I am not very happy.

_Mar._ Not happy, thou? Woe for the world! I thought

Love was God’s perfect recipe, to drowse

All mortal stings. Yet sainted marriage hath

One threat—the loss of liberty: is’t that?

It well may fright. To have been a girl with me

So long, and make at last the outrageous stroke,

And live as do our aunts! Were’t not my brother,

I’d kill the man.

_Con._ Margaret!

_Mar._ Well mayst thou sigh:

I can sigh for thee.

_Con._ I should love to hear thee. 400

Thou owest me sighs, for mine were thoughts of thee.

_Mar._ Because I love not? Hast thou forgot already

Life may be tolerable for a woman

Without thy joy?

_Con._ You treat poor Livio

Unkindly, Margaret.

_Mar._ Now, if that’s the grief,

We have threshed it out before.

_Con._ I shall not spare you,

Till you are kinder.

_Mar._ Yet if I were kinder,

And he should build a hope upon that kindness,

Until it proved unkinder than unkindness?

_Con._ He loves you well.

_Mar._ No better than the others;

Than Ventimiglia loves, or Chiaramonte, 411

Good Michael Rosso, or the impudent Blasco,

Or my new courtier Ferdinand.

_Con._ He loves

With all his heart. Life is as tedious to him

As to the dark and dusty wheel, which jerks

Behind the dial-face, until he see you;

When for his joy you give him but disdain.

_Mar._ Thou didst not tell him thou wouldst speak for him?

_Con._ Why not?

_Mar._ Now I, Constance, have something fresh:

A mystery.

_Con._ A mystery?

_Mar._ Yes, a mystery. 420

Guess what it is.

_Con._ How should I guess?

_Mar._ Indeed,

Guessing would never wind it.

_Con._ Then, prithee, tell me.

_Mar._ I died to tell thee ere thou camest, and now

I grudge it sadly. Yet, for the fresh mount

’Twill give thy thoughts, I’ll tell. ’Twas yesternight,

Just on the stroke of one ...

_Con._ ’Tis not a ghost?

_Mar._ If after all ’twere but a ghost!

_Con._ Come, tell me.

_Mar._ Thou wilt not breathe a word?

_Con._ No, not a word.

_Mar._ Thou know’st the casement of my bedroom looks

Across the court. There as I stood last night, 430

Watching the moon awhile, ere I shut out

The sleepless splendour from my dreams, I heard

A heavy step pass down the gallery.

’Tis Manuel, I thought, who goes to lie

In the little chamber at the back,—for Philip

Had his;—but, for some strangeness in the step

Pricked my attention, and to content my thought,

I lent my ear to the sound, until it reached

The door at the end: there, standing by the window

I saw him plain: ’twas he, but in his arms 440

A woman, fainting as I thought, or dead.

Her arms hung loose, and o’er his shoulder thrown

Her head fell back.

_Con._ A woman! art thou sure?

_Mar._ He could not carry a ghost. Besides, this morning

I watched him: he took thither meat and drink,

And locked the door, and strictly bade the servants

They should not enter.

_Con._ Hast thou questioned him?

_Mar._ I have not so much as let him speak with me.

He might forbid me: and, O my curiosity,

I must know more.

_Con._ What dost thou think to learn? 450

_Mar._ I have neither guess nor hope; I lay awake

An hour, and thought of fifty things, not one

Of any likelihood. In all romance

No lady in distress ere came at midnight

To the house of the chief justice. I could wish

This beauteous maiden were a young princess

Fled o’er the seas disguised.

_Con._ Then thou couldst see

What she was like.

_Mar._ Why, no,—how could I see?

I only saw that she was dark.

_Con._ Thou saidst

That she was beautiful.

_Mar._ Of course she is young 460

And beautiful. Why,—you are not jealous, Constance?

_Con._ Not jealous, no.

_Mar._ And the only pity of it

Is that she’ll prove in the end a poor relation

Fall’n to our care, or some more hapless girl

Left on the doorstep dying.

_Con._ In such case,

What were the need of secrecy?

_Mar._ I wish

I had never told thee aught. Why shouldst thou fancy

Impossibilities?

_Con._ What is impossible?

_Mar._ I fear now that the sight of thy old love,

Philip the false, hath turned thy happier trust. 470

Thou’rt changed.

_Con._ Nay, nay: I am not: and yet ’tis true

His coming is my trouble. [_Weeps._

_Mar._ Forgive me, sweetest.

_Con._ Margaret, you know I have none at all but you

To unfold my heart to: only you can tell

What I must feel at his return: you know

How far I loved, how much I was deceived.

His oaths of faith you heard from me, and shared

The joy of my delusion: and at last,

When he deserted me, you made your heart

The prison of my sorrows: you exhorted,— 480

O, you advised me well,—Be sure, you said,

Love that so breaks cannot be trusted more.

You bade me cast it off like an ill dream.

You found what life he led: how he profaned

His honourable passion in the play

Of errant gallantries. All that sad time

I leaned on you, and ’twas your friendship gave

The occasions whence my love with Manuel sprung.

You led me still, you gave me confidence;

Your comfort turned to joy, Manuel was mine. 490

When suddenly on some mysterious cause

He holds aloof: my joy is bid await.

O, Margaret, if you understood love’s joy,

How closely ’tis inwoven with fear to lose,

You would not wonder that I tremble, seeing

This shadow blot my sunshine, that my fear

Discolours every circumstance. To me

The common course of things on which men count

Is the only miracle, all chances else

As they are feared are likely. O, do not blame me.

Philip is like an evil spirit beside me 501

That stands to smile on what I dread to think.

_Mar._ Philip being false can give no cause to doubt

Of Manuel’s faith.

_Con._ I doubt him not: and yet

If I speak of my brother you only laugh,

But if you speak of yours ...

_Mar._ Round, round again.

Betwixt our brothers grant some difference.

Thy Livio is a boy of slender parts,

Led by his passions. Manuel is a man

Austere and stern; he is above suspicion. 510

_Con._ I do not doubt his truth, but find such sternness

Unkind to love. My brother’s love for you

Is simple: Manuel’s love hath some reserve;

A veil, behind which, since I have never seen,

I have dreamed or feared a terror lay: ofttimes

When I have been with him, a pleasant hour

Has ended suddenly, as if his spirit

Was angered, and withdrew: then in his eyes

Is nothing left but barren contemplation,

To which I am an object as another; 520

Until he sighs, as conscious of the change.

The disappointment of our marriage brings

Scarce a regret to him: I heard him speak

Late to my father of it, as ’twere a thing

He held indifferently. There is some secret

Which I would know: maybe this is a clue.

_Mar._ What is the clue?

_Con._ This lady.

_Mar._ O, thou’rt sick.

But I can cure thee, wilt thou do my bidding.

_Con._ What would you bid?

_Mar._ Give rein to jealousy,

Ay, spur it on to falling. Fear the worst, 530

Believe the worst. Thou shalt suspect my brother;

He trifles, loves this lady: choose your tale:

Thou wilt not doubt again.

_Con._ I do not doubt him.

Nay, I will bid him tell me all.

_Mar._ And so

Betray thy doubt to him. Be wiser, madam!

Look to thy cure: indulge thy jealousy:

To which end I encourage it. Indeed,

I am come to think there’s cause, and thy suspicion

Hath much enhanced my mystery. Go thou home:

There make thyself unhappy. I meanwhile 540

Will root this out, and since I am housekeeper

I can go where I will.

_Con._ I pray thee, Margaret ...

_Mar._ I must be jealous where my brother is wronged.

Thou art the accuser, and the evidence

Tells now for thee: ’tis my part to acquit us.

Hinder me not.

_Con._ When wilt thou know?

_Mar._ Maybe

’Tis as thou fearest.

_Con._ Wilt thou mock me so?

_Mar._ I bid thee go. Be sure I’ll come to thee,

Or send thee word.

_Con._ But when?

_Mar._ I make no promise.

I cannot pity thee, and till thou goest 550

I can do nothing.

_Con._ Promise me to send.

_Mar._ I have promised that. Farewell!

_Con._ To-day?

_Mar._ To-day.

Trust me, I go at once. [_Exeunt._

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