RUBY’S DREAM.
“I kissed thee when I went away
On thy sweet eyes--thy lips that smiled.
I heard thee lisp thy baby lore--
Thou wouldst not learn the word farewell.
God’s angels guard thee evermore,
Till in His heaven we meet and dwell!”
HANS ANDERSON.
That night Ruby has a curious dream. It is stilly night, and she is
standing down by the creek, watching the dance and play of the water
over the stones on its way to the river. All around her the moonlight
is streaming, kissing the limpid water into silver, and in the deep
blue of the sky the stars are twinkling like gems on the robe of the
great King.
Not a sound can the little girl hear save the gentle murmur of the
stream over the stones. All the world--the white, white, moon-radiant
world--seems to be sleeping save Ruby; she alone is awake.
Stranger than all, though she is all alone, the child feels no sense of
dread. She is content to stand there, watching the moon-kissed stream
rushing by, her only companions those ever-watchful lights of heaven,
the stars.
Faint music is sounding in her ears, music so faint and far away that
it almost seems to come from the streets of the Golden City, where the
redeemed sing the “new song” of the Lamb through an endless day. Ruby
strains her ears to catch the notes echoing through the still night in
faint far-off cadence.
Nearer, ever nearer, it comes; clearer, ever clearer, ring those glad
strains of joy, till, with a great, glorious rush they seem to flood
the whole world:
“Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace; good will toward men!”
“It’s on Jack’s card!” Ruby cannot help exclaiming; but the words die
away upon her lips.
Gazing upwards, she sees such a blaze of glory as almost seems to blind
her. Strangely enough the thought that this is only a dream, and the
attendant necessity of pinching, do not occur to Ruby just now.
She is gazing upwards in awestruck wonder to the shining sky. What is
this vision of fair faces, angel faces, hovering above her, faces
shining with a light which “never was on land or sea,” the radiance
from their snowy wings striking athwart the gloom?
And in great, glorious unison the grand old Christmas carol rings
forth--
“Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace; good will toward men!”
Open-eyed and awestruck, the little girl stands gazing upwards, a
wonder fraught with strange beauty at her heart. Can it be possible
that one of those bright-faced angels may be the mother whom Ruby never
knew, sent from the far-off land to bear the Christmas message to the
child who never missed a mother’s love because she never knew it?
“Oh, mamma,” cries poor Ruby, stretching appealing hands up to the
shining throng, “take me with you! Take me with you back to heaven!”
She hardly knows why the words rise to her lips. Heaven has never been
a very real place to this little girl, although her mother is there;
the far-off city, with its pearly gates and golden streets, holds but
a shadowy place in Ruby’s heart, and before to-night she has never
greatly desired to enter therein.
The life of the present has claimed all her attention, and, amidst
the joys and pleasures of to-day, the coming life has held but little
place. But now, with heaven’s glories almost opened before her, with
the “new song” of the blessed in her ears, with her own long-lost
mother so near, Ruby would fain be gone.
Slowly the glory fades away, the angel faces grow dimmer and dimmer,
the heavenly music dies into silence, and the world is calm and hushed
as before. Still Ruby stands gazing upwards, longing for the angel
visitants to come again. But no heavenly light illumines the sky, only
the pale radiance of the moon, and no sound breaks upon the child’s
listening ear save the monotonous music of the ever-flowing water.
With a disappointed little sigh, Ruby brings her gaze back to earth
again. The white moonlight is flooding the country for miles around,
and in its light the ringed trees in the cleared space about the
station stand up gaunt and tall like watchful sentinels over this
home in the lonely bush. Yet Ruby has no desire to retrace her steps
homewards. It may be that the angel host with their wondrous song will
come again. So the child lingers, throwing little pebbles in the brook,
and watching the miniature circles widen and widen, brightened to
limpid silver in the sheeny light.
A halting footstep makes her turn her head. There, a few paces away,
a bent figure is coming wearifully along, weighted down beneath its
bundle of faggots. Near Ruby it stumbles and falls, the faggots
rolling from the wearied back down to the creek, where, caught by a
boulder, they swing this way and that in the flowing water.
Involuntarily the child gives a step forward, then springs back with
a sudden shiver. “It’s the wicked old one,” she whispers. “And I
_couldn’t_ help him! Oh, I _couldn’t_ help him!”
“On earth peace, good will toward men!” Faint and far away is the echo,
yet full of meaning to the child’s heart. She gives a backward glance
over her shoulder at the fallen old man. He is groping with his hands
this way and that, as though in darkness, and the blood is flowing from
a cut in the ugly yellow wizened face.
“If it wasn’t _him_,” Ruby mutters. “If it was anybody else but the
wicked old one; but I can’t be kind to _him_.”
“On earth peace, good will toward men!” Clearer and clearer rings out
the angel benison, sent from the gates of heaven, where Ruby’s mother
waits to welcome home again the husband and child from whose loving
arms she was so soon called away. To be “kind,” that is what Ruby has
decided “good will” means. Is she, then, being kind, to the old man
whose groping hands appeal so vainly to her aid?
“Dad wouldn’t like me to,” decides Ruby, trying to stifle the voice of
conscience. “And he’s _such_ a horrid old man.”
Clearer and still clearer, higher and still higher rings out the
angels’ singing. There is a queer sort of tugging going on at Ruby’s
heart. She knows she ought to go back to help old Davis and yet she
cannot--cannot!
Then a great flash of light comes before her eyes, and Ruby suddenly
wakens to find herself in her own little bed, the white curtains drawn
closely to ward off mosquitoes, and the morning sun slanting in and
forming a long golden bar on the opposite curtain.
The little girl rubs her eyes and stares about her. She, who has so
often even doubted reality, finds it hard to believe that what has
passed is really a dream. Even yet the angel voices seem to be sounding
in her ears, the heavenly light dazzling her eyes.
“And they weren’t angels, after all,” murmurs Ruby in a disappointed
voice. “It was only a dream.”
Only a dream! How many of our so-called realities are “only a dream,”
from which we waken with disappointed hearts and saddened eyes. One far
day there will come to us that which is not a dream, but a reality,
which can never pass away, and we shall awaken in heaven’s morning,
being “satisfied.”
“Dad,” asks Ruby as they go about the station that morning, she hanging
on her father’s arm, “what was my mamma like--my own mamma, I mean?”
The big man smiles, and looks down into the eager little face uplifted
to his own.
“Your own mamma, little woman,” he repeats gently. “Poor little girl!
of course you don’t remember her. You remind me of her, Ruby, in a
great many ways, and it is my greatest wish that you grow up just such
a woman as your dear mother was. Why are you asking, little girlie? I
don’t think you ever asked me about your mother before.”
“I just wondered,” says Ruby. She is gazing up into the cloudless blue
of the sky, which has figured so vividly in her dream of last night. “I
wish I remembered her,” Ruby murmurs, with the tiniest sigh.
“Poor little lassie!” says the father, patting the small hand. “Her
greatest sorrow was in leaving you, Ruby. You were just a baby when she
died. Not long before she went away she spoke about you, her little
girl whom she was so unwilling to leave. ‘Tell my little Ruby,’ she
said, ‘that I shall be waiting for her. I have prayed to the dear Lord
Jesus that she may be one of those whom He gathers that day when He
comes to make up His jewels.’ She used to call you her little jewel,
Ruby.”
“And my name means a jewel,” says Ruby, looking up into her father’s
face with big, wondering brown eyes. The dream mother has come nearer
to her little girl during those last few minutes than she has ever
done before. Those words, spoken so long ago, have made Ruby feel her
long-dead young mother to be a real personality, albeit separated from
the little girl for whom one far day she had prayed that Christ might
number her among His jewels. In that fair city, “into which no foe can
enter, and from which no friend can ever pass away,” Ruby’s mother has
done with all care and sorrow. God Himself has wiped away all tears
from her eyes for ever.
Ruby goes about with a very sober little face that morning. She gathers
fresh flowers for the sitting-room, and carries the flower-glasses
across the courtyard to the kitchen to wash them out. This is one of
Ruby’s customary little duties. She has a variety of such small tasks
which fill up the early hours of the morning. After this Ruby usually
conscientiously learns a few lessons, which her step-mother hears her
recite now and then, as the humour seizes her.
But at present Ruby is enjoying holidays in honour of Christmas,
holidays which the little girl has decided shall last a month or more,
if she can possibly manage it.
“You’re very quiet to-day, Ruby,” observes her step-mother, as the
child goes about the room, placing the vases of flowers in their
accustomed places. Mrs. Thorne is reclining upon her favourite sofa,
the latest new book which the station affords in her hand. “Aren’t you
well, child?” she asks.
“Am I quiet?” Ruby says. “I didn’t notice, mamma. I’m all right.”
It is true, as the little girl has said, that she has not even noticed
that she is more quiet than usual. Involuntarily her thoughts have
gone out to the mother whom she never knew, the mother who even now is
waiting in sunny Paradise for the little daughter she has left behind.
Since she left her so long ago, Ruby has hardly given a thought to her
mother. The snow is lying thick on her grave in the little Scottish
kirkyard at home; but Ruby has been happy enough without her, living
her own glad young life without fear of death, and with no thought to
spare for the heaven beyond.
But now the radiant vision of last night’s dream, combined with her
father’s words, have set the child thinking. Will the Lord Jesus indeed
answer her mother’s prayer, and one day gather little Ruby among His
jewels? Will he care very much that this little jewel of His has never
tried very hard throughout her short life to work His will or do His
bidding? What if, when the Lord Jesus comes, He finds Ruby all unworthy
to be numbered amongst those jewels of His? And the long-lost mother,
who even in heaven will be the gladder that her little daughter is with
her there, how will she bear to know that the prayer she prayed so long
ago is all in vain?
“And if he doesn’t gather me,” Ruby murmurs, staring straight up into
the clear, blue sky, “what shall I do? Oh, what shall I do?”
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