Mrs. Phillips's First Grief
Mrs. Phillips was somewhat annoyed at her husband's treating Elsie
Melville on their continental tour more as a travelling companion than
as a paid dependant. Where was to be the glory of this journey through
France and Italy, of which she would have to boast all her life, if her
maid and herself were to be on such terms of equality? In vain Mr.
Phillips said he had disliked the difference that was made between the
two sisters, and had only submitted to it in London on account of the
servants, and that he was glad to take this opportunity of treating
Elsie as her birth and education deserved. In vain he pointed out that
French ladies conducted themselves to their dependants with less
distance and hauteur than Englishwomen, and that in France it was
proper to do as the French did. Mrs. Phillips felt offended, and, for
the first time in her life, a little jealous--not very jealous, for she
was so conscious of her own beauty, and so unconscious of her defects
of mind and temper, that she had a strong substratum of confidence in
her husband's affection--but at this time, Elsie was looking really
very pretty; her movements were quick and graceful--a great contrast to
Mrs. Phillips's slow, dignified, Juno-like deportment--and her
conversation so sparkling and amusing, that she thought Mr. Phillips
looked at her too much, and talked to her too much. When they spoke
French together--for Mr. Phillips was trying to revive his more than
half-forgotten schoolboy French, and found he could do it more easily
with Alice than with the foreigners--Mrs. Phillips had a vague sense
that they were talking about something that they did not want her to
hear. Elsie would have enjoyed this trip exceedingly, but for Mrs.
Phillips's unreasonableness and caprices; but, even in spite of them,
she brought away many delightful recollections of scenes and people.
When on this tour, she felt as if she could write verses again, if she
had only time and quiet.
When in Paris she called on Madame Lenoir with a letter of introduction
from her cousin. She received Elsie very kindly, and asked her and the
Phillipses to her 'at homes'; but as all the people there talked
French, Mrs. Phillips did not find them at all entertaining, and she
thought French hospitality a very shabby affair. They did not remain
long in Paris, but went down to Italy, and visited Florence and Rome.
Mr. Phillips wished he had had his two eldest girls with him in Italy,
and promised to himself that next time he took the journey they should
accompany him.
When they returned to London they found that all had gone well in their
absence--Francis had won his election; Jane appeared to be in excellent
spirits; and the children had made good progress with their lessons.
Mr. Phillips appeared to miss his old friend and neighbour, Brandon,
very much, and could not find any one of his colonial acquaintances who
could fill up the blank which his departure from London had made.
Besides, they were always losing somebody out of their pleasant circle.
Every mail steamer, and every fine clipper ship that sailed for
Australia seemed to take one or more from them; and though new people
did come, they did not appear to be so agreeable as those who went
away. Mr. Phillips could not remain contented in London, so he proposed
a trip to America with his wife and Alice as before; but Mrs. Phillips
disliked the sea, and did not feel very well, so she said she would
rather stay in London with the family, though it was getting rather
late in the season for London. She did not care to go to Derbyshire
without him, far less to go to Scotland; so, if he could be so cruel as
to leave her, she would prefer London. If Emily had been a little
older, Mr. Phillips would have taken her with him, for he disliked
travelling alone, but she was too young, as he himself acknowledged.
Elsie could not understand the cause of Mrs. Phillips's peculiarly
disagreeable conduct to herself lately, and she was almost on the point
of leaving her, and taking another situation, when the children, one
after the other, took scarlatina, and in such a house of sickness
she--their favourite--could not be spared. All lessons, of course, were
at an end. Mrs. Phillips looked into the nursery several times a day,
and said how sorry she was to see the children so ill, and how she
suffered from her anxiety about them; but it was Jane and Elsie who
took the real charge of the little patients. The mother did not seem
really alarmed, though the children were really very ill; the only
thing she did that appeared like apprehension was making Jane write to
Mr. Phillips to return to England without delay as soon as the children
were seized with the fever. Jane also wrote to Dr. Phillips, and Vivian
hurried to London, and stayed with his brother's family until his
return, which was a great lightening of the load of responsibility
which the sisters felt rested on them. In spite of every care and all
that either doctor or nurses could do, little Eva fell a victim to the
disease; and, after her death, Mrs. Phillips for the first time seemed
to realize the danger of the others. Everything had gone so
prosperously with her since her marriage; she had known no sorrow, and
little annoyance; she had always had her husband at her side to smooth
everything for her, so that she really scarcely knew what the
contingencies and trials of life were; but this death, happening when
the father who loved his children so dearly was absent, affected the
indolent and generally unimpressible woman very strongly. She felt that
she was somehow to blame about it. "What will Stanley say when he comes
home? Oh, what will he say to me for losing his darling child? Oh, why
did he go to America, and leave me with such a charge? And the others
will be sure to die, too!"--were her constant lamentations.
Her grief made her quite unfit to take any charge of the survivors, and
yet she was incredulous when she was told by her brother-in-law, or by
the Misses Melville, that they were really recovering. It was not till
her husband returned, which was as soon as he possibly could, and
assured her that they were quite out of danger, that she gave any
credit to it. Mr. Phillips felt the loss of one of his children more
keenly than most men, but he was grateful to see that he was likely to
save the others, and he did full justice to the care and attention
which they had received from Vivian and Jane and Elsie.
Francis Hogarth was in London, attending a short parliamentary session,
when the children were so ill, and was constant in his inquiries as to
their health. Dr. Vivian Phillips forced Jane and Elsie out to hear
their cousin make his first speech one evening, when the patients were
decidedly convalescent. Jane was very much pleased with Francis' DEBUT,
and though Elsie thought it rather tame, because it was not on an
important subject, and was very calmly delivered, she was glad that he
had not broken down, for it seemed a most imposing assembly for a
stranger to address. Francis had visited the Derbyshire Phillipses,
according to promise, after his election was over, and had been a good
deal interested in Dr. Vivian, both on account of his own
qualifications, and because Jane Melville had been interested in him.
He now felt that Jane and the young physician were placed in very
intimate relations with each other, and he naturally enough fancied
that what he so much wished for himself would appear desirable to a man
so acute and sensible as Vivian Phillips. Her calm temper, her
promptitude, her method, were all shown to great advantage in a sick
room. He forgot that Elsie's gentle tender ways and her overflowing
sympathy might be equally attractive, but Dr. Vivian was quite used to
all sorts of sick rooms, and to all sorts of nursing, and nothing was
very striking to him, so that he fell in love with neither sister,
though he liked them both very much.
Jane in particular was one of those women who may count herself
fortunate if she meets with one real lover in her lifetime. William
Dalzell was not to be counted, except perhaps as a blank, but by means
of the most favouring circumstances, she had taken Francis Hogarth's
heart into her possession, at least for time, and this was her one
prize in the strange lottery of love. No other attachment she was
likely to inspire, as she felt herself, but her lover was not so
clear-sighted. Dr. Vivian Phillips had a great respect for her, and
enjoyed her society now and then as a pleasant change from the more
insipid company of his sisters or their female acquaintances, but to
spend a life with her would be too fatiguing. She seemed always to
require him to think his best, to say his best, and to do his best in
her company. Now a wife just intelligent enough to appreciate his own
abilities, but willing in all things to be guided by him, was a
desirable thing; but one so thoroughly his equal as Jane Melville would
allow him no repose.
The children did not gain strength rapidly, and Emily in particular
made a most tardy recovery. Her illness threatened permanently to
weaken her constitution, particularly as winter was fast approaching,
and she had felt that season in England very trying during the
preceding year. Her uncle Vivian strongly recommended that she should
winter in a milder climate to re-establish her health, and Mr. Phillips
thought going to the south of France, where the girls might acquire the
language without much trouble, would be a good arrangement; but when he
mentioned it to Emily herself as an excellent idea, the child languidly
put it aside.
"Why not take up back to dear old Wiriwilta?" said she. "We were never
ill there. It is warmer and drier than France; and if Miss Melville and
dear Alice go with us, we can learn lessons just as well there as here.
I am tired of this great London, with its smoke and its noise."
Mr. Phillips was not a man to disregard a sick child's longing at any
time; and when his brother said that, though he would regret the
departure of the family from England, her native air was probably the
very best she could have, and the long voyage in a good ship would
benefit all the children, he turned his thoughts towards Australia, as
he could not have believed possible three months before. The accounts
he received from Dr. Grant as to his affairs were satisfactory enough,
but the returns were not at all what he had expected; and he found that
his London establishment was very costly. He might return to England in
a few years, but the children were so young they might go on with Miss
Melville very well at Wiriwilta for some time. A very fine ship was on
the berth; Mr. Dempster was going in it, and several other
acquaintances; so that, though he would have preferred waiting for
Brandon's report of how things were going on, he decided on leaving
England before the season was so far advanced, on Emily's account.
Mrs. Phillips was in consternation at hearing her husband say he was
really going to return.
"I thought you was never going back to Australia again, Stanley. You
promised me you would not. What will you do about the children's
education?"
"We will take Miss Melville with us, and I have no fear but that they
will all do very well. Their music, certainly, is not provided for; but
something may turn up for that. Our first business is to get them into
good health."
"But Miss Melville will never go without Alice," said Mrs. Phillips.
"Probably not; but we can take Alice, too."
"I thought you said we was spending too much money, and that we must
retrench," said Mrs. Phillips.
"Our children's education is the last thing I should think of
retrenching on," answered her husband. "I have heard you say that Alice
saves her salary in your milliners' bills. I have scarcely seen that
proved, however, Lily; but Miss Melville saves me two hundred a
year--that is clear enough, in black and white. It would be false
economy to grudge her salary. Besides, Emily would be broken-hearted to
part with Alice, so that I will offer to take both sisters with us, if
they will come."
"We don't need such a housekeeper as Miss Melville at Wiriwilta. The
house used to keep itself," said Mrs. Phillips.
"I know I had more trouble with it than was pleasant or convenient,"
said her husband. "I think things will go on much more comfortably
there if Miss Melville continues with us; and after all their exceeding
kindness and care of our poor dear children during their illness, I
know that you too must be disinclined to leave them behind us."
"Oh, yes! really they were very good to the children. I was not strong
enough to do much for them myself; and I don't feel inclined for the
voyage just at this time. Let us go overland, and it will be sooner
over."
"No; we cannot go overland; there is very little pleasure going
overland with four young children, and as I suppose you will want one
servant, as well as Miss Melville and Alice, you must think of the
expense."
"I hate the sea, and you know I must be on shore before the end of
February. And you recollect Mr. Brandon, for all his
difficulties--saying he was ruined and all that sort of thing--would
have gone overland, if he had only had his letters soon enough."
"Because he was only one, or, with Edgar, two, and time was of more
importance to him than the difference in passage-money. A fine long
voyage will restore our children to health, and it does not matter to
me being a month or two longer on the voyage. I think we are sure to be
in Melbourne time enough for you. If it were only you and myself, Lily,
there is nothing I should like so much as the overland route. There is
so much that I should like to see and to show to you, but under present
circumstances it is impossible."
No arrangement could have suited Jane and Elsie so well as Mr.
Phillips's proposal, as a personal favour to himself, that they should
accompany his family to Melbourne. It was the destination they had long
aimed at; and as they were neither of the station nor qualifications to
obtain free passages in any immigrant ship, they joyfully agreed to his
liberal offer.
"But," said Jane, "we must be perfectly frank with you. We have had a
great desire to begin business in Melbourne together. We must tell you
that we have often planned to join our savings to those of Peggy
Walker, when she returns to Melbourne, as she will probably do ere
long. Plans, of course, may not be carried out, but if ours are, we may
leave you when you depend most on us. I am quite satisfied with my
position in your family, but----"
"But neither you nor I are quite satisfied with your sister's,"
interposed Mr. Phillips. "It was the best arrangement that at the time
could have been made; but you would never consent to go with us to
Australia, and leave Alice to work here by herself; so, if she sees
anything, either in Melbourne or in the bush that will suit her better,
she is quite free to accept of it, and to leave Mrs. Phillips. Her
services and your services to our children in this recent affliction
can never be forgotten by us. I can assure you, Mrs. Phillips feels
deeply indebted to both of you."
The party to Australia was increased from an unexpected quarter.
Harriett Phillips had found that she had made no impression whatever on
Mr. Hogarth. He had paid his visit to her father, but had taken almost
no notice of her, who had been the person who invited him: in fact, he
had markedly preferred her elder sister. His head had apparently been
so full of politics, or something else, that he had not been half so
agreeable as when she had met him in London, so that she was now very
sorry that she had treated Mr. Brandon so cruelly during the last days
of his stay in England. He certainly would have proposed if she had not
discouraged him so much; it was really almost wrong in her to try to
make him jealous, and she had succeeded only too well. After having
entertained the idea that she could be married to him if she pleased
for several months, she missed the pleasing excitement of a lover when
she returned to her flat country life.
Now that her brother had actually made up his mind to leave England,
she would also miss the change and the gaiety of a London winter, which
she reckoned on having every year; so she astonished him by saying that
she should like of all things to accompany them to Melbourne, and to
see a little of bush life at that dear Wiriwilta that Emily was always
talking about. She did not think that she would care to stay long, but
for a year or two she really thought the life would be very pleasant
for a change, just to see how things were done in these outlandish
uncivilized places. She said, too, to her brother, that she thought she
could be of service to Mrs. Phillips and the children. The society of
Victoria was so indifferent, that it would be desirable to form a
pleasant little coterie of one's own. The children's music should
really be kept up; and she would be most happy to give them lessons. If
her papa and Georgiana and Vivian could only spare her for a year or
two, she should really like extremely to go. She would feel it so sad
when Stanley left for an indefinite period again.
Mr. Phillips was pleased with the proposal; it showed a more friendly
feeling towards his wife and family than she had ever evinced before,
so he offered to pay all her outward-bound expenses, at any rate, for
her. If she liked Australia, perhaps she might stay there with them
altogether; or, indeed, she might find a home for herself there, and
settle in the colony. Harriett said such a thing had never entered her
head--that she went merely on a visit; but she set about getting her
outfit in a very business-like way. It was an exceedingly busy
fortnight for Jane and Elsie; but by dint of great applications to
ready-made warehouses, everything was really got ready in time, and Mr.
Phillips had again to admire the thoughtfulness, the foresight, and the
method which Miss Melville showed in all her arrangements, while
Elsie's busy fingers were employed from morning to night in doing an
endless variety of little things that were needed to supplement the
ready-made stock of clothes.