By Ludovic Halévy

_Done into English by the Editor_

“Prisoner,” said the president of the court-martial, “have you anything

to add in your defense?”

“Yes, my colonel,” responded the accused; “you have given me a little

advocate who has defended me according to his idea. I want to defend

myself according to my own.

“My name is Martin--Louis Joseph; I am fifty-five years old. My father

was a locksmith. He had a little shop in the upper part of the Faubourg

Saint-Martin and did a small business. We just about lived. I learned

to read in _Le National_, which was, I believe, the paper of Monsieur

Thiers.

“The 27th of July, 1830, my father went out early in the morning. That

evening at ten o’clock they brought him back to us dying on a litter.

He had received a bullet in the chest. By his side upon the litter was

his musket.

“‘Take it,’ he said to me; ‘I give it to you, and every time there is

to be an insurrection, be against the government--always! always!

always!’

“An hour afterward he was dead. I went out in the night. At the first

barricade I stopped and offered myself. A man examined me by the light

of a lantern. ‘A child!’ he cried. I was not yet fifteen. I was very

small, quite undersized. I answered: ‘A child, that’s possible; but my

father was killed about two hours ago. He gave me his musket. Teach me

how to use it.’

“Starting with that moment, I became what I have been always, for forty

years: an insurgent! If I fought during the Commune, it was neither

from compulsion nor for the thirty _sous_, it was from taste, from

pleasure, from habit, from routine.

“In 1830, I bore myself rather bravely at the attack on the Louvre.

That gamin who--the first--climbed the iron fence under the bullets

of the Swiss--that was I. I received the medal of July; but the

_bourgeoisie_ gave us a king. Everything had to be done over again. I

joined a secret society, I learned to mould bullets, to make powder. In

short, I completed my education--and I waited.

“I had to wait nearly two years. The 5th of June, 1832, at midday,

before the Madeleine, I began by unhitching one of the horses from

the hearse of General Lamarque. I passed the day shouting, ‘_Vive

Lafayette!_’ and the night in making barricades. The next morning we

were attacked by the soldiers. That afternoon towards four o’clock we

were pocketed, cannonaded, fired upon with grape-shot, crushed, in the

Church of St. Méry. I had a bullet and three bayonet thrusts in my body

when I was picked up by the soldiers on the flag-stones of a little

chapel on the right--the chapel of St. John. I used often to return

to that little chapel--not to pray, I was not brought up in those

ideas--but to see the trace of my blood which is still marked upon the

stones.

“Because of my youth, I got only ten years in prison. I was sent

to Mont-Saint-Michel. That was why I didn’t take any part in the

uprisings of 1834. If I had been free, I should have been fighting in

the Rue Transnonian as I had fought in the Rue St. Méry. Against the

government--always!--always!--always! That was the last word of my

father, that was my gospel, my religion! I called that my catechism in

six words. I got out of prison in 1842 and again I began to wait.

“The revolution of ’48 made itself--without help. The _bourgeoisie_

were stupid and cowardly. They were neither for us nor against us.

The City Guards alone defended themselves. We had a little trouble in

capturing the post of the Château-d’Eau. The evening of the 24th of

February I stayed three or four hours on the Place de l’Hôtel-de-Ville.

The members of the Provisional Government one after another made

speeches to us, said to us that we were ‘heroes,’ ‘noble citizens,’

‘the first people of the world;’ that we had shaken off the yoke of

tyranny. After having regaled us with these fine words, they gave us a

republic which wasn’t any better than the monarchy which we had tumbled

to the ground.

“In June I took up my musket again--but that time things were not

successful. I was arrested, condemned, sent to Cayenne. It seems that

out there I behaved myself well. One day I saved a captain of marines

who was drowning. They thought that very fine. Notice that I would

very cheerfully have shot at that captain--if he had been on one side

of a barricade and I on the other; but a man who is drowning, who is

dying----. In short, I received my pardon. I got back to France in

1852, after the _Coup d’État_. I had missed the insurrection of 1851.

“At Cayenne I had made a friend, a tailor named Bernard. Six months

after my departure for France, Bernard died. I went to see his widow.

She was in destitution. I married her. We had a son in 1854. You will

understand all in good time why I speak of my wife and of my son. Only,

you ought already to suspect that an insurgent who marries the widow of

an insurgent does not have royalist children.

“Under the Empire, nothing was going on. The police held a firm grip.

We were dispersed, disarmed. I worked, I brought up my son in the ideas

that my father had given me. The wait was long--Rochefort, Gambetta,

public reunions; all those things put us in motion again.

“On the first serious occasion I showed myself. I was of that little

band that assaulted the barracks of the firemen of Villette. Only,

there a stupid thing was done. They killed a fireman unnecessarily.

I was taken, thrown into prison; but the government of the Fourth of

September set us free--from which I concluded that we had done quite

right in attacking that barracks and in killing that fireman, even

unnecessarily.

“The siege commenced. At once I was against the government, and for the

Commune. I marched against the Hôtel-de-Ville on the 31st of October

and the 22d of January. I loved revolt for the sake of revolt. An

insurgent, I told you at the start, I am an insurgent. I cannot see a

club without joining it, an insurrection without running after it, a

barricade without bringing my paving-stone to it. That goes with my

blood.

“And then, besides, I wasn’t altogether ignorant, and I said to myself:

‘We only need to succeed some day, clear to the foundations, and then

in our turn we shall be the government and things will go a little

better than with all these lawyers who get behind us during the battle,

and who pass ahead of us after the victory.’

“The 18th of March came, and naturally I was in it. I cried ‘Hurrah

for the military!’ I fraternized with the soldiers. I went to the

Hôtel-de-Ville. I found there a government at work--absolutely as on

the 24th of February.

“Now you tell me that that insurrection was not legitimate. That’s

possible, but I don’t quite see why. I begin to be muddled, I do,

between these insurrections which are a duty and those insurrections

which are a crime! I do not clearly see the difference.

“I fired on the Versailles troops in 1871, as I fired on the Royal

Guards in 1830, and on the City Guards in 1848. After 1830 I received

the medal of July. After 1848, the compliments of Monsieur Lamartine.

This time, I’m going to have transportation or death.

“There are some insurrections that please you. You raise columns to

them, you give their names to streets, you distribute among yourselves

the offices, the promotions, the big salaries; and we others, who made

the revolution, you call us--noble citizens, heroes, a nation of brave

men, etc., etc. It is with such money that we are paid.

“And then, there are some other insurrections that displease you. As

a result of those, you distribute to us exile, transportation, death.

Well, see here: if you hadn’t paid us so many compliments after the

first, perhaps we would not have done the last. If you had not raised

the Column of July at the entrance to our quarter, perhaps we should

not have gone to demolish the Vendôme Column in your quarter. Those two

penny-trumpets were not in harmony. The one had to discord with the

other, and that is what came about.

“Now, I am going to tell you why I threw away my captain’s uniform at

the street corner on the 26th of May, why I was in a blouse when I was

arrested. When I learned that these gentlemen of the Commune, instead

of coming to fire with us upon the barricades, were distributing

thousand-franc notes to themselves at the Hôtel-de-Ville, shaving their

beards, dyeing their hair, and going to hide themselves in caves, I

didn’t wish to keep the shoulder-straps they had given me.

“Besides, they embarrassed me, those shoulder straps. ‘Captain

Martin,’ that was silly. ‘Insurgent Martin,’ quite as it should be.

I wanted to end as I had begun, to die as my father had died, an

insurrectionist in an insurrection, a barricader in a barricade.

“I couldn’t get myself killed. I got taken. I belong to you. Only, I

wish you would do me one favor. I have a son, a child of seventeen, he

is at Cherbourg, on the hulks. He has fought, it is true, and he will

not deny it; but it was I who put the musket in his hand, it was I who

told him that his duty was there. He listened to me. He obeyed me. That

alone is his crime. Do not condemn him too harshly.

“As for me, you have hold of me--do not let me go; that’s the advice

I give you. I’m too old to mend, and, besides, what would you have?

Nothing can change what is: I was born on the wrong side of the

barricade.”

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