And see! his heart overflows at this remembrance of his mother's milk. The

great doctor humbles his style, makes it simple and familiar, to tell us of

his first mewlings, and of his baby angers and joys. He too was a father;

he knew what is a new-born child, and a young mother who gives it suck,

because he had seen that with his own eyes close beside him. All the small

bothers which mingle with the pleasures of fatherhood he had experienced

himself. In his own son he studied himself.

* * * * *

This child, born of a Christian mother, and who was to become the great

defender of the faith, was not christened at his birth. In the early

Church, and especially in the African Church, it was not usual to do so.

The baptismal day was put as far off as possible, from the conviction that

the sins committed after the sacrament were much more serious than those

which went before. The Africans, very practical folk, clearly foresaw that

they would sin again even after baptism, but they wanted to sin at a better

rate, and lessen the inflictions of penance. This penance in Augustin's

time was far from being as hard as in the century before. Nevertheless, the

remembrance of the old severity always remained, and the habit was taken to

put off baptism so as not to discourage sinners overmuch.

Monnica, always sedulous to conform with the customs of her country and

the traditions of her Church, fell in with this practice. Perhaps she may

have had also the opposition of her husband to face, for he being a pagan

would not have cared to give too many pledges to the Christians, nor to

compromise himself in the eyes of his fellow-pagans by shewing that he

was so far under the control of Christian zealots as to have his child

baptized out of the ordinary way. There was a middle course, and this was

to inscribe the child among the catechumens. According to the rite of the

first admission to the lowest order of catechumens, the sign of the cross

was made on Augustin's forehead, and the symbolic salt placed between his

lips. And so they did not baptize him. Possibly this affected his whole

life. He lacked the baptismal modesty. Even when he was become a bishop, he

never quite cast off the old man that had splashed through all the pagan

uncleannesses. Some of his words are painfully broad for chaste ears. The

influence of African conditions does not altogether account for this. It is

only too plain that the son of Patricius had never known entire virginity

of soul.

They named him Aurelius Augustinus. Was Aurelius his family name? We cannot

tell. The Africans always applied very fantastically the rules of Roman

nomenclature. Anyhow, this name was common enough in Africa. The Bishop of

Carthage, primate of the province and a friend of Augustin, was also called

Aurelius. Pious commentators have sought to find in this name an omen of

Augustin's future renown as an orator. They have remarked that the word

_aurum_, gold, is contained in Aurelius--a prophetic indication of the

golden mouth of the great preacher of Hippo.

Meanwhile, he was a baby like any other baby, who only knew, as he tells

us, how to take his mother's breast. However, he speaks of nurses who

suckled him; no doubt these were servants or slaves of the household.

They gave him their milk, like those Algerian women who, to-day, if their

neighbour is called away, take her child and feed it. Besides, with them

children are weaned much later than with us. You can see mothers sitting at

their doors put down their work and call to a child of two or three playing

in the street for him to come and take the breast. Did Augustin remember

these things? At least he recalled his nurses' games, and the efforts they

made to appease him, and the childish words they taught him to stammer.

The first Latin words he repeated, he picked up from his mother and the

servants, who must also have spoken Punic, the ordinary tongue of the

populace and small trader class. He learned Punic without thinking about

it, in playing with other children of Thagaste, just as the sons of our

colonists learn Arab in playing with little boys who wear chechias on their

heads.

He is a Christian, a bishop, already a venerated Father, consulted by the

whole Catholic world, and he tells us all that. He tells it in a serious

and contrite way, with a manifest anxiety to attribute to God, as the sole

cause, all the benefits which embellished his childhood, as well as to

deplore his faults and wretchedness, fatal consequence of the original

Fall. And still, we can make out clearly that these suave and far-off

memories have a charm for him which he cannot quite guard himself against.

The attitude of the author of the _Confessions_ is ambiguous and a little

constrained. The father who has loved his child, who has joined in his

games, struggles in him against the theologian who later on was to uphold

the doctrine of Grace against the heretics. He feels that he must shew, not

only that Grace is necessary for salvation and that little children ought

to be baptized, but that they are capable of sinning. Yes, the children sin

even at nurse. And Augustin relates this story of a baby that he had seen:

"I know, because I have seen, jealousy in a babe. It could not speak, yet

it eyed its foster-brother _with pale cheeks and looks of hate_." Children

are already men. The egoism and greediness of the grown man may be already

descried in the newly born.

However, the theologian of Grace was not able to drive from his mind

this verse of the Gospel: _Sinite ad me parvulos venire_--"Suffer little

children to come unto Me." But he interprets this in a very narrow sense,

luring it into an argument which furthers his case. For him, the small

height of children is a symbol of the humility without which no one can

enter God's kingdom. The Master, according to him, never intended us to

take children as an example. They are but flesh of sin. He only drew from

their littleness one of those similitudes which He, with His fondness for

symbols, favoured.

Well, let us dare to say it: Augustin goes wrong here. Such is the penalty

of human thought, which in its justest statements always wounds some

truth less clear or mutilates some tender sentiment. Radically, Augustin

is right. The child is wicked as man is. We know it. But against the

relentlessness of the theologian we place the divine gentleness of Christ:

"Suffer little children to come unto Me, for of such is the Kingdom of

God."

IV

THE FIRST GAMES

"I loved to play," Augustin says, in telling us of those far-off years.

Is it surprising if this quick and supple intelligence, who mastered

without effort, and as if by instinct, the encyclopædic knowledge of his

age, who found himself at his ease amidst the deepest abstractions, did, at

the beginning, take life as a game?

The amusements of the little Africans of to-day are not very many, nor very

various either. They have no inventive imagination. In this matter their

French playfellows have taught them a good deal. If they play marbles, or

hopscotch, or rounders, it is in imitation of the _Roumis_. And yet they

are great little players. Games of chance attract them above all. At these

they spend hour after hour, stretched out flat on their stomachs in some

shady corner, and they play with an astonishing intensity of passion. All

their attention is absorbed in what they are about; they employ on the game

all the cunning of their wits, precociously developed, and so soon stuck

fast in material things.

When Augustin recalls the games of his childhood, he only mentions "nuts,"

handball, and birds. To capture a bird, that winged, light, and brilliant

thing, is what all children long to do in every country on earth. But in

Africa, where there are plenty of birds, big people as well as little

love them. In the Moorish cafés, in the wretchedest _gourbis_, cages made

of reeds are hung on the walls, all rustling with trills and fluttering

of wings. Quail, thrushes, nightingales are imprisoned in them. The

nightingale, the singing-bird beyond all others, so difficult to tame, is

the honoured guest, the privileged dweller in these rustic cages. With

the rose, he is an essential part of Arab poetry. The woods round about

Thagaste were full of nightingales. Not the least doubt that the child

Augustin had felt the little musical throats of these singing-birds throb

between his hands. His sermons, his heaviest treatises, have a recollection

of them. He draws from them an evidence in favour of the creating Word who

has put beauty and harmony everywhere. In the song of the nightingale he

finds, as it were, an echo of the music of the spheres.

If he loved birds, as a poet who knows not that he is a poet, did he love

as well to play at "nuts"? "Nuts," or thimble-rigging, is only a graceful

and crafty game, too crafty for a dreaming and careless little boy. It

calls for watchfulness and presence of mind. Grown men play at it as well

as children. A step of a staircase is used as a table by the players, or

the pavement of a courtyard. Three shells are laid on the stone and a

dried pea. Then, with rapid baffling movements, hands brown and alert fly

from one shell to another, shuffle them, mix them up, juggle the dried

pea sometimes under this shell, sometimes under that,--and the point is

to guess which shell the pea has got under. By means of certain astute

methods, an artful player can make the pea stick to his fingers, or to the

inside of the shell, and the opponent loses every time. They cheat with a

calm shamelessness. Augustin cheated too--which did not prevent him from

bitterly denouncing the cheating of his fellow-players.

The truth is, that he would not have quite belonged to his country if he

had not lied and stolen now and then. He lied to his tutor and to his

schoolmasters. He stole at his parents' table, in the kitchen, and in the

cellar. But he stole like a man of quality, to make presents and to win

over his playfellows: he ruled the other boys by his presents--a noteworthy

characteristic in this future ruler of souls. Morals like these, a little

rough, shape free and bold natures. Those African children were much less

coddled, much less scolded, than to-day. Monnica had something else to do

than to look after the boys. So for them it was a continual life in the

open air, which makes the body strong and hard. Augustin and his companions

should be pictured as young wild-cats.

This roughness came out strong at games of ball, and generally at all

the games in which there are two sides, conquerors and prisoners, or

fights with sticks and stones. Stone-throwing is an incurable habit

among the little Africans. Even now in the towns our police are obliged

to take measures against these ferocious children. In Augustin's time,

at Cherchell, which is the ancient _Cæsarea Mauretaniæ_, the childish

population was split into two hostile camps which stoned each other. On

certain holidays the fathers and big brothers joined the children; blood

flowed, and there were deaths.

The bishop Augustin recalls with severity the "superb victories" he won in

jousts of this kind. But I find it hard to believe that such a delicate

child (he was sickly almost all his life) could have got much pleasure out

of these brutal sports. If he was drawn into them by the example of others,

it must have been through the imagination they appealed to him. In these

battles, wherein sides took the field as Romans against Carthaginians,

Greeks against Trojans, he believed himself Scipio or Hannibal, Achilles

or Hector. He experienced beforehand, as a rhetorician, the intoxication

of a triumph which playfellows who were stronger and better provided with

muscles gave him a hard fight for. He did not always get the upper hand,

except perhaps when he bribed the enemy. But an eager young soul, such

as he was, can hardly be content with half-victories; he wants to excel.

Accordingly, he sought his revenge in those games wherein the mind has the

chief part. He listened to stories with delight, and in his turn repeated

them to his little friends, thus trying upon an audience of boys that charm

of speech by which later he was to subdue crowds. They also played at

acting, at gladiators, at drivers and horses. Some of Augustin's companions

were sons of wealthy citizens who gave splendid entertainments to their

fellow-countrymen. As these dramatic representations, or games of the

arena or circus, drew near, the little child-world was overcome by a

fever of imitation. All the children of Thagaste imitated the actors, the

_mirmillones_, or the horsemen in the amphitheatre, just as the young

Spaniards of to-day imitate the _toreros_.

In the midst of these amusements Augustin fell ill; he had fever and

violent pains in the stomach. They thought he was going to die. It appears

that it was himself who in this extreme situation asked for baptism.

Monnica was making all haste to have the sacrament administered, when

suddenly, against all expectation, the child recovered. Again was baptism

postponed, and from the same reason: to lessen the gravity of the sins

which young Augustin was bound to commit. His mother, who no doubt foresaw

some of them, again fell in with the custom.

It is possible that Patricius interfered this time in a more decided way.

Just at this period Catholicism was in an unfavourable situation. The

short reign of Julian had started a violent pagan reaction. Everywhere

the temples were reopening, the sacrifices beginning again. Moreover,

the Donatists secretly aided the pagans. Their _Seids_, more or less

acknowledged, the Circoncelliones, bands of fanatical peasants, scoured

through the Numidian country, attacking the Catholics, ravaging and

pillaging, and burning their farms and villas. Was this a good time to

make a noisy profession of faith, to be enrolled among the ranks of the

conquered party?

Little Augustin knew nothing of all these calculations of motherly prudence

and fatherly diplomacy: he begged for baptism, so he tells us. This seems

very remarkable in so young a child. But he lived in a house where all the

service was done by Christians. He heard the talk of Monnica's friends;

perhaps, too, of his grandparents, who were Catholics faithful and austere.

And then, his soul was naturally religious. That explains everything:

he asked for baptism to be like grown-up people, and because he was

predestined. Among children, the chosen have these sudden flashes of light.

At certain moments they feel what one day they shall be. Anyhow, Monnica

must have seen this sign with joy.

He got well, and took up again his little boy's life, divided between play,

and dawdling, and school.

School! painful memory for Augustin! They sent him to the _primus

magister_, the elementary teacher, a real terror, armed with a long switch

which came down without pity on idle boys. Seated on benches around him, or

crouched on mats, the boys sang out all together: "One and one are two, two

and two are four"--horrible refrain which deafened the whole neighbourhood.

The school was often a mere shed, or a _pergola_ in the fields which was

protected fairly well from sun and rain by cloths stretched overhead--a hut

rented for a trifle, wide open to the winds, with a mosquito-net stretched

out before the entrance. All who were there must have frozen in winter

and broiled in summer. Augustin remembered it as a slaves' chain-prison

(_ergastulum_) of boyhood.

He hated school and what they taught there--the alphabet, counting, and

the rudiments of Latin and Greek grammar. He had a perfect horror of

lessons--of Greek above all. This schoolboy, who became, when his turn

came, a master, objected to the methods of school. His mind, which grasped

things instinctively at a single bound, could not stand the gradual

procedure of the teaching faculty. He either mastered difficulties at

once, or gave them up. Augustin was one of the numerous victims of the

everlasting mistake of schoolmasters, who do not know how to arrange

their lessons to accord with various kinds of mind. Like most of those

who eventually become great men, he was no good as a pupil. He was often

punished, thrashed--and cruelly thrashed. The master's scourge filled

him with an unspeakable terror. When he was smarting all over from cuts

and came to complain to his parents, they laughed at him or made fun of

him--yes, even the pious Monnica. Then the poor lad, not knowing whom to

turn to, remembered hearing his mother and the servants talk of a Being,

very powerful and very good, who defends the orphan and the oppressed. And

he said from the depths of his heart:

"O my God, please grant that I am not whipped at school."

But God did not hear his prayer because he was not a good boy. Augustin was

in despair.

It is evident that these punishments were cruel, because forty years

afterwards he denounces them with horror. In his mind, they are tortures

comparable to the wooden horse or the iron pincers. Nothing is small

for children, especially for a sensitive child like Augustin. Their

sensitiveness and their imagination exaggerate all things out of due

measure. In this matter, also, schoolmasters often go wrong. They do not

know how to handle delicate organizations. They strike fiercely, when a

few words said at the right moment would have much more effect on the

culprit.... Monnica's son suffered as much from the rod as he took pride

in his successes at games. If, as Scipio, he was filled with a sensation

of glory in his battles against other boys, no doubt he pictured himself

a martyr, a St. Laurence or St. Sebastian, when he was swished. He never

pardoned--save as a Christian--his schoolmasters for having brutalized him.

Nevertheless, despite his hatred for ill-ordered lessons, his precocious

intelligence was remarked by everybody. It was clear that such lucky gifts

should not be neglected. Monnica, no doubt, was the first to get this into

her head, and she advised Patricius to make Augustin read for a learned

profession.

The business of the _curia_ was not exactly brilliant, and so he may have

perceived that his son might raise their fortunes if he had definite

employment. Augustin, a professor of eloquence or a celebrated pleader,

might be the saviour and the benefactor of his family. The town councils,

and even the Imperial treasury, paid large salaries to rhetoricians. In

those days, rhetoric led to everything. Some of the professors who went

from town to town giving lectures made considerable fortunes. At Thagaste

they pointed with admiration to the example of the rhetorician Victorinus,

an African, a fellow-countryman, who had made a big reputation over-seas,

and had his statue in the Roman Forum. And many years before, had not M.

Cornelius Fronto, of Cirta, another African, become the tutor of Marcus

Aurelius, who covered him with honours and wealth and finally raised him to

the Consulship? Pertinax himself, did he not begin as a simple teacher of

grammar, and become Proconsul of Africa and then Emperor of Rome? How many

stimulants for provincial ambition!...

Augustin's parents reasoned as the middle-class parents of to-day. They

discounted the future, and however hard up they were, they resolved to

make sacrifices for his education. And as the schools of Thagaste were

inadequate, it was decided to send this very promising boy to Madaura.

V

THE SCHOOLBOY OF MADAURA

A new world opened before Augustin. It was perhaps the first time he had

ever gone away from Thagaste.

Of course, Madaura is not very far off; there are about thirty miles at

most between the two towns. But there are no short journeys for children.

This one lay along the military road which ran from Hippo to Theveste--a

great Roman causeway paved with large flags on the outskirts of towns, and

carefully pebbled over all the rest of the distance. Erect upon the high

saddle of his horse, Augustin, who was to become a tireless traveller

and move about ceaselessly over African roads during all his episcopal

life--Augustin got his first glimpse of the poetry of the open road, a

poetry which we have lost for ever.

How amusing they were, the African roads of those days, how full of sights!

Pauses were made at inns with walls thick as the ramparts of citadels,

their interiors bordered by stables built in arcades, heaped up with

travellers' packs and harness. In the centre were the trough and cistern;

and to the little rooms opening in a circle on to the balcony, drifted up

a smell of oil and fodder, and the noise of men and of beasts of burthen,

and of the camels as they entered majestically, curving their long necks

under the lintel of the door. Then there was talk with the merchants, just

arrived from the south, who brought news of the nomad countries, and had

stories to tell. And then, without hurrying, a start was made again for the

next stage. Long files of chariots were encountered carrying provisions to

soldiers garrisoned on the frontier, or the State-distributed corn of the

Roman people to the sea-ports; or again, from time to time, the _lectica_,

brought along by slaves or mules, of a bishop on a visitation; and then the

litter, with close-drawn curtains, of a matron or some great personage. Of

a sudden all pulled sharp to one side; the vehicles lined up on the edge of

the road; and there passed at full speed, in a cloud of dust, a messenger

of the Imperial Post....

Certainly this road from Hippo to Theveste was one of the busiest and most

picturesque in the province: it was one of its main arteries.

At first the look of the country is rather like the neighbourhood of

Thagaste. The wooded and mountainous landscape still spreads out its

little breast-shaped hills and its sheets of verdure. Here and there the

road skirts the deeply-ravined valley of the Medjerda. At the foot of the

precipitous slopes, the river can be heard brawling in a torrent over its

stony bed, and there are sharp descents among thickets of juniper and the

fringed roots of the dwarf-pines. Then, as the descent continues, the land

becomes thinner and spaces bare of vegetation appear oftener. At last, upon

a piece of tableland, Madaura comes into view, all white in the midst of

the vast tawny plain, where to-day nothing is to be seen but a mausoleum

in ruins, the remains of a Byzantine fortress, and vague traces vanishing

away.

This is the first rise of the great plain which declines towards Theveste

and the group of the Aures Mountains. Coming from the woodland country of

Thagaste, the nakedness of it is startling. Here and there, thin cows crop

starveling shrubs which have grown on the bank of some _oued_ run dry.

Little asses, turned loose, save themselves at a gallop towards the tents

of the nomads, spread out, black and hairy, like immense bats on the

whiteness of the land. Nearer, a woman's red _haick_ interposes, the single

stain of bright colour breaking the indefinite brown and grey of the plain.

Here is felt the harshness of Numidia; it is almost the stark spaces of

the desert world. But on the side towards the east, the architecture of

mountains, wildly sculptured, stands against the level reaches of the

horizon. Upon the clear background of the sky, shew, distinctly, lateral

spurs and a cone like to the mystic representation of Tanit. Towards the

south, crumbling isolated crags appear, scattered about like gigantic

pedestals uncrowned of their statues, or like the pipes of an organ raised

there to capture and attune the cry of the great winds of the _steppe_.

This country is characterized by a different kind of energy from Thagaste.

There is more air and light and space. If the plantation is sparse, the

beautiful shape of the land may be observed all the better. Nothing breaks

or lessens the grand effects of the light.... And let no one say that

Augustin's eyes cared not for all that, he who wrote after his conversion,

and in all the austerity of his repentance: "If sentient things had not a

soul, we should not love them so much."

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