think I take it pluckily. But every night I dream it over once
more--and the sky is rushing back, and the ground is swirling up--and
the Bird is toppling, spinning downwards, in a trail of smoke and fire.
I can hear my observer screaming, poor, poor fellow! How I escaped
burning I don't know. Then comes the crash!--and the grey void of
Nothingness out of which, aeons later, I crawl into a blind man's
dreadful world. A world that is all sounds and voices and sounds and
touches. A world where I must live--and die--in the dark!"
She said in her deep sweet voice, with her velvet cheek pressed against
Sherbrand's:
"With me. And suppose you saw me, and could not feel nor hear me?"
She felt him shudder as he answered:
"The thing would be Hell!"
"Well, then, let me try and make the best of it! For both of us, my
dear one!" She pressed closer to his breast, magnetising him with her
touch, her breath, her presence, summoning all her forces of womanly
allurements to charm him from despair. "Couldn't I reconcile my lover
to the dark?" she whispered.
"Are you cold, dearest?" he asked. For as the last words left her lips
a sharp vibration had passed through her. "You shivered as though you
were."
"Perhaps? ... I hardly know," said Patrine, thrusting away the loathed
memory of the Upas. "Perhaps the wind has shifted--or a goose walked
over my grave."
She changed her tone and began to tell him how Margot had evicted her
Uncle Derek and his Lepidopthingambobs and handed over the caravanserai
in Hanover Square to the Red Cross people for a Hospital--and how all
the wards were to be covered with vulcanised rubber--not a corner to
catch a dust-speck anywhere. And she went on to describe her journey in
search of Sherbrand, and her disappointment at finding him absent from
the Hospital at Pophereele--and the kindness shown her by the
Monseigneur who had escorted her from St. O--, and subsequently insisted
on accompanying her here.
"For it's supposed to be risky," she ended, smiling. "He says--to me it
seems like spitting in the face of a dead body!--that the Germans shell
the poor place nearly every day."
"It's true. They've pitched High Explosive in once already this
morning--and as I mean to marry you to-morrow," said Sherbrand, "we had
better be off out of it before they repeat the dose." He added:
"There's an English Catholic priest at the Hospital--and I've my Special
Licence still tucked away in a pocket!"
She exclaimed in delight:
"Then you never meant to give me up? Own it--you didn't!"
"It was you who took your solid oath you wouldn't marry me."
"Unless you were poor and ill--and wanted a woman to nurse you and look
after you"--her voice broke--"and work for you! Oh, Boy!--no, not boy
any more! My man of all the men that ever were or will be! Don't
refuse me the right my love gives me--of working for you!" she urged.
"Such true love. Such fine love. Pat, you're a glory of a woman. And
you shall work--I'll give you lots of work," he promised her. "But--my
sweet girl, I'm not poor."
She asked him in her deep sweet voice:
"Do you think you'd be poor to me--if you hadn't a copper halfpenny?"
And with his arm about her still, and her heart beating against his
hand, as they moved over the grass together, she began to describe their
home. Quite a small, unpretending, but comfortable home. The home of
two people who adored each other, and wanted nothing better than to go
on doing it up to the last day of their lives.
"We'll have children--stacks!" she assured him. "Long-legged boys with
beaky, hatchet faces--boys who'll invent and build aeroplanes and fly
them too, you bet!"
"And girls," put in Sherbrand, tightening his clasp about the supple
womanly body, "great big galumphing girls, like their mother!"
"The sweets!" she sighed. "I can see them now!"
"Ah, that's what I shan't do ever," said Sherbrand. "Don't you think
they'll be bored with their blind father, sometimes, Pat?"
"Just let them dare! Let them--that's all!" She winked away the tears
crowding to her eyelashes. "Besides you mayn't be always blind--I'll
never give up praying! Didn't that American surgeon at the Hospital say
that cases of functional blindness from shock--like yours--supposing
there is no serious lesion in the brain--have been known to recover
sight suddenly and completely? Don't shake your head! Isn't there a
chance--a blessed possibility--to cling to, and fight for? Ah! if you
were cured, don't you know I'd send you back to the Front next day?
Don't you, Alan? Yes!--yes! you do!" The bright drops rushed in spate
over her underlids, and hopped over the front of her long blue coat, to
lose themselves among the frosted grasses as she went hotly on:
"Don't you believe--you must believe--I'd lay down my life--just for the
glory of doing that! Perhaps I usedn't to care much about
England--before the War. But now I've found out what it means to be a
pup of the old bull-mother,--I'd meet Death jumping--rather than fail cf
doing my bit. What's up?"
Someone had whistled shrilly behind them, and she wheeled, to see
Monseigneur and a Red Cross orderly beckoning and signalling, standing
on a heap of rubbish on the outskirts of the Plaine. Sherbrand, for
whom the call was meant, waved his stick and whistled in answer. The
orderly, at a gesture from Monseigneur, got nimbly down from the
rubbish-heap and started to cross the intervening stretch of grass.
"Why is he coming?" began Patrine, vexedly.
"To fetch the blind man, I suppose."
"Ah-h!" Her long eyes blazed resentment. "If anyone but yourself had
called you that! ... Send him back!" she pleaded, jealously. "From
henceforward nobody is to fetch you--or carry you either, except Me!"
So Sherbrand laughed in his companioned darkness, waved again, and
shouted to the orderly to go back. What he said was lost in the racket
accompanying the arrival of a German H.E. shell.
For still at intervals during each day and sometimes at night-time the
sad dignity of the deserted City of the Salient was outraged by these
monstrous messengers of hate. The thing came from the enemy's position
east of the city, and fell with a hideous droning note in the wooded
park by the Dixmude Gate.
A shattering crash followed--as though the roof of the world were
tumbling in. The green park of budding trees was rent and splintered,
cratered and riven as though a Dinosaur had died there of acute rabies,
biting and tearing and howking up the earth.
Love is a wonderful wit-quickener in necessity. It taught Patrine
Saxham, the woman of limitations, exactly what to do at the moment when
the great shell droned down to ground. Irresistible as a mountain
torrent, she leaped straight for the blind man before her, hurling him
backwards by the sudden impact, over-balancing and bearing him down.
Pinning him with the sheer weight of her vigorous young body--covering
him as Nature teaches a tigress to cover her menaced cub, whilst their
ears were deafened with the appalling detonation, the solid earth heaved
and billowed under their prone, locked bodies, and the air surged and
winnowed about them as though beaten by the passage of huge invisible
wings.
"Is this Death?" she asked herself. "Then--for both!" was her
half-conscious prayer. But Death passed by in a blizzard of scorching
gases, splinters of rending steel, gravel, and stones, splintered timber
and pulverised soil, leaving a huge cloud of reddish-yellow billowing
over the Plaine d'Amour. A brown powder that stank of verbena, thickly
coated all visible objects. Hair, skin, and clothes were tinted to
uniformity, and a smothering oppression burdened the lungs. Yet as
Patrine lay gasping, nerveless, beaten, that fierce new-kindled instinct
of protection lived in her, potent, vital with possibilities as the
spark in the battery or the germ in the cell.
The Great Test had found her not wanting nor unready. The dross of self
had been burned away in the flame of a passion high and pure. The Crown
of a noble womanhood was hers in that great moment when her body had
made a rampart for the shielding of her love.
Under the heave of her bosom Sherbrand's broad chest panted. He
lived--and her heart went up in a rush of passionate thanks to Heaven.
She moved from him, quaking in every nerve and fibre, crouched beside
him, found her handkerchief, and wiped the pungent dust from his face.
It was pale, the mouth and eyes were closed, the nostrils fluttered with
quick panting. His head had struck against the ground when her leap had
hurled him backwards. He had been stunned, she told herself. He would
revive soon.
"Patrine!" he choked out, opening his eyes.
"Pat's here by you, my darling!" She slipped her strong arm under his
neck and helped him to sit up:
"You're not hurt?" His lungs pumped hard, and his reddened eyes ran
water. He blinked it away and caught her hands, crushing them in his
grip. "You're sure you're not?"
"Quite, quite sure! And you're all right, aren't you?"
"As right as rain, except for a bump on the head!" He freed a hand and
rubbed it. "When the shell came over--and the ground rose up and hit
me. How did it happen?"
"I--hardly know. Oh, Alan! God has been good to us! Hasn't He?"
There was no immediate response. Sherbrand's lean face was working. He
rose to his knees and thus remained an instant, in silence that gave
thanks. Then he got lightly on his feet, reached down and lifted
Patrine. And thus they stood, the girl clinging to the young man's
broad shoulders as he held her, the tears from her own still smarting
eyes tracing white channels in the dust that masked her quivering face.
"You and I! ... My hat!--" she gasped--"what a precious pair of
scallawags! You lose nothing in not being able to see, my Flying
Man!--just now. Oh! but the station! And the park----"
She stopped in sheer astonishment. For the deadliest fury of the High
Explosive had wreaked itself on the bit of municipal woodland. With the
electric train-station that had neighboured it, and the _abattoirs_ in
its vicinity, it had been clean wiped out.
"Come," said Sherbrand, tightening his clasp as he felt her sway against
him. He was supporting--he was guiding as they turned their faces
south.
Here the Death that had passed by had left more traces of its passage.
The rent carcase of a gaunt cow that had grazed upon the Plaine d'Amour,
lay in a steaming crimson pool among the frosty grasses; and beyond,
some thirty paces from the Rue d'Elverdinghe, where the automobiles
waited near the ruins of the prison, Monseigneur in his flowing black
cloak knelt over a stained bundle of ragged blue clothing and shattered
humanity, and the Belgian and his fellow-chauffeur were bringing a
stretcher from the Red Cross car....
"The poor orderly has been wounded ... No! ... killed!" flashed through
Patrine's mind as Monseigneur glanced towards her, gesturing with a
supple hand in a swift expressive way. "I must go over there--I may be
wanted," she mentally added, controlling her sick shudder and reached
back to take again the hand of her blind man. But a sudden exclamation
from Sherbrand brought round her head, and the strange look stamped upon
the face she loved, arrested movement and checked utterance.
"What is it? What has happened?" she forced her stiffened tongue to ask
him. "Oh, Alan! tell me! You are not ill----"
"Not ill!" came from the twisted mouth, wrung and convulsed with--was it
joy or anguish? He shut his eyes, striving for calmness and coherent
speech and wrestling with a fierce emotion that made him sway and totter
like a drunken man. "Give me your hand--both your dear hands! Don't
mind my shutting my eyes--it'll steady me to tell you! ... Just
now--when you let go of me--something happened--and I--_saw_!"
He choked upon the last word. She faced him, white and wild and
desperate, and cried in a voice quite strange to Sherbrand's ears:
"You saw! ... My God!--do you want to drive me crazy? Do you mean--you
can't mean----"
"Does the truth sound so insane?" His voice broke in a sob. He opened
the shut, quivering lids through which the tears were streaming, and the
grey-blue eyes that looked at her were no longer the dead orbs of one
blind. Life and light throbbed in their depths, they glowed with such a
radiance as the eyes of the First Lover may have shed on the face of the
new-made Eve. What was he saying in shaken tones of mingled awe and
rapture:
"I saw what I am seeing now. Trees--and green grass, and blue sky--and
your face! Your dear face that stayed with me when the Big Dark blotted
out the rest.... More loving--more lovely than ever I have dreamed it.
Oh! Pat, did ever any man get such a wedding-present?" His tone
changed: "My sight for me--and death for that poor chap there! Can it
be Carpenter--the American who's been so good to me! ... And the priest
helping to lift him--the old man with the noble face? ... Not
Monseigneur--our Chaplain at the Hospital! He's beckoning! Come! Let's
run!"
So these happy lovers with Death as travelling-companion drove away from
the City of the Salient. There was a wedding next morning at the
Hospital of Pophereele. And twenty-four hours later, the big
black-capitalled broadsheets bellowed from Ludgate Hill up Fleet Street
and along the Strand to Charing Cross, and all through the West End:
ROMANTIC SEQUEL TO FAMOUS AVIATOR'S STORY. SHERBRAND OF THE R.F.C.,
BLINDED IN AIR-BATTLE, RECOVERS SIGHT THROUGH SHELL-SHOCK. MARRIED
YESTERDAY. RETURNS WITH BRIDE. CAPTAINCY AND D.S.O."
A closing picture of a young couple sitting very close together on a
rustic seat in the garden of a cottage on Seasheere Downs, where
hyacinths bloom, and clumps of pink-white peonies, and the Birds of War
whirr overhead in a June's sky of speedwell-blue.
Patrine Sherbrand says to her husband, as the smoke of British
transports and heavily-laden supply-steamers slants against the east
horizon, and the knife-sharp bows of shepherding Destroyers cleave the
grey-green waters of the North Sea:
"If without dishonour to your dear name it lay in my power to keep you
with me, do you think I'd have it so? Not I! I'll have you carry on as
though I'd never even existed. For me--the work that lies at hand.
When that's done--dreams of you. If you were killed you'd live for
me--my man I gave for England! Our England that they'll never beat--not
even if they win!"
"Thanks, my sweet wife! Then when I say--our honeymoon is over----?"
"Ah, well! ... How soon? ..."
He told her, looking in her eyes, that did not flinch beneath his:
"In four days! The Medical Board finds me quite fit--and there's a
Flying billet waiting. Our Western Front...."
She said, as her heart beat on his and their mouths met in a kiss:
"Then--four more days of love with me, and fly, my Bird of War!"
The Chief Scout had said to Sherbrand in those days of July, 1914: "The
Saxham breed's a stark breed--hard as granite, supple as incandescent
lava, with a strain of Berserk madness, and a dash of Oriental fatalism.
They can hate magnificently and forgive grandly, and love to the very
verge of Death."
Sherbrand had found it so. He thanked God that this heart that he had
won would never change nor fail him. He knew that he could call his own
the love that reaches living hands to Love beyond the grave.
THE END