153. “A TROUBLESOME LIFE.”

When I was married some forty to forty-five years ago, there was no

consideration as to the future conditions of wifehood and motherhood.

In business myself, after the death of my dear father, I married a

business man, widower with four children. I told him when I married I

would not come into the business; however, he gave me no rest until I

came back. I had to care for an invalid mother, that was why I longed

for a home again. I soon found out what a mistake I had made. I had

my children fast. One year and five months between, and one year and

seven months, and much about the same with five children. My husband

was exacting as regards his children, but careless of me. I had a very

happy childhood; my father was a good man, my mother a gentle creature.

I lost her, and then nervous debility set in through overstrain and

persecution. I lost a little girl from consumption of the bowels. I

was then a wreck. I began to recover for my children’s sake, but I

separated from my husband, and took my four children with me, and began

to make a living for myself. He provided 5s. a week for each child

whilst he remained in England. He went abroad, made money, left me to

struggle, and when he died, left me nothing; the money was willed to

each of his and my children. By that time there were only two of mine

left out of five, and four of his who received their full share. I have

had a troublesome life.

_In business; five children._

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