charms of poetry,
when we read together the poems of Orpheus, Musaeus, and Linus, with what
taste did she discern every excellence in them! My feelings were dull
compared to hers. She seemed herself to be the muse who had inspired
those verses, and had tuned their lyres to infuse into the hearts of
mankind the love of wisdom and virtue and the fear of the gods. How
beneficent was she, how tender to my people! What care did she take to
instruct them in all the finer arts, to relieve the necessities of the
sick and aged, to superintend the education of children, to do my
subjects every good office of kind intercession, to lay before me their
wants, to mediate for those who were objects of mercy, to sue for those
who deserved the favours of the Crown. And shall I banish myself for
ever from such a consort? Shall I give up her society for the brutal
joys of a sensual life, keeping indeed the exterior form of a man, but
having lost the human soul, or at least all its noble and godlike powers?
Oh, Circe, it is impossible, I can't bear the thought.
_Circe_.--Begone; don't imagine that I ask you to stay a moment longer.
The daughter of the sun is not so mean-spirited as to solicit a mortal to
share her happiness with her. It is a happiness which I find you cannot
enjoy. I pity and despise you. All you have said seems to me a jargon
of sentiments fitter for a silly woman than a great man. Go read, and
spin too, if you please, with your wife. I forbid you to remain another
day in my island. You shall have a fair wind to carry you from it. After
that may every storm that Neptune can raise pursue and overwhelm you.
Begone, I say, quit my sight.
_Ulysses_.--Great goddess, I obey, but remember your oath.