The summer holidays came and went, eight cloudless weeks of them. Clare
loved the sun; was well content to be out, day after day, cushioned and
replete, on the sunniest strip of sand in the sunniest corner of a
parched and gasping England. She found it wonderfully soothing to listen
with shut eyes to the purr of the sea and the distant cries of gulls and
children, with Alwynne to fan her and shade her, and clamber up and down
two hundred feet of red cliff for her when the corkscrew was forgotten,
or the salt, or Clare's bathing-dress, or a half-read magazine. Clare
grew brown and plump as the drowsy days went by. Alwynne grew brown,
too, but she certainly did not grow plumper. But then the heat never
suited Alwynne. She had often said so, as she reminded Elsbeth. For,
when Alwynne came back to her for the three weeks at home that she had
persuaded Clare were due to Elsbeth, Elsbeth was difficult to satisfy.
Elsbeth was inclined to be indignant. What sort of a holiday had it
been, if Alwynne could come back so thin, and tired, and colourless
under her tan? What had Miss Hartill been about to allow it?
But Alwynne's account of their pleasant lazy days was certainly
appeasing.... It must have been the heat.... Not even the most
suspicious of aunts could conscientiously suspect Clare of having
anything to do with it.... Wait till September came, with its cooling
skies.... Alwynne would be better then.
In the meantime Elsbeth tried what care and cookery and coddling could
do, and Alwynne submitted more patiently than usual.
Alwynne, indeed, was unusually gentle with Elsbeth in the three weeks
they spent together before the autumn term began. She was always good to
Elsbeth, considerate of her bodily comforts, lovingly demonstrative. But
Clare had taught Alwynne very carefully that she was growing up at last,
becoming financially and morally independent, free to lead her own life,
that if she stayed with Elsbeth it was by favour, not by duty. And
Alwynne, immensely flattered by the picture of herself as a woman of the
world, had lived up to it with her usual drastic enthusiasm. Elsbeth,
not unused to disillusionment and hopes deferred, could sigh and smile
and acquiesce, knowing it for the phase that it was and forgiving
Alwynne in advance. But Clare, who owed her neither gratitude nor duty,
she never forgave. She was a very human woman, for all her saintliness.
She got her reward that summer, when Alwynne came back, quieted, grave,
very tender with Elsbeth, clinging to her sometimes as if she were
nearer nine than nineteen. But Elsbeth was fated never to have her
happiness untainted. She was haunted by the conviction that Alwynne's
subduement was not natural. Her pleasure in being with her aunt was so
obvious that Elsbeth was worried, and knowing how infallibly Alwynne
turned to her in any trouble, she expected revelations. But none
came--only the manner was there that always accompanied them. Yet
something was wrong.... A quarrel with Clare Hartill.
But Alwynne, delicately questioned, chattered happily enough of their
holiday, and there were frequent letters----She was over-anxious, too,
to protest that she was perfectly well, and, in proof, exhausted herself
in unnecessary housework. But she continued restless and abstracted,
jumped absurdly at any sudden noise, and followed Elsbeth about like a
homeless dog.
And she had contracted an odd habit of coming late at night into
Elsbeth's room, trailing blankets and a pillow under her arm, to beg to
sleep on Elsbeth's sofa--just this once! She would laugh at herself and
pull Elsbeth's face down to her for a kiss, but she never gave any good
reason for her whim. But she came so often that Elsbeth had a bed made
up for her at last, and she slept there all the holidays, or lay awake.
Elsbeth suspected that she lay awake two nights out of three.
With the autumn term Alwynne seemed to rouse herself, and flung herself
into her work with her usual energy. Elsbeth saw less of her. The school
claimed all her days, and Clare the bulk of her evenings. She had moved
back into her own room again, and Elsbeth, her door ajar, would lie and
watch the crack of light across the passage, and grieve over her
darling's sleeplessness, and the shocking waste of electric light.
She wondered if the girl were working too hard.... Could that be at the
root of the matter? She grew so anxious that she could even consult
Clare on one of the latter's rare and formal calls.
"I am so glad to see you. Alwynne is changing; she'll be down in a
minute. I made her lie down. Miss Hartill, I'm very distressed about the
child. Do you think she looks well?"
Clare, less staccato than usual, certainly didn't think so.
"So thin--she's growing so dreadfully thin! Her neck! You should see her
neck--salt-cellars, literally! And she had such a beautiful neck! But
you've never seen her in evening dress."
Yes, Clare had seen her.
"And so white and listless! I don't know what to make of her. I don't
know what to do."
Clare, with unusual gentleness, would not advise Elsbeth to worry
herself. Possibly Alwynne was doing a little too much. Clare would make
enquiries. But she was sure that Elsbeth was over-anxious.
But Elsbeth was not to be comforted. She nodded to the open door.
"Look at her now--dragging across the hall."
But Alwynne, in her gay frock, cheeks, at sight of Clare, suddenly
aflame, did not look as if there were much amiss. She was thinner, of
course....
Elsbeth, however, had made Clare uneasy. She attacked Alwynne on the
following day.
"Your aunt says you're dying, Alwynne. What's the matter?"
"Dear old Elsbeth!" Alwynne laughed lightly.
"_Is_ anything wrong?" Clare did not appear to look at her; nevertheless
she did not miss the slight change in Alwynne's face, as she answered
with careful cheeriness--
"What should be wrong in this best of all possible----"
Clare caught her up.
"I'm not a fool, Alwynne. What's the matter?"
"I wish you wouldn't discuss me with Elsbeth," said Alwynne uneasily. "I
don't like it. I won't have you bothered."
"I'm not," said Clare coolly. "At the same time----"
Alwynne braced herself. She knew the tone.
"--I don't like any one about me with a secret grief and a pale,
courageous smile. I can't stand a martyr."
"I'm not!" Alwynne was wincing. Then, suddenly: "What has Elsbeth been
saying? Honestly, I didn't know she'd noticed anything."
"What is the matter?" said Clare again, gently enough. "Tell me, silly
child!"
Alwynne shrugged her shoulders.
"Nothing! Just life!"
Clare waited.
"I'm sorry if I've been horrid--" she paused--"to Elsbeth."
Clare opened her eyes.
"What about me?"
"I'm never horrid to you," said Alwynne with compunction. "That's what's
so beastly of me."
"Well, upon my word!" cried Clare blankly.
"Oh, you know what I mean." Alwynne jumbled her words. "I always want to
be nice to you. It's perfectly easy. And then I go home to Elsbeth, the
darling, and am grumpy and snappy, and show her all the hateful side of
me. Heaven knows why! Only yesterday she said, 'You wouldn't speak to
Clare Hartill like that,' in her dear, hurt voice. I felt such a brute."
A little smile hovered at the corners of Clare's mouth.
"I was always so sorry," said Clare smoothly, "that you couldn't spend
Christmas Day with me last year."
Alwynne wrinkled her forehead.
"What's that got to do----?"
Clare caught her up.
"With your secret griefs? Nothing whatever! You're quite right. But what
are they, Alwynne? Who's been worrying you? Have you got too much to
do?"
"It's not that," said Alwynne unwillingly.
"Then what?"
"Oh, things!"
"What things?"
"Miss Vigers, for one," Alwynne began. Then she burst out: "Clare, I
don't know what I've done to her. She never leaves me alone."
Clare stiffened.
"Miss Vigers? What has she to say to you? You're responsible to
me--after Miss Marsham."
"She doesn't seem to think so. It's nag, nag, nag--fuss, fuss, fuss. Are
the girls working properly? Am I not neglecting this? Or overdoing that?
Do I remember that Dolly Brown had measles three terms ago? Why is
Winifred Hawkins allowed to sit with the light in her eyes? Do I make a
habit of keeping So-and-so in? and if so, why so? And Miss Marsham
doesn't approve of this, and Miss Marsham evidently doesn't know of
that--and my manner is excessively independent--and will I kindly
remember...? Oh, Clare, it's simply awful. I get no peace. And you know
how driven I am, with Miss Hutchins away. You'd think I'd done something
awful from the way she treats me. Everlastingly spying and hinting----"
"Hinting what?" Clare's voice was icy.
"That's what I can't make out. That's the maddening part of it. Do you
think I'm such a failure? Do you think I'm not to be trusted? I get on
with the children--they work well! Truly, Clare, I don't know why she
dislikes me so. You'd think she was trying to worry me into leaving."
"You should have told me before," said Clare curtly, and changed the
subject so abruptly that Alwynne feared she was angry, and wished that
she had held her tongue.
She was right. Clare was angry. Clare had conveniently forgotten her
little conversation with Henrietta on that panic-stricken summer day:
was naturally surprised and indignant to find it bearing the fruit she
had intended it to bear. This was what came of confiding in people! And
Henrietta, she had no doubt, would be prepared to give chapter and verse
for her surveillance, if Clare should, directly or indirectly, call it
in question.... Henrietta would appear to have Clare in a cleft stick:
and Alwynne was to suffer in consequence. Clare (a great deal fonder
of Alwynne than she, or Alwynne, or any one save Elsbeth, guessed)
laughed to herself, once, softly, and her eyes snapped. Wait a while,
Henrietta ... wait a wee while!
Thoughtfully she approached the question of the counter-attack. That was
inevitable, a sop to her own conscience. Besides, it would be
amusing.... It was necessary, however, to decide upon the weapon.
It was a small matter--the refusal of a boarder for lack of space--that
provided it. Quietly, she went to work.
For the first time, for her own departments had allowed her energy its
outlet, she set herself to disentangle the lines on which the school was
run. She found many knots. Half day, half boarding school, grown from a
timid beginning into one of the most flourishing of its kind, it was,
indeed, like the five hundred-year-old town in which it stood, a
marvellous compound of ancient custom and modern usage. The "Seminary
for Young Ladies" of the 'seventies was three parts obliterated by the
'nineties High School regimen, on which, in its turn, was superimposed
the cricket and hockey of the twentieth century's effemination of the
public-school system; the whole swollen, patchwork concern held together
by the personality of its creator, and its own reputation.
Clare nodded. It was obvious to her, that with the retirement of Miss
Marsham, accomplished already in all save name, the school would fall to
pieces. A pity ... it had a fine past ... was a valuable property
still.... With a vigorous woman at its head, judiciously iconoclastic,
no stickler for tradition, it would revive its youth.... She herself,
for instance.... She toyed with the idea.
Miss Marsham was looking out for a successor.... She herself had been
sounded.... Should she? She shook her head. Life was very pleasant as it
was.... She knew that she hated responsibility as much as she liked
power.... She sat on the school's shoulders, at present.... As head
mistress the school would sit on hers.... No, thank you! She had better
uses for her spare time.... There were books ... idleness ...
Alwynne.... Imagine never having time to play with Alwynne!
Nevertheless it would be fascinating to plan out the reorganisation of
the school ... and carry it out, for that matter. She could do it, she
knew. She would get all pat and then have some talks--some suggestive
talks--with Miss Marsham.... She, Clare, had some little influence....
And there was life in the old warhorse yet.... Anything that she could
be persuaded to believe would benefit her school would have her instant
sanction.... She would be nominally responsible, of course, and would
give Clare, nevertheless, a free hand.... And Clare, sweeping clean,
would sweep away whatever withstood her.... Henrietta would have little
energy left for Alwynne when Clare had finished her spring-cleaning....
For the next few weeks, Clare spent nearly all her spare time at the
school. She would stay to supper, and even, on occasion, superintend
"lights out." She would ask artless questions, and the matron and the
young mistresses found her "so sympathetic when you really got her to
yourself. So sensible, you know--always sees what you mean."
Finally, Clare shut herself up for a Saturday and a Sunday with a neat
little note-book, and drew up plans and made some calculations. Then she
went to see Miss Marsham. She went to see Miss Marsham several times.
The plan was certainly an excellent one.... Miss Marsham could not
follow the details very well ... but that, of course, would be dear
Clare's affair.... A great saving ... an immense improvement.... There
would be changes, of course.... This idea of separate houses, for
instance.... It would mean taking extra premises--but Clare was quite
right, they were overcrowded--had had to turn away girls.... She quite
agreed with Clare ... she had always preferred boarders herself; one had
a freer hand.... With a mistress responsible for each house, though,
what would there be left for Miss Vigers to do?... Yes--she might take
over a house, of course.... But Miss Marsham paused uneasily. She
anticipated trouble with Henrietta.
She was justified. Henrietta refused utterly to discuss the suggested
alterations. Miss Marsham must excuse her; she had her position.... One
house? after controlling the entire school's economy? She did not
suggest that Miss Marsham could be serious--that was impossible.... Miss
Marsham was serious? Then there was no more to be said....
She said a good deal, however, and at considerable length; ended,
breathless, waspish, leaving her resignation in her principal's hands.
Neither she nor Miss Marsham dreamed that it would be accepted.
But Clare Hartill, consulted by Miss Marsham, was puzzlingly relieved.
Very delicately she congratulated her chief on being extricated from a
difficult position; praised Miss Vigers's tact--or her sense of fitness.
Unusual good sense.... People so seldom realised their limitations,
unprompted ... poor Miss Vigers was certainly no longer young ... hardly
the woman for a modern house-mistress-ship.... Old fashioned ... in
these days of degrees and college-training so much more was expected ...
and after that affair in the summer no doubt she had lost confidence in
herself.... Clare was sure that Miss Vigers had appreciated Miss
Marsham's forbearance, but of course, she must know, in her own heart,
that if she had taken proper precautions--it was her business to arrange
for a mistress to be on duty, wasn't it?--the accident could not have
happened. Poor little Louise! Oh, and of course, poor Miss Vigers
too!... Well, it was for the best, she supposed ... and Miss Vigers
seemed to feel that it was time for her to go.... Perhaps it was.... But
they would all be sorry to lose her.... Clare really thought that she
would like to get up a presentation from the school.... Now what did
Miss Marsham consider appropriate?
So Henrietta found herself taken at her word. She left, passionately
resentful, at the half-term; hoping, at least, to embarrass her employer
thereby. (But Clare Hartill knew of such a nice suitable
woman--Newnham.)
Henrietta Vigers was forty-seven when she left. She had spent youth and
prime at the school, and had nothing more to sell. She had neither
certificates nor recommendations behind her. She was hampered by her
aggressive gentility. Out of a £50 salary she had scraped together £500.
Invested daringly it yielded her £25 a year. She had no friends outside
the school. She left none within it.
Miss Marsham presented her with a gold watch, decorously inscribed; the
school with a handsomely bound edition of Shakespeare.
Heaven knows what became of her.