CHAPTER XVIII

MYSTIFICATION

Walking slowly home across the Square, Patty told herself that the

future had been taken out of her hands. She seemed to have been moved

mentally, if not bodily, into another world, into a world where the

sleepy old Square, wrapped in a soft afternoon haze, still existed, but

from which Stephen Culpeper had vanished in a rosy cloud. She did not

know why she had relinquished the thought of Stephen since her visit to

the house in East Leigh Street; but some deep instinct warned her that

she had widened the gulf between them by her excursion with Gershom. "I

can't help it," she thought sensibly enough. "There wasn't anything in

it before that, and I might as well go ahead and stop thinking about

it." Her anger at Stephen's neglect had melted into a vague and

impersonal resentment, a resentment, rather for the dying woman than for

herself, against all the needless cruelties of life. Even Gershom, even

the unspeakable Gershom, had had discernment enough to see that

something good in that poor woman had been blighted and crushed. Was it

true that no one was ever given the chance to be one's best? Was this

true, not only of that dying woman, but of her father and Stephen and

Corinna and herself and all human beings everywhere?

Lingering a moment near the Washington monument, she stood watching the

straggling groups that were crossing the Square. Bit by bit, snatches

of conversation drifted into her mind and then blew out again, leaving

scarcely the shadow of an impression. "They tell me it's going up. I

don't know, but I'll find out to-morrow." "I wouldn't wear one of those

things for a million dollars, and he says--" "Yes, I've arranged to go

unless the strike should be called next week."

The strike? Oh, she had almost forgotten it! She had almost forgotten

the message she had promised to deliver to her father. With a gesture

that appeared to sweep her last remaining illusion behind her, she

started resolutely up the drive to the house. After all, whatever came,

she would not let them think that she was either afraid of life or

disappointed in love. She would not mope, and she would not show the

white feather. On one point she was passionately determined--no man, by

any method known to the drama of sex, was going to break her heart!

She had quickened her steps while she made her resolve; and, a minute

later, she broke into a run when she saw that Corinna's car stood at the

door and that Corinna waited for her in the hall. Had the girl only

realized it, Corinna's heart also was troubled; and the visit was one

result of the discouraging talk she had had recently with Stephen.

"I had to go down town, so I stopped on the way back to speak to you."

Though she said no word of her anxiety, Patty could hear it in every

note of her expressive voice and feel it in the protective pressure of

her arm. "I want you to go with me to the Harrisons' dance Wednesday

night, and I want you to look your very prettiest."

"But I'm not even asked."

"Oh, you are. Mrs. Harrison has just told me she was sending your

invitation with a number that had not gone out." How like Corinna it was

to put it that way! "They are giving it for that English girl who is

staying with them. She is pretty, but you must look ever so much

prettier. I want you to wear that green and silver dress that makes you

look like a mermaid." The kind voice, so full of sympathy, so forgetful

of self, flooded Patty's heart like sunshine after darkness.

"I will go, if you wish me to," she answered, raising Corinna's hand to

her cheek. And the thought flashed through her mind, "Stephen will be

there. Even if everything is over, I'd like him to see me."

"I'll come for you a little before ten," said Corinna; and then, as the

door of the library opened and Vetch came out, she added hurriedly: "I

must go now. Remember to look your prettiest."

"No, don't go," begged Patty. "Father will be so disappointed." She had

remembered the message, and she felt that Corinna, whose wisdom was

infallible, might help her to understand it. Though it had sounded so

casual on the surface, her natural sagacity detected both a warning and

a menace; and the very touch of Corinna's hand, in her long white glove,

was reassuring and helpful.

Whatever may have threatened Vetch, he seemed oblivious of it as he came

forward with his hearty greeting. "It's queer," he said, "but something

told me you were here. I looked out to make sure." His simple pleasure

touched Corinna like the artless joy of a child. It was impossible to

resist his magnetism, she thought, as she looked up into his sanguine

face, for what was it, after all, except an unaffected enjoyment of

little things, an unconquerable belief in life?

"I stopped to ask Patty about a dance," she explained. "I must go on

immediately."

He glanced at the girl a little anxiously. "Is she going to a party with

you? I am glad."

In spite of his buoyant manner, there was an abstracted look in his

eyes, as if his mind were working at a distance while he talked. After

the first minute or two Patty observed this and it helped her to make

her decision. "Are you busy, Father?" she asked. "I promised Mr. Gershom

that I would give you a message--such a silly message it is too."

"Gershom?" He repeated, and his face darkened. "What did he say to you?

No, don't go, Mrs. Page. Come into the library, and let us have the

message."

Corinna glanced uncertainly over her shoulder. "I really must be going,"

she murmured, and then yielding suddenly either to inclination or to the

pressure of Patty's hand, she crossed the threshold of the library and

walked over to the front window. Outside, beyond the yard and the

grotesque fountain, she saw the splendid outline of Washington, and

beyond this the faint afternoon haze above the spires and chimneys of

the city. "The sun will go down soon. I must hurry," she thought; yet

she stood there, without moving, looking out on the monument and the

sky. For a moment she gazed in silence; then turning quickly, she

glanced with smiling eyes about the small, stiffly furnished room, with

the leather chairs and couch and the business looking writing-table in

the centre of the floor.

"How comfortable you look here," she observed lightly, "and how

business-like."

"Yes, I work here a good deal in the evenings." He turned a chair toward

the window, and when she sat down, he remained for a minute still

standing, with his hand on the back of the chair, smiling thoughtfully

not at her, but at the disarray on his desk. The glow of pleasure which

the sight of her had brought was still in his face; and she thought that

she had never seen him so nearly good-looking. It occurred to her now,

as it had done so often before, that in the hour of trouble he would be

like a rock to lean on. However else he might fail, she surmised that in

human relations he would be for ever dependable. And what was life,

after all, except a complex and intricate blend of human relations? She

decided suddenly and positively that she had always liked Gideon Vetch.

She liked the way his broad bulging forehead swept back into his sandy

hair, which was quite gray on the temples; she liked the contrast

between the quizzical humour in his eyes and the earnest expression of

his generous mouth with its deep corners. He stood in her mind for the

straight and simple things of life, and she had lost her way so often

among the bewildering ramification of human motives. He had no trivial

words, she knew. He was incapable of "making conversation"; and she, who

had been bred in a community of ceaseless chatter, was mentally

refreshed by the sincerity of his interest. It was as restful, she said

to herself now, as a visit to the country.

"So Gershom asked you to give me a message?" remarked Vetch abruptly to

Patty. "Where did you see him?"

"He joined me when I went out," replied Patty, speaking slowly and

carefully with her eyes on Corinna. "I tried to slip away, but he

wouldn't let me. He asked me to speak to you about something that was

worrying him, and a great many others, he said. He didn't put it into

words, but I think he meant the strike--"

Vetch looked up quickly. "Oh, that is worrying him, is it?"

"What is it all about, Father? Why are they going to strike?"

"Can you answer that, Mrs. Page?" The Governor turned to Corinna with a

sportive gesture, as if he were casting upon her the burden of a reply.

His smile was sketched so faintly about his mouth that it seemed merely

to emphasize the gravity of his expression.

"I?" Corinna looked round with a start of surprise. "Why, what should I

know of it?"

"Then they don't talk about it where you are?"

"Oh, yes, they talk about it a great deal." She appeared to hesitate,

and then added with deliberate audacity, "but they think that you know

more about it than any one else."

He did not smile as he answered her. "Do they expect the men to strike?"

Though she made a graceful gesture of evasion, she met his question

frankly. "They expect them to, I gather--unless you prevent it."

A shade of irritation crossed his features. "How can I prevent it? They

have a right to stop work."

"They seem to think, the people I know, that it depends upon how safe

the leaders think it will be."

"How safe? I can't tie their hands, can I?"

"Of course I am only repeating what I hear." She gazed at him with

friendly eyes. "No one could know less about it than I do."

"People are saying, I suppose," he continued in a tone of exasperation,

"that these men had an understanding with me before I came into office.

They seem to think that I can make the strike a success by standing

aside and holding my hands. That, of course, is pure nonsense. If the

men want to stop work, nobody has a right to interfere with them.

Certainly I haven't. But have they the right--the question hangs on this

point--to interfere with the farmers who want to get their crops to

market as badly as the strikers want to quit work? The kind of general

strike these people have in mind bears less relation to industry than it

does to war; and you know what I think about war and the rights of

non-combatants. They want to tie up the whole system of transportation

until they starve their opponents into submission. The old damnable

Prussian theory again, you see, that crops up wherever men take the

stand, which they do everywhere they have the power, that might is a law

unto itself. Now, I am with these men exactly half way, and no further.

As long as their method of striking doesn't interfere with the rights of

the public, they seem to me fair enough. But when it comes to raising

the price of food still higher and cutting off the city milk

supply--well, when they talk of that, then I begin to think of the human

side of it." He broke off abruptly, and concluded in a less serious

tone, "that's the only thing in the whole business I care about--the

human side of it all--"

A phrase of Benham's floated suddenly into her mind, and she found

herself repeating it aloud: "There are no human rights where a principle

is involved."

Vetch laughed. "That's not you; it's Benham. I recognize it. He's the

sort that would believe that, I suppose--the sort that would write a

political document in blood if he didn't have ink."

"Oh, don't!" she protested. There was a grain of truth in the epigram,

but she resented it the more keenly for this.

"Well, I may have intended it as a compliment," rejoined Vetch gaily.

"He would take it that way, I reckon. And, anyhow, you have heard him

make worse flings at me."

She coloured, admitting and denying at the same time, the truth of his

words. "You could never understand each other. You are so different."

He looked at her gravely; but even gravity could not wholly drive the

gleam of humour from his eyes. "At any rate I admire Benham. I have the

advantage of him there." The quickness of his wit made her smile. "But,

as you say, we are different," he added after a moment. "I reckon I've

turned my hand at times to jobs of which Benham would disapprove; but

I'd be hanged before I'd write the greatest document ever penned

in--well, in the blood of one of those squirrels out yonder in the

Square!"

As he finished he turned his face toward the window, and following his

gaze, she saw the sunlight sparkling like amber wine on the rich grass

and the delicate green of the trees. As she looked back at him, she

wondered what his past could have been--how deep, how complex, how

varied was his experience of life? She was aware again of that curiously

primitive attraction which she had felt the other afternoon in the

shop. It was as if he appealed, not to the beliefs and sentiments with

which life had obscured and muffled her nature, but to some buried self

beneath the self that she and the world knew, to some ancient instinct

which was as deep as the oldest forests of earth. After all, was there a

hidden self, a buried forest within her soul which she had never

discovered?

"But Patty has not given you her message!" she exclaimed, startled and

confused by the strangeness of the sensation.

"Oh, there isn't much to tell," answered Patty, wondering if she could

ever learn, even if she practised every day, to speak and move like

Corinna. "It was only that you ought to stand by your friends."

"To stand by my friends," repeated Vetch; then he drew in his breath

with a whistling sound. "Well, I like his impudence!" he exclaimed.

Corinna rose with a laugh. "So do I," she observed, "and he seems to

possess it in abundance." Then she folded Patty in a light and fragrant

embrace. "You must be the belle of the ball," she said. "I have a genius

for being a chaperon."

When she had gone, and they watched her car pass the monument, the girl

turned back into the hall, with her hand clinging tightly to Vetch's

arm.

"Father, what do you suppose that message meant?"

"Is it obliged to mean anything?"

"Things generally do, don't they?"

Vetch smiled as he looked down at her; but his smile conveyed anxiety

rather than amusement to her observant eyes. "Oh, if things are said by

Gershom, they generally mean hell," he responded. "Perhaps I'll find

out Thursday night; there's to be a meeting then, and it looks as if

somebody might make trouble." Then he patted her shoulder. "Don't worry

about Gershom, honey," he added in the way he used to speak when she

fell and hurt herself as a child. "Don't worry your mind about Gershom.

I'll take care of him."

It was on the tip of her tongue to tell him that she was not worrying

about Gershom, but about the woman dying all alone in that dark room in

Leigh Street. If he had only looked less disturbed she might have done

so; and when she thought of it afterward, she understood that frankness

would have been by far the wiser course. However, while she wondered

what she ought to say, the opportunity slipped by, and the ringing of

the telephone on his desk called him away from her.

Corinna, meanwhile, was rolling down the drive over the slanting shadows

of the linden trees. She looked thoughtful, for she was trying to decide

what it was about Vetch that made her believe in him so profoundly when

she was with him and yet begin to distrust him as soon as she got far

enough away to gain a perspective? Gossip probably, she reflected. When

she was with him her confidence was the natural response of her own

unbiassed perceptions; when she left him she passed immediately into an

atmosphere that was charged with the suspicions of other people. She

remembered the stories, true or false, which had been hinted and

whispered before the last election. Malicious gossip that, and as

unfounded no doubt as the rest. She recalled the muttered insinuations

of fraudulent political stratagems, of what Benham had called the

Governor's weathercock principles. In Vetch's presence, she realized

that she invariably lost sight of these structural or surface blemishes,

and judged him by some standard which was different from the one she had

inherited with the shape of her nose and the colour of her eyes. What

troubled her was not so much the riddle of Vetch's personality as the

fact that there was another mental world beyond the one she had always

inhabited, and that this other world was filled, like her own, with

obscure moral and spiritual images.

As she approached the club at the corner she saw Benham come out of the

door; and stopping the car she waited, smiling, until he joined her.

While she watched him cross the pavement, she rejoiced in the

thoroughbred fineness and thinness of his appearance--in his clear-cut

Roman features and in the impenetrable reticence of his expression. Yes,

she loved him as well as she could love any man; and that, she told

herself, with a touch of cynical amusement, was just so much and no

more, just enough to bring happiness, but not enough to bring pain.

"I'll take you home," she said, as he reached her, and there seemed to

her something delightful and romantic in this accidental meeting.

"What luck!" The severity melted from his features while he took his

place beside her. "I was thinking only this morning that I owe a

sacrifice to the god of chance. May I tell the man to drop me at my

rooms?"

She nodded, watching him contentedly while he spoke to the chauffeur and

then turned to look at her with his level impersonal gaze. Happiness had

brought the youth back to her face. Her hair swept like burnished wings

under her small close hat, and the eyes that she raised to his were dark

and splendid. There was about her always in moments of happiness the

look of a beauty too bright to last or to grow old; and now, in this

last romance of her life, she appeared to be drenched in autumn

sunshine.

"One does want to make sacrifices," she answered. "That is the penalty

of joy. One can scarcely believe in it before it goes."

"Well, I believe in this. You are very lovely. Where have you been?"

"To the Governor's. I wanted to speak to Patty. I feel sorry for Patty

to-day. I feel sorry for almost every one," she added, with an

enchanting smile, "except myself."

"And me. Surely you don't waste your pity on me? But what of Miss Vetch?

Hasn't she her own particular happiness?"

"I wonder--" Then, without finishing her sentence, she left the subject

of Patty because she surmised from Benham's tone that he would not be

sympathetic. "I had a long talk with the Governor. John, what do you

think will come of the strike?"

He answered her question with another. "What did he tell you?"

"Nothing except that the men have a right to strike if they wish to."

He laughed. "Well, that's safe enough. But don't talk of Vetch. I

dislike him so heartily that I have a sneaking feeling I may be unjust

to him."

It was so like him, that fine impersonal sense of fairness, that her

eyes warmed with admiration. "That is splendid," she responded. "It is

just the kind of thing that Vetch could never feel." Suddenly she knew

that she was ashamed of having believed in Vetch when she contrasted him

with John Benham. How could she have imagined for an instant that the

Governor could stand a comparison like this?

He pressed her hand as the car stopped before the apartment house where

he lived. "In a few hours I shall see you again," he said; and his

voice, in its eagerness, reminded her of the voice of Kent Page when he

had made love to her in her girlhood. Ah, she had learned wisdom since

then! Just so much and no more, that was the secret of happiness. Give

with the mind and the heart; but keep always one inviolable sanctity of

the spirit--of the buried self beneath the self.

The streets were almost deserted; and as the car went on, Corinna

thought that she had never seen the city look so fresh and charming.

Through the long green vista of the trees, there was a shimmer of silver

air, and wrapped in this sparkling veil, she saw the bronze statues and

the ardent glow of the sunset. Everything at which she looked was

steeped in a wonderful golden light; and this light seemed to come, not

from the burning horizon, but from the happiness that flooded her

thoughts. She saw the world again as she had seen it in her first youth,

suffused with joy that was like the vivid freshness of dawn. The long

white road, the arching trees, the glittering dust, the spring flowers

blooming in gardens along the roadside, the very faces of the people who

passed her; all these things at which she looked were illuminated by

this radiance which seemed, in some strange way, to shine not without

but within her heart. "It is too beautiful to last," she said to

herself in a whisper. "It is youth, more beautiful even than the

reality, come back again for an hour--for one little hour before it goes

out for ever."

Then, because it seemed safer as well as wiser to be practical, to

discourage wild dreaming, she tried to direct her thoughts to

insignificant details. Yet even here that rare golden light penetrated

to the innermost recesses of her mind; and each drab uninteresting fact

glittered with a fresh interest and charm. "I forgot to order that

cretonne for the porch," she thought disconnectedly, in an endeavour to

conciliate the Fates by pretending that life was as commonplace as it

had always been. "That black background with the blue larkspur is

pretty--and I must have the porch furniture repainted the blue-green

that they do so well in Italy. That reminds me that Patty must be the

belle of the dance in her green dress. I shall see that she has no lack

of partners--at least I can manage that;--if I cannot make her happy. I

am sorry for the child--if only Stephen--but, no--I left the book I was

reading in the shop. What was the name of it? Silly and sentimental! Why

will people always write things they don't mean and know are not true

about love? Yes, the black background with the blue larkspur was the

best that I saw. I wonder what I did with the sample. Oh, why can't

everybody be happy?"

The car turned out of the road into the avenue of elms, which led to the

Georgian house of red brick, with its quaint hooded doorway. In front of

the door there was a flagged walk edged with box; and after the car had

gone, Corinna followed this walk to the back of the house, where rows of

white and purple iris were blooming on the garden terrace. For a moment

she looked on the garden as one who loved it; then turning reluctantly,

she ascended the steps, and entered the door which a coloured servant

held open.

"A lady's in there waiting for you," said the man, who having lost the

dialect, still retained the dramatic gestures of his race. "She would

wait, and she says she can't go without seeing you."

With a faintness of the heart rather than the mind, Corinna looked

through the doorway, and saw the face of Alice Rokeby glimmering

narcissus white in the dusk of the drawing-room.

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