A LOYAL HEART
THE friendship so strangely started between Mrs. Burnham and the girl
thrust upon her conscience, grew apace. As Ruth had surmised, her old
friend Flossy had lost none of her charm with young people, and she won
Maybelle's fascinated interest from the first moment of their meeting;
an interest that developed rapidly into love.
When Mrs. Roberts's young people came home--an event that Ruth, at
least, had dreaded for Maybelle's sake--it was found that the charm was
increased. Ruth, in writing to Erskine about them, which she did at some
length, had added: "I might have saved you much of this description, by
simply saying that the children are very like their mother. Even
Erskine, tall and muscular as he is, a thorough boy in every sense of
the word, and a manly one, yet has that indefinable indescribable charm
about him that our little Flossy always had and always will have, should
she live to be a hundred, bless her! what a blessing she would be to
this old world if she should. Do you realize, dear, that he is your
namesake, as well as mine? At first I was not sure that I wanted another
Erskine,--there is but one to me, you know,--but Erskine Roberts is such
a splendid repetition of the family name that we cannot but be proud of
him."
But she gave no description of Maybelle, and mentioned her name as
little as possible. She shrank almost painfully from the thought of
writing about this girl to one who ought to be deeply interested in
her,--as in the nature of the case Erskine should be if he knew,--and
yet looked upon her as an intruder, almost resenting his mother's
efforts in her behalf.
But if she kept silence about her to Erskine, she atoned for it in the
amount of time and thought that she bestowed upon the child. As the
weeks passed and she grew to better understand this child-woman with
whom she had to deal, she found herself bestowing upon her a wealth of
love and tenderness that she had not supposed any but her very own could
call out. And her love was returned in royal measure. However much
Maybelle might admire and love Mrs. Roberts and enjoy her son and
daughters, she had given the wealth of her heart unreservedly to Mrs.
Burnham. "Next to Aunt Mamie I love you best of all the world," she
would declare as she patted Ruth's shoulder with a loving little touch
that was peculiarly her own. "It ought always to be Aunt Mamie first,
you know, because she--she _mothered_ me all those years when I was
hungry for a mother. Dear Mrs. Burnham, if she were your daughter and I
could be your granddaughter, would not that be perfect? But that
couldn't be, of course, for Aunt Mamie loved her own dear mother better
than any other mother in the world; and she was a _dear_; I loved her
very much, but--how many different kinds of love there can be in the
same heart!" she broke off to say, with the air of a dreamy philosopher,
"Different kinds of loves and different kinds of unloves, ever so many
of them! the heart is a curious country, isn't it?"
By that time Mrs. Burnham had come to understand Miss Parker's absorbed
interest in the girl, which continued unabated even amid the absorbing
interests of a strange land. She wrote long loving letters to the child
of her adoption, and long earnest ones to Mrs. Burnham about her.
"There have been times," she wrote, "when I have almost regretted that I
left the dear girl all alone and came away out here where weeks must
intervene before I can hear from her. I felt this especially after I
found that my brother, although very glad indeed to welcome me, had made
interests here about which I knew nothing, one that is to help make a
home for him in the near future, so that so far as care and
companionship are concerned he could have done very well without me.
When I first began to understand the situation here, I was puzzled, and
just a little bit troubled over the question why I had been allowed to
come, or rather left to think that to come was the only right course,
when apparently I was much more needed at home on that dear child's
account, than here. But after reading Maybelle's letter I understood
that it was in order to leave the way clear and plain for her to your
dear heart; you can do so much more for her than I can ever hope to.
How blissful the darling is over her new friendships and interests! I am
glad that you have kidnapped her loyal little heart, just as I knew you
would."
"Poor girl!" Mrs. Burnham said softly to herself after reading this
letter. "She has one of those hungry hearts that Maybelle talks about;
and she fancied that her brother could fill it, instead of being quite
satisfied with his generous corner of it! I wonder if it can be possible
that she cared for the child's father, as the Madame hints? That would
account for--but there is nothing to be accounted for; one could not
help loving Maybelle. I must tell Miss Parker that she is always to have
the first place in that 'curious' heart, while I am enthroned as second.
Dear simpleton!" Then, as the thought crossed her mind, not for the
first time, that the one who should hold that first place might be named
Erskine, the uneasy conviction shook her that in such event certain ugly
truths would have to be revealed.
But she put the thought from her as soon as possible. She could not plan
for the future, and for the present, Maybelle and Erskine Roberts were
simply comrades heartily enjoying each other's society, as her own
Erskine and Alice Warder had done, without apparently other thoughts
than those shared with them by Marian Roberts, who was Erskine's twin.
Ruth wrote to Miss Parker that same evening, giving her a detailed
account of one of her talks with Maybelle.
"You may well call hers a 'loyal heart,' my friend," she wrote. "You
should hear the pathetic way in which the child talks about you by the
hour! Yesterday she said to me:--
"'Sometimes I used to wish that I could call Aunt Mamie, mother. She is
the only woman that I ever had such a thought about; I suppose it was
because she came close enough to give me an idea of what a real mother
would be. I mean to keep her always for my heart-mother. There can be
heart-mothers, you know, and in some ways they are almost as dear as
real ones. Oh, I wonder if you know how a girl like me sometimes longs
and _longs_ for a real mother! I think it is the only possession that I
ever envied. Sometimes, Mrs. Burnham, I have been fiercely jealous for
hours together, so that I almost hated the girls who chattered about
their mothers. Wasn't that dreadful! Oh, I cannot think what would have
become of me long before this, if I had not had Aunt Mamie.'"
Thus much Ruth Burnham wrote, and stayed her pen. Was it necessary for
her to tell all this? To lay bare even to this woman, who knew so much,
the depths of a suffering young heart, thereby revealing the magnitude
of the mother's sin against it? And that mother was her daughter, her
son's wife! She wanted to write it; there were times when she wanted to
shout it out to all the world, just what manner of woman was being
sheltered by her name and home. She knew that she would never do it, but
ought not Mamie Parker who had mothered the child, to understand? She
thought long, she shed a few struggling tears that seemed to burn her
face; the hurt at her heart was too deep for tears, and then she hid her
face on the writing table and talked with God.
The end of it was that she tore the sheet across and threw the fragments
into her grate. And wrote again:--
"You may well call hers a 'loyal heart,' my friend; she loves with a
depth that seems to me unusual in one so young; and she has enthroned
you at her heart's very centre. I want to say, just here, that I do not
think she overestimates what you have done for her; I believe you have
saved her to herself."
Meanwhile, the days that Mrs. Burnham, without any definite planning,
had thought might be given to her visit lengthened into weeks, and still
she lingered in the East.
Erskine was astonished, was bewildered, was half indignant, yet she set
no date for the home-going. One reason for this was the fact that Mr.
Roberts's stay abroad, which was to have been very brief, had been much
lengthened by unexpected business complications, and his wife was
begging her old friend to stay with her until his return. But of course
there was no real excuse for this, as she had her children and
multitudes of home friends about her. The real reason was that Ruth
could not decide to leave Maybelle. The girl clung to her with an ever
increasing abandon to the joy of having for her very own one who knew
how to be in every sense of the word motherly. Certainly she was nearer
real happiness than her confused life had ever been before. From being
one whom some of her schoolmates pitied and patronized because she
seemed to have no friends of her own except a somewhat doubtful father,
she became almost an object of envy.
All of the girls at Madame Sternheim's knew Mrs. Evan Roberts by
reputation; and highly exaggerated stories of her house and her friends
and her lavish expenditures for certain of them, were afloat in the
school. But it chanced that Maybelle was the first one of the school
girls who had entered the charmed circle of Mrs. Roberts's friendships.
When it became known that she was being sent for three or four times a
week to take dinner with the Roberts family, that she went on Tuesdays
to luncheon, that she spent most of her Saturdays and Sundays in the
same choice home, interest in her comings and goings became marked.
Then, when she began slowly, and almost reluctantly it must be admitted,
to choose out some especially lonely or homesick or timid girl to take
with her to dine at Mrs. Roberts's, her popularity knew no bounds.
Madame Sternheim, too, during these days was gracious almost beyond
recognition. It was not that the good woman had not meant to be gracious
always; she had been faithful to her duty as she saw it, and poor
Maybelle, who confessed that she had hours of almost hating her, had in
reality very much for which to thank her.
But Madame Sternheim was very human indeed, and the daughter of a poor
artist father with a questionable past and a doubtful future, whose only
friend, apparently, was a very fine young woman, it is true, but a woman
without family and with no reasonable way of accounting for her interest
in the girl, and nothing to show how soon the interest might cease--for
that matter she had already gone away off to China for no reason in
particular, unless it was to be well rid of her charge now that the
father was gone--was one person, and a girl who had apparently been
adopted into the inner circle of Mrs. Roberts's family was quite
another; especially now that the poor father had been respectably buried
and all doubtful or uncomfortable things could be forgotten. Madame
Sternheim was relieved and pleased and hopeful. She liked to have Mrs.
Roberts's carriage stand before her door waiting for Maybelle. She liked
to say to certain of her patrons:--
"Oh, the coachman is used to waiting; our dear Maybelle is almost
certain to be tardy, but then she is so much at home at Mrs. Roberts's
house that she can take all sorts of liberties. Oh, yes, she dines there
several times a week and often takes some of her classmates with her.
Dear Mrs. Roberts welcomes my girls to her home as though she were their
elder sister. What a charming woman she is! Really when one comes to
know her intimately, one feels that the half has not been told
concerning her."
And Maybelle was blossoming under this reign of love. Her cheeks were
rounding out a little and taking on a touch of color, and her eyes were
growing less sad. She had by no means forgotten her grief nor put aside
the thought of her father. On the contrary, she liked nothing better
than to talk of him by the hour to a sympathetic listener, while to be
allowed to talk about her mother, was to give free vent to the one
pent-up passion of her life.
It was to Mrs. Burnham that she talked most freely, though Mrs.
Roberts's young people were sympathetic, and Erskine, especially, liked
nothing better than to hear long stories about the artist and his method
of dealing with a picture.
"He made them up," Maybelle would say, "composed them, you know, or made
a plot, as you do when you write a story for your college paper. The
picture grew, just as a story does. 'That's an idea!' papa would say,
when I was sitting meekly enough beside him, telling him some story of
my day. 'That's a look I never saw before, let me get it, Maysie'--that
was one of his dear names for me, he had dozens of them--and he would
seize palette and brush and work for a few minutes as hard as he could,
then sit back and gaze at me and think, and I knew that a new picture
was born and would have to be watched over and nourished and developed.
It was very interesting."
"Yes, indeed! he painted me a hundred times and in a hundred different
ways, but they did him no good; he never would try to sell them, nor
even show them. They are all boxed up with our other things and stored;
Aunt Mamie took charge of them. He told her they were never to be sold.
I think it was because my mother's picture was always mixed in with
them, and he could not bear to sell her. He used to make pictures of me,
sometimes, that he said were like mamma. There would be just little
hints of me about them, not a likeness of me at all, but a beautiful
girl, and the tears would come into papa's dear eyes when he looked at
her, and he would say softly, 'It is her image.'"
When Maybelle talked in this way to Ruth, she once or twice said
wistfully:--
"It must be beautiful to be loved in the way that my father loved my
mother." But Erskine Roberts never heard any words of this kind.