"EH, BUT SHE'S WINSOME."
"Eh, but she's winsome!"
Grant Harlson entered my room one evening with this irrelevant
exclamation.
I have remained unmarried, and have learned how to live, as a man may,
after a fashion, who has no aid from that sex which alone knows how to
make a home.
Harlson, at this time, had apartments very near me, and we invaded each
other's rooms at will, and were a mutual comfort to each other, and a
help--at least I know that he was all this to me. I have never yet
seen a man so strong and self-reliant or secretive--save some few who
were misers or recluses, and not of the real world--who, if there were
no woman for him, would not tell things to some one man. We two knew
each other, and counted on each other, and while I could not do as much
for him as he for me, I could try as hard. He knew that.
"Eh, but she's winsome!"
He went to the mantel, took a cigar, and lit it, and turned to me
indignantly:
"You smoke-producing dolt, why are you silent? Didn't you hear my
earnest comment? Where is the trace of good behavior you once owned?"
"Who's winsome?"
"She, I tell you! She--the girl I met to-night. And you sit there and
inhale the fumes of a weed, and are no more stirred by my announcement
than the belching chimney of an exposition by the fair display around
it!"
"You big, driveling idiot, how can I know what you are talking about?
You come in with an obscure outburst of enthusiasm over something,--a
woman, I infer,--and because the particular tone, and direction, and
mood of your insanity is not recognized within a moment, you descend to
personalities. If your distemper has left you reason enough for the
comprehension of words, sit down and tell me about it. Who's winsome?
What's winsome? And have you been to a banquet?"
"There is a degree of reason in what you say--that is, from the point
of a clod. I'll tell you. I've met a woman."
"I dare say. There are a number in town, I understand."
"Spoken in the vein of your dullness. A person not sodden with
nicotine and dreams would have recognized the fact that I had met a
Woman, one deserving a large W whenever her name is spelled, a woman of
the sort to make one think that all poems are not trickery, and all
romances not romance."
"What's her name?"
"Do you suppose I'll tell you, you scheming wife-hunter! If I do,
you'll get an introduction somehow, and then you'll win her, for I'm
afraid she has good sense."
And Harlson laughed and looked down in the brotherly way he had.
"But this is nonsense. Why don't you tell me something about her? Is
she fat and fifty and rich, or bread-and-buttery and white-skinned and
promising, or twenty and just generally fair to look upon, or
twenty-five and piquant and knowing, or some big, red-haired lioness,
or some yellow-haired, blue-eyed innocent, with good digestion and
premature maternal ways, or----"
"Rot! She's a woman, I tell you!"
"All right. Answer questions now categorically."
"Go ahead."
"How old is she?"
"Twenty-seven or eight."
"Married?"
"No."
"Ever been married?"
"Certainly not."
"How do you know?"
Harlson looked surprised, and then he became indignant again.
"Alf," said he, "you have good traits, but you have paralysis of a
certain section of your brain. You don't remember things. Don't you
think I could tell whether or not a woman were married?"
I did not answer him off-hand. I could not very well. He knew that
his reply had set me thinking of many a curious test and many a curious
experience. Harlson had an odd fad over which we had many a debate.
It occurred usually upon the street cars. He would make a study of the
women in the car when we were together--it seemed to amuse him--and
tell me whether they were married or not. He would not look at their
hands--that would be a point of honor between us--but only at their
eyes, and then he would say whether any particular woman were married
or single, and we would leave it to the rings to decide.
Sometimes he would lose, but then he would only say: "Well, if she
didn't wear a wedding ring she should have done so," and would pay for
the cigars we smoked.
He had some sort of fancy about their eyes which I could never quite
understand. He said that a woman who had been very close to a man, who
had been part of him in any way, had nevermore the same look, and that
the difference was perceptible to one who knew the thing. I tested him
more than once, and I found that he had never actually failed.
Sometimes the woman with the look had proved unmarried, but there were
facts that made the difference.
One night Harlson and I were wandering about the city, mere driftwood,
after a dinner, and our mood carried us into the haunts of those
without the pale, not that we cared for any new emotion or excitement,
but that we wanted to look at something outside the commonplace. To me
there might be, of course, some novelty in the things that might
confront us, though to Harlson they were, at their utmost, but a
reminiscence. We went where a man alone was not in safe companionship,
but there were enough who knew my companion well, and all was curious
to me, without even the spice of care for self.
It chanced that at one period of the wandering, very late at night, or,
rather, early morning, Harlson became hungry, and insisted upon
entrance to a restaurant where were gathered the very refuse of the
reckless and non-law-abiding, and I went with him, perforce, and saw a
motley gathering. There were all sorts of people there, from thief to
pander, all save those who might retain a claim to faint
respectability. Harlson demanded comparative cleanliness at our table,
and the food was fairly decent. We ate, then smoked, and looked about
us.
I have seen many people, and many strange faces, but never such a
person nor such a face as of an old woman who sat at that early hour of
the morning at a table near us. The figure was a warped and withered
caricature, the face that of a hag, a creature vixenish and viperish,
and mean and crafty. It was the face of a procuress of the lowest and
most desperate type, of a deformed she-wolf of the slums, of the worst
there is in all abandoned human nature, and Harlson was as interested
as I was disgusted and repelled. He noted the woman closely.
"By Jove! look there!" he said.
"What is it?"
"Look at her hand."
I looked. I saw a hand which was a claw, a strong, shriveled thing
with long, dirty nails and a vulturous suggestion. It was not a
pleasant sight. On the third finger of the left hand, though, was a
slight gleam amid the carnivorous dullness. There was a slender band
of gold there, a ring worn down to narrowness and thinness. I turned
to Harlson, but he spoke first:
"Do you see that old wedding ring?"
"Yes."
"It's queer. It's good, too. There's a streak of what was good left
in everything, it seems to me. I'm going to talk to her."
"Don't do it. She'll throw the plate in your face."
"No, she won't." And he rose and went over to the table of the beldame
and sat down beside her. She looked up at him glaringly. He did not
smile, nor, apparently, make any apology or excuse, but began talking
to her, looking at the ring, and saying I know not what. And I watched
that miserable old woman's face and wondered. There was more than one
emotion shown--fierce resentment at first, then the half fear of the
hound or the hound-bitch yielding to the master, and then the yielding
of the heart, not touched, perhaps, for a quarter of a century.
Harlson talked. The woman did not speak for minutes, then made some
short reply, and then, a little later, there were tears in her old foxy
eyes.
He rose, glared at the one or two hard-faced waiters who had ventured
near him, and took upon a card something she said. Then he came back
to me as the old woman left the place.
"Queer-looking, wasn't she?" he said.
"Decidedly," said I. "What were you talking about?"
"Oh, nothing but the ring. It's wonderful how they always wear the
ring when they have the right to."
"But what was the use of it all? What came of your talk?"
"Nothing to speak of. It was only a fad of mine. I have a right to an
occasional whim, haven't I? I'll be hanged if I'll see a wedding ring
worn that way buried in unbought ground. The old hag was a marvel of
all that is unwomanly and sinful. But that ring shall be properly
buried, and the hand that wears it, because it _does_ wear it. So I'm
going to take the woman out of this and put her where she will not have
to be a monster in order to live."
And he did what he said he would do. He found a place in some old
women's home for that aged demon, and one day he made me go with him to
see her. Maybe it was the different dress and the different
surroundings, but, it seemed to me, her eyes were not as they were in
the low restaurant. The hand that wore the thin gold ring was clean in
its pitiful shrunkenness. The creature looked neither hunted nor
hunting. She was but an old woman going to the grave so near her, and
going, I could not but imagine, to find the one who had given her that
gold circlet some half century ago. I rather fancied Harlson's fad.
As for him, when I told him so, he only said:
"Oh, of course. Peter told the third assistant bookkeeper to credit
Harlson with such or such an amount." And he added; "If those people
don't take good care of that old woman there'll be a new
superintendent." But they took good care of her.
This is lugging in an incident at great length as an illustration, but
I know of no other way to explain how Harlson so expressed himself when
I asked him how he knew whether the woman of whom he had been talking
was married or not. He felt confident enough.
"Well, what is she like? Can't you describe her? Has she seared your
eyes with her loveliness?"
"She hasn't seared my eyes. She has only opened them. Listen to me,
you thing of mud! She is just a little brown streak."
"That's an odd description of a woman."
"It's the correct one, though. She's just a little brown streak of a
thing."
"Well, I've heard of a man in love with a dream, and in love with a
shadow, but never before did I hear of one infatuated with a streak.
Where did you meet this creature? Have you known her long?"
"Only for a month or so, and but slightly. We have not met half a
dozen times. It was only tonight, you see, that I began to know her
well. We talked together, and I got a glimpse of her real self--of her
slender little body, of her earthly tenement, of course, I had an idea
before. She is a lissom thing, with eyes like wells, and with a way to
her which conveys the idea of wisdom without wickedness, and which
makes a man wish he were not what he is, and were more fitted to
associate with her."
"That's one good effect, anyhow. I don't know of any man who more
needed to meet such a woman. How long do you expect this influence to
last?"
"Longer than one of your good resolutions, my son; as long as she will
have anything to do with me."
"Does this brown streak of a saint live in the city? Is her shrine
easy of access? What are you going to do about it?"
"She's not a saint; she's a piquant, cultivated woman; but she is
different, somehow, from any other I've ever met."
"You've met a good many, my boy."
His face fell a little.
"Yes," he said, "and I almost wish it were different; but the past is
not all there is of being. There's a heap of comfort in that."
"Cupid has thumped you with his bird-bolt, certainly. Why, man, you
don't mean to say that you're in earnest--that you are really stricken;
that this promises to be something unlike all other heart or head
troubles with you?"
He laughed.
"I am inclined to believe that the gravest diagnosis is the correct
one."
"But how about the present Mrs. Harlson?"
No friend less close than I could have asked such a question. I almost
repented it myself, when I noted the look which came upon the man's
face after its utterance.
I suppose such a look might come to one in prison, who, in the midst of
some pleasant fancy, has forgotten his surroundings, and is awakened to
reason and suddenly to a perception again of the grim walls about him,
and of his helplessness and, maybe, hopelessness. Harlson left the
mantel against which he bad been leaning, and walked about the room for
a moment or two before speaking.
"It's true," he said, "I am certainly a married man. The law allows
it, and the court awards it, as things are in this society, bound by
the tapes of Justice Shallow and the rest. I entered into a contract
which was a mistake on the part of two people. They discovered their
error, and rectified it as far as they could. Had they been two men or
two women who had gone into ordinary business together, and
subsequently discovered they were not fitted for a partnership, the law
would have assisted cheerfully in their absolute separation. But with
this, the gravest of all contracts, the one most affecting human
welfare, no such kindness of the statutes may exist. Some of the
churches say the contract is a sacrament, though the shepherd kings,
whose story is our Bible, had no such thought, nor was it taught by the
lowly Nazarene; but the law supports the legend, within certain limits.
What are we going to do about it?"
I told him that I didn't know, and there were several thousand
people--good people--in the city facing the same conundrum.
I called attention to the fact that the conventional band was a strong
one at this time, and could not be burst without a penalty, even by the
shrewdest. The dwarfs were so many that, united, they were stronger
than any Gulliver. And I added that, in my opinion, as a mere layman,
he was very well off; that he had been at least relieved of the great,
continued trouble which follows a mismating, and that it would be time
enough for him to chafe at the light chain still restraining him, when
he was sure he wanted to replace it by another.
"It's not your fashion," I said, "to fret over the morrow, and it is my
personal and profound conviction that you have no more real idea of
marrying again than you have of volunteering in the service of the
Akhoond of Swat--if there be an Akhoond of Swat at present. You're
only wandering mentally to-night, my boy, dreaming, because this wisp
of a young woman of whom you have been telling has turned your brain
for the time. You'll be wiser in the morning."
All this I said with much lofty arrogance, and a great assumption of
knowing all, and of being a competent adviser of a friend in trouble,
but, at heart, I knew that, in Harlson's place, I should not have shown
any particular degree of self-control. I have never felt the thing,
but it must be grinding to occupy a position like that of this man I
was addressing. The serving out of a society sentence must be a test
of grit.
We dropped the discussion of the problem, and Harlson referred to it
again but incidentally.
"The fact is," said he, "I had almost forgotten that I was not as free
as other men. I have not regulated my course by my real condition.
I've drifted, and there have been happenings, as you know well.
There's Mrs. Gorse. I've never concealed anything. Those who know me
at all well know my relationships, but I imagine that I have been
deceiving myself. I am not a free agent--though I will be. It's not
right as it is."
"And when am I to see this woman who has interested you, and restored
the old colors to the rainbow? You will allow me to admire her, I
suppose, if only from a distance?"
"Oh, yes! Come with me to the Laffins' to-morrow night. She'll be
there, I learned, and I said I was going to be there too. Come with
me. Of course, you understand that if she smiles on you at all, or if
you appear to have produced a favorable impression upon her, I shall
assassinate you on our way home."
I told him that I thought my general appearance and style of
conversation would preserve me from the danger, and that I would take
the risk and accompany him.
The next night I met Jean Cornish. We were destined to become very
well acquainted.