THE SNOW
In the night they were awakened by a terrific outburst on the mountain
top, surpassing all they had yet heard since their arrival in the
valley. The forest roared under the onslaughts of the wind that swept
down through the gorge as through a funnel. Protected though the camp
was, in a measure, fierce gusts now and then assailed it, and later
the rain came, almost in torrents, beating through the canopy of
foliage, and half-flooding the bed.
Marion, rising to renew the fire, felt that a sharp change had come in
the atmosphere. It was colder than any night they had yet endured.
Wrapped again in her blankets, she was unable to keep warm. Her feet,
near the fire, were too hot, while her back and shoulders ached as if
they had been packed in ice. Turn which way she would, on her back, on
her side, or face downward, there was no relief from that acid cold.
She did not complain, but cried softly, trying to hold back her sobs
so that he should not hear her.
"You're cold," he said, hearing her nevertheless.
"A little--not very," she answered bravely.
But he knew very well how keenly she was suffering. His injured leg
pained him almost beyond endurance, as if the frost had been
concentrated there. There was nothing he could say or do for her or
for himself.
Toward morning, the fury of the storm having abated, they slept a
little, fitfully and uneasily, in the half-insensibility to suffering
that complete exhaustion brings. But they were glad when the first
gray light of morning stole in among the shadows and touched their
eyelids. With one accord, as if in a common apprehension, and moved by
a single fear, they raised their heads, and at the first glance about
them, sat up staring.
The meadow lay white under its first coverlet of snow, the trees were
draped in their winter mantles, their very bed had its downy quilt of
snowflakes that had sifted through the branches of the tree.
"It's come," said Haig simply.
"Yes," she answered, in a voice that echoed a tragic calm.
"But it was due."
"Seth kept saying we'd have a hard and early winter."
"Huntington's not such a fool as he looks," retorted Haig drily, as he
lay back to look up resignedly into the foliage, where white now
mingled with the green.
For some time there was no more speech. Marion arose, and went
silently about her work. She heaped wood on the fire until the flames
leaped high, and the heat began to drive out the settled chill from
her limbs, and she could move again without dull pain. Then to the
brook; but her baths in the pool were ended. She washed face and
hands, and brought back the wet towel for Philip. And breakfast was
eaten almost in silence, and without appetite; for the good venison
that had so rejoiced them the night before had already lost its
flavor.
"Do you see the circles on the trees yonder, where the moss begins?"
asked Haig at length.
"Yes," Marion answered.
"That's the snow line. It will lie thirty feet deep here."
She had no answer to that. But she was thinking. There must be a way.
She had no idea what it would be; but there must be some way out of
it.
When the camp had been cleaned up, and the pan and cup had been washed
and put aside, and the fire replenished, she brought her rifle from
its place behind the tree.
"I'm going for a walk," she said.
"Where?"
"I don't know. Down along the cliff perhaps. I may see another deer."
"Yes. You might as well. Deer meat will keep--longer than we--"
He checked the unnecessary speech. She rewarded him with a smile and
left him.
And now he faced a curious situation within himself. He saw clearly,
but strangely without sensation, that it was too late for Marion to
attempt the passage of the mountain. Whatever chance she might have
had before--and that was perhaps even less than the one in a thousand
of which he had spoken--she had now no chance at all, supposing that
he should force her to seek it by measures of desperation. And why had
he delayed? He did not know. Had he weakened? Had his injuries taken
something from his courage? He drew his treasured knife from his
pocket, opened the largest of the three keen blades, and passed it
slowly but lightly across his wrist. No; his hand was steady; he
could do it without a tremor. He could have done it yesterday, the day
before, or any day. Well, then; had he become sceptical of such a
solution of his problem? Perhaps. Six times in his life he had
attempted that solution, and always he had failed. And yet, what could
have thwarted him when Marion was far away in the forest, and he lay
quiet and undisturbed on his blankets, in full possession of his
faculties?
By such process of elimination he arrived at the final question: was
it she? Was it this girl that now stayed his hand, in spite of all his
logic and clear vision and resolution? This girl, with her foolish
faith, and misplaced love, and futile talk of miracles? Was it written
that they should die together--written in some volume of the book of
life into which he had never looked? Or was she right? And would there
be--
He looked out again upon the gleaming whiteness of the meadow, at the
snow line on the pines, at the remorseless mountain. He passed slowly
in review again the chances of a rescue, the chances of their
wintering in that (soon-to-be) snowbound valley, the chances of
a--miracle. And he shook his head. The odds were beyond all reckoning;
their fate was now as certain as if the cliff yonder, rent by another
cataclysm, had tumbled down upon them while they slept. But he had
known this in the very hour of his awakening to find her kneeling at
his side; he had delayed giving her the one chance of escape. And so,
was it because she had commanded him and he had unconsciously obeyed?
It was mystery; it was enigma. He tried to think if he had erred in
any way, if there was any fault to be attributed to him. No; he had
dealt more than fairly with this girl; he had spoken frankly and
brutally; he had never once consciously, by word or look, enticed her.
Unconsciously, perhaps; but how could he ever have foreseen such
consequences of the infatuation of which he had become slowly and
incredulously informed? He would have gone raging out of the Park,
between two suns (and Thursby be damned!), if he had ever dreamt of
this tragic end of her midsummer madness.
For two hours he lay thinking, torturing his brain for an explanation
of this mystery, an understanding of this coil. And he was no nearer a
solution than at the beginning, when his thoughts were interrupted by
Marion. She came running out of the forest--not running, but fairly
bounding, as if her feet were too light to rest on earth. Her face was
flushed, her eyes danced with excitement. But then, seeing his grave
and questioning face, she stopped short in front of him, suddenly
embarrassed.
"Well?" he asked gently.
"Would--a cave do?"
Her voice trembled between timidity and shortness of breath.
"A cave?"
"Yes."
"What kind of a cave?"
"A big cave--really two caves joined together."
"Where?"
"In the cliff--down there."
She pointed in the direction from which she had come at full speed.
"How high above the level of the valley?"
She stared at him, and was again embarrassed.
"I forgot that!" she said, in deep chagrin. "But wait, please!" She
looked around her. "I think--I know what you mean! It's higher up than
the marks on the trees there, surely it is!"
"Tell me about it!"
"It's only a little way from here. There's a narrow, clear space all
along between the forest and the cliff, where the grass grows high.
But there's one place--I missed it before, when I was just looking for
deer--where the cliff--How can I describe it? It sinks in, and there's
a slope up to it, solid rock. And at the top of the slope I saw a
black hole, and got off my pony to look in. The slope is easy to
climb. Tuesday climbed it with me. The mouth of the cave is partly
hidden by a rock that sticks out so that you can see the opening only
from one side. The entrance is no bigger than the door of your stable.
I was afraid at first, but--"
"You thought of your miracle," he suggested, with a smile.
"I knew something must be done, so I held my rifle ready, thinking it
might be a wild beasts' den, and listened a minute, and went in.
There's the big cave first, as large as the sitting-room and kitchen
together at Cousin Seth's, and there's a smaller one at the side, with
a narrow opening between them. The small one has an opening outside
too, just big enough for me to squeeze through, and look out on the
forest below."
"Was it cold in there? Did the wind blow through?"
"No, I think not. It seemed very dry and warm."
He looked at her intently, and so strangely that she blushed again,
she knew not why.
"Who are you, anyhow?" he asked, in a curious tone.
"I?"
"Yes, you?"
"I don't understand," she faltered in confusion.
"No matter!" he said. "We'll try the cave."
He had no faith in the experiment. Even with food and shelter, there
was still the cold that would steadily sap their strength, and stretch
them lifeless before half the winter should have passed. But she
should have her way; it would divert her mind from the inevitable; and
they would, at least, be doing all their best. The trip to the cave
would be hell for him, in his condition, but all that would be, at its
worst, soon ended.
A whole day being needed for the removal, they ventured to wait until
the following morning. Storms raged through all the night on Thunder
Mountain, and they woke again in utter wretchedness to find another
and heavier sheet of snow upon the meadow.
But Marion was soon up and at work in eagerness and hope. The fire and
the broiled venison renewed them; and even the snow offered something
by way of compensation, for Haig's journey on the freshly constructed
drag was smoother over the snow than it had been in the first instance
over the stone-littered earth. The ascent to the opening of the cave
was, however, another matter; and there was imminent danger of
Tuesday's sliding backward on the slippery rock, and crushing Haig
beneath him. Twice, indeed, such a fatal accident was narrowly
averted, and a less sure-footed animal than Tuesday would have
resolved all Haig's doubts in one swift catastrophe. But there was no
alternative, and Haig at length lay safe enough, though racked and
exhausted, at the mouth of the cave; and when he had rested he raised
himself on his elbows and looked around him.
The top of the slope was almost level, and made a kind of porch in
front of their new abode, about thirty feet in length and of half that
measurement in its greatest width. Haig calculated the height of the
platform above the valley--fully forty feet. Below was the strip of
grass, and then the forest towering high above them, protecting the
cave, in some degree, from the winds that would come roaring down the
gulch. At this height they should be able, in all probability, to defy
the snows. With a sufficient store of food and fuel, and any kind of
luck, there would have been--God! Was there a chance?
With his back to the wall! He had always been at his best against long
odds. None of the adventures of the ten years that he counted as his
life had ever been for any kind of gain; and the finest of them had
been those in which there were the most tight places. So this coming
struggle with the elements, though it should be a trial not of valor
but of endurance and resourcefulness, lacking swift action and a
culmination in one stirring hour, would once have allured him like a
splendid game. And even now, for one instant, while he sat there
keenly counting the forces on one side and the other, the pride of
battle lighted up his features, and for that instant he was himself
again. But a cruel and timely twinge in his injured leg recalled him
to realities. His back was not to the wall; it was flat on the
ground. He could not walk, he could not stand; and for weeks to come
he would continue to be as helpless as in that moment. To endure a
siege of eight months in the cave its garrison must have huge stores
of food and fuel; pine boughs and moss in lieu of bedding; solid
barricades at the entrances; and countless makeshifts for the comforts
that were denied. And before he should be able to stir it would be too
late. No, it was an idle dream; a month would see the end of both of
them. So he lay back again, and looked up vacantly into the cold, blue
sky.
But Marion, standing at one side and watching him, had seen that
flicker of the fire within, and was grateful for it beyond all reason
or belief. It was all she needed. Her hands were already raw and
bleeding, but she would work them to the bone if he would only guide
and advise and comfort her; and she knew now that she could trust him,
since there was no longer any question whether she should go or stay.
All that day was spent in bringing up fresh boughs and moss for their
beds, and in making them against the wall of the cavern where draughts
would be the least likely to sweep over them; in bestowing their
meager belongings; in hanging the venison from sticks thrust into a
crevice in the rock; in finding the best place for the fire that must
never be allowed to go down, and in planning the storage of food and
fuel.
Marion had no pressing anxiety about food, now that she had brought in
her first deer; but fuel was a different matter. To her own
appreciation of the problem Haig, that evening after dinner, added
some calculations that revealed it to her in its baldest aspects. The
morning, too, disclosed another layer of snow upon the valley. The
winter was coming on without pity, and each succeeding day would see
its lines drawn a little closer round them. There was not an hour, not
a moment to be lost.
At dawn she began, with Tuesday and the rope, to haul dead limbs and
logs, the largest she was able to handle, going far at first in order
to leave the nearest supplies for the last harvesting in deep snow.
Under Haig's instructions, she filled all the space in the caves that
would not be actually needed for their living quarters. Then she built
the logs into a square and solid pile on the platform at one side of
the entrance. These were not logs in any formidable sense, being for
the most part half-rotted fragments of tree trunks that had long been
decaying in the mold. But they were dry now, after the summer, and
they made excellent slow-burning fuel. The dead limbs she cut up into
small sticks, and filled the interstices of the heap, and all the
space between it and the wall of rock. And eventually the whole
platform was covered, and the slope on each side, until there was no
longer room for Tuesday to mount to it, and barely room for Marion
herself.
In the meantime, varying her exertions, she made several trips into
the woods for deer. After many disappointments, she succeeded, before
the snow became too deep for further expeditions, in bringing back to
the cave a splendid buck and three young does. Haig made for her a
rabbit snare, and taught her how to set it, and with this device she
had the luck to add a dozen rabbits to their store. And all this time
she was piling up every stick of wood that she could find space for,
even making a great heap at the foot of the slope to be drawn upon
before the snow should cover it.
Always the snow fell, steadily, remorselessly. Every night it snowed,
and every day more or less, with intervals of brilliant sunshine. The
wind blew with increasing violence, tossing the snow into huge drifts
upon the meadow, which Marion still saw sometimes in her wood
gathering, and sifting it in level masses among the trees, and
flinging it in great banks against the cliff. Up and up crept the
drifts and banks and levels until there came a day when she could do
no more.
And that day it seemed that she could have done no more in any kind of
weather, under any inspiration or necessity. The record of what she
did is but a footnote to the page of what she suffered. Time after
time she had sunk down in the snow and lain there exhausted until
strength came to her again from somewhere, and then had risen
_manfully_ to her work. For it was a man's work she did, with a
courage as much greater than a man's as her strength was less. She was
strong, for a woman; she had lived all her life much out of doors; and
she had entered upon this ordeal in perfect health. But her
willingness outsped her powers; and when the snow had spared her by
driving her into the cave, she fairly staggered and groped and leaned
against the wall, and knew that if she should now collapse she would
never rise again. But even in that climax of her suffering, when for a
moment she dared not move, in fear of toppling over on the floor, and
could not keep back her sobs, there was an answer ready when Haig
called to her across the cave.
"What is it, Marion?" he asked softly.
"Tuesday!" she answered chokingly.
"What about Tuesday?"
"He's a good horse."
"Yes."
"He never balked or--hesitated. He never threw me--but once, and that
wasn't his fault. It was--"
She stopped. And out of what black depths, and across what vistas of
hope and despair and love and anguish, she looked back to that scene
in the golden summer, in the Forbidden Pasture.
"Yes, I remember," said Haig.
Then she told him brokenly how she had just said farewell to Tuesday;
how he stood at the foot of the slope, thin as a specter, belly-deep
in snow, his nose lifted inquiringly toward her.
"Good-by, Tuesday!" she cried; and fled stumbling up the slope, her
hands on her ears to shut out his plaintive whinny.
Haig watched her narrowly, and was not deceived. Through the first few
days of Marion's struggles he had lain on his pallet in almost
complete indifference, in full acceptance of the fate that awaited
them; not callous to her sufferings, but resigned, as he thought, to
endure what could not be prevented. Having resolved to humor her, he
went from the extreme of resistance to the extreme of submission, and
hardened his heart to endure what galled and humiliated and degraded
him. Then anger seized him once more,--anger at Marion, anger at
himself, anger at Thursby, anger at circumstances, chance and destiny:
blinding and suffocating anger. To have been brought to this shameful
state, to lie there watching a woman, a mere girl, perform these
menial tasks for him--for him who had execrated and despised and
scorned her sex--for him who had accepted such services grudgingly
even from men--for him who had stalked around the world in defiant
independence, indebted to no man and obligated to no woman: this was
odious and intolerable. And it must be tolerated!
Marion knew nothing of this fiery ordeal through which Haig came. Even
in the fiercest and most maddening moment of his agony, when honor and
pride and self-respect were being reduced to ashes, he did not fail to
realize that to cry out, to rave or curse or denunciate, would only be
to add something cowardly and contemptible to the sum of his disgrace.
He did not even cast a stealthy glance toward his revolver, where it
lay in a niche in the cavern wall, though Marion was out in the snow
somewhere, and could not have stopped him if he had crawled to seize
it. That, too, would have been an act of cowardice and of infamy; and
something deep within him now continually spoke for her, and for
whatever it was she stood for in this chaos that was the end of all.
His fury slowly passed, and he had but emerged from its strangely
purifying fire into a calm that was well-nigh as terrible, when she
entered sobbing into the cave to tell him the pitiable little lie that
all her visible distress was for a pony to whom she had said farewell.
He saw her presently totter forward to put more fuel on the fire and
begin to prepare their evening meal. With eyes from which the smoke of
passion had now lifted, he saw what he had only vaguely seen before:
that she was thin and haggard; that her pale face took on a hectic
flush in the glow of the blazing pine; that her clothes were all in
tatters, her riding-skirt slit in many places, her coat and flannel
waist so worn, and torn that they barely covered her, and did indeed
reveal one white shoulder through a gaping rent; that one dilapidated
boot was quite out at toe; and that she was ill and faint and silent.
"Marion!" he called to her.
"Yes, Philip!" she answered, turning to look at him.
"Come here, please!"
She came and stood before him, unsteadily.
"Let me see your hands!"
She knelt, and held them out to him. Taking them in his own hands,
which were then far softer and whiter than hers, he looked long at the
raw and bleeding cracks, at the swollen joints, at the bruised and
calloused fingers, at the nails (they were once so pink and polished)
worn down to the quick, and at one nail that had been split back
almost to its root.
"They're not very pretty, are they?" she said, with a weak little
laugh that ended in a quiver of her chin.
He lifted the hands, the right one and then the left, and touched them
with his lips. She was very weary and faint and miserable; and he had
never done anything like that before; and so she drew back her hands,
and buried her face in them, and sank sobbing on the floor.