All that night and the following day Regina recognised no one; and it
was night again, and her strength began to fail, but her understanding
returned. Marcello saw the change, and made a sign to the nurse, who
went out to tell Kalmon.
It was about nine o'clock when he entered the room, and Regina knew him
and looked at him anxiously. He, in turn, glanced at Marcello, and she
understood. She begged Marcello to go and get some rest. Her voice was
very weak, as if she were suffocating, and she coughed painfully. He did
not like to go away, but Kalmon promised to call him at midnight; he had
been in the room six hours, scarcely moving from his seat. He lingered
at the door, looked back, and at last went out.
"Will she come?" asked Regina, when he was gone.
"In half an hour. I have sent a messenger, for they have no telephone."
A bright smile lighted up the wasted face.
"Heaven will reward you," she said, as the poor say in Rome when they
receive a charity.
Then she seemed to be resting, for her hands lay still, and she closed
her eyes. But presently she opened them, looking up gratefully into the
big man's kind face.
"Shall I be alone with her a little?" she asked.
"Yes, my dear. You shall be alone with her."
Again she smiled, and he left the nurse with her and went and waited
downstairs at the street door, till the Contessa and Aurora should come,
in order to take them up to the little apartment. He knew that Marcello
must have fallen asleep at once, for he had not rested at all for
twenty-four hours, and very little during several days past. Kalmon was
beginning to fear that he would break down, though he was so much
stronger than formerly.
Marcello had always been grateful to Regina, even when he had convinced
himself that he loved her. Love is not very compatible with gratitude.
Two people who love each other very much expect everything because they
are always ready to give everything, not in return or by way of any
exchange, but as if the two were one in giving and taking. A man cannot
be grateful to himself. But Marcello had never felt that dear illusion
with Regina, because there had been no real companionship; and so he had
always been grateful to her, and now that she was perhaps dying, he was
possessed by the horribly painful certainty that he could never repay
her what he owed, and that this debt of honour must remain unpaid for
ever, if she died. There was much more than that in what he felt, of
course, for there was his very real affection, tormented by the
foreboding of the coming wrench, and there was the profound sympathy of
a very kind man for a suffering woman. But all that together was not
love like hers for him; it was not love at all.
Kalmon waited, and smoked a little, reflecting on these things, which
he understood tolerably well. The quiet man of science had watched
Marcello thoughtfully, and could not help asking himself what look there
would be in his own eyes, if Maddalena dell' Armi were dying and he were
standing by her bedside. It would not be Marcello's look.
A closed cab stopped before the entrance, and almost before he could
throw away his cigarette, the Contessa and Aurora were standing beside
him on the pavement.
"She is very weak," he said, "but she will not be delirious again for
some time--if at all."
Neither of the ladies spoke, and they followed him in silence up the
ill-lighted staircase.
"That is where I live," he said, as he passed his own door on the second
landing. "Marcello is camping there. He is probably asleep now."
"Asleep!" It was Aurora that uttered the single word, in a puzzled tone.
"He did not go to bed last night," Kalmon explained, going on.
"Oh!" Again the Professor was struck by the young girl's tone.
They reached the third landing, and Kalmon pushed the door, which he had
left ajar; he shut it when they had all entered, and he ushered the
mother and daughter into the small sitting-room. There they waited a
moment while he went to tell Regina that Aurora had come.
The young girl dropped her cloak upon a chair and stood waiting, her
eyes fixed on the door. She was a little pale, not knowing what was to
come, yet feeling somehow that it was to make a great difference to her
ever afterwards. She glanced at her mother, and the Contessa smiled
gently, as much as to say that she was doing right, but neither spoke.
Presently Kalmon came out with the Sister of Charity, who bent her head
gravely to the two ladies.
"She wishes to see you alone," Kalmon said, in explanation, while he
held the door open for Aurora to pass in.
He closed it after her, and the two were together.
When Aurora entered, Regina's eyes were fixed upon her face as if they
had already found her and seen her while she had been in the other room.
She came straight to the bedside and took the hand that was stretched
out to meet hers. It was thin and hot now, and the arm was already
wasted. Aurora remembered how strongly it had lifted her to the edge of
the rock, far away by Pontresina.
"You are very kind, Signorina," said the faint voice. "You see how I
am."
Aurora saw indeed, and kept the hand in hers as she sat down in the
chair that stood where Marcello had left it.
"I am very, very sorry," she said, leaning forward a little and looking
into the worn face, colourless now that the fever had subsided for a
while.
The same bright smile that Kalmon had seen lighted up Regina's features.
"But I am glad!" she answered. "They do not understand that I am glad."
"No, no!" cried Aurora softly. "Don't say you are glad!"
The smile faded, and a very earnest look came into the hollow dark eyes.
"But I have not done it on purpose," Regina said. "I did not know there
was fever in that place, or I would not have sat down there. You believe
me, Signorina, don't you?"
"Yes, indeed!"
The smile returned very gradually, and the anxious pressure of the hand
relaxed.
"You must not think that I was looking for the fever. But since it came,
and I am going from here, I am glad. I shall not be in the way any more.
That hindrance will be taken out of his life."
"He would not like to hear you speak like this," Aurora said, with great
gentleness.
"There is no time for anything except the truth, now. And you are good,
so good! No, there is no time. To-morrow, I shall be gone. Signorina, if
I could kneel at your feet, I would kneel. But you see how I am. You
must think I am kneeling at your feet."
"But why?" asked Aurora, with a little distress.
"To ask you to forgive me for being a hindrance. I want pardon before I
go. But I found him half dead on the door-step. What could I do? When I
had seen him, I loved him. I knew that he thought of you. That was all
he remembered--just your name, and I hated it, because he had forgotten
all other names, even his own, and his mother, and everything. He was
like a little child that learns, to-day this, to-morrow that, one thing
at a time. What could I do? I taught him. I also taught him to love
Regina. But when the memory came back, I knew how it had been before."
Her voice broke and she coughed, and raised one hand to her chest.
Aurora supported her tenderly until it was over, and when the weary head
sank back at last it lay upon the young girl's willing arm.
"You are tiring yourself," Aurora said. "If it was to ask my forgiveness
that you wished me to come, I forgave you long ago, if there was
anything to forgive. I forgave you when we met, and I saw what you were,
and that you loved him for himself, just as I do."
"Is it true? Really true?"
"So may God help me, it is quite true. But if I had thought it was not
for himself--"
"Oh, yes, it was," Regina answered. "It was, and it is, to the end. Will
you see? I will show you. For what the eyes see the heart believes more
easily. Signorina, will you bring the little box covered with old
velvet? It is there, on the table, and it is open."
Aurora rose, humouring her, and brought the thing she asked for, and sat
down again, setting it on the edge of the bed. Regina turned her head to
see it, and raised the lid with one hand.
"This is my little box," she said. "What he has given me is all in it. I
have no other. Will you see? Here is what I have taken from him. You
shall look everywhere, if you do not believe."
"But I do believe you!" Aurora cried, feeling that tears were coming to
her eyes.
"But you must see," Regina insisted. "Or perhaps when I am gone you will
say to yourself, 'There may have been diamonds and pearls in the little
box, after all!' You shall know that it was all for himself."
To please her Aurora took up some of the simple trinkets, simpler and
cheaper even than what she had herself.
"There are dresses, yes, many more than I wanted. But I could not let
him be ashamed of me when we went out together, and travelled. Do you
forgive me the dresses, Signorina? I wore them to please him. Please
forgive me that also!"
Aurora dropped the things into the open box and laid both her hands on
Regina's, bending down her radiant head and looking very earnestly into
the anxious eyes.
"Forgiveness is not all from me to you, Regina," she said. "I want yours
too."
"Mine?" The eyes grew wide and wondering.
"Don't you see that but for me he would have married you, and that I
have been the cause of a great wrong to you?"
For one instant Regina's face darkened, her brows straightened
themselves, and her lip curled. She remembered how, only two days ago,
in the very next room, Marcello had insisted that she should he his
wife. But as she looked into Aurora's innocent eyes she understood, and
the cloud passed from her own, and the bright smile came back. Aurora
had spoken in the simplicity of her true heart, sure that it was only
the memory of his love for her that had withheld Marcello from first to
last; and Regina well knew that it had always been present with him, in
spite of his brave struggle to put it away. That memory of another,
which Regina had seen slowly reviving in him, had been for something in
her refusal to marry him.
With the mysterious sure vision of those who are near death, she felt
that it would hurt Aurora to know the truth, except from Marcello
himself.
"If you have ever stood between us," she said, "you had the right. He
loved you first. There is nothing to forgive in that. Afterwards he
loved me a little. No one can take that from me, no one! It is mine, and
it is all I have, and though I am going, and though I know that he is
tired of me, it is still more than the world. To have it, as I have it,
I would do again what I did, from the first."
The voice was weak and muffled, but the words were distinct, and they
were the confession of poor Regina's life.
"If he were here," she said, after a moment, "I would lay your hand in
his. Only let me take that memory with me!"
The young girl rose and bent over her as she answered.
"It is yours, to keep for ever."
She stooped a little lower and kissed the dying woman's forehead.
* * * * *
Under the May moon a little brigantine came sailing up to a low island
just within sight of Italy; when she was within half a mile of the reefs
Don Antonino Maresca put her about, for he was a prudent man, and he
knew that there are just a few more rocks in the sea than are in the
charts. It was a quiet night, and he was beating up against a gentle
northerly breeze.
When the head yards were swung, and braced sharp up for the other tack,
and the little vessel had gathered way again, the mate came aft and
stood by the captain, watching the light on the island.
"Are there still convicts on this island, Don Antonino?" the young man
asked.
"Yes, there are the convicts. And there is one among them whom I helped
to put there. He is an assassin that killed many when he was at liberty.
But now he sits for seven years in a little cell alone, and sees no
Christian, and it will be thirty years before he is free."
"Madonna!" ejaculated the mate. "When he has been there thirty years he
will perhaps understand."
"It is as I say," rejoined the captain. "The world is made so. There are
the good and the bad. The Eternal Father has created things thus. Get a
little more on the main sheet, and then flatten in those jibs."
Under the May moon, in the small shaft of white light that fell through
the narrow grated window, a man sat on the edge of his pallet bed. His
face was ghastly, and there were strange scars on his bare throat. His
cell was seven feet by six, and the air was hard to breathe, because the
wind was not from the south. But the moon was kinder than the sun. He
heard the ripple of the cool sea, and he tried to dream that a great
stone was hung to his neck, and that he had been thrown into a deep
place. Perhaps, some day, the gaoler would forget to take away the
coarse towel which was brought with the water in the morning. With a
towel he could hang himself.
* * * * *
Under the May moon a small marble cross cast its shadow upon young roses
and violets and growing myrtle. In the sweet earth below a very loyal
heart was at rest for ever. But the flowers were planted and still
tended by a woman with radiant hair; and sometimes, when she stooped to
train the young roses, bright drops fell quietly upon their bloom. Also,
on certain days, a man came there alone and knelt upon the marble border
within which the flowers grew. But the man and the woman never came
together; and he gave the gardener of that place money, praising him for
the care of the flowers.
* * * * *
Under the May moon the man and the woman went down from the cottage by
the Roman shore to the break in the high bank, and stood still a while,
looking out at the peaceful sea and the moon's broad path. Presently
they turned to each other, put out their hands, and then their arms, and
clasped each other silently, and kissed.