And yet I am sure Mr. Lethbridge meant well. He was, as I have before

suggested, a strong, capable man, and fully bore out what I had heard

concerning him. He could never have been a nonentity, wherever he was

placed, and whatever he took in hand he would do with such

conscientiousness and thoroughness as to make it succeed. Consequently,

it was no wonder that he had risen from a poor lad to be a man of wealth

and of eminence in the county. That he was exceedingly ambitious there

could be no doubt, and I judged that he was a little bit sore that all

his ambitions had not been realized. He seemed composed of contradictory

elements. On one hand, he seemed a man of the Napoleonic order, who

would make everything and every person yield to his desires. On the

other, I judged him to be a man who wanted to be strictly honest and

conscientious, a man who would not give up one iota of his convictions,

even if by so doing he could gain the things he desired.

Although no plain statement was made at the dinner-table to that effect,

I gathered that he had suffered socially because of his adherence to

what he termed his Nonconformist principles, and that he would have

taken his position among the county families had he not remained true to

the Chapel he had attended as a boy. On the other hand, however, that

same Chapel, as it seemed to me, was a fetish rather than something

which vitally affected his life.

I am spending some time in recording my impressions about this family,

because I was brought into close contact with it in later days, and also

because the various members of it affected me considerably.

"Yes," said Mr. Lethbridge, as we sat in the smoke-room, "I am an

old-fashioned man, Mr. Erskine. I do not believe in giving up my early

convictions simply because they are not popular."

"What are your early convictions?" asked Hugh.

"I mean my Nonconformist principles. See what Methodism has done for

Cornwall, see what it has done for the whole country for that matter."

"Yes, what has it done?" asked Hugh.

"It has changed Cornwall from being drunken and godless into the most

sober and God-fearing part of the country."

"Admitted," replied the son. "But who cares anything about Methodism

now?"

"I am surprised and ashamed of you, Hugh, talking like that," said the

father. "What is your opinion about it, Mr. Erskine?"

"My opinion about what?" I asked.

"Don't you think a man should stand by his principles?"

"His principles, certainly," was my reply, "especially if, after having

tested them, they proved to be vital; but I am rather interested in what

your son says. I have been reading John Wesley's _Journal_, and I cannot

help realizing the tremendous influence he wielded over a hundred years

ago in this very county; but what troubles me is that it seems to mean

comparatively little now."

"I don't understand you," he said, rather brusquely.

"What I want to know," I said, "is this. Does Methodism, or for that

matter, does religion of any sort, vitally affect the lives and outlook

of people now? If it does, why is it that its hold seems to be weakening

day by day? I am told that your Chapel used to be crowded, and that

while the people were ignorant, Methodism vitally influenced their

lives; but now it seems a kind of corpse. It has a name to live, but is

dead. This afternoon, Simpson, my man, brought me a book which belonged

to his father. That book describes what the people used to do for their

faith. Even the women worked to bring stones to build the chapels, while

the men toiled hours after their ordinary work was over, as a labor of

love, in order to erect the buildings which their children and their

children's children neglect and often despise. Everything seems

stereotyped. Most of the people seem to care little or nothing about

what their forbears would die for, and those that do care seem to regard

it in a half-hearted way, and talk about it as something that has been

rather than something that is."

"Yes," said Mr. Lethbridge, with a sigh, "I am afraid you are right. The

old fire has gone, faith has largely died out, real earnestness seems a

thing of the past; and yet what can one do?"

"I am afraid I am not the one to ask," I replied. "You see, I am a rank

outsider so far as that kind of thing is concerned."

"For that matter the Church of England is no better," said Mr.

Lethbridge.

"Should that console one?" I asked. "Cornwall, as I understand, used to

be the home of religious activity, of unquestioning faith, of devoted

fervor; but to-day people are careless, materialistic. Faiths which at

one time were held tenaciously, doctrines which were believed in

unquestioningly, are now apparently a dead letter."

"I suppose you are a Churchman, Mr. Erskine," said Mr. Lethbridge.

"I am afraid I am nothing," I replied. "For several years I did not put

my foot inside a Church of any sort."

"Indeed, how is that?"

"I suppose I had no interest," I said. "That was why going to Church on

Sunday was something new to me. I felt like a man witnessing a strange

thing, and trying to understand something which was unfamiliar."

"Yes, and how did it impress you?"

"Everything was so unconvincing," I replied. "The note of reality was

never struck at all."

"But surely," said Mr. Lethbridge, "you are not an atheist?"

"I am nothing," was my answer. "I wish I were. I suppose you know why I

came here?"

"Yes, I have heard," he replied, "and I am very, very sorry for you, and

you such a young man too, and life opening up all sorts of

possibilities. Perhaps, however, it is not as bad as you think; the

doctor may have made a mistake."

"I am afraid there is no hope of that," was my reply. "The man who

examined me has the reputation of being the most eminent diagnostician

in his profession; but if you religious people are right, it does not

matter. If John Wesley, whose diary I have been reading, is right, what

we call life, that is, life here, is a very small matter; it is only a

fragment of life. Death, according to him, is only an episode; but the

worst of it is that here, in a county where he is so largely

represented, and in a village where he has visited, his power is gone.

The old words are used, but the old convictions are gone--that is why

such a man as I am left stranded. But really, I am ashamed of myself,

talking like this. Believe me, I am not in the habit of boring people

with my ailments and foolish speculations."

We joined the ladies shortly after, and our conversation, I am afraid,

was of a very uninteresting nature. I noticed all the time we were

talking, too, that Mr. Lethbridge was paying no attention whatever. He

seemed to be thinking deeply about something else. Presently, while his

wife was engaged in a long harangue about the inferiority of girls,

comparing them with what she used to be when she was a girl, Mr.

Lethbridge broke in suddenly.

"Yes, Mr. Erskine," he said, "you may be right in what you were

saying--that is, up to a point--but you don't go deep enough."

"I am afraid I never do go very deep," was my reply. "The deeper one

goes, as a rule, the greater the muddle."

"Not in this case," and he spoke quite eagerly. "Why, the whole life of

the county is what John Wesley and Methodism have made it. People, as a

whole, may seem to have discarded his teachings, but they are in the

very air we breathe; the people's thoughts, the people's lives, are what

they are to-day because of the work he did."

"I dare say," I replied, for, to tell the truth, I was anxious to avoid

anything like a theological discussion.

"Yes, don't you see? In the background of people's minds there is the

impress of his work; his influence is felt everywhere. Even the people

who never enter a place of worship have been shaped and moulded by

Methodism."

"In what way?" asked Hugh.

"Well, take such a question as war," replied Mr. Lethbridge. "John

Wesley killed the very possibility of war."

"I wish I could see it," I could not help exclaiming.

"It is plain enough," he replied. "Methodism and war cannot go together.

The love of peace has entered into the very essence of people's lives.

Is not that something to be thankful for?"

"I am not so sure," replied Isabella Lethbridge. "May not war be a very

good thing?"

"A good thing!" cried her father--"a good thing! Why, it's hellish! I

would rather see a son of mine dead than a soldier! And that is the

feeling Methodism has created throughout the county. You scarcely ever

find a conscientious Methodist becoming a soldier. A soldier in this

county is looked upon as a kind of legalized murderer."

"Surely," I said, "it is not so bad as that?"

"It amounts to that," was his reply. "For my own part, I have an utter

abhorrence of anything which savors of militarism, and I know it is

because of the impressions I received as a boy."

"But supposing war were to break out?" I said.

"War break out!" he interrupted. "How can it break out, unless some of

our so-called statesmen make asses of themselves? No one wants war."

"No," I said--"that is, as far as the general feeling in the country is

concerned; but supposing war were thrust upon us?"

"Who would thrust it upon us?" he asked, almost angrily.

"Germany, for example," was my reply.

"Impossible!"

"Not so impossible, I am afraid," I could not help replying. "Why,

during the last few years we have twice been on the brink of war with

Germany, and, unless I am mistaken, a war with that country is bound to

come, sooner or later." This, I am afraid, I said rather for the sake of

argument than because I really believed it. "Take that Agadir incident.

We were within an ace of war then. Indeed, had Germany been as ready as

she is now it would doubtless have come off."

"I do not believe it," was his reply. "The people of England would have

refused; the whole nation would have risen up in protest against it, and

not even the Government could have forced the country into a war which

it detested."

"Not if we were attacked?" was my answer.

"I do not believe in the possibility of it at all," he replied. "We are

essentially a peace-loving people."

"That may be, but even a peace-loving people may be obliged to defend

itself."

"But we shall never be called upon to defend ourselves."

"I am not at all sure," was my answer. "Germany is just spoiling for

war. Ever since she beat France she has been longing for expansion, and

the military party in Germany maintain that the English people keep them

from occupying their rightful place in the world."

"Yes, the military party," he said; "a negligible section of the

country."

"Excuse me," was my answer, "but the military party in Germany is

practically the nation. It is true there are a few Socialists who

disclaim war, and profess to be at enmity with the military party;

nevertheless, that party rules the nation, and if war should break out

every Socialist would be obliged to fight for his country--and Germany

means that it shall break out."

"And what then?" he asked.

"Then," I replied, "the power and solidarity of the British Empire will

be tested as it has never been tested before. There will be such a

struggle as has never been known in the history of the world. Every

ounce of power that we have will be requisitioned; every able-bodied man

in the country will be called to arms."

"But the country will refuse to respond," was his reply.

"If you are right, and the men of England refuse to respond, England

will cease to be. There will be no England, and Germany will rule the

destinies of the world."

"You seem to be very sure of what Germany will do," he said, rather

impatiently.

"No one can travel in Germany, or read German literature, without

knowing it. It is a nation under arms. The love of war is bred in the

people. Militarism is glorified. They have such an army as was never

known before, and they have utilized all their discoveries in science to

make their army a perfect fighting machine. They have huge factories

devoted to the making of air-ships and guns, and all that appertains to

guns, and I tell you that if war breaks out between Germany and England,

our country will be tried as it was never tried before. Do you mean to

say that England would stand still while Germany sought to destroy us?"

"I mean that we are not a military people, and never will be." It was at

this point that young Lethbridge sprang to his feet, like a man angry.

"I do not believe that you are right, pater," he said. "If England were

in danger the young men of England would fight to the last man."

"No, they would not," replied the father, "because war is a devilish

thing. It is opposed to the teaching of Christianity."

"But where would our Christianity be, where would everything we hold

dear be, if Germany dominated the world?" protested Hugh. "Why, if I had

a hundred lives I would give them for the defense of my country."

"Then patriotism would be more than your religion?"

"I cannot argue the matter from that standpoint," replied young

Lethbridge. "I only know that I am an Englishman--every drop of my blood

is English. God made me English, and if I have a love for my country,

God gave me that love, and if there were a call for men I would

respond."

"You would be no son of mine if you did," replied the father.

"But he would," cried Isabella Lethbridge. "Why, father, you are a

fighter; you know you are, and I should be ashamed of Hugh if his

country called him and he held back. There doesn't seem to be much in

life worth being interested in, but if anything would arouse me, it

would be the thought of England in danger."

"And would you believe in war, even if we were in the wrong?" asked her

father.

"I cannot conceive of our being in the wrong," was her reply. "Besides,

it can never be wrong to defend one's native land." The girl's eyes

flashed as she made this reply, and I saw possibilities in her nature

which I had not recognized before. Her lips quivered, and her features

became animated with a kind of new life.

"But do you really believe, Mr. Erskine, that Germany means to force war

on England?" she went on.

"No one who has been to Germany, and has studied the life there, can

help knowing that they have been preparing for war for forty years, and

no one can help realizing that the Germans hate the English with a

deadly hatred. It may be only because of their jealousy, or it may be,

as they say, that our Navy keeps them from realizing their rightful

position. Anyhow, the fact remains. Our statesmen are doing their best

to put off the evil day, but it is a recognized fact among those in high

places that Europe at this moment is sitting on a powder magazine; and,

mark you, if war does come it will not be a picnic."

"I tell you the people of England will never allow such a thing," urged

Mr. Lethbridge doggedly; "we are a peace-loving people. Besides, we

cannot go to war; we have no army worth calling an army, and I, for one,

thank God for it."

"Of course there will be no war," said Mrs. Lethbridge confidently; "the

Powers would not allow it, my dears."

"Are we sure that we have yet realized what Germany is, or what her

people mean to do?" I asked. "During the last thirty years she has

simply forced herself upon the life of the world; her commerce has

progressed by leaps and bounds; she has placed her foot everywhere.

Before Bismarck's days she had practically no voice in the counsels of

the nations. To-day her voice is a dominant one, her commerce is still

increasing; she has succeeded, in spite of our protests, in building a

navy second to none but our own. Why did she build that navy? She can

command an army of, perhaps, eight or ten million men, more perfectly

equipped than any other army known in history. She has munitions,

implements of war, which can practically laugh at those of any other

nation."

"That shows her foolishness," said Mr. Lethbridge.

"How?"

"Because she does not know what other countries possess."

"Is not that where you make a mistake? Germany has a Secret Intelligence

Service, which enables her to know the strength of every army and navy

in the world. England at this time, for example, is simply riddled with

spies. Germany knows the strength of our Navy to a nicety. She knows our

every port, every harbor, every fortress; she has made it her business

to do so, and Germany means war. Do you think that when the time comes

England will sit idly by?"

"No! by heavens, no!" cried Hugh Lethbridge. "I doubt whether what you

say is true, Erskine, but if England is ever in danger, Englishmen will

be true to their name and their country."

"Yes, and Englishwomen too," cried Isabella Lethbridge. "I tell you

nothing can destroy the old fighting instinct, which will protect home

and Motherland. Dad," and she turned to her father almost fiercely, "do

you mean to say that if we were in danger you would advise us to do

nothing?"

Mr. Lethbridge laughed scornfully. "How can there be any danger?" he

asked. "War cannot come about in these days, as it did in the old times.

War depends now on the whole of the people; the democracy rules--not a

few men in high places."

"Democracy does not rule," cried the girl, "and never will. Democracy is

a mob which is forever calling out for leaders. No Government is

democratic, it is always autocratic."

"You are talking nonsense, child," said her father. "You can do nothing

to-day against the voice of the people, and the voice of the people is

against anything like war. I repeat what I said just now--I would rather

see a son of mine dead than that he should be a soldier! But there,

there! There is no chance of it. Whatever England has been, she is

to-day at peace, and as far as Cornwall is concerned, as I said just

now, John Wesley has killed militarism."

He left the room as he spoke, while Hugh Lethbridge looked meaningly

towards his sister.

"I am afraid I shall have to be going," I said, looking at my watch. "I

have stayed too long already."

"No, no!" protested Hugh. "Stay a little longer. Do you know, Erskine,

it is like a fresh breeze from the mountains to hear what you have been

saying to-night. We live a starved, narrow life down here, and--and I'm

sick of it. I almost wish war would break out."

"For shame, Hugh!" said his mother. "What good would you be as a

soldier? No one can be an officer in an army unless he is trained; and

as for your becoming a private, why, think how ridiculous you would look

in a private's uniform."

"I am afraid I must be going," I persisted, moving towards the door.

"I will have the car out and drive you home," said Hugh Lethbridge.

"No," I said, "it is a beautiful night, and I think I would rather

walk."

"But in your state of health, Mr. Erskine, it would be very foolish,"

said Mrs. Lethbridge. "Really, we cannot allow you."

"I would rather walk," I persisted. Whereupon Hugh announced his

intention of accompanying me.

When Mr. Lethbridge bade me good-night he had quite recovered his

equanimity, and expressed the hope that I would soon come to see them

again.

"I feel like a toad in a hole," said Hugh, after we had walked some

minutes in silence together.

"How is that?" I asked.

"What has life to offer a fellow? The pater insisted upon my going to

the University and reading for the Bar. I am not fit for it--I know I am

not fit. Then, although he pretends to be a man of the people, he is

also socially ambitious. You would not believe it, would you? I know it

is wrong for me to talk in this way, but somehow I cannot help it. You

know, Erskine, as my father said just now, he was a poor man, and made

money rapidly, and he is disappointed that the doors of the county

people are not open to us. I do not care a fig about the county people

myself; do you?"

"Some of them are very nice," I replied.

"You will not take it amiss of me if I tell you something, will you?

And, of course, you will regard it as a confidence? It is something

which means a lot to me."

"Do you think you know me well enough to tell me?" I replied. "After

all, we have only met twice."

"I must tell you," he persisted. "As you say, I have only met you twice,

but I seem to have known you all my life. Besides, a fellow must tell

his thoughts to some one. I am in love, Erskine."

"That is interesting."

"Yes, but don't you see, everything is at cross-purposes. Old Treherne,

down here, has a daughter several years older than I am. You have heard

of Treherne, haven't you? He is the Squire."

"Yes, I have heard of Mr. Treherne."

"His daughter is on the shelf--has been for several years. He is as poor

as a church mouse, is the Squire; but then, he is one of the big people

in the county, and the pater has an idea that if I were to marry her ...

well, you can see, can't you?"

"The lady might not be willing," I suggested.

"Quite possible, of course; but the pater seems sure she would be. You

see, she's thirty, if she's a day, and as ugly as they make 'em, and the

pater wants me to sell my soul and marry her. By so doing, old Treherne

would be able to pay off the mortgages on the estate, and I, in time,

would become the Squire. Just think of it!"

"I thought he wanted you to read for the Bar?" I interposed.

"Yes, he does, but that is only one of his many schemes. He wants me to

marry Treherne's daughter. Celia, they call her--Celia Treherne. Good,

isn't it?"

"Why, isn't she an estimable lady?"

"Estimable! Estimable enough. But, as I told you just now, I am in love

with a farmer's daughter, one of the class my family really belongs to,

and the pater--well, I need scarcely tell you what he says."

"And this farmer's daughter's name?" I queried.

"I wish you would let me introduce you to her," he cried eagerly. "A

sweeter girl never lived. I used to think of her as a sweetheart ten

years ago, when the pater was poorer than he is now. I fought several

boys about her. Mary Treleaven is her name. Do you think that you could

persuade the governor? You see, he refuses to countenance it, and,

without him, I haven't a penny with which to bless myself."

"My dear fellow," I said, "if you care anything about the girl you will

make yourself independent of your father."

"Yes, but what am I fit for--what can I do? He professes to have

democratic notions, and yet he has given me the education of a

gentleman; sent me to a public school, where no one learns anything of

any use, and then to Oxford, where I just scraped through, and got a

pass degree. What is the good of all that to me? There is not a single

thing I care anything about, except farming, and that needs capital.

What would you advise me to do?"

"I am afraid I can't advise anything just now. You see, I know so little

about either of you. Perhaps when I have been here a little longer I may

be able to help." By this time we had reached the little wooded lane

which led to my hut.

"You will come and see us again soon?" he pleaded.

"You are very kind," I replied. "If I am well enough, I will."

"I cannot believe you are so ill as you think," he said eagerly.

I did not answer him. Of what use was it for me to tell him of the

gnawing pain which I could feel just then--pain which told me that my

very life was being eaten away?

"Won't you come in?" I asked.

"No, I mustn't. Besides, you will be tired. I say! what is that?" and he

pointed towards the highest part of the cliff, the base of which pushed

itself out into the sea. I looked, and in the dim light saw what I felt

sure to be a boat approaching the shore.

"Some fishermen, I expect," I replied.

"No, fishermen do not hang so close to the rocks as that," was his

answer. "Besides, the boat is making directly for us. No one was ever

known to land a fishing-boat on this beach. Fishing-boats go direct to

the harbor at St. Eia."

We listened intently, and heard the steady splash of the oars, and

presently I thought I heard low, murmuring voices, but I was not sure.

VII

ISABELLA LETHBRIDGE

During the next few days nothing happened, and, if the truth must be

told, I am afraid I got very lonely and depressed. Simpson did his best

to interest me, but failed. My books, too, seemed dull and colorless. I

suppose it was natural. I was passing through a phase in my life which

was the inevitable consequence of what had hitherto taken place. The

malady from which I was suffering was taking rather an acute form just

then, and I had neither the strength nor inclination for exercise. Thus,

although the weather was glorious and the air pure and bracing, I found

that sitting day after day amid the same surroundings was anything but

exhilarating. Moreover, although I cannot explain it, a sense of dread

possessed me. I felt sure that something was going to happen, and that I

was going to be at the centre of some untoward event.

I expect I felt all the more irritable because my desire to live became

stronger and stronger. It appeared to me that I had nothing to live for,

and yet I hung on to life, and the hope of life, grimly.

"Simpson," I said one day, "you told me when we came here that an idiot

lad, who went by the name of Fever Lurgy, waited on old Father Abraham

and did his errands. What has become of him?"

"Don't know, sir."

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