REVELATIONS AND REGRETS
Susan Warner reached Poindexter Arms at the hour appointed and found her
employer in the lily-pond garden. The old woman curtsied. Her heart was
filled with pity. How changed was her formerly haughty mistress. There
were more lines in the pale, patrician face than there were in the ruddy
countenance of the humbler woman who was years the older. Hesitatingly
she spoke: “I reckon you’ve been mighty sick, Mis’ Poindexter-Jones. It’s
a pity, too, you havin’ so much to make life free of care an’ happy.” But
the sad expression in the tired eyes, that were watching her so kindly,
seemed to belie the words of the old woman who had been nurse for Baby
Harold and housekeeper at Poindexter Arms for many years.
“Be seated, Susan. Miss Dane, my nurse, has gone to town to make a few
purchases for me. Some of them books—” the invalid paused and turned
questioningly toward the older woman. “Did your Jenny tell you that I
wish to engage her services for an hour or two each morning—reading to
me?”
Susan Warner nodded, saying brightly, “She was that pleased, Jenny was!
She didn’t tell me just what she was meaning, but she said, happy-like,
‘It will give me a chance to pay a debt.’”
“A debt.” The invalid was perplexed. “Why, Jenny Warner is in no way
indebted to me.” Then a cold, almost hard expression crept into her eyes,
as she added, “If Gwynette had said that, I might have understood. But
she never does. She takes all that I give her, and is rebellious because
it is not more.” She had been thinking aloud. Before her amazed listener
uttered a comment, if, indeed, she would have done so, which is doubtful,
the younger woman said bitterly: “Susan Warner, I have failed, failed
miserably as a mother. You have succeeded. That is why I especially
wished to talk with you this morning. I want your advice.” Then Mrs.
Poindexter-Jones did a very unusual thing for her. She acknowledged her
disappointment in her adopted daughter to someone apart from herself.
“The girl’s selfishness is phenomenal,” she continued, not without
bitterness. “She is jealous of the least favor I show my own boy and
wishes all of our plans to be made with her pleasure as our only
consideration.”
The old woman shook her head sympathetically. “Tut! tut! Mis’
Poindexter-Jones, that’s most unfeelin’ of her. Most!” She had been about
to say that it was hard to believe that the two girls were really
sisters, but, fearing that the comparison might hurt the other woman’s
feelings, she said no more.
The invalid, an unusual color burning in her cheeks, sighed deeply.
“Susan Warner,” she said, and there was almost a break in her voice,
“don’t blame the girl too much. I try not to. If you had brought her up,
and I had had Jenny, it might have been different. They——”
But Susan Warner could not wait, as was her wont for a superior to finish
a sentence. She hurriedly interrupted with “Our Jenny wouldn’t have been
different from what she is—no matter how she was fetched up. I reckon she
just _couldn’t_ be. She’d have been so grateful to you for havin’ given
her a chance—she’d have been sweeter’n ever. Jenny would.”
The older woman was not entirely convinced. “I taught Gwynette to be
proud,” she said reminiscently. “I wanted her to select her friends from
only the best families. I was foolishly proud myself, and now I am being
punished for it.”
Susan Warner said timidly, “Maybe she’ll change yet. Maybe ’tisn’t too
late.”
“I fear it is far too late.” The invalid again dropped wearily back among
her silken pillows. She closed her eyes, but opened them almost at once
to turn a keenly inquiring glance at her visitor. “Susan Warner, I wanted
to ask you this question: Do you think it might break down Gwynette’s
selfish, haughty pride if she were to be told that she is your Jenny’s
sister and my adopted daughter?”
The older woman looked startled. “Oh, I reckon I wouldn’t be hasty about
tellin’ that, Mis’ Poindexter-Jones. I reckon I wouldn’t!” Then she faced
the matter squarely. Perhaps the panic in her heart had been caused by
selfish reasons. If the two girls were told that they were sisters, then
Jenny would have to know that she was not the real granddaughter of the
Warners. Would she, could she love them as dearly after that? The old
woman rose, saying quaveringly, “Please, may I talk it over with Silas
first. He’s clear thinkin’, Silas is, an’ he’ll see the straight of it.”
And to this Mrs. Poindexter-Jones agreed.
On the day following, at the appointed hour, Jenny Warner, again wearing
her pale yellow dress, appeared in the garden by the lily pond, and was
welcomed by the invalid with a smile that brightened her weary face.
There were half a dozen new books on the small table, and Mrs.
Poindexter-Jones, without preface, said: “Choose which one you would like
to read, Jeanette.”
She glanced quickly at the girl, rebuking herself for having used the
name of long ago, but it evidently had been unnoticed. The truth was that
Miss Dearborn, her beloved teacher, had often used that longer name.
“They all look interesting. O, here is one, ‘The Morning Star.’ I do
believe that is poetry in prose. How I wish Lenora might hear it also.”
“Lenora?” the woman spoke inquiringly; then “O, I recall now. You did say
that you have a visitor who is ill. Is she strong enough to accompany you
to my garden for our readings?”
“She would be, I think. The doctor said that by tomorrow I might take her
for a drive. I could bring her chair and her cushions.” But the older
woman interrupted. “No need to do that Jeanette. I have many pillows and
several reclining chairs.” Then she suggested: “Suppose we leave the book
until your friend is with us. There is a collection of short stories that
will do for today.”
Jenny Warner read well. Miss Dearborn had seen to that, as she considered
reading aloud an accomplishment to be cultivated.
The invalid was charmed. The girl’s voice was musical, soft yet clear,
and most soothing to the harassed nerves of the woman, broken by the
endless round of society’s demands.
When the one story was finished, the woman said: “Close the book, please,
Jeanette. I would rather talk. I want to hear all about yourself, what
you do, who are your friends, and what are your plans for the future.”
Jenny Warner told first of all about Miss Dearborn. That story was very
enlightening to the listener. She had felt that some influence, other
than that of the Warners, must have helped in the moulding of the girl
who sat before her. “I would like to meet Miss Dearborn,” was her only
comment.
Then Jenny told about Lenora Gale and the brother, Charles, who was
coming to take her back to Dakota.
“But Lenora will not be strong enough to travel, perhaps not for a month,
the doctor thinks. I do not know what her brother will do, but Lenora
will remain with me.” Such a glad light was shining in the liquid brown
eyes that the older woman was moved to say, “It makes you very happy to
have a girl companion.”
Jenny clasped her hands, as she exclaimed: “No one knows how I have
always longed to have a sister. I have never had friends—girl friends, I
mean—I have been Miss Dearborn’s only pupil, but often and often I have
pretended that I had a sister about my own age. I would wake up in the
night, the way girls do in books, and confide my secrets to a
make-believe sister. Then, when I went on long tramps alone up in the
foothills, I pretended that my sister was with me and we made plans
together.”
The girl hesitated and glanced at her listener, suddenly abashed, fearing
that the older woman would think her prattling foolish. She was amazed at
the changed expression. Mrs. Poindexter-Jones was ashen gray and her face
was drawn as though she were suffering. “Dear,” she said faintly, “call
Miss Dane, please! I would like to go in. It was a great wrong, a very
great wrong—and yet, every one meant well.”
Puzzled, indeed, the girl arose and hastened toward the house. Mrs.
Poindexter-Jones must have become worse, and suddenly she was even
wandering in her mind. Jenny found the nurse not far away lying in a
hammock, just resting.
She hurried to her patient. The woman leaned heavily on her companion as
she walked toward the house. The girl, fearing that her chattering had
overtired Harold’s mother, followed penitently.
At the steps the woman turned and held out a frail hand. There were tears
on her cheeks and in her eyes. “Jeanette,” she said, almost feebly, “I am
very tired. Do not come again until I send for you. I want to think. I
must decide what to do.”
Then, noting the unhappy expression on the sweet face of the girl, she
said, ever so tenderly, “You have not tired me, dear, dear Jeanette.
Don’t think that. It is something very different.” Puzzled and troubled,
Jenny returned to the farm.