CHAPTER XXVIII

"Clem, scuttle up--we'll be late," shouted Portal. "What _is_ she doing,

Miss Chard?"

"Hearing the bratiken's prayers, I think."

"I wish you'd hurry her up."

Poppy went out into the hall and stood at the nursery door, which was

ajar. Clem's voice could be heard inside arguing with a small, sullen

one.

"Say them now, Cinthie--'Gentle Jesus----'"

"No, mummie."

"Yes, darling."

"I want you to sing 'Bye-low Lady.'"

"Not to-night, my dearest" (sound of a kiss); "there isn't time. Daddy's

waiting for me to go to the theatre; we'll have longer sings to-morrow

night. Say prayers now, Cinthie."

"No, mummie."

"Go on now, darling. Mother'll be cross with you in a minute. 'Gentle

Jesus----'"

"No, mummie."

A silence.

"'Gentle Jesus'--Go on now, Cinthie--'Gentle Jesus--'"

"'Gentle Jesus'--sat on a wall," said the small voice, and burst into a

peal of laughing. There was a rustling and Clem appeared at the nursery

door gowned and gloved, her face bearing traces of smothered laughter.

But from the door she called back, in a voice intended to be most

hauntingly sad:

"Mother's sorry her little girl is so naughty to-night. Good-night,

Cinthie."

"G'night," was the cheerful response.

Clem came out into the hall and shut the door, and putting her arm in

Poppy's hurried to the drawing-room, where Portal was offering up loud

prayers for patience, and bemoaning the miserable, wasted lives of all

married men.

"Time is simply nothing to them, I tell you!" he chanted. "It is no

concern of theirs! They cannot wear it, nor give it to their offspring

to play with! As for punctuality, it is a rule invented for men and dogs

only--and rickshaw pullers. Ours has been waiting at the gate for twenty

minutes--but _that's_ all right--what do _we_ care for the first act of

a play?"

Clem took not the slightest notice. She turned to Poppy.

"And, darling, when you've finished your coffee I wish you'd go in and

hear her prayers. She feels very much injured to-night--you will, won't

you? I am so vexed that we have to go out and leave you--and _I do_ wish

you would have come too. It might have made you forget all about that

wicked fire."

"I shall be quite happy here, Clem. I have much to think of and plan;

and, of course, I'll mind Cinthie. Be off now."

Poppy hustled her into her cloak and laces and saw them both off into

the rickshaw. Afterwards she returned to the drawing-room, poured out

her coffee, and took it into the nursery. Cinthie's little straight,

white bed stood in the centre of the room, and she was lying with the

sheet drawn up to her chin, two long pigtails stretching down on either

side of her, and two big, dark eyes glooming out of the little, soft,

dark face. Beside her on the pillow two still, inanimate forms glared

glazily at the ceiling.

"Cinthie!"

"Eum!"

"Hallo, Cinthie!"

"Hallo!"

"You asleep?"

"No, not yet."

"Sure you're not?"

"No, I'm not, Poppy." She sat up in bed and gave a lively prance to show

she was awake.

"Well, I've come to have a little talk."

Cinthie made a joyful noise that sounded like _corn-cookoo_, and gave

another prance.

Poppy sat on the edge of the bed and sipped her coffee, tendering to

Cinthie an occasional spoonful, which was supped up rapturously.

"Who've you got there with you?"

"Two my chil'ren."

"Which ones?"

"_Daisy-Buttercup_ 'n _Oscar_"

"Oh! have they said their prayers yet?"

A pause, then:

"I didn't tell them to say prairses to-night."

"Not?" cried Poppy, in shocked surprise.

"No." (A pause.) "They's too tired."

"Oh, but Cinthie! Fancy, if they died in their sleep! How sorry they'd

be they hadn't said their prayers."

An uncomfortable pause. Poppy drank some more coffee.

"I know _you_ would never go to sleep without saying _your_ prayers."

A silence.

"I hope you prayed for me to-night, sweetness?"

A silence.

"--And for that darling mummie of yours?"

Silence.

"--And your lovely daddie?"

Silence.

"--Because I know they couldn't enjoy themselves at the theatre, or go

to sleep to-night, or anything, if you didn't. But of course, you did.

Good-night, sweetness--give a kiss."

"G'night!" The little figure bounced up and put its arms round her and

kissed her all over her face. Poppy tucked her in carefully.

"I'm so glad you prayed for mummie and daddie and me," she said

fervently. "Good-night, darling-pet."

"G'night."

"You don't have the candle left, do you?"

"No."

"Shall I put the mosquito-curtain round?"

"Yes, please."

Poppy flicked it well with her handkerchief and arranged it round the

bed like a big, white bird-cage; then taking the candle in her hand,

walked slowly to the door.

"Well, good-night."

"G'night."

She opened the door and went out slowly.

At the last conceivable instant, as the door was on the point of

closing, a little voice cried:

"Poppy!"

"Yes, sweetness."

"I want a drink of water."

Poppy went back, poured a glass of water, and carried it to the

delinquent, who took a mouthful; then said, slowly and sorrowfully:

"I think I'll say prairses, Poppy."

"All right darling!" She sat down on the bed again and put her arms

round the slim figure, who, kneeling with her nose snuggled into the

soft, white shoulder, said her "prairses" at express-speed down into

Poppy's evening-gown:

"Gen-tuljeesus, meek n' mil',

Lookup pon a little chil';

Pitimysimplisitee,

Suffer me t' come to Thee.

"Our Fath 'CHART in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy King and come, Thy

will be done 'Nearth as 'tis 'Neaven. Give us 's day our _DAILY BREAD_

N' forgive us our trespasses 'gainst us. But 'liver us from evil. For

Thine's kingdom, Power and GLORY, frever and ever, Amen.

"Our Father, please bless my darling Mummie, and take care of her at the

theatre, and my lovely Daddie, _and_ Grannie, _and_ Grandad, _and_

Poppy, _and_ all the servants in _this_ house, _and_ all the little

children in the world, _and_ fill our hearts with love 'n kindness,

Amen--now I must say my _Latins_."

Clem was Catholic and Bill Protestant, and the result was a strange

medley of prayers for Cinthie. She kneeled up, crossed herself solemnly

in Latin, and began to chant the lovely words of the Angelical

Salutation:

"_Ave Maria! gratia plena, Dominus tecum: benedicta tu in mulieribus, et

benedictus fructus ventris tui Jesus._"

"_Sancta Maria! Mater Dei, ora pro nobis peccatoribus, nunc et in hora

mortis nostrae. Amen._"

Afterwards she fell into a peal of laughing.

"Why do you laugh, darling?" Poppy gravely asked, and the answer was:

"Oh, Poppy! Wouldn't _Nunc_ be a funny name for a dog!"

Then once more the sheets were tucked in, the mosquito-net arranged, and

a kiss blown through it.

"Good-night, Pansy-face!"

"G'night, Red-rose!" responded Cinthie ardently.

"Good-night, Gold-heart!"

Cinthie thought laboriously for a few seconds, struggling for a fitting

response. At last, just as Poppy reached the door, she shouted

breathlessly:

"G'night; White-soul!"

At that Poppy gave a cry and ran back once more and hugged her.

When at length she tore herself away from the warm, loving little arms

and went alone to the drawing-room, heavy tears were splashing down her

cheeks and her lips were like a wistful, sorrowing child's. She stood in

the open window and stared out at the beauty of the night. Above in the

solemn purple sky was the Cross, picked out in scarlet stars. Far below

twinkled the town lights, and at quick intervals the Bluff Lighthouse

sent long, sweeping, golden lines across the bay, revealing for an

instant the shadowy fabrics of ships and sailing craft lying safe in

dock.

Out at sea a great liner steamed slowly to anchorage, hundreds of lights

flashing from her three tiers, and presently the rattle of her cable

through the hawse-pipes floated distinctly up to the heights, the

throbbing in her breast died away, and she lay rocking softly like some

great tired bird nested at last.

In the dim valley a Zulu boy, heart-hungry for his home-kraal, was

making music of an infinite sweetness and melancholy on that oldest

instrument in the world, a reed-flute. The sound brought further tears

to Poppy, and a burning in her throat. It seemed the voice of her heart

wailing, because she had never been a child, because "earth was so

beautiful and Heaven so far"; because she loved a man and was beloved of

him and darkness lay between them! At that, she longed passionately with

every sense and nerve in her for Evelyn Carson. She ached in the very

bones and blood of her for a sight or sound of him. If he would only

come----!

"Oh, God! be good to me for once!" she cried with soundless lips. "Let

him come--I will do the rest. There is no barrier I cannot break down

between him and me. He is mine--dear God, you _know_ that he is mine! I

bound him with my hair, my lips, my soul. I gave him of my best, I gave

him my girlhood--_I bore his son_." The green leaves of the

passion-plant trailing over the window lapped gently against her cheek,

and she put up her hands to them. "Oh, trees, leaves, all green things,

help me--let him come----"

And he came, through the open gate, up the broad pathway, straight to

her.

Her eyes were closed tight to stop her tears, but she heard him coming

as she stood there with the shaded lamps behind her in the empty room,

and the silver night on her face. He came so close to the verandah that

he could look in upon her, and plainly see her pale emotion-wrung face

and the tears urging through her tightly-closed lids and dripping from

her lashes. Her lips opened and her breath came heavily, and the sight

of her took strange hold of him. His own lips unclosed; the marks

self-mockery had made about them had been wiped out; his handsome,

haggard eyes had changed, boyhood had come back to them.

"Won't you come into the garden?" His voice had all the sweetness of

Ireland in it. She unclosed her eyes and came out to him, the tears

still shining on her cheeks: a pale, ardent woman--strangely like a

narcissus.

He put an arm through hers and they walked together in the gracious

dimness.

Down the centre of the garden dividing two lawns ran a high hedge of

Barbadoes-thorn. It is a shrub garlanded with white tiny flowers of a

perfume probably the most pungent in the world--much like the gardenia,

or tuberose, but heavier, sweeter. To-night this perfume hung upon the

air, and stayed with these lovers all their lives after. They sat on the

grass under a giant flamboyant tree and a tiny green tree-frog sang a

love-song to its mate in the branches over their heads. But they did not

hear. They were deaf to everything now save the drumming in their hearts

and the urging of their pulses. Carson had his arm about her, half for

her support, wholly because he could not help it. Her tears were still

on her face, and he leaned so close that his cheek was wetted by them.

One heavy drop fell on his lips and he tasted the salt of it, and it was

as if he had tasted blood. Suddenly he turned her lips to his and began

to kiss her with a mouth of flame.

"Eve! Eve!" she cried, afraid of her gladness. He did not speak; nor

could he, if he would. Only he dragged kisses from the mouth he had

desired so long; the eyes he had looked away from; the curving, cloven

chin; the throat that shone in the darkness like a moony pearl. And when

he came to her lips again, they kissed him back with wild, sweet kisses.

Her arms were round him too. One held his throat and her eyes were shut

and sealed.

After some short, blind moments, in which she was lost, and he torn in

two between desire and iron-determination, he lifted her suddenly to her

feet.

"Darling, my heart, good-bye--for a little while," he said; "and

then--_never_ good-bye again. The next time we kiss, you must be my

wife."

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