ACTING AND NOT ACTING.

Some guests had left The Fells that afternoon, but others had arrived.

There were further goings and comings during the next few days, but more

of the latter than the former. The Helmonts were in their glory, but to

Imogen and her mother, fresh from their uneventful monotonous life _a

deux_, the effect was almost as confusing as that of a kaleidoscope too

rapidly turned. It became a relief when the party settled down as it

were, for a little, into the chosen guests especially selected for the

private theatricals which had been for some time under discussion, and

at which the "assistance" of the Wentworths had _not_ been desired.

But Imogen was undoubtedly pretty; every one, even Miss Forsyth, allowed

it. And her face was a novelty. She proved to have more spirit, or

"go," as Trixie called it, in her, than had seemed probable; on the

whole, she bid fair to be a very creditable success. Her inexperience

and shyness were amusing, not tiresome. Her mother watched her with

enchantment, ready and eager to swallow any amount of even the most

thinly disguised flattery on Imogen's account from the astute Mabella.

"She is really turning everybody's head. I never saw anything like it,"

said the young lady in question over and over again, whenever she got a

chance of Mrs Wentworth to herself. "Noll is grateful for a glance;

and Fred"--Fred was Captain Helmont--"who is considered a tremendous

critic, admires her out and out, only, of course, his admiration is due

elsewhere." He was shortly to be married to a girl not at that time one

of the party at The Fells. "I don't know what Lady Lucy would say to it

if she were here."

Mrs Wentworth smiled. Captain Helmont had been one of her dreams for

Imogen before they came.

"Lady Lucy is very pretty herself, some one said," she remarked

politely.

"Not a patch on Imogen, if I may call her so," Miss Forsyth continued.

"But _the_ marvel," and here she dropped her voice discreetly, "is Major

Winchester! A man who never knows if a woman has a nose on her face or

not--who stalks about the world like the great Mogul. Of course, we all

admire him and respect him--oh, immensely!--but we look upon him as a

being quite apart. And there he is--perfectly devoted--taking the

greatest interest in these theatricals, which as a rule he would have

thought beneath contempt, and all, I am sure, for your daughter's sake.

Trixie and I can't get over it."

Mrs Wentworth's smile was positively beaming.

"My dear Miss Forsyth, you are too kind, too partial," she said. "I

quite appreciate all you say, but--I must not have Imogen spoilt. She

is so young. Major Winchester, for instance--I am sure he considers her

a perfect child."

"But she is not--not in _some_ ways," Mabella went on, insidiously.

"She has been so well brought up,"--and here she sighed deeply--"so well

educated. I heard Rex saying to some one that he could see she had

excellent abilities. It will be such a good thing for my poor Trixie if

a girl like that takes to her--her influence would be everything. Much

better than mine," here she sighed again. "I can do my friends no good,

I can only love them. _I_ was not well brought up--far from it, as I

daresay you can see for yourself."

"Poor dear!" said Mrs Wentworth, too ingenuous herself to doubt

another, and too candid to express any civil disagreement. She gently

stroked Mabella's hand, while the ready tears rose to her eyes. "You

had no mother, perhaps?"

"Yes, my mother is still living, but--she never understood me," said

Miss Forsyth, vaguely. And Mrs Wentworth, suspecting some painful

family history behind the words, forbore to question further. She would

have been not a little amazed had she heard the true side of the story.

A father and mother, simple-minded and devoted to their daughter, erring

only in their too great unselfishness, to be repaid by contempt and

scorn, when, by dint of a certain unscrupulous cleverness, Mabella made

her way into a higher social sphere. She and Trixie had met

accidentally, and the elder girl at once laid herself out to obtain an

ascendency over the spoilt Helmont "baby," in which she succeeded only

too well.

"No," Mabella repeated. "I was never understood, and--I was not

naturally patient and docile, I fear; and now, though I see it all, I am

too old to change, I suppose."

"Too old!" repeated Imogen's mother. "Nonsense, dear Miss Forsyth. You

can't be more than seven or eight and twenty?"

"I am three-and-twenty," said the girl, which was true. She was

furious, but she hid it. "Will you take me in hand, dear Mrs

Wentworth," she went on, "if you don't think me too old! You can't be

many years older yourself," she added, sweetly.

"I shall be thirty-eight next month," Imogen's mother replied. "That is

dreadfully old, is it not?"

"I shall count you my elder sister then, and you must tell me when you

see me doing anything you don't like, and dear Imogen will look after

Trixie. Shall that be a compact? Who knows how much good you may not

do me in a fortnight! Even Major Winchester himself would not give me

up as incorrigible, if he heard of it."

And under Mabella's direction, hints, though less broad, were not

wanting on Trixie's part to Imogen herself. They were seed for which

circumstances, including her own inexperience and vanity, her mother's

blind devotion and Rex Winchester's well-intended kindness, were

steadily preparing a congenial soil.

Everybody knows the atmosphere of excitement, general fuss, anxiety, and

eager anticipation which seizes upon a house--a country-house

especially--where "private theatricals" are in question. And to those

fortunate people who have never themselves had personal experience of

it, it has been too often described to need more than an allusion. It

is a grand test--almost as good as a sea voyage--of temper and

unselfishness. So far, perhaps, we may consider it salutary. But no

doubt such a state of things has its undesirable side. To the

inexperienced, especially, it brings with it a curious sense of

unreality, a throwing off of one's actual self and responsibilities

which call for peculiar good-sense and self-control.

"I don't feel as if I knew who I was," said Imogen, looking up at Major

Winchester somewhat wistfully one day, about ten days after her arrival

at The Fells, when a long rehearsal had tried everybody's patience and

good-humour to the utmost. "I don't think I am the least good at

acting, and yet I feel as if I weren't myself. I seem more than half

`Valesca.' Yet I shall _never_ be able to do it the way Mr Villars

tells me."

"He is rather inexorable, certainly," Rex agreed; "but then he wouldn't

be fit to be stage-manager if he were not. I think you will do very

well, quite well enough."

He did not add the truth--that though she was quite without dramatic

power of the mildest kind, she _looked_ the part so charmingly that no

one would be inclined to be critical.

"That is faint praise," said Imogen with one of her little pouts. "Of

course I know it is a most unimportant character; still I would like to

manage it decently well. How capitally Trixie and Miss Forsyth act,

Major Winchester!"

He glanced at her sharply.

"Then I hope no one I care for will ever act capitally," he said.

Imogen reddened.

"You are very severe on them," she said. "I don't mind what you think

of Miss Forsyth, for I don't like her; but I am, sometimes, at least"--

and here, for some unexplained reason, she grew still redder--"very fond

of Trixie. She is very kind to me generally;" for candour compelled her

to qualify the statement. Trixie not being so case-hardened in

diplomacy as her ally, was not always able to keep her temper or to hide

her growing jealousy of Imogen's universally acknowledged beauty. "And

I think she would like to be more--more like what your sister must have

been. I think you can scarcely judge of Trixie, Major Winchester. She

shows to disadvantage to you because she is so frightened of you."

Rex laughed; he could not help it.

"My dear child, you really must not be so desperately confiding," he

said. "Trixie is frightened of no one--man or woman."

But Imogen's advocacy touched him and increased his favourable opinion

of her character. An opinion to a great extent deserved, for below some

superficial selfishness and vanity, there was in her real sweetness and

generosity--material, in wise hands, for much good. The generosity in

this instance was conspicuous, for Rex had himself been witness to some

far from amiable conduct on Beatrix's part towards the young guest.

"How is it," he went on, "that you seem to see so little of Florence?"

"I don't know," Imogen replied. "I have tried to make friends with her,

because I knew you wished it," she added naively. "But I'm afraid she

does not care for me. And she is always so busy. I think she does a

great deal to help her mother."

"Yes, Florrie's a good girl," said he approvingly. "I wish you could

know her better."

It was as Imogen said. Florence did not care for her. Yet, when taxed

by her cousin with her disregard of his _protegee_, it was difficult to

prove her to blame.

"I really did what I could," she assured him. "But she threw herself

into Trixie's arms from the very first, and unless I actually speak

against my own sister, I cannot help it."

"No `speaking against' any one would have the desired effect with Miss

Wentworth; rather the other way," said Major Winchester. "There is a

strong strain of chivalry in her composition."

"What a high opinion you seem to have of her!" said Florence, half

pettishly. "To me she is just a pretty, shallow child--with something

ingenuous and sweet about her--yes, that I must allow. But really, I

know little more of her than on the day she came. I have had to give up

taking any part in the theatricals, you know, Rex, and it is the one

thing I could have thrown myself into, and--forgotten myself a little.

But Alicia took it into her head to act, and mother would have been left

all to herself really. Besides which I _couldn't_ have kept my temper

with Trixie and that Mab of hers," she concluded, honestly.

"I am sorry you had to give it up. But I am sure you did it for the

best. It makes me still more anxious about that child, however," said

Rex. "And I am afraid her mother is--well, very silly."

"You will have to look after her doubly," said Florence. "She couldn't

have a better guardian. It may distract your thoughts a little--poor

Rex. What is your last news, by the bye?"

"No better, except that she has stood the journey so far pretty well,"

he replied.

The same question was asked him again that afternoon in the interval of

one of the daily or twice-a-day rehearsals. Imogen, blushing as she did

so, asked gently what news he had.

"No better, thank you," he said half absently, "except that the crossing

has been accomplished pretty successfully."

"The crossing?" Imogen repeated. "Then is she--is your sister to

undergo the operation abroad? Or is it over?"

Rex recollected himself.

"Oh no," he said quickly. "I was confusing--no, no--Angey, my sister,

is pretty well in herself. Nothing can be done about her eyes for some

time yet." He gave a half sigh and hesitated. "I was thinking of--"

But Imogen would not let him finish.

"I am so sorry," she said, "for speaking of it. It was very thoughtless

of me, for I know it must be very painful to you."

She really felt guilty, for only the day before Mrs Wentworth had told

her that Miss Forsyth had warned her never to allude to Major

Winchester's anxieties; he "could not bear them spoken of to him."

"All the kinder of him," Imogen had said to herself with a little thrill

of pride, "to have confided in me about them," though she had not

expressed this to her mother.

There were times when Imogen's confidence in Beatrix received a shake.

Trixie was too unused to self-control of any kind to keep it up for

long, even in a bad cause. And Miss Wentworth's acting often gave

opportunity for ridicule, it must be allowed. Then Mr Villars was

severe and enthusiastic, and Imogen's perfect fitness in _appearance_

for the part assigned to her made him doubly provoked at her absolute

incapacity to carry out his directions. More than once the close of a

rehearsal found the poor girl all but in tears, and the sympathy she met

with was often but scant.

"You do look so absurd when Mr Villars scolds you," said Trixie, one

day after one of these scenes. "If you talk in that brokenhearted voice

I shall not be able to keep from laughing, I warn you, on the grand

night itself."

"You are very unkind," said Imogen, flashing out. "I never wanted to

act, and I never said I could. I have a good mind to--" But here her

voice failed her. She turned away abruptly and left the room.

"She has gone to complain to her mother. You are a fool, Trixie," said

Miss Forsyth, elegantly.

"Not a bit of it. Her mother would put a stop to it, and Miss Imogen

doesn't in her heart wish that, by any means," said Trixie.

"What a pity Rex isn't here; it would be a part of the play for him to

go to comfort her."

"_Hush_!" said Mabella hastily, as Florence at that moment came in.

"What is the matter with that child?" Florence asked sternly. "I was

writing in the library just now, and she came rushing in. She pretended

she was looking for a book when she saw me, but I am almost sure she was

crying."

"She is such an idiot--" began Trixie, but a warning glance from Mab

stopped her.

"Do you wish Florence to take her up and spoil all?" she said

afterwards.

"I mean," Beatrix went on, "she takes things up so. I couldn't help

laughing at the way Mr Villars scolded her."

"You don't want to frighten her out of it now at the last?" said

Florence. "It would be very awkward, and might get you into hot water,

I warn you."

She had an additional motive for not desiring such a catastrophe. No

one, she knew, failing Miss Wentworth, could take the "Valesca" but

herself, and this, Florence was by no means inclined to do. It was the

part which faintly shadowed her own story--the devotion of a girl to an

unworthy object. So with these words of remonstrance to Trixie,

Florence went her way.

Her way was to seek for Rex, and enlist his help. She found him writing

in her brother's smoking-room.

"Rex," she said abruptly, "I'm afraid you are not looking after your

Miss Wentworth after all. She's in a sea of troubles about her acting,

and I cannot meddle. For one thing I can't and won't take `Valesca,' if

she throws it up," and she crimsoned as she said it.

"Nobody could propose such a thing," he said.

"_Wouldn't_ they? I would rather not risk it. But you know something

about acting; quite as much as Mr Villars, I believe, only you are not

so exaggerated and affected; couldn't you coach Miss Wentworth a little?

You see I don't hide that my motives in seeking you are half, or more

than half, selfish ones."

"They are very natural," he replied kindly. "And, of course, though I

am interested in this little girl--she is very sweet--I can't but be far

_more_ interested in you, dear Florrie, and I believe you are more

unselfish than you allow."

Florence looked and felt pleased. A little praise from Rex went a long

way with her.

"Then you'll see what you can do," she said, persuasively. "You would

find her in the library at the present moment; better catch her

red-handed, or red-eyed rather, and then she cannot deny her troubles."

Poor Major Winchester! He had been promising himself a peaceful

half-hour to finish his letter to Eva; but after all it was too late for

to-day's post. "It wouldn't really go any sooner," he reflected, "so I

suppose I may as well."

Still, it was not without an effort that he went off to the library on

his benevolent quest.

Yes; Imogen was there, busily reading or making believe to do so, in a

corner. The Fells library was a large and imposing room, filled with

books, the most valuable of which seldom left their shelves except to be

dusted. But everything about the house was well kept and well managed.

Not being of a literary turn himself, nor possessing children with

strongly developed intellectual tastes, was no reason, said the Squire,

why there should not be a good library. And he had engaged the services

of a properly qualified person to look after it, so that the volumes

were clean and well arranged, and from time to time added to.

This, however, was not one of the librarian's days, so Imogen had it all

to herself. A gallery ran all round, to which there were two means of

access--a stair at one end of the room itself, and a door from an upper

passage in the house; for originally the library had been a ballroom,

with a musicians' balcony, since discarded. Rex glanced round once or

twice before he discovered Miss Wentworth, half-hidden in a big leather

arm-chair by the fire. He smiled as he saw her.

"She is not so very upset after all," he thought. "Ten to one she is

very happy over a novel, and won't thank me for disturbing her."

But it was not so. Imogen _was_ both angry and unhappy, and she was

only pretending to read. She glanced up quickly at the sound of Major

Winchester's approaching footsteps, and a gleam of pleasure came over

her face, to be, however, almost instantly replaced by a flush of shame

and mortification as she became conscious of her swollen eyes and

tear-stained face.

"What are you studying?" said Rex, as he sat down beside her. "Oh,

_Great Expectations_. Why, you must have read that long ago!"

"No, I haven't," said Imogen, "but I don't think I care for it."

"Not just now, I daresay," he said kindly, "for you are vexed and upset,

I know."

"How do you know?" she asked, some laggard tears rising slowly as she

spoke.

"Never mind. I was told I should find you here, and so I have. I know

what it's about too," for Major Winchester was great at going to the

point. "It isn't a _very_ big trouble after all, but then at

seventeen--"

"I'm eighteen--eighteen _past_," interrupted Imogen, so indignantly that

the tears hid themselves in a fright, which her friend was not sorry to

see. He smiled.

"Well--even at eighteen. I was once eighteen myself," (Imogen could not

help smiling a little); "and I can understand that, as you have to do

this thing, you would rather do it well than badly. I can understand,

too, that Trixie is probably not the most delicate and tactful person to

have to do with in the circumstances."

"I _hate_ being laughed at," said Imogen frankly.

"Naturally. Villars is really not a bad fellow, but he thinks he's

bound to keep his hobby always at full-speed. Now--have you got your

part?"

"Yes," she replied, extracting some rather dilapidated-looking pages

from her pocket, "here it is. This is the worst bit," she went on, "the

little dialogue with Hubert. `Oh, to think how I trusted you,' it

begins."

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