Nearly a month had passed rapidly away: Mr. Howard had been much in
London during the mornings, selecting furniture for Woodlands, and
giving many necessary orders for their future comfort; and Mrs. Stanley
had been well pleased to find that the joint example of Selina and Leila
appeared to have a beneficial effect on Matilda; the daily lessons went
on smoothly and well. Matilda now learned her texts regularly, and after
the first few days, had always selected them for herself; and these
texts generally evinced, not only a knowledge of her own faults, but a
sincere desire to get the better of them: the text for that morning had
been, “Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions:
according to thy mercy remember thou me, for thy goodness’ sake, O
Lord.”
And the answer she had selected was, “I have blotted out as a thick
cloud thy transgressions, and as a cloud thy sins: return unto me, for I
have redeemed thee.”
During this period Woodlands had been frequently visited. Leila had
become more and more pleased with the grounds, and the beautiful walks
with which it abounded.
Mr. Howard had selected a pretty little cottage, near the poultry-yard,
for Peggy Dobie, and Leila had had much delight in seeing the China
roses, and several pretty creepers, trained on its white walls, and the
little garden put in nice order, and well stocked with useful winter
vegetables. She had asked the gardener to put up a green turf seat in a
warm corner of the garden; he had humbly proposed that it should be in
the shade, but Leila said no--that Peggy Dobie always sat in the sun
when she watched her bees, and that she said, “The sun was gude baith
for bees and bodies, and gladdened her auld heart.”
Peggy had been allowed time to visit her friends before leaving her
country, but the period was now approaching for her arrival, and Leila’s
gay spirits were in full flow. Selina, the cat, and one solitary parrot,
had been poor substitutes for the loss of all the other favourites;
above all, the absence of Dash had been particularly felt and mourned
over. “Now,” she said, “I have but a few days to wait, and I can scarce
count up all the pleasures that are coming upon me;--Woodlands, and all
the Christmas party, with all the friends that I love; and Dash, and
Peggy Dobie, and all my birds and turtle-doves again,--joy, nothing but
joy.”
The morning in which Peggy Dobie was to embark with her precious cargo
rose calm and bright. The wind, which had been threatening to rise the
day before, was completely lulled, and Leila had been rejoicing in the
brightness of the day, and had watched the sun go down in golden
splendour. Later in the evening, however, the wind began to rise again,
but not so as at all to alarm her, and Leila’s tranquil sleep was
unbroken by the coming storm, the loud howling of the blast amidst the
trees, and the sound of distant thunder--it was a fearful night. Mr.
Howard had more than once left his bed to look out upon the scene of
desolation, for the ground was strewed with branches from the trees, and
the clouds were driving before the wind with unceasing velocity. It
recalled to his mind that dreadful night when he seemed about to part
with all most dear to him, and though deeply grateful for the present
safety of one so loved, he yet felt painfully anxious for those that
might now be in similar circumstances. The good old woman too, whom he
had been the means of removing from her quiet home, he thought what
Leila’s grief would be, and his own regrets, if aught of ill befell
her. Of all this threatened danger Leila was in ignorance till awakened
next morning by Nurse: her face of dismay Leila was too sleepy to
observe, but her words were startling.
“Oh, Miss Leila!” she exclaimed, “poor, _poor_ Peggy Dobie, and our
valuable Dash, and all the poor dumb animals.”
“What is it, Nurse?” Leila cried, starting up and rubbing her eyes; “are
they arrived?--but no; that is not possible; they cannot arrive for two
days yet. What has happened? why do you look so? Oh, tell me!”
“Calm yourself, my dear Miss Leila. It was not like my usual prudence to
frighten you in this way; but did you not hear the awful wind in the
night? listen to it now, how it roars.”
Leila was out of bed in a moment, and gazing from the window. The lawn
was strewed with leaves and branches from the trees; one branch lay
across the doorway, so very large, it seemed an entire tree. She
shuddered. Mr. Howard entered the room at this moment, and lifting her
in his arms, he replaced her in bed, and sat down beside her.
Leila’s long dark eyelashes were wet with tears; her cheeks were very
pale, and she trembled violently. Mr. Howard stooped down and kissed her
forehead.
“You were wrong to leave your bed, my child, you are very cold--and
cold also, I fear, from excessive agitation. Now, dear Leila, give me a
proof this day that you are endeavouring to gain more command over your
feelings, and let me see that you do not give way to what are, I trust,
unnecessary fears.”
“Unnecessary?” she replied, in a low voice. “Papa, do you remember
Clara?”
“Yes, my dear child, I do remember; but I remember also that there is
_One_ whose arm is mighty to save. He can say to the angry waves, ‘Be
still;’ and without his knowledge ‘not a sparrow falls to the ground.’
He took Clara to Himself, and He saved us from further trial. He willed
it so--let us trust to Him entirely. He alone, who knows the end from
the beginning, can make all work together for good.”
Leila hastily brushed the tears from her eyes, and laid her little hand
on her papa’s. Mr. Howard started, it was so very cold; but she
struggled for composure, and said in a calm voice,----“Yes, papa, I will
try to think of all this, and my text for to-day shall be, ‘The waves of
the sea are mighty and rage horribly, but yet the Lord who dwelleth on
high is mightier: for He maketh the storm to cease, so that the waves
thereof are still.’ Now kiss me, papa, and please send Amy to help me to
dress, and when I have been to your room to say my prayers and to read
to you, I am sure I shall feel quite comforted again, and you shall see
that I am getting command, papa.”
Leila kept her promise. Not a moment did she give way to outward
emotion, but during that day many an anxious expression passed over her
sweet face, for the storm continued to rage fearfully, and the party
were constantly startled from their seats by the crashing sound of some
large branch from the surrounding trees. These creaking and crashing
sounds constantly brought a frightful moment to Leila’s imagination, and
no one was without anxiety, for it was impossible to believe but that
such a storm must bring disastrous consequences to many an anxious
heart. Selina seldom left Leila’s side for a moment, and made constant
efforts to draw her into conversation; and Matilda, as every fresh gust
of wind arose, exerted herself in every way she could think of to
distract her attention from the scene without. Later in the day it began
to rain heavily, and the wind fell, and towards evening the sky cleared,
and the moon shone out so bright, so calm, its mild rays shed instant
peace and hope into Leila’s young heart, and she lay down to sleep with
many bright anticipations of the morrow.
The morrow came, the lawn looked fresh and green, all traces of the
storm had been removed, and every surrounding object seemed rejoicing
in the sunshine. Leila proposed that after the lessons they should walk
with Nurse and Amy to Woodlands to see if all was in order in Peggy
Dobie’s cottage for her reception in the evening.
“I am sorry,” she said, “that she is not to arrive here at first with my
pets, for we cannot know the very moment, and it will take some time for
Bill to send us the message. How nice it would be if we had a
carrier-pigeon, papa, then it could fly to us in a moment; when we are
staying at Woodlands, perhaps you will allow me to teach a
carrier-pigeon, then I can send letters to Selina and Matilda whenever I
wish to tell them any thing. Eh, papa? is not this a nice little plan?
But you have not answered me yet if we may go to Woodlands.”
“Why, my dear child, so many nice little plans from you come popping
out, one after another, that it is not easy to answer them all; but I
have no objections to your going to Woodlands, only remember, Leila,
that it is not at all certain that Peggy will arrive this evening; the
steamboat will probably have been detained by the storm.”
“Well, papa, I will try to be very patient; but I don’t think it will be
detained; I think that perhaps the wind will have blown it on much
quicker; so we must be quick also. You know, papa, you say we must not
anticipate evils, or give way to imaginary fears, eh, papa?”
“Get along, little woman,” was all Mr. Howard’s answer, as he patted her
head, and the next moment she was gone.
As soon as the lessons were over, the young party proceeded merrily on
their way to Woodlands. They soon reached the lodge, and found Bill at
his post, who opened the gates, and gave them entrance with the greatest
alacrity; and when informed of their intention to visit Peggy Dobie’s
cottage, took down a large key that hung behind his own door, and
prepared to lead the way. He would not hear of Nurse’s proposal to save
him that trouble. “What!” he said, “was he not proud to do that small
service for his master’s daughter, or any of her friends--he hoped to do
many a greater service than that for the family ere long.”
They were all much pleased with the perfect order in which they found
every thing around the cottage, and still more delighted with all
within. Mr. Howard had indeed done his part; the little bed-room looked
so comfortable, with its nice tidy bed in one corner, its chest of
drawers, its white deal table, with basin, ewer, &c., all, in short, was
complete. And then the kitchen--the kitchen was a picture indeed; there
stood the pretty chairs, and the small round table of walnut-tree,
looking so bright, which Leila had entreated her papa to procure for
Peggy. In a corner next the latticed window, was a small cupboard with a
glass door, showing such pretty cups, saucers, and glasses within, as
could not fail soon to become the pride of Peggy’s heart. Above the
small dresser there were shelves with plates, and dishes, and bowls, and
mugs innumerable, and close by the door a cuckoo clock was ticking
cheerily. They all looked round in perfect ecstasies.
“It is most delightful,” Leila exclaimed; “there is just one thing that
could be better, this arm-chair for Peggy should be turned round to the
hearth, a cat should be lying before it, and a nice fire burning. Were
you able to find peats in this country?” she said, turning to Bill; “you
know I begged you to try.”
“Yes, yes,” Matilda said, “he did find them--I saw them in a box behind
the door.” She was off in a moment, and returned with a couple in her
hand.
“Now, Nurse, dear Nurse,” Leila said, coaxingly, “do let me light
Peggy’s first fire myself--you know how very kind she was to me; now
there’s a good Nurse, I see you are going to let me--you have your
good-natured face on, though you are shaking your head; but I know what
you mean by shaking it--you think I shall dirty my hands, and that is
not a young lady’s work; but peats don’t dirty the hands--I am only
going to put on peats and wood, you know.”
“Oh, Miss Leila, Miss Leila, you have such a way with me.”
“But, Nurse, you know you say yourself that I should not have useless
hands and be a fine lady. There, now I see it is yes by your eyes.
Matilda, give me that match-box from the chimney-piece.” She was on her
knees on the hearth, and had struck a light in a moment.
“Now, Selina, take the bellows, and blow very gently while I am
crumbling down a little of the peat; that’s it. Oh, how nice! See what a
blaze already--now for the wood; we must put the wood behind, and more
peats in the front--how it burns! is not this charming?”
Bill stood looking on in mute astonishment. “Well,” he said at last,
“desert island, or _no desert island_, you are a handy little miss; see
when a London young lady would have kindled a fire in such a
fashion,--but you seem all of one stamp. Heaven be praised for such a
family.”
“There is still one thing wanting,” Leila said, “still the cat. Peggy
will not think herself at home without a cat upon the hearth. You are so
good-natured,” she continued, looking up in Bill’s face, “perhaps you
would be so very kind as to give us your cat, just for one day, till
Peggy has time to unpack her own.”
Bill smiled. “There is nothing in my house that I would not give,” he
replied, “to pleasure my young mistress; but, bless your heart, the cats
in our country would never abide on a strange hearth. Our cat would be
through the window in no time, I am afeared.”
“It was very foolish in me to propose this,” Leila answered, “for I dare
say all cats are the same, and our Selina almost mewed her heart out
when she was first put into the ship--she can’t bear strange places
either.”
Once more she looked around the room to see if all was perfect; the
small latticed window with the China-roses clustering in about it, she
was sure would delight Peggy, for Peggy was so fond of flowers; might
they not gather a few and make a nosegay for the middle of the table.
The next moment they were all in the little garden--the flowers were
quickly gathered and arranged, and after giving Bill many injunctions to
be so very kind as to step up frequently and put more wood on the fire,
and also to be quite sure to send off a quick messenger the very moment
Peggy and the pets entered the gates, they left the cottage.
They had not time to enter the house at Woodlands, where all with regard
to furnishing had been going on prosperously, but they had seen what had
been done there more than once. Leila had thought it all beautiful, but
she had a simple taste; she really did not like fine things, and her
only request with regard to the furnishing had been, “Nothing fine in my
room, papa--please, nothing fine; just a nice little bed with white
dimity curtains, and a large sea-grass mat under my little
washhand-stand, for I don’t like to wash and dash and splash on a
Brussels carpet.”
The rest of the day passed in pleasant expectation, but towards evening
the young people got very restless indeed, and little Alfred was
perpetually popping out at the door and running a little way down the
gravel walk, in the hope of meeting some one from Woodlands, and
bringing the first intelligence; but no carrier-pigeon or swift
messenger of any kind arrived; and at a later hour than usual the young
people retired to rest, disappointed, but not alarmed. To-morrow was a
new day, and to-morrow would bring all they wished. But to-morrow came;
it was a long trying day of expectation, and still no tidings were
received. It was with great difficulty that they could attend at all to
their lessons; but Mrs. Stanley was very indulgent, and repeated most of
them herself; and the moment they were over, she despatched them all to
count over their clothes, and to put their drawers in order; to be busy
and active was what she particularly required of them on that long, long
day. It came to an end at last, and they went early to bed; but Mr.
Howard had now become seriously uneasy, and next morning, as soon as
breakfast was over, went to London to inquire at the steamboat office if
they had received any intelligence with regard to the “Victoria.”
Leila’s face quite brightened as she saw him depart; the very idea that
he would bring back intelligence quite raised her spirits; she never for
a moment dreaded that this intelligence might not be favourable.
Mr. Howard returned sooner than was expected, but he had learned
nothing. Neither the Victoria, nor the other steamboat which had sailed
on the same day, had come in, and the owners were in much anxiety, as
there were reports of several wrecks on the coast. This last part of the
intelligence received, Mr. Howard did not communicate to Leila, but he
looked anxious, and she knew his face too well not to feel considerable
alarm. Next day he again went to London. Mrs. Stanley saw it would be
too much to ask any of them to attend to their lessons; Leila was
beginning to have a pale, exhausted look, she therefore gave Selina a
book of natural history to read to them aloud, while the other two
worked by the window. Poor Leila, she did not listen much. She worked
very little, and looked out a great deal; after some hours horses’ hoofs
were heard on the gravel walk; she saw her papa alight at the door; her
heart beat violently; she felt unable to move; he looked up and smiled;
she could not read that smile; it was sweet as usual, for when was his
smile ever otherwise when it rested on her? But it was a melancholy
smile. He entered the room, they all clustered round him.
“The Victoria has come in,” he said.
Leila clapped her hands. “My pets, my pets,” she cried; “and Dash, and
Peggy Dobie--all--ALL safe!”
“Dear child,” Mr. Howard continued, looking anxiously at her, “dear
child, your pets are safe, but Dash and Peggy--” he stopped.
“What of them, papa? Oh tell me, tell me quick--why do you look so
grieved?”
Mr. Howard drew her towards him. “Try to calm yourself, my beloved
child, for you have much to bear. Peggy and Dash are not in the
Victoria; they have not been seen since the night of the storm.”
“But how is that possible, papa? It cannot be, they were in the
ship--oh, yes they were. I cannot understand what you mean. I am not
very frightened; say it all out quick.”
Mr. Howard then went on to say that he had not been able to see the
captain, and had got but a confused account from two of the sailors, but
that both agreed in the same story. The storm had been most fearful;
they had anchored that dreadful night off Scarborough, but with little
hope of being able to keep their anchor. They expected every moment to
be driven on the shore. The passengers in the fore cabin were too much
frightened to keep below as they were advised and entreated to do. A
heavy sea had swept the deck, and several of them were swept overboard.
Peggy, with Dash by her side, had been seen on deck the moment before by
both these sailors. The night was frightfully dark, the sea running
mountain high; to save any of them was impossible. Next morning both
Peggy and Dash were amongst those missing.
Leila for a moment did not utter a word, she grew deadly pale, then
throwing her arms round her papa’s neck, she cried, “Lost to me, lost to
me for ever! Oh, poor Peggy, and my dear, dear Dash--my dearest
friend--” but seeing her papa’s look of distress, she stopped, then
continued, “I am wrong, very, very wrong; I am vexing you. Peggy herself
said, if the dearest was left, if she had him to love and him to listen
to--and have I not you, papa, and are you not my dearest one, and so
many besides to love?” and she drew Selina towards her, and with her
pocket-handkerchief she wiped Selina’s eyes, then went on, “and it is
bad in me to be so sorry for Dash--for poor Peggy is a human being--but
Dash, my own Dash, and twice he saved my life.” She covered her face
with her hands and sobbed violently.
Mr. Howard did not attempt to console her or to stop her tears; he
lifted her gently in his arms, and laying her on the sofa, sat down
beside her, clasping her hand in his.
After some time she became more calm; she lifted his hand to her lips
and kissed it, then shutting her eyes she in a few minutes dropped
asleep; it was but a troubled sleep, but all were thankful that it had
brought forgetfulness for the present. After some time she awoke with a
sudden start, slowly she remembered all. Sad memories they were which
clouded her sweet face, and tears again filled her eyes, but brushing
them hastily away, she said, in a low voice, “The great trial has come
to me at last, and I must bear it, but God will help me.” Then rising
from the sofa she slowly left the room.
Matilda sprang up to follow her, but Selina held her back, and whispered
in her ear, “You had better not, Matilda: I am sure Leila has gone to
her own room to pray.”
Anxious to see the captain of the Victoria, and if possible to obtain
more intelligence, Mr. Howard, on the following morning, again went to
London, but to his disappointment found that the vessel had sailed on
her downward passage a few hours before. A gentleman came into the
office while he was there to inquire for one of his trunks which was
missing, and Mr. Howard found he had been a passenger in the Victoria.
He said he had been much at sea, but had only once before been out in a
similar storm; that their escape had been most providential, as several
vessels near them had been driven on shore. The frightful accident which
had taken place had thrown a heavy gloom on all; their being unable to
render any assistance had been heart-rending; it was a moment, he said,
he never could forget, but the darkness of the night and the violence of
the storm had rendered all attempts impossible. Not half an hour after
the wind had fallen in some degree for a short time, and a boat had put
off from the shore; some of the passengers had taken advantage of this,
and had left the vessel; but it seemed to him as if no boat could live
in such a sea, and he had, after some hesitation, resolved to abide by
the ship.
Leila listened in breathless agitation. “And Peggy, papa, and Dash? did
he say nothing of them?”
“He spoke of Dash, my love, with much regret; he said he was a most
noble animal. He seemed not to be aware to whom it belonged.”
Leila sighed heavily. “A most noble animal; yes, he was noble, every
body loved Dash.” Then taking her papa’s hand, she looked anxiously up
in his face, and said, “Dash could swim so well; do you think, papa,
there is any----” She stopped.
“Any hope, you would say, my love; I fear, Leila, we must not trust to
it, but the same idea struck me, and before I left town I wrote an
advertisement, fully describing Dash, and giving our address; and this I
sent to the ‘Times’ newspaper office.”
“Oh, thank you, thank you, dear papa,” and she hastily walked to the
window and looked out. She was determined not again to give way.
Leila’s naturally buoyant spirits did not long remain much depressed;
still the sudden shock, after all her bright anticipations, had been so
great, that it left evident traces in her appearance, and when any
accidental circumstance recalled the late events, a pang of such acute
sorrow shot through her frame as it greatly pained Mr. Howard to
witness, and he was not sorry that neither Mr. and Mrs. Herbert nor the
Selbys had accepted his invitation for Christmas; the Selbys had a
family party that day, and the Herberts were on a tour of visits; both
parties, however, promised to be at Woodlands soon after Christmas, and
Mr. Herbert added, that if Mr. Howard would allow him, he would be glad
to introduce to him his son, who would be at home for the holidays.
Christmas-day, therefore, would be spent in a manner more congenial to
the tone of their present feelings; and Mr. Howard arranged that they
should not remove to Woodlands till a few days before, when Leila could
have the comfort of having her uncle and aunt and her cousins with her.
The meeting with her pets again had been very trying to Leila, and still
more so was her first visit to Peggy Dobie’s cottage; Susan, Bill’s
wife, had been employed to take charge of her pets for the present, till
some one could be found to fill the situation, and the cottage had
continued locked up. Matilda had in vain tried to dissuade Leila from
making this visit, but she said she felt sure she would feel better when
it was over, and she thought of it so much; and Selina seemed to be of
the same opinion. It appeared as yesterday when she had been there
before, but with what different feelings! there stood the glass with the
withered flowers, on the little table, and the wood-ashes lay cold upon
the hearth. Leila gazed earnestly on every object which before had given
her such delight; the tears ran silently down her cheeks, there was no
violent emotion. She turned Peggy’s own chair from the hearth, and
placed it against the wall, then left the cottage followed by Selina and
Matilda. She was certainly better after all this was over, yet there
were feelings which did not soon leave her; she could not help
remembering, with self-accusation, that her papa had only yielded to
Peggy’s removal to England in consequence of her entreaties; he had at
first represented to her that at Peggy’s time of life it were wiser to
leave her in her own country, and probably more for her happiness to do
so; but Leila had been carried away too much by her own wishes in this
instance to practise the lesson of self-sacrifice which her papa so
often inculcated; she now felt this deeply, and it was a lesson not lost
upon her.