CHAPTER XVIII.

Ralston was in a thoroughly bad humour when he reached his club. The

absurdity of a marriage, which was practically no marriage at all, had

been thrust upon him on the very first day, and he felt that he had been

led into a romantic piece of folly, which could not possibly produce any

good results, either at the present time or afterwards. He was as

properly and legally the husband of Katharine as the law and the church

could make him, and yet he could not even get an interview of a quarter

of an hour with his wife. He could not count, with certainty, upon

seeing her anywhere, except at such a public place as the ball they were

both going to that night, under the eyes of all New York society, so far

as it existed for them. The position was ludicrous, or would have been,

had he not been the principal actor in the comedy.

He was sure, too, that if Katharine had got any favourable answer from

their uncle Robert, she would have said at least a word to this effect,

even while she was in the act of thrusting him from the door. Two words,

‘all right,’ would have been enough. But she had only seemed anxious to

get rid of him as quickly as possible, and he felt that he was not to

be blamed for being angry. The details of the situation, as she had seen

it, were quite unknown to him. He was not aware that Charlotte Slayback

had been at luncheon, and had stayed until the last minute, nor that

Katharine had really done everything in her power to make her mother go

upstairs. The details, indeed, taken separately, were laughable in their

insignificance, and it would hardly be possible for Katharine to explain

them to him, so as to make him see their importance when taken all

together. He was ignorant of them all, except of the fancied fact that

Mrs. Lauderdale had been at the window of the library. Katharine had

told him so, and had believed it herself, as was natural. She had not

had time to explain why she believed it, and he would be more angry than

ever if she ever told him that she had been mistaken, and that he might

just as well have come and stayed as long as he pleased. He knew that a

considerable time must have elapsed between the end of luncheon and his

arrival at the door of the house; he supposed that Katharine had been

alone with her mother and grandfather, as usual, and he blamed her for

not exerting a little tact in getting her mother out of the way, when

she must have had nearly an hour in which to do so. He went over and

over all that he knew of the facts, and reached always the same

conclusion--Katharine had not taken the trouble, and had probably only

remembered when it was too late that he was to come at three o’clock.

It must not be supposed that Ralston belonged to the class of hasty and

capricious men, who hate the object of their affections as soon as they

are in the least annoyed with anything she has done--or who, at all

events, act as though they did. Ralston was merely in an excessively bad

temper with himself, with everything he had done and with the world at

large. Had he received a note from Katharine at any time later in the

afternoon, telling him to come back, he would have gone instantly, with

just as much impatience as he had shown at three o’clock, when he had

reached Clinton Place a quarter of an hour before the appointed time. He

would probably not have alluded, nor even have wished to allude, to his

summary dismissal at his first attempt. But he would come. He satisfied

himself of that, for he sent a message from his club to his home,

directing the servant to send on any note which might come for him; and,

on repeating the message an hour later, he was told that there was

nothing to send.

So he sat in the general room at the club, downstairs, and turned over a

newspaper half a dozen times without understanding a word of its

contents, and smoked discontentedly, but without ceasing. At last, by a

mere accident, his eye fell upon the column of situations offered and

wanted, and, with a sour smile, he began to read the advertisements.

That sort of thing suited his case, at all events, he thought. He was

very soon struck by the balance of numbers in favour of the unemployed,

and by the severe manner in which those who offered situations spoke of

thorough knowledge and of certificates of service.

It did not take him long to convince himself that he was fit for nothing

but a shoeblack or a messenger boy, and he fancied that his age would be

a drawback in either profession. He dropped the paper in disgust at

last, and was suddenly aware that Frank Miner was seated at a small

table opposite to him, but on the other side of the room. Miner looked

up at the same moment, from a letter he was writing, his attention being

attracted by the rustling of the paper.

“Hallo, Jack!” he cried, cheerily. “I knew those were your legs all the

time.”

“Why didn’t you speak, then?” asked Ralston, rather coldly, and looking

up and down the columns of the paper he had dropped upon his knee.

“I don’t know. Why should I?” Miner went on with his letter, having

evidently interrupted himself in the midst of a sentence.

Ralston wished something would happen. He felt suddenly inclined to

throw something at Miner, who generally amused him when he talked, but

was clearly very busy, and went on writing as though his cheerful little

life depended on it. But it was not probable that anything should happen

just at that hour. There were three or four other men in different parts

of the big room, writing or reading letters. There were doubtless a few

others somewhere in the house, playing cards or drinking a quiet

afternoon cocktail. It was a big club, having many rooms. But Ralston

did not feel inclined to play poker, and he wished not to drink, if he

could help it, and Miner went on writing, so he stayed where he was, and

brooded over his annoyances. Suddenly Miner’s pen ceased with a scratch

and a dash, audible all over the room, and he began to fold his letter.

“Come and have a drink, Jack!” he called out to Ralston, as he took up

an envelope. “I’ve earned it, if you haven’t.”

“I don’t want to drink,” answered Ralston, gloomily, and, out of pure

contrariety, he took up his paper again.

Miner looked long and steadily at him, closed his letter, put it into

his pocket and crossed the room.

“I say, Jack,” he said, in an absurdly solemn tone, “are you ill, old

man?”

“Ill? No. Why? Never was better in my life. Don’t be an idiot, Frank.”

And he kept his paper at the level of his eyes.

“There’s something wrong, anyhow,” said Miner, thoughtfully. “Never knew

you to refuse to drink before. I’ll be damned, you know!”

“I haven’t a doubt of it, my dear fellow. I always told you so.”

“For a gentle and unassuming manner, I think you take the cake, Jack,”

answered Miner, without a smile. “What on earth is the matter with you?

Let me see--you’ve either lost money, or you’re in love, or your liver’s

out of order, or all three, and if that’s it, I pity you.”

“I tell you there’s nothing the matter with me!” cried Ralston, with

some temper. “Why do you keep bothering me? I merely said I didn’t want

to drink. Can’t a man not be thirsty? Confound it all, I’m not obliged

to drink if I don’t want to!”

“Oh, well, don’t get into a fiery green rage about it, Jack. I’m thirsty

myself, and I didn’t want to drink alone. Only, don’t go west of Maine

so long as this lasts. They’re prohibition there, you know. Don’t try

it, Jack; you’d come back on ice by the next train.”

“I’m going to stay here,” answered Ralston, without a smile. “Go ahead

and get your drink.”

“All right! If you won’t, you won’t, I know. But when you’re scratching

round and trying to get some sympathetic person, like Abraham and

Lazarus, to give you a glass of water, think of what you’ve missed this

afternoon!”

“Dives,” said Ralston, savagely, “is the only man ever mentioned in the

Bible as having asked for a glass of water, and he’s--where he ought to

be.”

“That’s an old, cold chestnut,” retorted Miner, turning to go, but not

really in the least annoyed.

At that moment a servant crossed the room and stood before Ralston.

Miner waited to see what would happen, half believing that Ralston was

not in earnest, but had surreptitiously touched the electric bell on the

table at his elbow, with the intention of ordering something.

“Mr. Lauderdale wishes to speak to you at the telephone, sir,” said the

servant.

The man’s expression betrayed his respect for the name, and for a person

who had a telephone in his house--an unusual thing in New York. It was

the sort of expression which the waiters at restaurants put on when they

present to the diner a dish of terrapin or a canvas-back duck, or open a

very particularly old bottle of very particularly fine wine--quite

different from the stolid look they wear for beef and table-claret.

“Which Mr. Lauderdale?” asked Ralston, with a sudden frown. “Mr.

Alexander Lauderdale Junior?”

“I don’t know, sir. The gentleman’s at the telephone, sir.”

This seemed to be added as a gentle hint not to keep any one of the

name of Lauderdale waiting too long.

Ralston rose quickly, and Miner watched him as he passed out with long

strides and a rather anxious face, wondering what could be the matter

with his friend, and somehow connecting his refusal to drink with the

summons to the instrument. Then Miner followed slowly in the same

direction, with his hands in his pockets and his lips pursed as though

he were about to whistle. He knew the man well enough to be aware that

his refusal to drink might proceed from his having taken all he could

stand for the present, and Ralston’s ill temper inclined Miner to

believe that this might be the case. Ralston rarely betrayed himself at

all, until he suddenly became viciously unmanageable, a fact which made

him always the function of a doubtful quantity, as Miner, who had once

learned a little mathematics, was fond of expressing it.

The little man was essentially sociable, and though he might want the

very small and mild drink he was fond of ever so much, he preferred, if

possible, to swallow it in company. Instead of ringing, therefore, he

strolled away in search of another friend. As luck would have it, he

almost ran against Walter Crowdie, who was coming towards him, but

looking after Ralston, as the latter disappeared at the other end of the

hall. Crowdie seemed excessively irritated about something.

“Confound that fellow!” he exclaimed, giving vent to his feelings as he

turned and saw Miner close upon him.

“Who? Me?” enquired the little man, with a laugh. “Everybody’s purple

with rage in this club to-day--I’m going home.”

“You? No--is that you, Frank? No--I mean that everlasting Ralston.”

“Oh! What’s he done to you? What’s the matter with Ralston?”

“Drunk again, I suppose,” answered Crowdie. “But I wish he’d keep out of

my way when he is--runs into me, treads on both my feet--with his heels,

I believe, though I don’t understand how that’s possible--pushes me out

of the way and goes straight on without a word. Confound him, I say! You

used to be able to swear beautifully, Frank--can’t you manage to say

something?”

“At any other time--oh, yes! But you’d better get Ralston himself to do

it for you. I’m not in it with him to-day. He’s been giving me the life

to come--hot--and Abraham and Isaac and Lazarus and the rich man, and

the glass of water, all in a breath. Go and ask him for what you want.”

“Oh--then he is drunk, is he?” asked Crowdie, with a disagreeable sneer

on his red lips.

“I suppose so,” answered Miner, quite carelessly. “At all events, he

refused to drink--that’s always a bad sign with him.”

“Of course--that makes it a certainty. Gad, though! It doesn’t make him

light on his feet, if he happens to tread on yours. It serves me right

for coming to the club at this time of day! Perdition on the fellow!

I’ve got on new shoes, too!”

“What are you two squabbling about?” enquired Hamilton Bright, coming

suddenly upon them out of the cloak-room.

“We’re not squabbling--we’re cursing Ralston,” answered Miner.

“I wish you’d go and look after him, Ham,” said Crowdie to his

brother-in-law. “He’s just gone off there. He’s as drunk as the dickens,

and swearing against everybody and treading on their toes in the most

insolent way imaginable. Get him out of this, can’t you? Take him

home--you’re his friend. If you don’t he’ll be smashing things before

long.”

“Is he as bad as that, Frank?” asked Bright, gravely. “Where is he?”

“At the telephone--I don’t know--he trod on Crowdie’s feet and Crowdie’s

perfectly wild and exaggerates. But there’s something wrong, I know. I

think he’s not exactly screwed--but he’s screwed up--well, several pegs,

by the way he acts. They call drinks ‘pegs’ somewhere, don’t they? I

wanted to make a joke. I thought it might do Crowdie good--”

“Well, it’s a very bad one,” said Bright. “He’s at the telephone, you

say?”

“Yes. The man said Mr. Lauderdale wanted to speak to him--he didn’t know

which Mr. Lauderdale--but it’s probably Alexander the Safe, and if it

is, there’s going to be a row over the wires. When Jack’s shut up there

alone in the dark in the sound-proof box with the receiver under his

nose and Alexander at the other end--if the wires don’t melt--that’s

all! And Alexander’s a metallic sort of man--I should think he’d draw

the lightning right down to his toes.”

At that moment Ralston came swinging down the hall at a great pace, pale

and evidently under some sort of powerful excitement. He nodded

carelessly to the three men as they stood together and disappeared into

the cloak-room. Bright followed him, but Ralston, with his hat on, his

head down and struggling into his overcoat, rushed out as Bright reached

the door, and ran into the latter, precisely as he had run into Crowdie.

Bright was by far the heavier man, however, and Ralston stumbled at the

shock. Bright caught him by one arm and held him a moment.

“All right, Ham!” he exclaimed. “Everybody gets into my way to-day. Let

go, man! I’m in a hurry!”

“Wait a bit,” said Bright. “I’ll come with you--”

“No--you can’t. Let me go, Ham! What the deuce are you holding me for?”

He shook Bright’s arm angrily, for between the message he had received

and the obstacles he seemed to meet at every step, he was, by this time,

very much excited. Bright thought he read certain well-known signs in

his face, and believed that he had been drinking hard and might get into

trouble if he went out alone, for Ralston was extremely quarrelsome at

such times, and was quite capable of hitting out on the slightest

provocation, and had been in trouble more than once for doing so, as

Bright was well aware.

“I’m going with you, Jack, whether you like it or not,” said the latter,

with mistaken firmness in his good intentions.

“You’re not, I can tell you!” answered Ralston, in a lower tone. “Just

let me go--or there’ll be trouble here.”

He was furious at the delay, but Bright’s powerful hand did not relax

its grasp on his arm.

“Jack, old man,” said Bright, in a coaxing tone, “just come upstairs for

a quarter of an hour, and get quiet--”

“Oh--that’s it, is it? You think I’m screwed. I’m not. Let me

go--once--twice--”

Ralston’s face was now white with anger. The

[Illustration: “Before he could even raise his head, Ralston was out of

the door and in the street.”--Vol. II., p. 57.]

unjust accusation was the last drop. He was growing dangerous, but

Bright, in the pride of his superior strength, still held him firmly.

“Take care!” said Ralston, almost in a whisper. “I’ve counted two.” He

paused a full two seconds. “Three! There you go!”

The other men saw his foot glide forward like lightning over the marble

pavement. Instantly Bright was thrown heavily on his back, and before he

could even raise his head, Ralston was out of the door and in the

street. Crowdie and Miner ran forward to help the fallen man, as they

had not moved from where they had stood, a dozen paces away. But Bright

was on his feet in an instant, pale with anger and with the severe shock

of his fall. He turned his back on his companions at once, pretending to

brush the dust from his coat by the bright light which fell through the

glass door. Frank Miner stood near him, very quiet, his hands in his

pockets, as usual, and a puzzled look in his face.

“Look here, Bright,” he said gravely, watching Bright’s back. “This sort

of thing can’t go on, you know.”

Bright said nothing, but continued to dust himself, though there was not

the least mark on his clothes.

“Upon my word,” observed Crowdie, walking slowly up and down in his

ungraceful way, “I think we’d better call a meeting at once and have

him requested to take his name off. If that isn’t conduct unbecoming a

gentleman, I don’t know what is.”

“No,” said Miner. “That wouldn’t do. It would stick to him for life. All

the same, Bright, this is a club--it isn’t a circus--and this sort of

horse-play is just a little too much. Why don’t you turn round? There’s

no dust on you--they keep the floor of the arena swept on purpose when

Ralston’s about. But it’s got to stop--it’s got to stop right here.”

Bright’s big shoulders squared themselves all at once and he faced

about, apparently quite cool again.

“I say,” he began, “did anybody see that but you two?” He looked up and

down the deserted hall.

“No--wait a bit, though--halloa! Where are the hall servants? There

ought to be two of them. They must have just gone off. There they are,

on the other side of the staircase. Robert! And you--whatever your name

is--come here!”

The two servants came forward at once. They had retired to show their

discretion and at the same time to observe what happened, the moment

they had seen Bright catch Ralston’s arm.

“Look here,” said Bright to them. “If you say anything about what you

saw just now, you’ll have to go. Do you understand? As we shan’t speak

of it, we shall know that you have, if it’s talked about. That’s all

right--you can go now. I just wanted you to understand.”

The two servants bowed gravely. They respected Bright, and, like all

servants, they worshiped Ralston. There was little fear of their

indiscretion. Bright turned to Crowdie and Miner.

“If anybody has anything to say about this, I have,” he said. “I’m the

injured person if any one is. And of course I shall say nothing, and

I’ll beg you to say nothing either. Of course, if he ever falls foul of

you, you’re free to do as you please, and of course you might, if you

chose, bring this thing before the committee. But I know you won’t speak

of it--either of you. We’ve all been screwed once or twice in our lives,

I suppose. As for me, I’m his friend, and he didn’t know what he was

doing. He’s a deuced good fellow at heart, but he’s infernally hasty

when he’s had too much. That’s all right, isn’t it? I can trust you,

can’t I?”

“Oh, yes, as far as I’m concerned,” said Crowdie, speaking first. “If

you like that sort of thing, I’ve nothing to say. You’re quite big

enough to take care of yourself. I hope Hester won’t hear it. She

wouldn’t like the idea of her brother being knocked about without

defending himself. I don’t particularly like it myself.”

“That’s nonsense, Walter, and you know it is,” answered Bright, curtly,

and he turned to Miner with a look of enquiry.

“All right, Ham!” said the little man. “I’m not going to tell tales, if

you aren’t. All the same--I don’t want to seem squeamish, and

old-maid-ish, and a frump generally--but I don’t think I do remember

just such a thing happening in any club I ever belonged to. Oh, well!

Don’t let’s stand here talking ourselves black in the face. He’s gone,

this time, and he’ll never find his way back if he once gets round the

corner. You’ll hear to-morrow that he’s been polishing Tiffany’s best

window with a policeman. That’s about his pressure when he gets a

regular jag on. As for me, I’ve been trying to get somebody to have a

drink with me for just three quarters of an hour, and so far my

invitations have come back unopened. I suppose you won’t refuse a

pilot’s two fingers after the battle, Ham?”

“What’s a pilot’s two fingers?” asked Bright. “I’ll accept your

hospitality to that modest extent, anyhow. Show us.”

“It’s this,” said Miner, holding up his hand with the forefinger and

little finger extended and the others turned in. “The little finger is

the bottom,” he explained, “and you don’t count the others till you get

to the forefinger, and just a little above the top of that you can see

the whiskey. Understand? What will you have, Crowdie?”

“A drop of maraschino, thanks,” said the painter.

“Maraschino!” Miner made a wry face at the thought of the sugary stuff.

“All right then, come in!”

They all went back together into the room in which Ralston and Miner had

been sitting before the trouble began. Crowdie and his brother-in-law

were not on very good terms. The former behaved well enough when they

met, but Bright’s dislike for him was not to be concealed--which was

strange, considering that Bright was a sensible and particularly

self-possessed man, who was generally said to be of a gentle

disposition, inclined to live harmoniously with his surroundings. He

soon went away, leaving the artist and the man of letters to themselves.

Miner did not like Crowdie very much either, but he admired him as an

artist and had the faculty of making him talk.

If Ralston had really been drinking, he could not have been in a more

excited state than when he left the club, leaving his best friend

stretched on his back in the hall. He was half conscious of having done

something which would be considered wholly outrageous among his

associates, and among gentlemen at large. The fact that Bright was his

distant cousin was hardly an excuse for tripping him up even in jest,

and if the matter were to be taken in earnest, Bright’s superior

strength would not excuse Ralston for using his own far superior skill

and quickness, in the most brutal way, and on rather slender

provocation. No one but he himself, however, even knew that he had been

making a great effort to cure himself of a bad habit, and that although

it was now Thursday, he had taken nothing stronger than a little weak

wine and water and an occasional cup of coffee since Monday afternoon.

Bright could therefore have no idea of the extent to which his

accusation had wounded and exasperated the sensitive man--rendered ten

times more sensitive than usual by his unwonted abstention.

Ralston, however, did not enter into any such elaborate consideration of

the matter as he hurried along, too much excited just then to stop and

look for a cab. He was still whole-heartedly angry with Bright, and was

glad that he had thrown him, be the consequences what they might. If

Bright would apologize for having laid rough hands on him, Ralston would

do as much--not otherwise. If the thing were mentioned, he would leave

the club and frequent another to which he belonged. Nothing could be

simpler.

But he had received a much more violent impression than he fancied, and

he forgot many things--forgetting even for a moment where he was going.

Passing an up-town hotel on his way, he entered the bar by sheer force

of habit--the habit of drinking something whenever his nerves were not

quite steady. He ordered some whiskey, still thinking of Bright, and it

was not until he had swallowed half of it that he realized what he was

doing. With a half-suppressed oath he set down the liquor unfinished,

dropped his money on the metal table and went out, more angry than ever.

Realizing that he was not exactly in a condition to talk quietly to any

one, he turned into a side street, lit a strong cigar and walked more

slowly for a few minutes, trying to collect his thoughts, and at last

succeeding to a certain extent, aided perhaps by the tonic effect of the

spoonful of alcohol he had swallowed.

The whole thing had begun in a very simple way--the gradual increase of

tension from the early morning until towards evening had been produced

by small incidents following upon the hasty marriage ceremony, which, as

has been said, had produced a far deeper impression upon him than upon

Katharine herself. The endless hours of waiting, the solitary luncheon,

the waiting again, Katharine’s summary dismissal of him, almost without

a word of explanation--then more waiting, and Miner’s tiresome

questions, and the sudden call to the telephone, and stumbling against

Crowdie--and all the rest of it. Small things, all of them, after the

marriage itself, but able to produce at least a fit of extremely bad

temper by their cumulative action upon such a character. Ralston was

undoubtedly a dangerous man to exasperate at five o’clock on that

Thursday afternoon.

He had been summoned by Robert Lauderdale himself, and this had

contributed not a little to the haste which had brought him into

collision with Bright. The old gentleman had asked him to come up to his

house at once; John had said that he would come immediately, but on

asking a further question he found the communication closed.

It immediately struck him that Katharine had not found uncle Robert at

home in the morning, that she had very possibly gone to him again in the

afternoon, and that they were perhaps together at that very moment, and

had agreed to send for Ralston in order to talk matters over. It was

natural enough, considering his strong desire to see Katharine before

the ball, and his anxiety to hear Robert Lauderdale’s definite answer,

upon which depended everything in the immediate present and future, that

he should not have cared to waste time in exchanging civilities in the

hall of the club with Bright, whom he saw almost every day, or with

Crowdie, whom he detested. The rest has been explained.

Nor was it at all unnatural that the three men should all have been

simultaneously deceived into believing that he had been drinking more

than was good for him. A man who is known to drink habitually can

hardly get credit for being sober when he is perfectly quiet--never,

when he is in the least excited. Ralston had been more than excited. He

had been violent. He had disgraced himself and the club by a piece of

outrageous brutality. If any one but Bright had suffered by it, there

would have been a meeting of the committee within twenty-four hours, and

John Ralston’s name would have disappeared from the list of members

forever. It was fortunate for him that Bright chanced to be his best

friend.

Ralston scarcely realized how strongly the man was attached to him.

Embittered as he was by being constantly regarded as the failure of the

family, he could hardly believe that any one but his mother and

Katharine cared what became of him. A young man who has wasted three or

four years in fruitless, if not very terrible, dissipation, whose nerves

are a trifle affected by habits as yet by no means incurable, and who

has had the word ‘failure’ daily branded upon him by his discriminating

relatives, easily believes that for him life is over, and that he can

never redeem the time lost--for he is constantly reminded of this by

persons who should know better. And if he is somewhat melancholic by

nature, he is very ready to think that the future holds but two

possibilities,--the love of woman so long as it may last, and an easy

death of some sort when there is no more love. That was approximately

John Ralston’s state of mind as he ascended the steps of Robert

Lauderdale’s house on that Thursday afternoon.

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