CHAPTER XLI

Elsbeth, sitting at the window, had seen them come down the street, and

was at the door to welcome them. Alwynne was kissed, rather gravely, but

Elsbeth and Roger greeted each other like the oldest of trusted friends.

Alwynne's eyebrows lifted, but Elsbeth ignored her. She scolded Roger

for being late, showed him his roses, revived and fragrant in their blue

bowls; and when Alwynne turned to go and dress, declared that he looked

starved, that supper was long overdue, and must be eaten at once. Roger

seconded her, and to supper they went.

Alwynne raged silently. What was the matter with Elsbeth? She had barely

greeted her.... And now to be so inconsiderate.... To insist on sitting

down to supper then and there, without giving her time to make herself

decent! Couldn't she see how tired Alwynne was, how badly in need of

soap and water and a brush and comb, let alone a prettier frock? It

wasn't fair! Elsbeth might know she would want to look nice--with Roger

there.... She did not choose to look a frump, however Elsbeth dressed

herself....

It dawned on her, however, as Elsbeth, resigning the joint to Roger,

began to mix a salad under his eye, after some particular recipe of his

imparting, that Elsbeth, on this occasion, was looking anything but a

frump. She wore her best dress of soft, dark purple stuff, and the scarf

of fine old lace, that, as Alwynne very well knew, saw the light on high

and holy days only; and a bunch of Roger's roses were tucked in her

belt. Her hair was piled high in a fashion new to Alwynne: a tiny black

velvet bow set off its silvery grey; it was waved, too, and clustered

becomingly at the temples. Alwynne, gasping, realised that Elsbeth must

have paid a visit to the local coiffeur. She realised also, for the

first time, how pretty, in delicate, pink-may fashion, her aunt must

once have been.

At any other time Alwynne would have been delighted at the improvement,

for she was proud of Elsbeth, in daughterly fashion, and had wrestled

untiringly with her indifference to dress. She knew she should have

hailed the change, but, to her own annoyance, she found it irritating.

It displeased her that she herself should be dishevelled and day-worn,

while Elsbeth faced her, cool and dainty and dignified. Roger was

obviously impressed.... Roger, to whom Elsbeth had been so carefully,

deprecatingly explained.... It made Alwynne look such a fool.... How was

she to know that Elsbeth would have this whim? She had never guessed

that Elsbeth could make herself look so charming.... And she to be in

her street clothes ... with her hair like a mouse's nest! It was too

bad! However, it didn't seem to matter.... Roger, it was clear enough,

had no eyes for her....

Her resentment grew. She attempted to join in the conversation, but

though Roger listened gravely, and answered politely--she never caught

the twinkle in his eye--he invariably flung back the ball to Elsbeth as

quickly as might be. She mentioned Dene; made intimate allusions to

their walks and adventures; and he turned to explain them, to include

Elsbeth, with a pointedness that made Alwynne pink with vexation. She

began to long to get him to herself ... to quarrel or make peace, as he

pleased ... but anyhow to get him to herself.... Couldn't one have a

moment's conversation without dragging Elsbeth into it? So absurd of

Roger....

Slowly she realised that neither Roger nor Elsbeth were finding her

indispensable, and her surprise was only rivalled by her indignation.

Elsbeth particularly--it was simply beastly of Elsbeth--was being, in

her impalpable way, unapproachable.... She was angry about

something.... Alwynne knew the signs.... She, Alwynne, supposed that

she ought to have written.... But she did write a postcard.... One

couldn't be everlastingly writing letters.... Any one but Elsbeth would

have waived the matter, with a visitor present, but Elsbeth was so

vindictive.... Here Alwynne's rebellious conscience allied itself with

her sense of humour, to protest against the picture of a vindictive

Elsbeth. They bubbled with tender laughter at the idea. Alwynne must

needs laugh with them, a trifle remorsefully, and admit that the idea

was fantastic; that Elsbeth, in all the years she had known her, had

been the most meek and forgiving of guardians; and that she, Alwynne,

had been undeniably negligent. Nevertheless, why must Elsbeth show Roger

the kitchen? What was he saying to her out there? And why were they both

laughing like that?

"Cackle, cackle, cackle," muttered Alwynne viciously; "awfully funny,

isn't it?"

She continued her reflections.

Fussing over clearing the supper still! One of Elsbeth's absurd ideas,

just because it was the maid's evening out.... Let her do it when she

came back! Such a fuss and excitement always! What would Roger think of

them? What a long time they were! She might take the opportunity of

going to change her frock.... She hesitated. What was that? What was

Roger saying? She caught the murmur of his deep voice and her aunt's

staccato in answer, but the words were blurred.

After all--why should she bother to change? Elsbeth would be sure to

make unnecessary remarks.... And Roger wouldn't care--he was too

occupied with Elsbeth.... Nobody cared--nobody wanted her.... She would

go back to Clare to-morrow.... But if Clare were in to-day's humour

still?

What a wretched week it had been.... Even if Clare had not been so

moody, Alwynne would have felt ill at ease ... she had known perfectly

well that she owed the first weeks of her return to her aunt ... but at

a hint from Clare she had stifled her conscience and stayed.... And now

Elsbeth, she could tell, was deeply hurt.... Once away from Clare,

Alwynne could reflect and be sorry.... She wouldn't have believed that

she could be so careless of Elsbeth's feelings.... She was suddenly and

generously furious with herself. How selfish, how abominably selfish she

had been.... No wonder Roger had been shocked! Of course neither he nor

Elsbeth could ever understand how difficult it was to withstand

Clare.... It had been possible once.... Her thought strayed to that

early Christmas when she had resisted all Clare's arguments.... But now

she had no choice.... However determined one might be beforehand--and

she had intended to return that first day--one's will was beaten aside,

blown about like a straw in a strong wind.... If only Roger would

understand that.... She hated him to think her so selfish.... Elsbeth

needn't have told him, she thought resentfully ... it was not like

Elsbeth to give her away.... She supposed she had hurt Elsbeth's

feelings pretty badly.... Why, oh why, hadn't she been firmer with

Clare? She had only to say, quite quietly, that she must do what she

felt to be right.... Clare couldn't have eaten her....

She began to rehearse the conversation; it soothed her to compose the

telling phrases she might have uttered. They sounded all right ... but,

of course, face to face with Clare she could never have said them....

Clare, in indifference, displeasure or appeal, would have conquered

without battle given ... in her heart she knew that.

She moved uneasily about the room, deep in thought. For the first time

her attitude to Clare struck her as contemptible.... What had Roger

said? "Like a dog after a thrashing." Intolerable! She flung up her

head, her pride writhing under the phrase. So that was how it struck

outsiders! Outsiders? She didn't care a dead leaf for outsiders.... Let

them think what they chose! But Roger? And Elsbeth? Did they really

think her weak and enslaved? It stung her that Roger should think so

meanly of her. She told herself that the loss of his opinion in no way

affected her--and instantly began to revolve within herself phrases,

explanations, actions, wherewith to regain it. And there was Elsbeth....

He had thought her unkind to Elsbeth.... He was right there! She saw,

remorsefully, with her usual thoroughness, that she had been, for many a

long year, as the plagues of Egypt to her Elsbeth.

She flung herself on the prim little sofa, and stared at the closed door

uncertainly. She was too proud to do what she wanted to do--invade the

kitchen, and regardless of Roger's eyes and presence, confess to

Elsbeth, and receive absolution. A word, she knew, would be enough....

If Elsbeth felt as miserable as she did--a word would be more than

enough....

Elsbeth and Roger, returning to the sitting-room, ended her indecision.

Their manner had changed--Roger was quieter--less talkative--but Elsbeth

was so radiant that Alwynne decided that contrition could wait. More

than ever she realised that two were company....

Her anger grew again as she watched and listened.

Elsbeth had produced cards, and suggested three-handed bridge. Alwynne

excused herself, and Roger, who had been her partner on occasion at

Dene, was obviously relieved. His Alwynne was the One Woman--but she

could not play bridge!

He settled down to double-dummy with Elsbeth. The conversation became a

rapt and technical duet, punctuated with interminable pauses.

Alwynne fumed.

So this was Elsbeth's idea of a really pleasant evening! Cards! Beastly,

idiotic cards! Roger, her Roger, had come up all the way from Dene to

play cards with Elsbeth! Had he just? All right then! He should have all

the cards he wanted--and more! As for Elsbeth--catch Alwynne telling her

she was sorry now!

The striking of the clock gave her her opportunity. She rose, yawning

elaborately.

"I'm going to bed," she remarked to the card-table.

"Are you, dear?" said Elsbeth.

"Oh! Oh, good-night," said Roger casually rising, and sitting down

again. "Your shout, Elsbeth."

Elsbeth went "no trumps."

Alwynne lingered.

"Of course the kitchen fire's out?" she said, with sour suggestiveness.

"Do you want a bath? Yes, of course. Do you know, my dear, you're

looking rather grubby?" Elsbeth paid her sweetly. "I expect the water

will still be hot, if you're quick. Don't forget to turn the light off,

will you, when you've finished?"

Alwynne made no answer, but she still lingered. Elsbeth, finishing her

hand, spoke over her shoulder--

"Alwynne, dear, either go out, or come in and sit down. There's such a

draught."

There was a swish of skirts, and all the innumerable ornaments rattled

on their shelves. Alwynne had permitted herself the luxury of banging

the door.

Roger laughed like a schoolboy.

"'All is not well!'" he quoted.

Elsbeth laughed too, yet half against her will.

"My poor Alwynne! She hates me to be annoyed with her. It infuriates

her. She'll be awfully penitent to-morrow. It's really rather comical,

you know. She'll take criticism from any one else--but I must approve

implicitly! And you being here didn't improve matters. She was longing

to be nice, and I didn't help her. She was quite aware that she was

showing you her worst side, and quite unable to get out of the mood. I

knew, bless her heart!"

She looked at him with a quick little gesture of appeal.

"Roger--you do understand? That--tantrum--meant nothing. She's such an

impulsive child."

He smiled.

"I know. Don't you worry. Besides, it was my fault. I was teasing her

all the evening. It was not what she expected. Oh, I'm growing subtle

enough to please even you, Elsbeth. You know, she's had rather a full

day. Evidently a scorching afternoon with that delightful friend of

hers, to start with----"

"Ah?" said Elsbeth, her eyes brightening.

"Oh, yes; she was distinctly chastened. I improved the occasion, and

you've about finished her off, the poor old girl! I was expecting that

little exhibition."

"I believe--I believe you enjoy upsetting her," began Elsbeth, rather

indignantly.

"Of course I do. It's as good as a play!"

Elsbeth sighed.

"Well--I suppose it's all right. You'll have to manage her for the

future, not I."

"Oh, she'll do all the managing," said Roger ruefully. "I foresee that

this is my last stand. She's just a trifle in awe of me, at present, you

know, though she doesn't know it. But it won't last. And then--heaven

help me! But, you know, Cousin Elsbeth--to be henpecked by

Alwynne--don't you think it will be quite pleasant?"

"It is. She's bullied me since she was three. Oh, Roger, I shall miss

her." She blinked rapidly.

Roger stared away from her in awkward sympathy.

"You shan't, not very much," he said. "We'll fix things. You'll have to

come and settle with us."

Elsbeth fidgeted.

"You know, you took my breath away in the kitchen just now," she said.

"Are you quite sure it's all right? Does Alwynne _know_ she's engaged to

you?"

He perpended.

"Well, frankly--I don't think she did quite take it in."

"Roger!"

"But I'm buying the engagement ring to-morrow," he added hastily.

"That'll clear things up."

Elsbeth looked at him helplessly.

"Roger, either you're a genius or a lunatic. I'm not sure which--but, I

think, a lunatic."

"Oh, well! We shall know to-morrow," he observed consolingly. "I shall

turn up about eleven. Keep Alwynne for me, won't you?"

Elsbeth struck her hands together.

"It's Clare Hartill's birthday! I'd almost forgotten her! Alwynne will

be engrossed. Oh, Roger! You've been telling me fairy tales. We've

forgotten Clare Hartill!"

Roger picked up the scattered cards. With immense caution he poised a

couple, tent fashion, and builded about them, till a house was complete.

He added storey after storey, frowning and absorbed. At the sixth, the

structure collapsed. He looked up and met Elsbeth's eyes.

"People in card-houses shouldn't raise Cain. It's an expensive habit,"

he remarked sententiously. "Elsbeth, don't worry! But keep Alwynne till

I come to-morrow, won't you?"

"I'll try."

"Of course, if she's still in a temper----Hulloa!"

The door had been softly opened. Alwynne, in her gay dressing-gown stood

on the threshold. Her hair was knotted on the top of her head, and small

damp curls strayed about her forehead. The folds of her wrapper, humped

across her arm, with elaborate care, hinted at the towels and sponges

concealed beneath. She looked, in spite of her bigness, like an

extremely small child masquerading as a grown-up person.

Her eyes sought her aunt's appealingly. Roger, she ignored.

"Elsbeth," she said meekly, "please won't you come and tuck me up?"

She disappeared again.

Elsbeth laughed as she rose.

"I knew she wouldn't be content. Isn't she a dear, Roger, for all her

little ways?"

"She's all right," said Roger, with immense conviction.

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