They all sat round the table and took their evening meal together before
Lady Markland went back. It was not a ceremonious, grand dinner, as if
there had been a party. Old Joseph pottered about, and put the dishes
on the table, and handed the potatoes now and then when they were not
wanted, and sometimes leaned across between the young ladies to regulate
the lamp, explaining why as he did so. "Excuse me, Miss Chatty, but it's
a-going to smoke," he said; and in the meantime the family helped each
other. But Lady Markland was not conscious of the defects in the service.
She sat by Theo's side, talking to him, looking at him in a kind of soft
ecstasy. They had been friends before, but it seemed that she had now
for the first time discovered what he was, and could not conceal her
pleasure, her gratitude, her admiration. She made him tell her how it
all happened, a dozen times over, while the others talked of other
things, and poured out her thanks, her happiness, her ascriptions of
praise, as if he had been more than mortal, devoting herself to him
alone. Lady Markland had never been the kind of woman who allows herself
in society to be engrossed by a man. It was entirely unlike her, unlike
her character, a new thing. She was quite unconscious of Minnie's sharp
eyes upon her, of the remarks which were being made. All she was aware
of, in that rapture of safety after danger and relief from pain, was
Geoff, blinking with eyes half sleepy, half excited, by the side of Mrs.
Warrender, nothing hurt in him but his knickerbockers; and the young man
by her side, with the wound upon his head, who had saved her child's
life. Theo, for his part, was wrapped in a mist of delight for which
there was no name. He saw only her, thought only of her; and for the
first time began to imagine what life might be if it should ever come to
mean a state in which this rapture should be permanent,--when she would
always look at him so, always devote herself, eyes and lips and all her
being, to make him happy.
The room lay in darkness beyond the steady light of the white lamp,
shining on the circle of faces. There was not much conversation. Minnie
was sternly silent, on the watch; Chatty sympathetically on the alert,
too, though she scarcely knew why, because her sister was; Mrs. Warrender
listening with a faint smile to Geoff's little chatter, occasionally
casting a glance at the other end of the table, which she could see but
imperfectly. Lady Markland spoke low, addressing Theo only, so that
Geoff, as before, held the chief place. He was never weary of going over
the adventures of the day.
"It is that tall house before you come to the village,--a tall, tall
house, with a wall all round, as if to keep prisoners in. I know there
are no prisoners now. Of course not! There are people all about in the
fields and everywhere, who would soon tell the policeman and set you
free. I was not afraid. Still, if the gates had been shut, and they
refused to open, I don't know what one would do. The lady was like a
picture in the Pilgrim's Progress,--that one, you know--I thought her
pretty at first. But then she held me in her arm as if I had been a
baby."
"Oh, it would be Those People!" said Minnie, moved to a passing
exclamation of horror.
"Never mind that now. You must not venture out again without the groom,
for it makes your mother unhappy--Theo," said Mrs. Warrender, with a
smile and a sigh, "when he was a little fellow like you, never did
anything to make me unhappy."
"Didn't he?" said Geoff seriously. "But I didn't know. How could I tell
pony would so soon get hungry? He hasn't a regular dinner-time, as we
have; only munches and munches all day. But I was telling you about the
tall house."
"You must tell me another time, Geoff. Theo must bring you back with him
sometimes for a holiday."
"Yes," said Geoff, "that would do better. Pony would go splendid by the
side of Theo's big black. I shall come often--when I do my lessons well.
I have never done any lessons except with mamma. Does Theo like teaching
boys?"
"I don't know, my dear. I don't think he has ever tried."
"Then why is he coming to teach me? That, at the very bottom of it, you
know, is what I wanted him to tell me; for he would not tell straight
out, the real truth, before mamma."
"I hope he always tells the real truth," said Mrs. Warrender gently. "I
suppose, my little Geoff, it is because he is fond of you."
Upon this Geoff shook his little head for a long time, twisting his face
and blinking his keen little eyes. "He is not fond of me--oh no, it is
not that. I can do with Theo very well,--as well as with any one; but he
is not fond of me."
"I am glad to hear that you can do with Theo," said the mother, much
amused.
"Yes. I don't mind him at all: but he is not fond of me; and he is sure
not to teach mamma's way, and that is the only way I know. If he were to
want to punish me, Mrs. Warrender----"
"I hope, my dear, there will be no question of that."
"I shouldn't mind," said the boy, "but mamma wouldn't like it. It might
be very awkward for Theo. You are flogged when you go to school, aren't
you? At least, all the books say so. Mamma," he went on, raising his
voice, "here is a difficulty,--a great difficulty. If Theo should want
to flog me, what should you do?"
Lady Markland did not hear him for the moment. She was absorbed!--this was
the remark made by Minnie, who watched with the intensest observation.
Then Geoff, in defiance of good manners, drummed on the table to attract
his mother's attention, and elevated his voice: "Can't you hear what I
am saying, mamma? If I were to be stupid with my lessons, and Theo were
to flog me----" ("It is only putting a case, for I am not stupid," he
added, for Mrs. Warrender's instruction, in an undertone.)
"You must not suggest anything so dreadful," said Lady Markland from the
other end of the table. "But now you must thank Mrs. Warrender, Geoff,
and Mr. Theo, and every one; for the carriage has come round, and it is
growing late, and we must go away."
Then Mrs. Warrender rose, as in duty bound, and the whole party with
her. "I will not ask you to stay; it is late for him, and he has had too
much excitement," said the mistress of the house.
"And to think I might never have brought him home at all, never heard
his voice again, but for your dear son, your good son!" cried Lady
Markland, taking both her hands, putting forward her head, with its
smooth silken locks in which the light shone, and the soft round of her
uplifted face, to the elder woman, with an emotion and tenderness which
went to Mrs. Warrender's heart. She gave the necessary kiss, but though
she was touched there was no enthusiasm in her reply.
"You must not think too much of that, Lady Markland. I hope he would
have done it for any child in danger."
This, of course, is always perfectly true; but it chills the effusion of
individual gratitude. Lady Markland raised her head, but she still held
Mrs. Warrender's hands. "I wish," she said, "oh, I wish you would tell
me frankly! Does it vex you that he should be so good to me? This kind,
kind offer about Geoff,--is it too much? Yes, yes, I know it is too much;
but how can I refuse what he is so good, so charitable, as to offer,
when it is such a boon to us? Oh, if you would tell me! Is it
displeasing, is it distasteful to you?"
"I don't know how to answer you," Mrs. Warrender said.
"Ah! but that is an answer. Dear Mrs. Warrender, help me to refuse it
without wounding his feelings. I have always felt it was too much."
"Lady Markland, I cannot interfere. He is old enough to judge for
himself. He will not accept guidance from me,--ah, nor from you either,
except in the one way." She returned the pressure of her visitor's hand,
which had relaxed, with one that was as significant. "It is not so easy
to lay spirits when they are once raised," she said.
Lady Markland gave her a sudden, alarmed, inquiring look; but Theo came
forward at that moment with her cloak, and nothing could be said more.
He came back into the dining-room, expectant, defiant, fire in all his
veins, and in his heart a sea of agitated bliss that had to get an
outlet somewhere; not in a litany to her, for which there was no place,
but at least in defence of her and of himself. It was Minnie, as usual,
who stood ready to throw down the glove; Chatty being no more than a
deeply interested spectator, and the mother drawing aside with that
sense of impossibility which balks remonstrance, from the fray. Besides,
Mrs. Warrender did not know, in the responsive excitement in herself
which Theo's passion called forth, whether she wished to remonstrate or
to put any hindrance in his way.
"Well, upon my word!" said Minnie, "Mrs. Wilberforce may well say the
world is coming to a pretty pass. Only six months a widow, and not a bit
of crape upon her! I knew she wore no cap. Cap! why, she hasn't even a
bonnet, nor a veil, nor _anything!_ A little bit of a hat, with a black
ribbon,--too light for _me_ to wear; even Chatty would be ashamed to be
seen----"
"Oh no, Minnie; in the garden, you know, we have never worn anything
deeper."
"Do you call this the garden?" cried Minnie, her voice so deep with
alarm and presentiment that it sounded bass, in the silence of the
night. "Six miles off, and an open carriage, and coming among people who
are themselves in mourning! It ought to have given her a lesson to see
my mother in her cap."
"If you have nothing better to do than to find fault with Lady
Markland----" said Theo, pale with passion.
"Oh," cried Minnie, "don't suppose I am going to speak about Lady Markland
to you. How can you be so infatuated, Theo? You a tutor,--you, that have
always been made such a fuss with, as if there was not such another in
the world! What was it all he was to be? A first class, and a Fellow,
and I don't know what. But tutor to a small boy, tutor to a little
lord,--a sort of a valet, or a sort of a nurse--"
"Minnie! your brother is at an age when he must choose for himself."
"How much are you to have for it?" she cried,--"how much a year? Or are
you to be paid with presents, or only with the credit of the connection?
Oh, I am glad poor papa is dead, not to hear of it. He would have known
what to think of it all. He would have given you his opinion of a
woman--of a woman----"
"Lady Markland is a very nice woman," said Chatty. "Oh, Theo, don't look
as if you were going to strike her! She doesn't know what she is saying.
She has lost her temper. It is just Minnie's way."
"Of a woman who wears no crape for her husband," cried Minnie, with an
effort, in her bass voice.
Theo, who had looked, indeed, as if he might have knocked his sister
down, here burst into an angry peal of laughter, which rang through the
house; and his mother, seizing the opportunity, took him by the arm and
drew him away. "Don't take any notice," she said. "You must not forget
she is your sister, whatever she says. And, my dear boy, though Minnie
exaggerates, she has reason on her side, from her point of view. No, I
don't think as she does, altogether; but, Theo, can't you understand
that it is a disappointment to us? We always made so sure you were going
to do some great thing."
"And to be of a little real use once in a way, is such a small thing!"
"Oh, Theo, you must be reasonable, and think a little. It does not want
a scholar like you to teach little Geoff."
"A scholar--like me. How do you know I am a scholar at all?"
Mrs. Warrender knew that no answer to this was necessary, and did not
attempt it. She went on: "And you are not in a position to want such
employment. Don't you see that everybody will begin to inquire what your
inducement was? A young man who has nothing, it is all quite natural;
but you--Theo, have you ever asked yourself how you are to be repaid?"
"You are as bad as Minnie, mother," he said, with scorn; "you think I
want to be repaid."
She clasped her hands upon his arm, looking up at him with a sort of
pitying pride. "_She_ must think of it, Theo--everybody must think of
it; ah yes, and even yourself, at the last. Every mortal, everybody that
is human,--oh, Theo, the most generous!--looks for something, something
in return."
The young man tried to speak, but his voice died away after he had said
"Mother!" To this he had no reply.
But though he could not answer the objection, he could put it aside;
and as a matter of course he had his way. At the beginning of a thing,
however clearly it may be apparent that embarrassment is involved, few
people are clear-sighted enough to perceive how great the embarrassment
may come to be. Lady Markland was not wiser than her kind. She spoke of
Theo's kindness in a rapture of gratitude, and ended always by saying
that, after all, that was nothing in comparison with the fact that
he had begun by saving the boy's life. "I owe my child to him," she
said,--"I owe him Geoff's life; and now it almost seems natural, when
he has done so much, that he should do anything that his kind heart
prompts." She would say this with tears in her eyes, with such an
enthusiasm of gratitude that everybody was touched who heard her. But
then, everybody did not hear Lady Markland's account of the matter; and
the common mass, the spectators who observe such domestic dramas with
always a lively desire to get as much amusement as possible out of them,
made remarks of a very different kind. The men thought that Warrender
was a fool, but that the widow was consoling herself; the ladies said
that it was sad to see a young man so infatuated, but that Lady Markland
could not live without an adviser; and there were some, even, who began
to lament "poor dear young Markland," as if he had been an injured
saint. The people who heard least of these universal comments were,
however, the persons most concerned: Lady Markland, because she saw few
people, and disarmed, as has been said, those whom she did see; and
Warrender, because he was not the sort of man, young though he was, whom
other men cared to approach with uncalled-for advice. There was but one
person, indeed, after his sister, who lifted up a faithful testimony to
Theo. Mrs. Wilberforce, as his parish clergyman's wife, felt that, if
the rector would not do it, it was her duty to speak. She took advantage
of the opportunity one evening after Christmas, when Warrender was dining
at the Rectory. "Are you _still_ going to Markland every day?" she said.
"Isn't it a great tie? I should think by the time you have ridden there
and back you can't have much time for any business of your own."
"It is a good thing, then," said Theo, "that I have so little business
of my own."
"You say so," said the rector's wife, "but most gentlemen make fuss
enough about it, I am sure. There seems always something to be
doing when you have an estate in your hands. And now that you are a
magistrate--though I know you did _not_ go to Quarter Sessions," she
said severely.
"There are always enough of men who like to play at law, without me."
"Oh, Theo, how can you speak so? when it is one of a gentleman's highest
functions, as everybody knows! And then there are the improvements. So
much was to be done. The girls could talk of nothing else. They were in
a panic about their trees. There is no stauncher Conservative than I
am," said Mrs. Wilberforce, "but I do think Minnie went too far. She
would have everything remain exactly as it is. Now I can't help seeing
that those trees---- But you have no time to think of trees or anything
else," she added briskly, fixing upon him her keen eyes.
"I confess," said Theo, "I never thought of the trees from a political
point of view."
"There, that is just like a man!" cried Mrs. Wilberforce. "You seize
upon something one says that can be turned into ridicule; but you never
will meet the real question. Oh, is that you, Herbert? Have you got rid
of your churchwarden so soon?"--for this was the pretext upon which the
rector had been got out of the way.
"He did not want much,--a mere question. Indeed," said the rector,
remembering that fibs are not permitted to the clergy any more than to
the mere laic, and perceiving that he must expect his punishment all the
same--with that courage which springs from the conviction that it is as
well to be hanged for a sheep as for a lamb, "it was not the
churchwarden at all; it was only a mistake of John."
"Well," said his wife significantly, "it was a mistake that was quickly
rectified, one can see, as you have come back so soon. And here is Theo
talking already of going home. Of course he has his lessons to prepare
for to-morrow; he is not a mere idle gentleman now."
Little gibes and allusions like these rained upon the young man from all
quarters during the first six months, but no one ventured to speak to
him with the faithfulness used by Mrs. Wilberforce; and after a time
even these irritating if not very harmful weapons dropped, and the whole
matter sank into the region of the ordinary. He rode, or, if the weather
was bad, drove, five days in the week to his little pupil, who in himself
was not to Theo's mind an attractive pupil, and who kept the temper of
the tutor on a constant strain. It ought, according to all moral rules,
to have been very good for Warrender to be thus forced to self-control,
and to exercise a continual restraint over his extremely impatient
temper and fastidious, almost capricious temperament. But there are
circumstances in which such self-restraint is rather an aggravating than
a softening process. During this period, however, Theo was scarcely to
be accounted for by the ordinary rules of human nature. His mind was
altogether absorbed by one of, if not by the most powerful influence of
human life. He was carried away by a tide of passion which was stronger
than life itself.