A MISERABLE MISTAKE.
The time again went on--went on to March--and still Charlotte Travice
lingered. It was some little while now that both Mr. and Mrs. Arkell had
come to the conclusion within their own minds that the young lady's
visit had lasted long enough, but they were of that courteous nature
that shrunk not only from hinting such a thing to her, but to each
other. She was made just as welcome as ever, and she appeared in no
hurry to hasten her departure.
One afternoon Mildred, who had been out on an errand, was accosted by
her mother before she had well entered.
"Whatever has made you so long, child?"
"Have I been so long?" returned Mildred. "I had to go to two or three
shops before I could match the ribbon. I met Mary Pembroke, and she went
with me; but I walked fast."
"It is past five."
"Yes, it has struck. But I did not go out until four, mother."
"Well, I suppose it is my impatience that has made me think you long,"
acknowledged Mrs. Dan. "Sit down, Mildred; I wish to speak to you. Mrs.
George has been here."
"Has she?" returned Mildred, somewhat apathetically; but she took a
chair, as she was told to do.
"She came to talk to me about future prospects. And I am glad you were
out with that ribbon, Mildred, for our conversation was confidential."
"About her prospects, mamma?" inquired Mildred, raising her mild dark
eyes.
"Hers!" repeated Mrs. Dan. "Her prospects, like mine, will soon be
drawing to a close. Not that she's as old as I am by a good ten years.
She came to speak of yours, Mildred."
Mildred made no rejoinder this time, but a faint colour arose to her
face.
"Your Aunt George is very fond of you, Mildred."
"Oh, yes," said Mildred, rather nervously; and Mrs. Dan paused before
she resumed.
"I think you must have seen, child, for some time past, that we all
wanted you and William to make a match of it."
The announcement was, perhaps, unnecessarily abrupt. The blush on
Mildred's face deepened to a glowing crimson.
"Mrs. George never spoke out freely to me on the subject until this
afternoon, but her manner was enough to tell me that it was in their
minds. I saw it coming as plainly as I could see anything."
Mildred made no remark. She had untied her bonnet, and began to play
nervously with the strings as they hung down on either side her neck.
"But though I felt sure that it was in their minds," continued Mrs. Dan,
"though I saw the bent of William's inclinations--always bringing him
here to you--I never encouraged the feeling; I never forwarded it by so
much as the lifting of a finger. You must have seen, Mildred, that I did
not. In one sense of the word, you are not William's equal----"
Mrs. Dan momentarily arrested her words, the startled look of inquiry on
her daughter's face was so painful.
"Do not misunderstand me, my dear. In point of station you and he are
the same, for the families are one. But William will be wealthy, and
William is accomplished; you are neither. In that point of view you may
be said not to be on an equality with him; and there's no doubt that
William Arkell might go a-wooing into families of higher pretension than
his own, and be successful. It may be, that these considerations have
withheld me and kept me neuter; but I have not--I repeat it, as I did
twice over to Mrs. George just now--I have not forwarded the matter by
so much as the lifting of a finger."
Mildred knew that.
"The gossiping town will, no doubt, cast ill-natured remarks upon me,
and say that I have angled for my attractive nephew, and caught him; but
my conscience stands clear upon the point before my Maker; and Mrs.
George knows that it does. They have come forward of themselves,
unsought by me; unsought, as I heartily believe, Mildred, by you."
"Oh, yes," was the eager, fervent answer.
"No child of mine would be capable, as I trust, of secret, mean,
underhand dealing, whatever the prize in view. When I said this to Mrs.
George just now, she laughed at what she called my earnestness, and said
I had no need to defend Mildred, she knew Mildred just as well as I
did."
Mildred's heart beat a trifle quicker as she listened. They were only
giving her her due.
"But," resumed Mrs. Dan, "quiet and undemonstrative as you have been,
Mildred, your aunt has drawn the conclusion--lived in it, I may
say--that the proposal she made to-day would not be unacceptable to you.
I agreed with her, saying that such was my conviction. And let me tell
you, Mildred, that a more attractive and a bettor young man than William
Arkell does not live in Westerbury."
Mildred silently assented to all in her heart. But she wondered what the
proposal was.
"You are strangely silent, child. Should you have any objection to
become William Arkell's wife?"
"There is one objection," returned Mildred, almost bitterly, as the
thought of his intimacy with Charlotte Travice flashed painfully across
her--"he has never asked me."
"But--it is the same thing--he has asked his mother for you."
A wild coursing on of all her pulses--a sudden rush of rapture in every
sense of her being--and Mildred's lips could hardly frame the words--
"For _me_?"
"He asked for you after dinner to-day--I thought I said so--that is, he
broached the subject to his mother. After Mr. Arkell went back to the
manufactory, he stayed behind with her in the dining-room, and spoke to
her of his plans and wishes. He began by saying he was getting quite old
enough to marry, and the sooner it took place now, the better."
"Is this true?" gasped Mildred.
"True!" echoed the affronted old lady. "Do you suppose Mrs. George
Arkell would come here upon such an errand only to make game of us?
True! William says he loves you dearly."
Mildred quitted the room abruptly. She could not bear that even her
mother should witness the emotion that bid fair, in these first moments,
to overwhelm her. Never until now did she fully realize how deeply, how
passionately, she loved William Arkell--how utter a blank life would
have been to her had the termination been different. She shut herself in
her bed-chamber, burying her face in her hands, and asking how she could
ever be sufficiently thankful to God for thus bringing to fruition the
half-unconscious hopes which had entwined themselves with every fibre of
her existence. The opening of the door by her mother aroused her.
"What in the world made you fly away so, Mildred? I was about to tell
you that Mrs. George expects us to tea. Peter will join us there by and
by."
"I would rather not go out this evening, mamma," observed Mildred, who
was really extremely agitated.
"I promised Mrs. George, and they are waiting tea for us," was the
decisive reply. "What is the matter with you, Mildred? You need not be
so struck at what I have said. Did it never occur to yourself that
William Arkell was likely to choose you for his wife?"
"I have thought of late that he was more likely to choose Miss Travice,"
answered Mildred, giving utterance in her emotion to the truth that lay
uppermost in her mind.
"Marry that fine fly-away thing!" repeated Mrs. Dan, her astonishment
taking her breath away. "Charlotte Travice may be all very well for a
visitor--here to-day and gone to-morrow; but she is not suitable for the
wife of a steady, gentlemanly young man, like William Arkell, the only
son of the first manufacturer in Westerbury. What a pretty notion of
marriage you must have!"
Mildred began to think so, too.
"I shall not be two minutes putting on my shawl; I shan't change my
gown," continued Mrs. Dan. "You can change yours if you please, but
don't be long over it. It is past their tea-time."
Implicit obedience had been one of the virtues ever practised by
Mildred, so she said no more. The thought kept floating in her mind as
she made herself ready, that it had been more appropriate for William to
visit her that evening than for her to visit him; and she could not help
wishing that he had spoken to her himself, though it had been but a
single loving hint, before the proposal could reach her through
another. But these were but minor trifles, little worth noting in the
midst of her intense happiness. As she walked down the street by her
mother's side, the golden light of the setting sun, shining full upon
her, was not more radiantly lovely than the light shining in Mildred
Arkell's heart.
"I can't think what you can have been dreaming of, Mildred, to imagine
that that Charlotte Travice was a fit wife for William Arkell," observed
Mrs. Dan, who could not get the preposterous notion out of her head.
"You might have given William credit for better sense than that. I don't
like her. I liked her very much at first, but, somehow, she is one who
does not gain upon you on prolonged acquaintance; and it strikes me Mr.
and Mrs. George are of the same opinion. Mrs. George just mentioned her
this afternoon--something about her being your bridesmaid."
"She my bridesmaid!" exclaimed Mildred, the very idea of it unpalatable.
"Mrs. George said she supposed she must ask Charlotte Travice to stay
and be bridesmaid; that it would be but a mark of politeness, as she had
been so intimate with you and William. It would not be a very great
extension of the visit," she added, "for William seemed impatient for
the wedding to take place shortly, now that he had made up his mind
about it. It does not matter what bridesmaid you have, Mildred."
Ah! no; it did not matter! Mildred's happiness seemed too great to be
affected by that, or any other earthly thing. Mrs. George Arkell kissed
her fondly three or four times as she entered, and pressed her hand, as
Mildred thought, significantly. Another moment, and she found her hand
taken by William.
He was shaking it just as usual, and his greeting was a careless one--
"How d'ye do, Mildred? You are late."
Neither by word, or tone, or look, did he impart a consciousness of what
had passed. In the first moment Mildred felt thankful for the outward
indifference, but the next she caught herself thinking that he seemed to
take her consent as a matter of course--as if it were not worth the
asking.
When tea was over, and the lights were brought, Mr. and Mrs. Arkell and
Mrs. Dan sat down to cribbage, the only game any of the three ever
played at.
"Who will come and be fourth?" asked Mr. Arkell, looking over his
spectacles at the rest. "You, Mildred?"
It had fallen to Mildred's lot lately to be the fourth at these
meetings, for Miss Travice always held aloof, and William never played
if he could help it; but on this evening Mildred hesitated, and before
she could assent--as she would finally have done--Miss Travice sprang
forward.
"I will, dear Mr. Arkell--I will play with you to-night."
"She knows of it, and is leaving us alone," thought Mildred. "How kind
of her it is! I fear I have misjudged her."
"I say, Mildred," began William, as they sat apart, his tone dropped to
confidence, his voice to a whisper, "did my mother call at your house
this afternoon?"
Mildred looked down, and began to play with her pretty gold neckchain.
It was one William had given her on her last birthday, nearly a year
ago.
"My aunt called, I believe. I was out."
William's face fell.
"Then I suppose you have not heard anything--anything particular? I'm
sure I thought she had been to tell you. She was out ever so long."
"Mamma said that Aunt George had been--had been--speaking to her,"
returned Mildred, not very well knowing how to make the admission.
William saw the confusion, and read it aright.
"Ah, Mildred! you sly girl, you know all, and won't tell!" he cried,
taking her hand half-fondly, half-playfully, and retaining it in his.
She could not answer; but the blush on her cheek was so bright, the
downcast look so tender, that William Arkell gazed at her lovingly, and
thought he had never seen his cousin's face so near akin to perfect
beauty. Mildred glanced up to see his gaze of fond admiration.
"Your cheek tells tales, cousin mine," he whispered; "I see you have
heard all. Don't you think it is time I married?"
A home question. Mildred's lips broke into a smile by way of answer.
"What do you think of my choice?"
"People will say you might have made a better."
"I don't care if they do," returned Mr. William, firing up. "I have a
right to please myself, and I will please myself. I am not taking a wife
for other people, meddling mischief-makers!"
The outburst seemed unnecessary. It struck Mildred that he must have
seriously feared opposition from some quarter, the tone of his voice was
so sore a one. She looked up with questioning eyes.
"I have plenty of money, you know, Mildred," he added, more quietly. "I
don't want to look out for a fortune with my wife."
"Very true," murmured Mildred.
"I wonder whether she has brought it out to my father?" resumed William,
nodding towards his mother at the card-table. "I don't think she has;
he seems only just as usual. She'll make it the subject of a
curtain-lecture to-night, for a guinea!"
Mildred stole a glance at her uncle. He was intent on his cards, good
old man, his spectacles pushed to the top of his ample brow.
"Do you know, Mildred, I was half afraid to come to the point with
them," he presently said. "I dreaded opposition. I----"
"But why?" timidly interrupted Mildred.
"Well, I can't tell why. All I know is, that the feeling was
there--picked up somehow. I dreaded opposition, especially from my
mother; but, as I say, I cannot tell why. I never was more surprised
than when she said I had made her happy by my choice--that it was a
union she had set her heart upon. I am not sure yet, you know, that my
father will approve it."
"He may urge against it the want of money," murmured Mildred; "it is
only reasonable he should. And----"
"It is not reasonable," interposed William Arkell, in a tone of
resentment. "There's nothing at all in reason that can be urged against
it; and I am sure you don't really think there is, Mildred."
"And yet you acknowledge that you dreaded opening the matter to them?"
"Yes, because fathers and mothers are always so exacting over these
things. Every crow thinks its own young bird the whitest, and many a
mother with an only son deems him fit to mate with a princess of the
blood-royal. I declare to you, Mildred, I felt a regular coward about
telling my mother--foolish as the confession must sound to you; and once
I thought of speaking to you first, and getting you to break it to her.
I thought she might listen to it from you better than from me."
Mildred thought it would have been a novel mode of procedure, but she
did not say so. Her cousin went on:--
"We must have the wedding in a month, or so; I won't wait a day longer,
and so I told my mother. I have seen a charming little house just
suitable for us, and----"
"You might have consulted me first, William, before you fixed the time."
"What for? Nonsense! will not one time do for you as well as another?"
Miss Arkell looked up at her cousin: he seemed to be talking strangely.
"But where is the necessity for hurrying on the wedding like this?" she
asked. "Not to speak of other considerations, the preparations would
take up more time."
"Not they," dissented Mr. William, who had been accustomed to have
things very much his own way, and liked it. "I'm sure you need not
raise a barrier on the score of preparation, Mildred. You won't want
much beside a dress and bonnet, and my mother can see to yours as well
as to Charlotte's. Is it orthodox for the bride and bridesmaid to be
dressed alike?"
"Who was it fixed upon the bridesmaid?" asked Mildred. "Did you?"
"Charlotte herself. But no plans are decided on, for I said as little as
I could to my mother. We can go into details another day."
"With regard to a bridesmaid, Mary Pembroke has always been
promised----"
"Now, Mildred, I won't have any of those Pembroke girls playing a
conspicuous part at my wedding," he interrupted. "What you and my mother
can see in them, I can't think. Provided you have no objection, let it
be as Charlotte says."
"I think Charlotte takes more upon herself than she has any cause to
do," returned Mildred, the old sore feeling against Miss Travice rising
again into prominence in her heart.
"I'll tell her if you don't mind, Mildred," laughed William. "But now I
think of it, it was not Charlotte who mentioned it, it was my mother.
She----"
"Mr. Peter Arkell."
The announcement was Tring's. It cut off William's sentence in the
midst, and also any further elucidation that might have taken place.
Peter came forward in his usual awkward manner, and was immediately
pressed into the service of cribbage, in the place of Miss Travice, who
never "put out" to the best advantage, and could not count. As Peter
took her seat, he explained that his early appearance was owing to his
having remained but an hour with Mr. Arthur Dewsbury, who was going out
that evening.
Charlotte Travice sat down to the piano, and William got his flute.
Sweet music! but, nevertheless, it grated on Mildred's ear. His whole
attention became absorbed with Charlotte, to the utter neglect of
Mildred. Now and then he seemed to remember that Mildred sat behind, and
turned round to address a word to her; but his whispers were given to
Charlotte. "It is not right," she murmured to herself in her bitter
pain; "this night, of all others, it is not surely right. If she were
but going back to London before the wedding!"
Supper came in, for they dined early, you remember; and afterwards Mrs.
Dan and Mildred had their bonnets brought down.
"What a lovely night it is!" exclaimed Peter, as he waited at the hall
door.
"It is that!" assented William, looking out; "I think I'll have a run
with you. Those stars are enough to tempt one forth. Shall I go,
Mildred?"
"Yes," she softly whispered, believing she was the attraction, not the
stars.
But Mrs. Dan lingered. The fact was, Mrs. Arkell had drawn her to the
back of the hall.
"Did you speak to her, Betty?"
"I spoke to her as soon as she came home. It was that that made us
late."
"Well? She does not object to William?"
"Not she. I'll tell you a secret," continued Mrs. Dan; "I could see by
Mildred's agitation when I told her to-day, that she already loved
William. I suspected it long ago."
Mrs. Arkell nodded her head complacently. "I noticed her face when he
was talking to her as they sat apart to-night; and I read love in it, if
it ever was read. Yes, yes, it is all right. I thought I could not be
mistaken in Mildred."
"I say, Aunt Dan, are you coming to-night or to-morrow?" called out
William.
"I am coming now, my dear," replied Mrs. Dan; and she walked forward and
took her son's arm. William followed with Mildred.
"Now, Mildred, don't you go and tell all the world to-morrow about this
wedding of ours," he began; "don't you go chattering to those Pembroke
girls."
"How can you suppose it likely that I would?" was the pained answer.
"Why, I know all young ladies are fond of gossiping, especially when
they get hold of such a topic as this."
"I don't think I have ever deserved the name of gossip," observed
Mildred, quietly.
"Well, Mildred, I do not know that you have. But it is not all girls who
possess your calm good sense. I thought it might be as well to give even
you a caution."
"William, you are scarcely like yourself to-night," she said, anxiously.
"To suppose a caution in this case necessary for me!"
He had begun to whistle, and did not answer. It was a verse of "Robin
Adair," the song Charlotte was so fond of. When the verse was whistled
through, he spoke--
"How very bright the stars are to-night! I think it must be a frost."
Inexperienced as Mildred was practically, she yet felt that this was not
the usual conversation of a lover on the day of declaration, unless he
was a remarkably cool one. While she was wondering, he resumed his
whistling--a verse of another song, this time.
Mildred looked up at him. His face was lifted towards the heavens, but
she could see it perfectly in the light of the night. He was evidently
thinking more of the stars than of her, for his eyes were roving from
one constellation to another. She looked down again, and remained
silent.
"So you like my choice, Mildred!" he presently resumed.
"Choice of what?" she asked.
"Choice of what! As if you did not know! Choice of a wife."
"How is it you play so with my feelings this evening?" she asked, the
tears rushing to her eyes.
"I have not played with them that I know of. What do you mean, Mildred?
You are growing fanciful."
She could not trust her voice to reply. William again broke into one of
his favourite airs.
"I proposed that we should be married in London, amidst her friends," he
said, when the few bars were brought to a satisfactory conclusion. "I
thought she might prefer it. But she says she'd rather not."
"Amidst whose friends?" inquired Mildred, in amazement.
"Charlotte's. But in that case I suppose you could not have been
bridesmaid. And there'd have been all the trouble of a journey
beforehand."
"_I_ bridesmaid!" exclaimed Mildred; and all the blood in her body
seemed to rush to her brain as a faint suspicion of the terrible truth
stole into it. "Bridesmaid to whom?"
William Arkell, unable to comprehend a word, stopped still and looked at
her.
"You are dreaming, Mildred!" he exclaimed.
"What do you mean? Who is it you are going to marry?" she reiterated.
"Why, what have we been talking of all the evening? What did my mother
say to you to-day? What has come to you, Mildred? You certainly are
dreaming."
"We have been playing at cross purposes, I fear," gasped Mildred, in her
agony. "Tell me who it is you are going to marry."
"Charlotte Travice. Whom else should it be?"
They were then turning round by what was called the boundary wall; the
old elms in the dean's garden towered above them, and Mildred's home was
close in sight. But before they reached it, William Arkell felt her hang
heavily and more heavily on his arm.
Ah! how she was struggling! Not with the pain--that could not be
struggled with for a long, long while to come--but with the endeavour to
suppress its outward emotion. All, all in vain. William Arkell bent to
catch a glimpse of her features under the bonnet--worn large in those
days--and found that she was white as death, and appeared to be losing
consciousness.
"Mildred, my dear, what ails you?" he asked, kindly. "Do you feel ill?"
She felt dying; but to speak was beyond her, then. William passed his
arm round her just in time to prevent her falling, and shouted out,
excessively alarmed--
"Peter! Aunt! just come back, will you? Here's something the matter with
Mildred."
They were at the door then, but they heard him, and hastened back.
Mildred had fainted.
"What can have caused it?" exclaimed Peter, in his consternation. "I
never knew her faint in all her life before."
"It must have been that rich cream tart at supper," lamented Mrs. Dan,
half in sympathy, half in reproof. "I have told Mildred twenty times
that pastry, eaten at night, is next door to poison."
And so this was to be the ending of all her cherished dreams! Mildred
lay awake in her solitary chamber the whole of that live-long night.
There was no sleep, no rest, no hope for her. Desolation the most
complete had overtaken her--utter, bitter, miserable desolation.