XXIV

SHE knew so little about the metropolis that, on her first visit, a year

before, she had asked the driver of the taxicab to recommend a

respectable hotel for a lady travelling alone; and he had driven her to

the Hotel Aurora Borealis--that great, gay palace of Indiana limestone

and plate glass towering above the maelstrom of Long Acre.

When, her business transacted, she returned to the Westchester farm,

still timid, perplexed, and partly stunned by the glitter and noise of

her recent metropolitan abode, she determined never again to stop at

that hotel.

But when the time came for her to go again the long list of hotels

confused her. She did not know one from the other; she shrank from

experimenting; and, at least, she knew something about the Aurora

Borealis and she would not feel like an utter stranger there.

That was the only reason she went back there _that_ time. And the next

time she came to town that was the principal reason she returned to the

Aurora Borealis. But the next time, she made up her mind to go elsewhere;

and in the roaring street she turned coward, and went to the only place

she knew. And the time after that she fought a fierce little combat with

herself all the way down in the train; and, with flushed cheeks, hating

herself, ordered the cabman to take her to the Hotel Aurora Borealis.

But it was not until several trips after that one--on a rainy morning in

May--that she found courage to say to the maid at the cloak-room door:

"Who _is_ that young man? I always see him in the lobby when I come

here."

The maid cast an intelligent glance toward a tall, well-built young

fellow who stood pulling on his gloves near the desk.

"Huh!" she sniffed; "he ain't much."

"What do you mean?" asked the girl.

"Why, he's a capper, mem."

"A--a what?"

"A capper--a gambler."

The girl flushed scarlet. The maid handed her a check for her rain-coat

and said: "They hang around swell hotels, they do, and pick up

acquaintance with likely looking and lonely boobs. Then the first thing

the lonely boob knows he's had a good dinner with a new acquaintance and

is strolling into a quiet but elegant looking house in the West Forties

or Fifties." And the maid laughed, continuing her deft offices in the

dressing-room, and the girl looked into the glass at her own crimson

cheeks and sickened eyes.

At luncheon he sat at a little table by a window, alone, indolently

preoccupied with a newspaper and a fruit salad. She, across the room,

kept her troubled eyes away. Yet it was as though she saw him--perhaps

the mental embodiment of him was the more vivid for her resolutely

averted head.

Every detail of his appearance was painfully familiar to her--his dark

eyes, his smooth face which always seemed a trifle sun-tanned, the

fastidious and perfect taste of his dress in harmony with his boyish

charm and quiet distinction--and the youth of him--the wholesome and

self-possessed youth--that seemed to her the most dreadful thing about

him in the new light of her knowledge. For he could scarcely be

twenty-five.

Every movement he made had long since fascinated her; his unconscious

grace had been, to her, the unstudied assurance of a man of the world

bred to a social environment about which she knew only through reading.

Never had she seen him but straightway she began to wonder who and what

exalted person in the unknown metropolitan social circle he might be.

She had often wondered, speculated; sometimes dreamily she had endowed

him with name and position--with qualities, too--ideal qualities

suggested by his air of personal distinction--delightful qualities

suggested by his dark, pleasant eyes, and by the slight suspicion of

humour lurking so often on the edges of his smoothly shaven lips.

He was so clean-looking, so nice--and he had the shoulders and the hands

and the features of good breeding! And, after all--after all, he was a

gambler!--a derelict whose sinister living was gained by his wits; a

trailer and haunter and bleeder of men! Worse--a decoy sent out by

others!

She had little appetite for luncheon; he seemed to have less. But she

remembered that she had never seen him eat very much--and never drink

anything stronger than tea.

"At least," she thought with a mental quiver, "he has that to his

credit."

The quiver surprised her; she was scarcely prepared for any emotion

concerning him except the natural shock of disillusion and the natural

pity of a young girl for anything ignoble and hopelessly unworthy.

Hopelessly? She wondered. Was it possible that God could ever find the

means of grace for such a man? It _could_ be done, of course; it were a

sin for her to doubt it. Yet she could not see how.

Still, he was young enough to have parents living somewhere; unmarred

enough to invite confidence if he cared to. . . . And suddenly it struck

her that to invite confidence was part of his business; his charm part of

his terrible equipment.

She sat there breathing faster, thinking.

His charm was part of his equipment--an infernal weapon! She understood

it now. Long since, innocently speculating, she had from the very

beginning and without even thinking, conceded to him her confidence in

his worthiness. And--the man was a gambler!

For a few moments she hated him hotly. After a while there was more

sorrow than heat in her hatred, more contempt for his profession than for

him. . . . And _somebody_ had led him astray; that was certain, because

no man of his age--and appearance--could have deliberately and of his own

initiative gone so dreadfully and cruelly wrong in the world.

Would God pity him? Would some means be found for his salvation? Would

salvation come? It must; she could not doubt it--after she had lifted

her eyes once more and looked at him where he sat immersed in his

newspaper, a pleasant smile on his lips.

A bar of sunlight fell across his head, striping his shoulder; the

scarlet flowers on the table were becoming to him. And, oh! he seemed so

harmless--so delightfully decent; there where the sunlight fell across

his shoulder and spread in a golden net across the white cloth under his

elbows.

She rose, curiously weary; a lassitude lay upon her as she left the room

and went out into the city about her business--which was to see her

lawyer concerning the few remaining details of her inheritance.

The inheritance was the big, prosperous Westchester farm where she

lived--had always lived with her grandfather since her parents' death. It

was turning out to be very valuable because of the mania of the wealthy

for Westchester acreage and a revival in a hundred villages of the

magnificence of the old Patroons.

Outside of her own house and farm she had land to sell to the landed and

republican gentry; and she sold it and they bought it with an avidity

that placed her financial independence beyond doubt.

All the morning she transacted business downtown with the lawyer. In the

afternoon she went to a matinée all by herself, and would have had a most

blissful day had it not been for the unquiet memory of a young man who,

she had learned that morning, was fairly certain of eternal damnation.

That evening she went back to Westchester absent-minded and depressed.

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