CHAPTER LXXV

P. P. C.

On the Thursday morning before Phineas went to Mr. Monk, a gentleman

called upon him at his lodgings. Phineas requested the servant to

bring up the gentleman’s name, but tempted perhaps by a shilling the

girl brought up the gentleman instead. It was Mr. Quintus Slide from

the office of the “Banner of the People.”

“Mr. Finn,” said Quintus, with his hand extended, “I have come to

offer you the calumet of peace.” Phineas certainly desired no such

calumet. But to refuse a man’s hand is to declare active war after a

fashion which men do not like to adopt except on deliberation. He had

never cared a straw for the abuse which Mr. Slide had poured upon

him, and now he gave his hand to the man of letters. But he did not

sit down, nor did he offer a seat to Mr. Slide. “I know that as a man

of sense who knows the world, you will accept the calumet of peace,”

continued Mr. Slide.

“I don’t know why I should be asked particularly to accept war or

peace,” said Phineas.

“Well, Mr. Finn,--I don’t often quote the Bible; but those who are

not for us must be against us. You will agree to that. Now that

you’ve freed yourself from the iniquities of that sink of abomination

in Downing Street, I look upon you as a man again.”

“Upon my word you are very kind.”

“As a man and also a brother. I suppose you know that I’ve got the

_Banner_ into my own ’ands now.” Phineas was obliged to explain that

he had not hitherto been made acquainted with this great literary

and political secret. “Oh dear, yes, altogether so. We’ve got rid of

old Rusty as I used to call him. He wouldn’t go the pace, and so we

stripped him. He’s doing the _West of England Art Journal_ now, and

he ’angs out down at Bristol.”

“I hope he’ll succeed, Mr. Slide.”

“He’ll earn his wages. He’s a man who will always earn his wages, but

nothing more. Well, now, Mr. Finn, I will just offer you one word of

apology for our little severities.”

“Pray do nothing of the kind.”

“Indeed I shall. Dooty is dooty. There was some things printed which

were a little rough, but if one isn’t a little rough there ain’t no

flavour. Of course I wrote ’em. You know my ’and, I dare say.”

“I only remember that there was some throwing of mud.”

“Just so. But mud don’t break any bones; does it? When you turned

against us I had to be down on you, and I was down upon you;--that’s

just about all of it. Now you’re coming among us again, and so I come

to you with a calumet of peace.”

“But I am not coming among you.”

“Yes you are, Finn, and bringing Monk with you.” It was now becoming

very disagreeable, and Phineas was beginning to perceive that it

would soon be his turn to say something rough. “Now I’ll tell you

what my proposition is. If you’ll do us two leaders a week through

the session, you shall have a cheque for £16 on the last day of every

month. If that’s not honester money than what you got in Downing

Street, my name is not Quintus Slide.”

“Mr. Slide,” said Phineas,--and then he paused.

“If we are to come to business, drop the Mister. It makes things go

so much easier.”

“We are not to come to business, and I do not want things to go easy.

I believe you said some things of me in your newspaper that were very

scurrilous.”

“What of that? If you mind that sort of thing--”

“I did not regard it in the least. You are quite welcome to continue

it. I don’t doubt but you will continue it. But you are not welcome

to come here afterwards.”

“Do you mean to turn me out?”

“Just that. You printed a heap of lies--”

“Lies, Mr. Finn! Did you say lies, sir?”

“I said lies;--lies;--lies!” And Phineas walked over at him as though

he were going to pitch him instantly out of the window. “You may go

and write as many more as you like. It is your trade, and you must do

it or starve. But do not come to me again.” Then he opened the door

and stood with it in his hand.

“Very well, sir. I shall know how to punish this.”

“Exactly. But if you please you’ll go and do your punishment at the

office of the _Banner_,--unless you like to try it here. You want to

kick me and spit at me, but you will prefer to do it in print.”

“Yes, sir,” said Quintus Slide. “I shall prefer to do it in

print,--though I must own that the temptation to adopt the manual

violence of a ruffian is great, very great, very great indeed.” But

he resisted the temptation and walked down the stairs, concocting his

article as he went.

Mr. Quintus Slide did not so much impede the business of his day but

what Phineas was with Mr. Monk by two, and in his place in the House

when prayers were read at four. As he sat in his place, conscious

of the work that was before him, listening to the presentation of

petitions, and to the formal reading of certain notices of motions,

which with the asking of sundry questions occupied over half an

hour, he looked back and remembered accurately his own feelings on

a certain night on which he had intended to get up and address the

House. The ordeal before him had then been so terrible, that it had

almost obliterated for the moment his senses of hearing and of sight.

He had hardly been able to perceive what had been going on around

him, and had vainly endeavoured to occupy himself in recalling to

his memory the words which he wished to pronounce. When the time for

pronouncing them had come, he had found himself unable to stand upon

his legs. He smiled as he recalled all this in his memory, waiting

impatiently for the moment in which he might rise. His audience was

assured to him now, and he did not fear it. His opportunity for

utterance was his own, and even the Speaker could not deprive him of

it. During these minutes he thought not at all of the words that he

was to say. He had prepared his matter but had prepared no words. He

knew that words would come readily enough to him, and that he had

learned the task of turning his thoughts quickly into language while

standing with a crowd of listeners around him,--as a practised writer

does when seated in his chair. There was no violent beating at his

heart now, no dimness of the eyes, no feeling that the ground was

turning round under his feet. If only those weary vain questions

would get themselves all asked, so that he might rise and begin the

work of the night. Then there came the last thought as the House was

hushed for his rising. What was the good of it all, when he would

never have an opportunity of speaking there again?

But not on that account would he be slack in his endeavour now.

He would be listened to once at least, not as a subaltern of the

Government but as the owner of a voice prominent in opposition to

the Government. He had been taught by Mr. Monk that that was the one

place in the House in which a man with a power of speaking could

really enjoy pleasure without alloy. He would make the trial,--once,

if never again. Things had so gone with him that the rostrum was his

own, and a House crammed to overflowing was there to listen to him.

He had given up his place in order that he might be able to speak his

mind, and had become aware that many intended to listen to him while

he spoke. He had observed that the rows of strangers were thick in

the galleries, that peers were standing in the passages, and that

over the reporter’s head, the ribbons of many ladies were to be seen

through the bars of their cage. Yes;--for this once he would have an

audience.

He spoke for about an hour, and while he was speaking he knew nothing

about himself, whether he was doing it well or ill. Something of

himself he did say soon after he had commenced,--not quite beginning

with it, as though his mind had been laden with the matter. He had,

he said, found himself compelled to renounce his happy allegiance to

the First Lord of the Treasury, and to quit the pleasant company in

which, humble as had been his place, he had been allowed to sit and

act, by his unfortunate conviction in this great subject. He had been

told, he said, that it was a misfortune in itself for one so young as

he to have convictions. But his Irish birth and Irish connection had

brought this misfortune of his country so closely home to him that he

had found the task of extricating himself from it to be impossible.

Of what further he said, speaking on that terribly unintelligible

subject, a tenant-right proposed for Irish farmers, no English reader

will desire to know much. Irish subjects in the House of Commons

are interesting or are dull, are debated before a crowded audience

composed of all who are leaders in the great world of London, or

before empty benches, in accordance with the importance of the moment

and the character of the debate. For us now it is enough to know that

to our hero was accorded that attention which orators love,--which

will almost make an orator if it can be assured. A full House with a

promise of big type on the next morning would wake to eloquence the

propounder of a Canadian grievance, or the mover of an Indian budget.

Phineas did not stir out of the House till the division was over,

having agreed with Mr. Monk that they two would remain through it

all and hear everything that was to be said. Mr. Gresham had already

spoken, and to Mr. Palliser was confided the task of winding up

the argument for the Government. Mr. Robson spoke also, greatly

enlivening the tedium of the evening, and to Mr. Monk was permitted

the privilege of a final reply. At two o’clock the division came, and

the Ministry were beaten by a majority of twenty-three. “And now,”

said Mr. Monk, as he again walked home with Phineas, “the pity is

that we are not a bit nearer tenant-right than we were before.”

“But we are nearer to it.”

“In one sense, yes. Such a debate and such a majority will make men

think. But no;--think is too high a word; as a rule men don’t think.

But it will make them believe that there is something in it. Many who

before regarded legislation on the subject as chimerical, will now

fancy that it is only dangerous, or perhaps not more than difficult.

And so in time it will come to be looked on as among the things

possible, then among the things probable;--and so at last it will be

ranged in the list of those few measures which the country requires

as being absolutely needed. That is the way in which public opinion

is made.”

“It is no loss of time,” said Phineas, “to have taken the first great

step in making it.”

“The first great step was taken long ago,” said Mr. Monk,--“taken

by men who were looked upon as revolutionary demagogues, almost as

traitors, because they took it. But it is a great thing to take any

step that leads us onwards.”

Two days after this Mr. Gresham declared his intention of dissolving

the House because of the adverse division which had been produced by

Mr. Monk’s motion, but expressed a wish to be allowed to carry an

Irish Reform Bill through Parliament before he did so. He explained

how expedient this would be, but declared at the same time that if

any strong opposition were made, he would abandon the project. His

intention simply was to pass with regard to Ireland a measure which

must be passed soon, and which ought to be passed before a new

election took place. The bill was ready, and should be read for the

first time on the next night, if the House were willing. The House

was willing, though there were very many recalcitrant Irish members.

The Irish members made loud opposition, and then twitted Mr. Gresham

with his promise that he would not go on with his bill, if opposition

were made. But, nevertheless, he did go on, and the measure was

hurried through the two Houses in a week. Our hero who still sat for

Loughshane, but who was never to sit for Loughshane again, gave what

assistance he could to the Government, and voted for the measure

which deprived Loughshane for ever of its parliamentary honours.

“And very dirty conduct I think it was,” said Lord Tulla, when he

discussed the subject with his agent. “After being put in for the

borough twice, almost free of expense, it was very dirty.” It never

occurred to Lord Tulla that a member of Parliament might feel himself

obliged to vote on such a subject in accordance with his judgment.

This Irish Reform Bill was scrambled through the two Houses, and

then the session was over. The session was over, and they who knew

anything of the private concerns of Mr. Phineas Finn were aware that

he was about to return to Ireland, and did not intend to reappear on

the scene which had known him so well for the last five years. “I

cannot tell you how sad it makes me,” said Mr. Monk.

“And it makes me sad too,” said Phineas. “I try to shake off the

melancholy, and tell myself from day to day that it is unmanly. But

it gets the better of me just at present.”

“I feel quite certain that you will come back among us again,” said

Mr. Monk.

“Everybody tells me so; and yet I feel quite certain that I shall

never come back,--never come back with a seat in Parliament. As my

old tutor, Low, has told me scores of times, I began at the wrong

end. Here I am, thirty years of age, and I have not a shilling in the

world, and I do not know how to earn one.”

“Only for me you would still be receiving ever so much a year, and

all would be pleasant,” said Mr. Monk.

“But how long would it have lasted? The first moment that Daubeny got

the upper hand I should have fallen lower than I have fallen now. If

not this year, it would have been the next. My only comfort is in

this,--that I have done the thing myself, and have not been turned

out.” To the very last, however, Mr. Monk continued to express his

opinion that Phineas would come back, declaring that he had known no

instance of a young man who had made himself useful in Parliament,

and then had been allowed to leave it in early life.

Among those of whom he was bound to take a special leave, the members

of the family of Lord Brentford were, of course, the foremost. He

had already heard of the reconciliation of Miss Effingham and Lord

Chiltern, and was anxious to offer his congratulation to both of

them. And it was essential to him that he should see Lady Laura. To

her he wrote a line, saying how much he hoped that he should be able

to bid her adieu, and a time was fixed for his coming at which she

knew that she would meet him alone. But, as chance ruled it, he came

upon the two lovers together, and then remembered that he had hardly

ever before been in the same room with both of them at the same time.

“Oh, Mr. Finn, what a beautiful speech you made. I read every word of

it,” said Violet.

“And I didn’t even look at it, old fellow,” said Chiltern, getting up

and putting his arm on the other’s shoulder in a way that was common

with him when he was quite intimate with the friend near him.

“Laura went down and heard it,” said Violet. “I could not do that,

because I was tied to my aunt. You can’t conceive how dutiful I am

during this last month.”

“And is it to be in a month, Chiltern?” said Phineas.

“She says so. She arranges everything,--in concert with my father.

When I threw up the sponge, I simply asked for a long day. ‘A long

day, my lord,’ I said. But my father and Violet between them refused

me any mercy.”

“You do not believe him,” said Violet.

“Not a word. If I did he would want to see me on the coast of

Flanders again, I don’t doubt. I have come to congratulate you both.”

“Thank you, Mr. Finn,” said Violet, taking his hand with hearty

kindness. “I should not have been quite happy without one nice word

from you.”

“I shall try and make the best of it,” said Chiltern. “But, I say,

you’ll come over and ride Bonebreaker again. He’s down there at

the Bull, and I’ve taken a little box close by. I can’t stand the

governor’s county for hunting.”

“And will your wife go down to Willingford?”

“Of course she will, and ride to hounds a great deal closer than I

can ever do. Mind you come, and if there’s anything in the stable fit

to carry you, you shall have it.”

Then Phineas had to explain that he had come to bid them farewell,

and that it was not at all probable that he should ever be able to

see Willingford again in the hunting season. “I don’t suppose that I

shall make either of you quite understand it, but I have got to begin

again. The chances are that I shall never see another foxhound all my

life.”

“Not in Ireland!” exclaimed Lord Chiltern.

“Not unless I should have to examine one as a witness. I have nothing

before me but downright hard work; and a great deal of that must be

done before I can hope to earn a shilling.”

“But you are so clever,” said Violet. “Of course it will come

quickly.”

“I do not mean to be impatient about it, nor yet unhappy,” said

Phineas. “Only hunting won’t be much in my line.”

“And will you leave London altogether?” Violet asked.

“Altogether. I shall stick to one club,--Brooks’s; but I shall take

my name off all the others.”

“What a deuce of a nuisance!” said Lord Chiltern.

“I have no doubt you will be very happy,” said Violet; “and you’ll be

a Lord Chancellor in no time. But you won’t go quite yet.”

“Next Sunday.”

“You will return. You must be here for our wedding;--indeed you must.

I will not be married unless you do.”

Even this, however, was impossible. He must go on Sunday, and must

return no more. Then he made his little farewell speech, which he

could not deliver without some awkward stuttering. He would think of

her on the day of her marriage, and pray that she might be happy. And

he would send her a little trifle before he went, which he hoped she

would wear in remembrance of their old friendship.

“She shall wear it, whatever it is, or I’ll know the reason why,”

said Chiltern.

“Hold your tongue, you rough bear!” said Violet. “Of course I’ll

wear it. And of course I’ll think of the giver. I shall have many

presents, but few that I will think of so much.” Then Phineas left

the room, with his throat so full that he could not speak another

word.

“He is still broken-hearted about you,” said the favoured lover as

soon as his rival had left the room.

“It is not that,” said Violet. “He is broken-hearted about

everything. The whole world is vanishing away from him. I wish he

could have made up his mind to marry that German woman with all the

money.” It must be understood, however, that Phineas had never spoken

a word to any one as to the offer which the German woman had made to

him.

It was on the morning of the Sunday on which he was to leave London

that he saw Lady Laura. He had asked that it might be so, in order

that he might then have nothing more upon his mind. He found her

quite alone, and he could see by her eyes that she had been weeping.

As he looked at her, remembering that it was not yet six years since

he had first been allowed to enter that room, he could not but

perceive how very much she was altered in appearance. Then she had

been three-and-twenty, and had not looked to be a day older. Now she

might have been taken to be nearly forty, so much had her troubles

preyed upon her spirit, and eaten into the vitality of her youth. “So

you have come to say good-bye,” she said, smiling as she rose to meet

him.

“Yes, Lady Laura;--to say good-bye. Not for ever, I hope, but

probably for long.”

“No, not for ever. At any rate, we will not think so.” Then she

paused; but he was silent, sitting with his hat dangling in his two

hands, and his eyes fixed upon the floor. “Do you know, Mr. Finn,”

she continued, “that sometimes I am very angry with myself about

you.”

“Then it must be because you have been too kind to me.”

“It is because I fear that I have done much to injure you. From

the first day that I knew you,--do you remember, when we were

talking here, in this very room, about the beginning of the Reform

Bill;--from that day I wished that you should come among us and be

one of us.”

“I have been with you, to my infinite satisfaction,--while it

lasted.”

“But it has not lasted, and now I fear that it has done you harm.”

“Who can say whether it has been for good or evil? But of this I am

sure you will be certain,--that I am very grateful to you for all the

goodness you have shown me.” Then again he was silent.

She did not know what it was that she wanted, but she did desire some

expression from his lips that should be warmer than an expression of

gratitude. An expression of love,--of existing love,--she would have

felt to be an insult, and would have treated it as such. Indeed, she

knew that from him no such insult could come. But she was in that

morbid, melancholy state of mind which requires the excitement

of more than ordinary sympathy, even though that sympathy be all

painful; and I think that she would have been pleased had he referred

to the passion for herself which he had once expressed. If he would

have spoken of his love, and of her mistake, and have made some

half-suggestion as to what might have been their lives had things

gone differently,--though she would have rebuked him even for

that,--still it would have comforted her. But at this moment, though

he remembered much that had passed between them, he was not even

thinking of the Braes of Linter. All that had taken place four years

ago;--and there had been so many other things since which had moved

him even more than that! “You have heard what I have arranged for

myself?” she said at last.

“Your father has told me that you are going to Dresden.”

“Yes;--he will accompany me,--coming home of course for Parliament.

It is a sad break-up, is it not? But the lawyer says that if I remain

here I may be subject to very disagreeable attempts from Mr. Kennedy

to force me to go back again. It is odd, is it not, that he should

not understand how impossible it is?”

“He means to do his duty.”

“I believe so. But he becomes more stern every day to those who are

with him. And then, why should I remain here? What is there to tempt

me? As a woman separated from her husband I cannot take an interest

in those things which used to charm me. I feel that I am crushed and

quelled by my position, even though there is no disgrace in it.”

“No disgrace, certainly,” said Phineas.

“But I am nobody,--or worse than nobody.”

“And I also am going to be a nobody,” said Phineas, laughing.

“Ah; you are a man and will get over it, and you have many years

before you will begin to be growing old. I am growing old already.

Yes, I am. I feel it, and know it, and see it. A woman has a fine

game to play; but then she is so easily bowled out, and the term

allowed to her is so short.”

“A man’s allowance of time may be short too,” said Phineas.

“But he can try his hand again.” Then there was another pause. “I had

thought, Mr. Finn, that you would have married,” she said in her very

lowest voice.

“You knew all my hopes and fears about that.”

“I mean that you would have married Madame Goesler.”

“What made you think that, Lady Laura?”

“Because I saw that she liked you, and because such a marriage would

have been so suitable. She has all that you want. You know what they

say of her now?”

“What do they say?”

“That the Duke of Omnium offered to make her his wife, and that she

refused him for your sake.”

“There is nothing that people won’t say;--nothing on earth,” said

Phineas. Then he got up and took his leave of her. He also wanted to

part from her with some special expression of affection, but he did

not know how to choose his words. He had wished that some allusion

should be made, not to the Braes of Linter, but to the close

confidence which had so long existed between them; but he found

that the language to do this properly was wanting to him. Had the

opportunity arisen he would have told her now the whole story of

Mary Flood Jones; but the opportunity did not come, and he left her,

never having mentioned the name of his Mary or having hinted at his

engagement to any one of his friends in London. “It is better so,”

he said to himself. “My life in Ireland is to be a new life, and why

should I mix two things together that will be so different?”

He was to dine at his lodgings, and then leave them for good at

eight o’clock. He had packed up everything before he went to Portman

Square, and he returned home only just in time to sit down to his

solitary mutton chop. But as he sat down he saw a small note

addressed to himself lying on the table among the crowd of books,

letters, and papers, of which he had still to make disposal. It was

a very small note in an envelope of a peculiar tint of pink, and he

knew the handwriting well. The blood mounted all over his face as he

took it up, and he hesitated for a moment before he opened it. It

could not be that the offer should be repeated to him. Slowly, hardly

venturing at first to look at the enclosure, he opened it, and the

words which it contained were as follows:--

I learn that you are going to-day, and I write a word

which you will receive just as you are departing. It is to

say merely this,--that when I left you the other day I was

angry, not with you, but with myself. Let me wish you all

good wishes and that prosperity which I know you will

deserve, and which I think you will win.

Yours very truly,

M. M. G.

Sunday morning.

Should he put off his journey and go to her this very evening and

claim her as his friend? The question was asked and answered in a

moment. Of course he would not go to her. Were he to do so there

would be only one possible word for him to say, and that word should

certainly never be spoken. But he wrote to her a reply, shorter even

than her own short note.

Thanks, dear friend. I do not doubt but that you and I

understand each other thoroughly, and that each trusts the

other for good wishes and honest intentions.

Always yours,

P. F.

I write these as I am starting.

When he had written this, he kept it till the last moment in his

hand, thinking that he would not send it. But as he slipped into the

cab, he gave the note to his late landlady to post.

At the station Bunce came to him to say a word of farewell, and Mrs.

Bunce was on his arm.

“Well done, Mr. Finn, well done,” said Bunce. “I always knew there

was a good drop in you.”

“You always told me I should ruin myself in Parliament, and so I

have,” said Phineas.

“Not at all. It takes a deal to ruin a man if he’s got the right

sperrit. I’ve better hopes of you now than ever I had in the old

days when you used to be looking out for Government place;--and Mr.

Monk has tried that too. I thought he would find the iron too heavy

for him.” “God bless you, Mr. Finn,” said Mrs. Bunce with her

handkerchief up to her eyes. “There’s not one of ’em I ever had as

lodgers I’ve cared about half as much as I did for you.” Then they

shook hands with him through the window, and the train was off.

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